SS: Missing Love ~ THREAD 2 ~ Part 7 (01/07) - Page 18

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Khushi came straight home after meeting Lavanya. She was still messed up with her mind and heart and hoped she sorted it out soon before it actually consumes her strength. Garima was sitting there on Sofa waiting for her to arrive.

Garima: Where did you go early morning Khushi? You didnt even let me know.

Khushi: Sorry Mumma. Had some work . Thanks for Dropping Aarav to school.

Garima: I didnt drop him to school. Arnav did.

Khushi: What ? Arnav? He had time to drop his Son to school? Thats strange.

She sat beside her mother leaning her head back and closing her eyes. Even his name gave her goosebumps today remembering how close they actually got last night .

Garima : What are you hiding from me Khushi? What work you had that you didnt find it necessary to let anyone of us know where you leaving? I was worried.

Khushi: I am not a kid Mumma. I know I should have told you but I was in a hurry. And I am fine now. Trust me.

Garima: No I cant trust you because I am your mother and I can read your face. Khushi is it because of the demand Aarav made last night ?Or did Arnav talk to you anything else on that matter?

Talk ? Does her mother think they can even talk on that matter? She couldnt deny how eager she was to take out all her frustration on him one day but she knew it was impossible. He will never have time for that.

Garima: Speak something Khushi.

Khushi: When is he leaving ?

Garima: Dont be so rude. Dont forget we shared something with him before. Stop running away from each other Khushi. At least for Aarav's sake. Poor baby is getting pissed between his divorced parents. Do you even realise Aarav was searching you to apolozise when he woke up. He was sorry for demanding a sister . Arnav might have explained him this aint possible for some XYZ reason and Aarav being innocent understood his father's words. He was missing you Khushi. Seems last night you didnt sleep with Aarav.

Khushi: How could I sleep with Aarav when his father was next to him? I am no longer his wife Mumma. Did you forget?

Garima: No I remember it. But cant you just pay little more attention towards your Son especially when his father is around .He thinks you both are acting to be good .He has started feeling that there is a major fight between you both which has made you stay away from Arnav for so long months.

Khushi: If he thinks that way then I guess we should tell him the truth Mumma. He has to know his father and mother are no more a couple.

Garima: God's sake Khushi. Dont do this. He will break down. I cant see him like that.

Khushi was in tears too but she controlled.

Khushi: So cant I Mumma. But its better if he knows it now than later. I think this is the right time. Arnav is here and so am I. Aarav has to accept the reality now.

Garima had no reply. She picked her laptop from the table.

Garima : I dont know. Decide with Arnav and do what you both want. Aarav is your son. You both know it better to deal with him. I am going to Office .

Khushi: I will come in sometime.

Garima: No you wont Khushi. Be at home. Arnav wont feel nice if none of us stay here with him.

Khushi: So? You expect me to cook for him, feed him like a wife?

Garima: As your Guest Khushi. I am not expecting more, I suppose.

Garima left whereas Khushi once again couldnt stop sighing at her mother's demands. Why cant her mother understand how difficult it was to face her divorced husband.?

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Arnav was out half of the day after dropping Aarav to school and when he returned back home, he saw Khushi in the kitchen talking over the phone to Akash in the Kitchen while she cooked Paratha's.

Khushi: Aki stop making those sounds . I get irritated.

Arnav got inside but the jealousy inside him was brewing high which he wanted to cool down drinking the cold water from the refrigerator. He purposely was wasting his time there so that she notices him and he could also hear a bit more of her conversation. She had seen him though but she didnt react.

Khushi: No need. Just send the papers. I will sign them . And yes I remember what day is tomorrow. I am not like you. I will come. Happy? Now bye.

She cut the call and kept on frying the parathas. There was so much of distance between them yet both felt it extremely difficult to breathe in the same room.

Arnav: Where were you today morning?

He asked very possessively.

Khushi: You care? I dont think so.

She started taking out plate to keep the parathas. He came there and turned her around.

Arnav: Give me a straight reply Khushi. Aarav wanted to be with you. Is this how you treat your Son?

Khushi: You better dont teach me that Arnav. I have seen how much you cared for him all these years.

Arnav: I know that but its not my mistake. I was ready to take Aarav's full responsibility. You denied and I didnt argue because a child stays happy with his mother than a father . I believed that.

Khushi didnt speak anything and lowered her eyes but he pulled her chin up making her meet his eyes again.

Arnav: Akash se milne gayi thi? To discuss how much you repent for last nights moments?

Khushi: What? Akash? You think I went to meet Akash? How sick of you Arnav.

She pushed him behind in anger for thinking to this level.

Khushi: I had been to meet Lavanya. I dont know if you remember her because you hardly cared about my side of people. You never even bothered to know who my friends are Arnav. I had been to meet Lavanya Kshyap.

Arnav: You got to be kidding me Khushi. You went to Lavanya and shared what happened between us?

Khushi: Yes I did. And I dont have to answer you Why Arnav. Please stop expecting such replies from me. You never wanted any explanations before then why now? You never had time for me and my talks when we were married then why do you expect me to share my feelings with you this time? If you would have shown the same concern before, we would never have divorced.

Arnav: The decision of Divorce was completely Yours. I never wanted it.

Khushi: I know you never wanted it. But what did you expect me to do? Just keep waiting the whole day with a baby bump for my husband to come and show some love to me and our would be child? Or help you in counting the time when we made love so that you can finish it off soon and get back to work? I was tired Arnav. I was tired of getting such a superficial love from the man I loved the most, from the man whom I wished should show some understanding towards my needs too keeping his expectations apart .But it never happened. I kept on waiting waiting and waiting and you never turned up to me . Then why now? After 5 years you remembered you had a wife and came here to her place in the pretext of work?

Her questions pierced his heart and he had no answers to anyone of them. Today he could actually feel what she went through when they were a couple and he was only behind materialistic things, considering his wife and her love as secondary .Khushi's eyes teared which he wished to wipe off but he didnt had that courage now .He felt almost dejected seeing her state of mind because he knew he was the only one responsible for it. Without giving her any replies, he walked out of the room leaving her alone.

Shutting his bedroom door, he leaned behind closing his eyes. He had messed up everything. He couldnt be a good husband nor a good father. Khushi was right . What was the use of coming back now? EVerything was over between them. His mistakes were too high and irrevocable now to ammend. Wished he had realised it a bit earlier. Since the time Khushi and he got divorced, he always missed her in his luxurious house, he missed her cooking, her warmth on his bed , her innocent wishes and her sketches which were still somewhere in his Closet. He missed everything that was related to her but his Ego was very high those days .She was the one who stepped for the Divorce and he never wanted to stop her .He cannot force anyone to stay with him. His way of expressing and sharing his love might be different and very opposite to what it should be, but the truth was, he did care for her all the time. He could neve express it though. Their child was born and he felt the proudest father by then. He dreamed high for giving the best to his Son. All the needed comfort, luxury and everything that could make his life secure. He kept on working high. Deals after Deals, kept him busy from remembering his Ex wife and Kid Aarav until one day, after long 5 years he met his Old friend Aman.

Meeting Aman he realised what he was missing and needed in his life. When he saw Aman happily dancing with his Wife , sharing a drink with her , hugging her ,cuddling her when she was embarrased as the Guest praised them , he missed that one important person in his life. His Ex Wife Khushi. He started realising how wrong he was to never make her accompany him in such parties. He always thought that would make him concentrate less on his Official people. But even if this was true, so what? Wasnt his wife Everything for him? He felt a stab in his heart when Aman told him how much he missed his daughter if she goes to stay with her Grandma in the vacations. Arnav was touched knowing he waits for months to hear "Dad" from his own son. The father in him started becoming weaker as he started understanding how important role a father plays in a Son's life. How could he ignore all this for earning money for them? It was not Money their ultimate need. It was LOVE that his wife Khushi and Son Aarav needed which he never gave them properly. That instance he decided. He will fight the odds in his life and try to win them back. Ignoring his million dollar deals, and taking a long vacation of One week which he never did in the past 5 years, he came to Lucknow in the pretext of some work and planned to stay with Khushi and Aarav.

But today when he saw Khushi's tears and her confrontation how she felt when they were together, he was hurt and felt like stabbing himself for giving so much pain to her all these years.

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