forgive me anon... i hv way too much to say.. n since everythg is too jumbled up in my head.. it might even nt b very clear... bt i m hoping u wd understand...
i wud start with rishabh... since the chapter starts with him..
i m hoping u do remember.. tht i hv always tried to understand his situation, always tuk him to b a gd human.. with just positive concern fr his frnd / love ... her wellbeing at the centre of everythg.
even if it meant tht her happiness is nt with him, tht her happiness comes at a cost of his.. he wud still want her to stay happy.
i m very sad.. bt it seems i was over-expecting frm him
i seriously no longer want any rish or rija..
though yes... we can talk abt a benefit of doubt fr him.. bt then i personally hold too much value to khushi's judgement.. n if she thot so, then i believe her..
fr once he seems like a total loser... i disliked akash frm MKM-1, bt rishabh.. i clearly hate.. i wanted rishabh to move on.. bt nw.. i want him to stay n see arnav-khushi mend thgs between them... he serisouly deserves to see tht he cudnt break them apart.
i mean he claims to b her love... her best frnd... he doesnt even deserve to b her acquaintance...
wht was khushi's fault... tht she was too positive fr her own gd.. she believed tht ppl r all gd, n wudnt hurt another knwingly... if only she knew better, she wud hv listened to arnav n kept away frm rishabh.
n rishabh.. he used her gd nature against her.
worst is... he clearly knws tht whether arnav khushi seperate or nt, she is definitely nt going to come to him.. so he knws tht this entire episode is nt going to benefit him anyways... yet ... 😡
even if i assume tht he didnt do it on purpose, tht he didnt provoke her to say all tht with an intend to hurt arnav, then too the entire thg had no meaning.. he clearly knws she is nt giving him any chance.
n seriously.. even after her marriage, he was expecting tht she might reconsider him??? how stupid cud he b.. i understand tht love mks one change, bt this ways... its really sad..
coming to khushi... in no way did she deserve this.. she had no bad intend fr nt telling arnav abt things.. she didnt tell abt rishabh being her crush, coz fr sure arnav cudnt understand.
she didnt tell abt knwing abt his mom, coz she clearly didnt want him to relive the pain, especially whn he had been very clear abt nt discussing this with her.. or anyone fr tht matter.
her only fault probably was tht she loved him to the pt of trying to do anythg n everythg needed to mk sure tht he is happy, content, n if possible he finds it all with her.
unlike rishabh, i m sure khushi wud hv clearly walked out of his life... if she were sure tht wud mk his life better... without a thot..
there was a comment mentioning tht khushi might hv accident.. n i askd u to keep her safe... as much as possible.. bt its clear she is very very badly hurt...
n this can end up in arnav going either side... like i was discussing with bindu... he cud try n go away frm her, owing all everythg n his feeling tht he is the cause fr her accident... or he might get too protective fr her, seeing her all hurt.
i wud hold on to the hope tht a family member falling seriously ill tends to get his posssessiveness out... as whn sumer was sick..
i soo soo wish n hope tht this time too he gets closer to khushi...
n finally coming to arnav..
i thot tht i might b the only arnav defender nw... bt shruti n bindu have extended their support 😉
i dont knw how this sounds... bt i can still see y n how he feels..
frm his pov.. whn he was trying to prove himself worth khushi's love.. he comes to knw tht the entire love thg might actually b khushi tking sympathising with his life, with him...
whn he tries to beleive n trust her love fr him, her dedication fr him... whn fr the second time, he tries to keep faith n come unannounced to her office... he again has to face a scene, tht is surely nt gd.. he has to listen to his wife once being in love with rishabh..
he comes to knw tht she knws abt his life, abt his mom... n he has no clue abt tht either...
i m nt justifying him pushing khushi... bt anyone in his position wud hv felt hurt n cheated...
though again... it wasnt khushi's fault atall... she cud nt hv disclosed it to arnav given the way thgs hd been between them...
fr the first time... i actually pity him... y does this man hv to face soo much heartache in one life... he deserves a little ease in life... a little peace.. i wish he n khushi cud go away frm al this... n spend some happy moments like they did in dubai.. they both seriously deserve some peace in life..
i hd almost planned to kill arnav fr hurting khushi... bt rt nw. i feel like killing rishabh... fr ruining everythg fr them.. n in all probability.. doing it with full knowledge of wht the implications might b.
Edited by tanu3579 - 11 years ago
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