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it was so cute and the last part of it i was waiting for his confession as i am dissappointed by D3 ...we could not get a single swaron scene...and your ss was too good pls continue it as fast as possible 😃

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both swayam and sharon pov was well written
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Part Four

Swayam was taken aback by this gesture of hers. He was surprised at her action..or in her words, reflex.

The kiss didn't last long. Only for a second or so, as a matter of fact. Sharon pulled back soon after she realized that he was not really interested in responding back. Also, she didn't really wish to sustain the kiss that long, since they were not really on good terms. She had to mend it. She had to mend their broken relationship.

Swayam didn't reply. He was too surprised for words...pleasantly surprised. Out of nowhere, she kissed him. He wasn't even expecting a hug from her side, let alone a kiss. And that too on lips, what was happening? He didn't want to think. But leaving aside everything, he managed to blurt a couple of words out.

"What..what was that?" He asked her, still shocked.

"What do you think it was?" Sharon asked, calmly. She smiled a bit, happy that he hadn't left after the kiss.

"Don't roam in circles Sharon." He said, recollecting that he had to act curt with her. "Why did you kiss me?"

"According to me, a kiss is the most passionate way of showing that you love someone. And I love you. That's why I kissed you. It wasn't surprising for me. I was in my senses when I did that."

Swayam flinched a bit. Was she going way too far? He was feeling skeptical of himself..of his decision..All that she was doing, since so long, and now this. Kiss? Seriously? Swayam was beginning to feel unsure of himself, he knew her very well but he had made a clear picture of her not loving him.. But after this gesture of hers? One possibly can't kiss someone else out of mere liking or friendship.. Or was she just pretending? No she didn't. He still felt very unsure. No, not because of the fact that she had kissed him, but because he at once had flashes of all those times she made him feel special, she made him feel so loved, she did stuff to make her love prominent. It wasn't out of liking, or infatuation or anything else. Maybe it was pure love, that she felt for him.. But then the fact that she had rejected his love in front of the some people made him think otherwise. . Once or twice, rejecting his love privately and not in front of the college was one thing. It didn't matter much to him..but rejecting his love in front of the college made him feel betrayed. Just so helpless. He wasn't sure of giving his love another chance.

He stood silent as his train of thoughts came to a halt by her words, that were like music to his ears.

"Swayam now please don't stretch all this.. I know you were hurt and that's why I didn't even try forcing myself on you after all that happened...but now me, and you both of us know that you are stretching it a bit too far. Swayam, come on, why don't you acknowledge the fact that I'm doing so much for you? Not for anyone else. I know you love me and you know I love you so what's stopping you? Love made me strong. Your love made me give up my inhibitions and dance again..your love made me more tolerant.. I don't understand why you shouldn't give us a chance again."

Swayam was at a loss of words all this while. He didn't know what to say. He couldn't stand another heartbreak. Not at all. Why did love hurt so much? The expression on his face, changed momentarily, something which she noticed and it made her realize that every inch of his body wanted to accept her, but there was some power which did not let him do so. He was just a bit scared, she reckoned. She knew she was going to cure his fear soon. She, internally said it with conviction, that she was not going to let him suffer another heartbreak. She just wanted a chance.

"I lost you Sharon. Long time back. I don't think we are meant to be." He turned to leave, still upset over the fact that he was hurting her in some way or the other time and again. But he believed, that it was better for both of them.

Lost you. These words ringed in her ears as she felt a lone tear escaping her eyes . No he didn't notice it, but she really felt numb when he said that. Did he really feel so? No.. No he hadn't lost her. Destiny had brought them closer and if destiny wanted, she wouldn't have fallen for him and he would have moved on. But she did fall for him and he didn't move on. Both loved each other so dearly and he was saying he had lost her?

She sniffled. He wasn't looking at her. "You really think so?" She asked as her tone turned a bit vulnerable.

"I know so Sharon." He said. "That's why you rejected me that day, in front of the college." He noticed the change of tone. He realized that maybe he shouldn't have said that and just walked away.

There he goes. He was still not over the mishap. Somewhere she had expected such a kind of behavior from him, but why couldn't he just forgive her? She did think from his point of view as well and there was absolutely no reason as to why he shouldn't have forgiven her. He was very well aware that she loved him so much and somewhere maybe he was upset at not acknowledging her efforts to get him back. Why was he doing this?

She didn't cry. She stayed calm and continued speaking.

"Swayam if you are capable enough of reading me so well then why don't you understand that whatever I did that day was so not me! When I said that we weren't in a relationship I was not in my senses. You were the one insulting me by not acknowledging my gifts.. I was just pissed off. I was angry at you because all this while I was thinking that my gifts for you were being mistook for some secret admirer's gifts for Rey. Those gifts and the letters attached to them were meant for you and I was hurt when you didn't acknowledge them. I know your point of view is completely justified but knowing myself, you know me more than I do...it was just not possible for me to remain in my senses then. I was confused. And do you really think I'll knowingly reject your love in front of everyone? Really? I was the one who wanted everyone to know about us."

Swayam stood still. He didn't look at her. Somewhere he managed to understand that she was irritated that day and maybe she couldn't think properly, but that day he underwent a major heartbrea, because of her so called reflex. His heart didn't want to move on from her but couldn't suffer another break again. Maybe she was right in her persepctive and he had to agree that whenever he looked into her eyes, he could see love in them, love for him. He could see intensity, pain, longing in her eyes. Every possible emotion that he wanted to see in them since so long. He did see them in her eyes. It was the truth, but still, he was afraid, afraid of a heartbreak. He knew he was misinterpreting her, but he had no choice, after all the past experiences of her drifting apart from him, he was not ready to give them another chance. Not exactly, he was slowly getting her point and realizing that forgiving her was the best thing he could do. Ups and downs were important in a relationship. And if she publicly denied his love, he was doing many things to cover up for it as well. Some things which actually made him come to a conclusion that she genuinely cared for him a lot. But, really?

"You don't love me Sharon." He said, as her heart broke into a few more million pieces. How could he even say that? All those moments spent with him were not out of love? Every time she said that she loved him was not out of love? She needed an answer. He had presumed her love to be something else but she knew it was love. She hadn't felt this way for anyone else. She had liked many people but love...only Swayam. She loved Swayam more than her life. She valued Swayam more than the most precious jewels in the world. She needed him like a body needed oxygen to breath.

Another lone tear escaped her eyes. She quickly wiped it as he looked at her.

"You don't love me." He repeated, as he was close to tears. Somewhere he felt like that, but he was afraid of accepting it. He wanted her to remain happy, but somewhere he knew he was at fault because of thinking like that. Presuming that.. maybe she had a different say.

She was naturally exasperated, but she chose to handle the situation calmly. "What makes you think that?" She said before her tone went up a notch.

"You rejected my love in front of the whole college. I don't believe...you love me." He hesitated as he said the last three words. Something told him that he was doubting his capability of making her fall in love with him. Presuming such a statement wasn't really right on his part..something told him that she did love him a lot. And well, he had herself seen it in her eyes, but his mind, ARGH.

"Are you out of your mind Swayam? You say that you know me in and out but you can't realize that I love you? You can't realize that whatever I'm doing is for you is out of love. You can't realize that yes I'm selfish.. I'm selfish for you. I just can't see you with anyone else. I haven't felt like this for anyone else Swayam.. only for you..I can't believe I drove you to thinking like that. " She was full of rage, and on the verge of breaking down. She cupped her face as silent tears started making their way out of her eyes.

He didn't look at her. He was feeling weird, guilty, so much of confusion going on where on one hand his heart was having a feeling to give her another chance but was afraid of another heartbreak, his mind told him to follow his will. Sharon Rai Prakash was still the same soft person from inside, and slowly her soft side was coming out, being revealed to many. Was she really realizing her mistake? Was she really sorry? Did she really love him? Swayam didn't know have the answer.

Okay, honest thing, I don't think this part came out that well, I'm sorry. Really very sorry. This might have been a bit coherent, but I'd love it if you guys leave your feedback :) criticism, if any. :) Thank you for all the comments. One more chapter to go. :)

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