Arshi: Before It Is Too Late(Part- 37 Last Part pg 50) 19/7/2014 - Page 18

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Part- 27

KHUSHIII!!!! ...

Arnav springs up from his sleep. Profusely sweating in chilled AC.
He spreads his shivering hand to get the glass of water from the bed stand near and drinks it full.
This now is the story of all nights since Khushi's fall or sacrifice.
2 months have passed and Arnav is still living in that night, in that terror...

That night after the act there was a long silence till they got rescued by the tourists passing by in a bus. They called the police and police called the ambulance and the search party.

Arnav sat with a thud on his knees by the tranche and cried hard... KHUSHIII!!
Payel almost lost her voice.
Garima fainted on Shashi's lap and Sashi was only hitting his forehead for not been able to save his child.
Buaji and Nani were crying hard.
Mami was muttering something inaudible, like insane. Mamaji was no better.
Anjali was shell shocked and shivering like a leaf in heavy wind. Shyam was holding Ayush in his arms and trying to console her but from his voice it was evident that he had no words to do so.
Akash just sat with Payel with a blank look, in head thinking how their life has turned in a moment. He still could see a smiling Khushi before his eyes, who was his friend first and then Bhabi.

Yes... Was... Because after almost 2 hours effort also the search party was unable to find any trace of Her. The darkness was another reason for their failure. So they came up saying they would try and search for the body in day light.
Hearing this Arnav caught the collar of the person who said so and said furiously, "How dare you? How dare you to call my Khushi a body? She is Mrs. Arnav Singh Raizada. And you have to find her alive. Do you get that?"
Akash and Shyam took Arnav back and the man left after saying sorry in understanding.

Next morning they looked and looked over but didn't find anything, neither Khushi nor her body.
Everyone accepted her dead... lost forever.

Arnav comes out by the poolside and sits on the recliner looking up on the sky, in search of Khushi.
Like she has told, the dead people become stars; Arnav cannot find a suitable bright star like her, till now.
This is how his nights pass time after Khushi. She has taken his sleep with her. After a hectic day he only falls asleep to wake up by her haunting memories and then he comes here by the pool which used to be her best spot in whole mansion, to indulge him in her favorite hobby, watching the stars
He still can feel her presence in every corner of his life.

Night pass and next morning...

Aman when did you became so dumb?
When I have asked you do get that plot vacant in a week then do it damn it.
===============AMAN=============
I don't give a damn to what they are saying. It is my plot and I want to see my company's board on it in 7 days. Do you get that?
===============AMAN=============
What the...? I don't care about these foolish emotions... I have paid enough prices for that piece of land to their son and bought it legally now I don't want any more fuss...they have to leave earliest possible or I have other ways, you know.
==============AMAN=============
Better you got it and one more thing... you are working long with ASR and by this time you should have stopped becoming emotional fool. Now accomplish the job and give positive results.

Arnav throws the phone on bed in anger and Anjali steps in the room.
She has been listening Arnav's one-sided talk but she knows what is it all about.
Anjali gives the juice she has brought for her to him and says, Chottey tum itna gussa keu ho rahe ho? Wo log bujarg hai. Unke bte ne dhoke se tumhe unka Zammen bache diya hai to unke kya kasoor? Unke yaadein juri hui hai us zameen se... (Why are you so angry Chottey? They are old. Their son has sold you that land without their knowledge. It is not their fault. They have memories with that land...)
Arnav gives a cold look to her before saying, I don't care Di. I have paid for that land to build my new branch and I want to start it in a week and they have to go.
Anjali sighs and makes him sit on the bed and seats beside him, Chottey mujhe pata tha ASR tumhare ek mukhowta hai apne andar ke Arnav ko chupane ke liye lekin mujhe pata hi nehi chala tum kab sach me ASR ban gaye? (Chottey I knew that ASR is a mask to hide Arnav in you but I don't know when that mask became your real face...)
Arnav now controls the waved of emotions inside him and springs up from his seat. He looks away and says, Di I am getting late, I should go.
He tries to grab his jacket when Anjali stops him, ruko Chottey. (STOP!!)
Arnav can hear that it is an order not request so he stops and looks at her. He is having a tough time to hold himself together before her and not break down completely.
Anjali stands before him and looks straight in his eyes as she says, You don't believe in emotions but the person for whom you are doing all these she did.
His inner turmoil makes him furious and he says aloud, Believe... she didn't believe me. She didn't believe that I can save her. She didn't. Why should I believe on her beliefs? No I don't care...
Anjali sighs closing her eyes. It pains to see her little brother in pain but it pains more to see him burning inside but not sharing his grief. He is accusing Khushi just to console his helplessness and failure.
So she says, Arnav you have to accept the reality what Khushi knew that day. It was near to impossible and your effort could have taken all of us down and She saved us and you in exchange of her life. Don't let her sacrifice to go waste.
Sacrifice or suicide... Arnav spits in a low voice, audible for Anjali.
He leaves before without waiting for a reply from her.

Arnav speeds his car breaking all the traffic rules known in the rule book. The tears he has controlled in front of Anjali now burst out breaking all damn dam of his self-control.
He drives and drives and comes to a screeching halt reaching an open and lonely place outskirt of Delhi.
He comes out of the car banging the door behind.
He closes his eyes to let go of the last drop of tear in his eye and fists his hand tighter reminiscing the good and bad moments with Khushi. He shots open his eyes with the last vision of her falling and screams, he screams to unleash the pain, he screams unable to bear the hurt, he screams in anguish... He screams her name.
KHUSHIII!!!!!!!!!! and drops on his knees on the rocky ground.
He cries and cries hard saying in between his sobs, Khushi why? Why did you do this? Why? Didn't you know that I love you? Why didn't you give me a chance to tell you once that I love you? Do you hear now I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! Didn't you know I won't be alive after you? Khushiii, he weeps until his voice gives up.

Arnav storms in the office sending making all employees tremble in their seats.

He will stay in here as long as possible, keeping him busy to keep shortest time for Khushi's memories.
Now days Akash and Mamaji also get scared to see his blood shot eyes at times.
Aman is becoming a heart patient with his anger and roar increasing day by day which he has to face as his PA.


At home he tries to keep his calm but HP and OP sometimes gets the taste of the lava but that is rare. He keeps him isolated as much possible. But he never lacks in his duties and responsibilities, even for Gupta's. Only person he lets come near is Anjali and only person he goes near is Ayush.
Once a day he will sit with Ayush, if is he is sleeping then he will admire the life for which Khushi has cared more than anything and if he is awake then he will enjoy his antics, like throwing his trembling hands and legs, his giggle, the sounds he makes. This is the only time he feels a little relaxed. This is the only time he sits with others in family and talks a little.
But he cannot be blamed alone as the others are also still struggling to get in terms with the reality that their Khushi is gone not to come back again. The only difference is that they are trying to lead a normal life accepting the truth whereas Arnav not.

At night Anjali is crossing Arnav's room and stops seeing the door little ajar of his room. She peeps in only to find him standing in front of the cupboard holding the sliding door. His eyes are fixed on Khushi's clothes which are still there. He is caressing each clothes feeling her warmth in them.
Anjali swallows the lamp in her throat and leaves from there.

Next day Anjali doesn't go office and when Arnav leaves the house she goes to his room.
Last night she has decided to remove the clothes and every memory of Khushi form his room though she knows she can't take the memories away from his mind but this might help him to come back in normal flow of life.
She starts with her photos and accessories here and there.
Nani and Mami see her and come in the room.
Nani, Bitiya ye ka karat ho? (What are you doing?)
Anjai, Nani chottey ko Khushi ki yaadon se nikal na jaruri hai , nehi to wo phir kabhi ji nehi payega... (Nani it is time we take Chottey out of Khushi's memory, otherwise he will not be able to live.)
Nani, Par bitiya wo bouhot gussa ho jayenge. (But he will be very angry.)
Mami, Hello hai bye bye... Sasuma thik kah rahi hai Anjali bitiya. (Sasuma is right.)
Anjali. Hum jante hai par muje koshish kar ne dijiye Mami. Main apne Chottey ko phirse andhere me khote nehi dekh sakti. Khushi ke koshisho ko main harne nehi de sakti. Usne hum sab ko jine ka ek aur mauka diya tha jo main Chotey ko khone nehi de sakti. (I know Mami but let me try Mami. I can't let my Chottey move into the same darkness again. I can't fail Khushi's effort like this. She has given us a chance to live and I can't let him lose it.)
Nani, Thik hai Bitiya tum karo jo tumhe thik lage. (Okay you do what you think right.)
They leave and Anjali again starts packing Khushi's things with tears in her eyes.
and at the Same time Arnav walks in the mansion.

Anjali takes out the clothes and starts folding them to keep in bag.
Here Arnav walks in the living room making Nani and Mami shocked and scared. Payel who has been coming out of the kitchen with a cup of tea on a tray in her hands stumbles a little spilling some tea from the cup and all of them only thinks of what Anjali is doing in his room. But Arnav hasn't seen any of their reaction and straight walks in his study. They all sigh in relief but Mami asks Payel to inform Anjali so she doesn't get caught red handed.

Anjali is done with the clothes by the time and now she looks around for the last time to see if anything is left in the cupboard.

She is about to close the sliding door when her eyes falls on a cotton bag which she hasn't seen before. She knows it has to be Khushi's and takes out the bag. Arnav wouldn't have seen it before as it has been kept behind her clothes which he never moved from there place.

Anjali sees every contents of the bag inside now removed on bed.

An affectionate smile appears on her face.

A small idol of Devi mayiaa, an album of her childhood which has photos of her real parents and also Shashi, Garima and Payel with her. A few photos are kept loose which have been taken before and after her marriage in this house and also of Ayush.
A box (contains her stars), a doll (form her childhood) and a pair of hand maid woolen shocks and a sweater, she might have made for Ayush but didn't get a chance to give him.
A lone tear escapes from Anjali's eyes when she touches those. And last there is a diary and in the first page its is written kuch batain humare dil ki'. (From my heart)

So it is her Personal Diary... Anjali opens it with curiosity, to know the unknown about her.

Here in Study:
Arnav is been searching for a very important file which he has kept a long back and now cannot find anywhere.
He thinks hard and remembers that he has given the file to Khushi to keep the day before that cursed day.
He closes his eyes and swallows the pain and opens them thinking that it might be in her cabinet she used in this study. He never opened it before and or after her but today he has to. He walks to that particular cabinet.

In Arnav's room:
Anjali is going through the pages in the diary, a lingering smile plastered on her face thinking how beautifully Khushi has written her thoughts in here. She turns another page and as she reads hersmile vanishes as her body stiffens.

Study:
Arnav opens the cabinet and finds many things there. Her finished and unfinished designs, her files, even few of his files are also there as he used to give her to keep. Few fabric samples and her work regarding Ayushman project that Khushi and Shyam have announce with Ayush's birth and Many more important and unimportant things, but Arnav's eyes are searching for his file. He just wants to get it and close this chest of her memories as soon as possible. He hurriedly runs his hands over every file causing them falling from there place much to his annoyance.

Arnav's room:
Anjali's face is flooding with tears but she is continuously wiping them as they are blurring her vision. She is pacing, sitting, standing while reading the diary and with the last page she sits with a thud on the floor, clutching the diary in both hands near her bosom.

Study:
Arnav is trying to put the files in there places. Suddenly his eyes fall on a file and he stares at it for few moment. He knows this file which he has given to Khushi to sign, the renewed contract but she has never returned it after signing and Arnav never bothered to ask it back... He was sure of her loyalty to him.

Anjali leaves Arnav's room like a storm and strides to the study as HP has informed her that Arnav is in there.

Study:
Arnav picks up the file and brings it up before his eyes. A lone tear escapes. Unknowingly he opens it and his eyes grow wider with every second as he scans the file.

The file slips form his hand when Anjali steps in the room throwing the doors open and banging them shut behind her.

Anjali is fuming but Arnav is not in a state of noticing anything around. He hasn't even heard the loud bang of her closing the door.

Shock will be an understatement to describe his condition. His gaze is fixed on the file lying on the floor now.

Anjali follows his eyes and sees the file and picks it up before Arnav can stop her, if he can...

Anjali opens the file and reads the heading and a sarcastic lopsided smile appears on her face as she says aloud, SHE NEVER SIGNED IT. You might be a rich man Mr. Arnav Singh Raizada but not that rich to buy KHUSHI twice. She was too precious...

Arnav only stares at her. Her words are stabbing his already wounded heart and soul.

Anjali throws the file on his face and drops on her knees, crying bitterly.

Arnav comes to his senses with the contact of the hard binding with his face and sees his Di' breaking down near his feet and he hurriedly sits beside her.

He holds her shoulder and begs, I am sorry Di... I am really SORRY.

Anjali now stares at him with anger and pain in her eyes. She removes his hands from her shoulder scaring Armav and stands on her feet making him follow her action.

Anjali, composed as she says in a cold voice, Chottey, Do you remember once I have told you I have forgiven you for you every mistakes you did and will do in future as I am your mother too and responsible for all of your act. Here I am definitely responsible and it hurts more. (Arnav stares at her with eyes full of pain and regret) One more thing I have told you that day, (she wipes her tears)you should know the consequences of your acts, otherwise, by the time you realize that the person whom you have hurt is important to you, it might be too late. You were confident that day but what happened now. (She smiles ruefully)... The person whom you should ask for forgiveness for your sins was not me that day and not today too but you are late to understand that. (She sighs and takes his right hand in hers and gives him the diary) It hers. Read this and you will know what have you done to a girl without any fault of hers.

She turns and takes a few steps to leave but turns back again as she says, I now know why you thought that she committed suicide but you should know she was too strong to lose herself like that and she has proven it by her sacrifice.
with that Anjali leaves the study.

Arnav sits on the ground forgetting everything in the world and opens the diary. The first page he opens is a 10 months old entry and a poem is written on the page...

Kyun khawaabon pe tere saaye hain?
Dil kyun hai tanha mera?
kyun khaamoshi hain jubaan meri,
Askon se keh paaun na?
Keun dard hai itna,
Tere ishq me?
kyun nazre teri yun anjan hai
Akhe hai mere bhi nam
kyun pa kar bhi tumko khoya hai?
hum keu na ban paye hum?
Keun dard hai itna,
Tere ishq me?

Tears start flowing from his eyes... She loved him... If he would have known...She loved him, all along

Lovely update and touching too!

I am speechless. Please tell me Khushi is somewhere safe and sound. This can't be happening. It was a heart wrenching update. Very well written chapter. Thanks for the PM

That was heart wretching

Loved every bit... Very emotional and well written.

Thanks

when khushi will be back
good that anji came to know what her brother did to poor khushi