Swaron OS Winning my love back( current track)

"You don't love me Sharon"

"Ek baar bhi nahi socha ki jisse tum chahti ho...sorry...chup chup ke chahne ki game karthi thi"

" Ek weakling hu...tumhare life ka mazak hu...apne life ka mazak hu"

Sharon kept walking aimlessly on the road .Tears didn't even take the name of stopping ...what has she thought...what did she do... her one reflex action has turned her life upside down...chilling wind has diverted attention from her thoughts...and for the first time she has noticed the road...the same road where they used to spend lot of time... walking aimlessly...talking about all the rubbish things...cycle rides...their sweet nothings...

She just noticed how the road was deserted and empty which reminded her of her life...how her entire world took a U turn with the incident which has occurred in the college...

"Agar tum mujhse pyar karthi tho tumne woh nahi kiya hota jo tumne college mein ki"

"Mere pyar accept karne se ya tumhara image kharab hone se dar gayi thi"

How does she convince him? How can she make him believe that she loves him and he is her life ...these all things doesn't even matter to her...she didn't even know how she has reacted in anger and in fear...she has o explanation on why she did that...but all she knew was she just can't live without Swayam..he is her life...

"Sharon i don't want to force my love on you... meine kabhi ki nahi aur nahi karunga"

"Aisa kuch nahi hai Swayam im sorry...im..."

"Nahi Sharon...it too late...mujhe pyar ke naam pe meher baani nahi chahiye..."

"Swayam pls listen to me"

Sharon has never believed in the word "LOVE". Before Swayam entered her life.It is because she has never experienced the love of anyone before ...he mom has died even before she knew the world...her dad was always busy for giving her a better life...she always grew up amongst care centres and servants...she has never experienced the feeling of unconditional love...As she grew up she has faced a lot of problems with her behaviour...she was expressive with her feelings once up on a time but as she grew up she became a girl who hid her emotions behind the cover of anger...even her best friends didn't know her properly.

But Swayam has changed it all..he made her see ...and experience the beautiful world of love...she was scared that even he will leave him like everyone she has loved left her...so she refrained herself from falling in love for long...but it Swayam who stood by her...he did make her fall in love with him...long back...she fell for him long back even before she knew how much he mattered to her...she just kept denying all the while...finally when she has left all her inhibitions and was ready to go into depths of love...he has changed...he has left her...forever...the same person who made her believe that they were meant to be with eachother has lost belief in them

"Its time Sharon ki mein is fairy tale wala duniya se baahar aau.. and practical banu"

"Tum aur mein kabhi hum nahi ban sakte sharon"

"Mein aage bad na chahta hu...bina peeche mude... so...so...iam breaking up with u Sharon .."

Sharon felt that her world froze the moment Swayam said that he wanted to break up with her...She just couldn't speak or she could think anything...she just couldn't argue with him anymore...she didn't speak a thing...she just left from the house...walking aimlessly..

Sharon dropped to knees on the road and kept crying her heart out as she just had a flash of the conversation they had just sometime before...the fact that Swayam doesn't want to be with her anymore killed her from inside...she felt as if she is carrying a void in her heart...she kept crying coz thats all she could do for the damage she has done to their relationship

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Tanhaayi..

Mere sapne, mere waade, tere liye hain..
Mere dil ki har dharkan tere liye hai..
Tu zara sang chal to sahi
Kyoon ban gaye ho tum ajnabee..
O gar tham jaye dil mera
Kabhi dekhe pyaar se tu kabhi

Breaking up was not a easy thing for Swayam. Sharon...their relation was most precious things of his life...but he just couldn't take it anymore...the fact that she denied their relationship in front of everyone...made him go mad...she made him fell as if he was being used...he just couldn't listen to his heart anymore...he took this decision after thinking a lot...he felt this will be better for both of them atleast this way he will not be expecting anything from her neither will she...they are good being far...All the pain he has faced all these years made him do this...not this time...All the incidents made him feel that she never loved him at all

He himself thought of going to Sharon's place and tell her all this...but he was surprised to her at is doorstep ...acting normal and expressing her love and regret...but this time he couldn't feel anything... he was just feeling empty...she has hurt him too much that whatever Sharon said...was redirecting him to the same incident happened in the morning...

Finally he has kept his feelings infront of her and how he cannot do it anymore...he felt as if someone punched a hole as he felt expressionless as she was begging him for one more chance...and when finally he told her that he wanted to break up with her ...how she became numb and went off without saying a word...He dint want to but he couldn't help but follow her till the gate..he saw her walking aimlessly on road leaving the vehicle she got for herself...he was about to go and stop her...but this time dint want to show her that he is affected...he ran back and called Rey

Rey: Swayam ...kya hua

Swayam: woh ek favour chahiye tha

Rey: ha bolo

Swayam: kyat um ..kya tum Sharon ko uske ghar drop kar sakte ho...woh...woh...

Rey: its ok Swayam...i will kaha hai woh...

Swayam has explained the situation and asked him to drop her safely to her home...

Swayam: no matter what...y can't i stop loving you...y can't i

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Tanhaai-tanhaai phir aayi, phir aayi..
Aankhein meri teri yaadon se bhar aayin, bhar aayin..

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Rey sighed as he kept driving thinking of his both best friends...how things are going on...he was still angry on Sharon for making Swayam look like a loser infront of everyone...he was just confused if Sharon loved Swayam...he kept searching for her in the streets...finally he found her sitting on the road and crying ...his heart wrenched seeing her like this...he got out of the car and went near to her and bent down and tapped her shoulder...

The moment she turned Rey could see how she was in pain...Sharon hugged him tightly and kept crying...Rey tried to calm her...but she was in consolable...this was the first time he has seen her in such a state...she kept crying... seeing her like his got tears in Rey's eyes...he somehow made her stand and made her sit in car and he drove to her home...in pure silence...Rey got confused as he was not able to make any sense from the incidents happening recently...he has decided to talk with Sharon...

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Rey got two cups of coffee and sat next to Sharon as she sat silently staring at one of their pictures..

Rey: Sharon...

When Sharon didn't respond..he just kept the coffee mugs on table sat next to her...

Rey: i m really having a hard time trying to understand u Sharon...

Sharon turned to face Rey...

Rey: i really don't know what to say...tumne subah college mien jo kiya woh kyun kiya...im not able to understand...agar Swayam se itna pyar karti ho tho...y did u do all this...

Sharon: i dunno...i really dunno...mein...mein...ghabra gayi thi... maine apne gusse ko..apne emotions ko empower karne diya...but by the time i realised ..i i..have lost everything...sab kuch...sab kuch khatam ho gaya..

She kept crying...

Sharon: iam a loser...loser Rey... Swayam ko kaise hurt kiya maine...he was true...usse mijse gussa ho ne ka hare k wajah hai...i have hurt him so much ...so much ki...he just doesn't want to be with me ...he broke up with...he broke up with me...i have failed Rey...i can never be a good person rey...i can never be... all i know is hurting people...i deserve all this pain..i deserve more than this... this feeling is killing Rey...i dunno ki Swayam pehle isse kaise face kiya...i just feel like killing myself...i dunno... i just hate my self...i just...want

She kept throwing all the things in the room...she kept hurting herself...

Rey: Sharon stop it...sharon just calm down dammit...sharon...

Sharon sank down to floor..crying...

Sharon: Rey pls kuch karo...i cant live without him... i know i was wrong...bolo ki woh jo punishment dega i will bear...mein zindagi phir se aise glti nahi karungi...but i just cant stay away from him.. i just cant...

Rey: iSharon calm down...otherwise u will get an attack...calm down...

Rey: nd Sharon mere haath bandhe hue hai...i cant do anything now...Swayam ne mujhe promise li ki...i will not do anything to bring you guys closer...

Sharon: kya... ...

Rey: ha...and.

Sharon: Swayam hates me na Rey...

Rey: nahi Sharon...he doesn't...

Sharon: i m sure...i hurt him so bad that he...he hates me...god..

Rey: Sharon...swayam loves you...he will always love you only...he can never hate u...par..yeh sab hua uske baad...i dunno if he will ever trust you again...

Sharon: its all my fault...its all my fault...

Rey: tho isse tumhi sudharo na Sharon...

Sharon: do u think i don't want to...par swayam ...he doent even want to give me a chance...

Rey: tho...tum haar man jaoge...y cant u... Swayam ne itne saalon se akela hi fight kiya Sharon...he fought for a place in heart...he won ur heart...agar tum bhi use sacha pyar karti ho tho...go go and win his heart back.. agar tum log saath mein they its all because of him...its time for u Sharon...

Sharon kept staring at Rey..he was true...she has never struggled for love...Swayam has never allowed her to...and Rey was right...she cant give up so easily... but she dint spoeak anything...

Rey: par iss baar tumhe sab kuch akele karna hoga Sharon...you have to struggle...though mein tumse gussa hoon..jo bhi tumne kiya aaj college mein...i will be really happy if you win him back...

Sharon nodded her head and hugged Rey...

Sharon: thank u rey...

Rey: i'll go now..take care..

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Next day gang has made a plan of separating Swayam and Sharon in all the tasks so that they will not have to see them fighting again...

Sharon and Swayam came to college.Sharon tried entire day to grab Swayam's attention but he has not moved not even one bit...atleast he acted as if she dint matter to him..

After everything Sharon called Swayam to meeting room in pretext of meeting...

Swayam came to projector room and was waiting..then Sharon came and closed the door behind her...

Swayam got up and was about to leave...

Sharon: we have to discuss regarding Rose Day...

Swayam: uske liye CS aur AGS ka saatho hona bhi zaroori hai...so let them also come till then i will wait outside..

Sharon: philal CS levae par hai aur AGS is not in college so you have no choice but bear me for sometime...

They kept discussing about the event...even thought Sharon kept steling glances of Swayam for some time...but swayam... he dint let her feel that she was effecting him...

Swayam: ok...list tho ban gaya hai...bu i guess we will finalise it once ashi and Rey comes back...

Sharon: ok cool...

Swayam was about to go

Sharo: Swayam...mujhe kuch baat karni thi..

Swayam: agar kaam ke bare mein hai tho bolo nahi tho im not interested...

Sharon: i know you are not...but mujhe yeh baat kehni hai tumse...

Swayam: jaldi bolo Sharon...

Sharon: kal raat tume jo kehna tha tumne kaha...par meri baat nahi suni na...tho ab suno...mein tumse break up nahi karungi...mein humpe give up nahi karungi...mujhe apna ...tumhara..humara pyar par pura faith and trust hai... i love you Swayam and i always will..tum chaho ya na chao...

Zamane ki parwaah mujhe nahi hai
Pyaar karne wale darte nahin hai
Bin tere koi aur bhaata nahi hai
Chain mujhko tere siwa aata nahi hai
Khata kya mujhse ho gayi
Jal gaye sapno ke ghar sabhi
In aankho ke aansu hi sahara the
Bichad gaye wo bhi ab kahin

Swayam left from there as Sharon smiled to herself...

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It was getting difficult for Swayam to handle all this. He was receiving Sharon's attention more than anything. This time she doesn't even care of anyone. She was openly showing her concern love for him. They had to prepare for rose day celebrations in college. She has openly complemented his work making gang confused on what is going on in her mind.

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Things went on like this for days Sharon wooing Swayam ..Swayam ignoring her. Sharon has tried all sorts' ways to express her love.

All the gang sat in canteen after a day of hectic classes and work. All of the ordered food. Sharon has always hated chai before their chai date. She loved drinking chai that too only with Swayam.She smiled to herself as he got reminded of their chai date.She looked at Swayam who as coming after some arrangements. She got up went and ordered two chai and got them and offered one to Swayam.

Gang wondered with this new behaviour of Sharon. Swayam took the chai and went silently and sat beside Rey.

Simmi: tum aur chai...

Rinni: ha i thought you are more of a coffee person...

Sharon: i was par kisi waje se chai bahut pyari ho gai hai...

She said looking at Swayam.

Rey was observing all these and he was really happy that finally Sharon took the initiative .He was enjoying this cute nok jhok between them.

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Finally Rose Day came. Everyone was busy finalizing dates for themselves. Even swayam and shorn were busy in making all the arrangements. They had lots of different events this time for rose day. Rose dedication...Song dedications...tattooting

Swayam didn't want to ask Sharon.( he wanted to but he dint want to also at the same time). Sharon wanted to go with Swayam. Rey had to go with aashi as they were in a fake relationship for sometime. Entire gang was excited. Everyone was dedicated songs...roses...to their partners and were enjoying.

Sharon waited for long expecting one rose from the person she loved. She didn't get upset as she knew Swayam will not give her a rose this time. She got a bouquet of roses and came for ward and has gifted them to Swayam infront of everyone.

Sharon: happy Rose day swayam.

Swayam was shocked to see Sharon gifting him roses...that to infront of everyone in college...he looked around to see everyone whispering in confusion.

Swayam: thank you he has just accepted and left from there...

Sharon smiled to herself and got herself involved in the work not caring of anyone...

Sharon: khul ke pyaar kar nemazaa hi kuch aur hai...

Gang was super confused except for Rey...

Swayam was getting disturbed Sharon was making it difficult for him to concentrate and be angry on her...he just calmed himself down and got involved in work ...

Evening there were song dedications and tattoo workshop...

Everyone were busy enjoying..,.dedicating roses and songs...

Rey: guys yaar this tattoo woek shop is not a great idea...i feel...

Swayam: kyun rey...

Rey: arrey crowd dekho..koi apna partner ka naam tattoo hi nahi karwana cchahta hai...

Swayam: Rey...us keliye himmat chahihiye hoti hai...himmat se pehle pyaar scha hona chahiye...jo log apne pyar ko leke confused hai woh log kyu kar wayenge tattoo...

Rey: point tho hai...apne hi gang ko dekho...koi nahi hai...

Swayam: ha kisi ke beech sacha pyaar hi nahi hai...

Tanhayi tanhaai, phir aayi, phir aayi
Aankhein meri teri yaadon se bhar aayin, bhar aayi..

Sharon heard all the things...she was actually not in favour of doing all these things as he felt it will pain her alot...but when Swayam himself gave her a hint...

Sharon: this is for u Swayam...

When no one was there in the Stall Sharon was the first person to go

Sharon: mujhe tattoo banwana hai...

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Simmi: guys Sharon tattoo ban wa rahi hai...

Rinni: ha...but she is scared of them na...

Rey: kya hua girls??

Simmi: Sharon ...tatto banwa rahi hai...just look at her...oh god...she is pain...

Rey looked at her...she was actually in pain...as he remembered onething...sharon was really scared of tattoes...

Rey: pagli hai...

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After what Sharon felt like an eternity she had finally made tattoo... on the nape of her neck...

She has covered it with her hair as she dint want to make him feel akward infront of everyone.

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Finally spotlight confessions have started...spotlightwill spot someone ands they have to come to stage to make a confession.Everyone was enjoying the game but spotlight suddenly fell on Sharon. She went to the dias

Anchor: tho Sharon...apna college ki diva...GS..kya confession karna chahegi aap...guys BTW...sharon aaj ek lauthi person hai jisne tattoo banwaya hai... you have guts to do that Sharon i must say...

Swayam was staring at her...

Swayam: Sharon ne tattoo banwaya...

Anchor: tho kya confession share karna chahenge aap...

Sharon gave smile and took the mike...

Swayam was about to go from the auditorium but Rey has stopped him

Rey: i think u should stay...

Swayam: nahi Rey pls...

Rey: trust me Swayam

Sharon:

I want to say sorry to one person for the egoistic bitch iam ...for all the pain i gave him...

I have realised that you are not part of my life anymore...

Swayam couldn't hear it anymore he wanted to leave

Sharon:

You are not a part of my life anymore...you are my life... you gave me a meaning to my life..you have made me believe in love..made me experience it...and all i gave you was pain... im sorry for all the pain i gave you...i know i have hurt you a lot...i know i have damaged things beyond repair...but still im waiting for that once chance...where i can prove my love... i love you...my love.. i love you so much...and no matter you love me or not i will never stop loving you...there is no meaning for my life without u in it...im sorry...i love you...

Sharon had tears in her eyes but she felt really happy..she felt as if she was flying...she has confessed her feelings.openly...she doesn't have to hide them anyore...

Laut aao tum phir se, dil kahe, dil kahe
Sun kitne sitam dil yeh ab sahe
Khata kya mujhse ho gayi
Jo jal gaye sapno ke ghar sabhi
Barish mein bhi jata hoon main
Jab aansu mere chupte hi nahin..

Tanhayi tanhaai, phir aayi, phir aayi
Aankhein meri teri yaadon se bhar aayin, bhar aayin.. (x2)

She handed the mike to anchor and went out of the room crying...

Entire gang was looking at Swayam who was having tears in eyes...Rey wand Swayam looked at each other...Swayam went and hugged Rey...

Rey: i think you should go...

Swayam: hmm ya...

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Sharon went to terrace and started crying...

She turned back as she felt swayam was standing behind her...

She looked into his eyes...pleading for one chance...for them to be together again...

Sharon: Swayam...

Swayam: you really meant all these things??

Sharon: you still don't trust me na...

Swayam:i dunno Sharon...i don't have strength for an another heart break...

Sharon: pls Swayam i just want you to trust me for one last time...and i promise...i promise...ki you will not regret it this time...

Swayam: Sharon...

Sharon: agar chaho tho...you can have a trail relationship and see...i will not let us break...i love you Swayam...mein i...

Swayam: shh...promise me...you will never leave me...

Sharon: never...never... i promise...i will never leave you...

Swayam went and hugged her tightly...and they kept crying...till they their hearts calmed down...

Swayam: i love you Sharon...

Sharon: i love you Swyam...and thank u..mujhe ye chance dene keliye...

Swayam: shh...

Sharon: hugged him again...

They sat on the terrace for long...just holding each other...while gang came to see what was actually happening...they were shocked to see them together...and finally they were happy taht things got settled between them...Rey took them all down telling them to leave love birds alone...

Swayam: tumne tattoo ban waya?

Sharon: ha...

Swayam: par tumhe tho dar lagta tha na...

Sharon: ha par man kiya tho...

Swayam has moved her hair to see her nape..."Swaron" was written...

Still some traces of blood were there...and it did hurt her still...tears formed in his eyes...he bent down and kisses her nape..( tattoo)...

Swayam: pagal ho tum...

Sharon: ha tumhare liye...

Sharon has rested her head on Swayam's shoulder as the kept staring at sky...finally she has made her life perfect...