ARSHI OS- THE UNNAMED EMOTION

ARSHI OS-The Unnamed Emotion

Khushi started at the gift in her hands on which she was busy tieing the ribbon around since half an hour.She could clearly imagine Arnavjis reaction on seeing the gift.She grinned and the other moment her thoughts flew to what would be happening in another few hours. Today was such a special day,it was her Jijis engagement to the man whom she lves and who returned her love ten folds back.Who would have thought that one day her shy and reserved Jiji would come to love someone so dearly,but then when love happens seeing logic or time.It just happens and she was really happy because her sisters love was returned.

As she completed writing the message on the card sitting in front of her devi maiyyas idol,the gift for Arnavji laying there on the table,it was not only Jijis engagement ceremony,it was Arnavjis and Lavanyajis engagement too.She was happy for her,Naniji has accepted her whole heartedly and Arnavji has agreed for the marriage,but if she was really happy then what was that ache in her heart that refused to ebb away.

Why does strings of her heart gets constricted seeing Lavanya get close to him?,the very first being at the time she has hugged him when Arnav has come to stop her from leaving.The lone tear that has sprung out of her eyes on its own.Her dhak-dhaks(heartbeats)that raced everytime he close to her,there being in the same vicinity that made her aware of her ownself and a sudden warmth that spread across her own being whenever he was around.

What was this unknown thread that always pulled her to him,she gazed down at her finger that has held that ugly so called ring day ago.As she thrown it away,she has realised how much free she felt like she was weighed down by an unwanted burden which has been lifted off her shoulders permanently.She has chosen to stay quiet for everyones happiness and she can only hope that it would be for the betterment of all.As she sat there lost in her thoughts,the vision of that day came back to her when she has come to know about the real face of the man that doesnt even deserved to be called one Shyam.How easily he has fooled everyone,her entire being filled with anger and disgust whenever she saw him,but she was helpless ,she had to see him for her sisters and Anjalis happiness.

Taking a deep breath she sighed,she would go through this,it was just a matter till Jijis wedding and with that reality another truth hit her,it was all till Jijis wedding.Since her arrival in Delhi,her paths have crossed with rnavji,post her resignation from his company and her agreeing to teach Lavanyaji,she has seen him almost every single day,even when they have sworn to not see each other again destiny has brought them face to face the very next day.She didnt admit it aloud but the thought of not seeing him,not feeling his presence unnerved her to the core.

Will she be able to see Arnavji getting married,when the previous days has made it crystal clear to her how difficult was that to even imagine.Only she knew how she has gotten ahead with the idea of arranging his engagement and the only valid reason she could put her finger at was that she couldnt bare to see him that he still effected her.Every word that left his mouth ,his every action has an effect on her.

FARQ PADTA HAI ,and it does deeply but she wont made it visible to him ever.Not when he was being indifferent to everything that has happened or was happening.There had been that night when they have been so dangerously close,the passion overruling their every sane sense,she didnt know but could foresee what would have happened hadnt that phones ring awakened them from their daze.She has been in some other world then where all she could see and feel was him,she has totally surrendered and then the reality has hit.That was the man she has always supposedly hated but now she knew better it was never hate,it was easy to term it as hatred.She has demanded answers but he hadnt given,she had seen flicker of an unknown emotion in his eyes too,not once but many times and her heart has wished for him to name it but he hasnt which has resulted him announcing his abrubt engagement to Lavanyaji.

Engagement she sighed at that word she has never been engaged to Shyam by Gods grace in the true sense.It was her Devi Maiyyas blessing on her only ,he has slipped that damn ring on the wrong finger and that too after the auspicious time has already transpired.Even when he has done that farcement her thoughts has has been conquered by him all the time.

He has come to temple to address to her wound,why do he always need to do this,why inspite of everything her heart has only felt alive around him.She has always been strong around everyone,never truly shared her sorrows even with Payal,everytime some trouble arose or sitiuations demanded she has gone ahead and taken the charge but when she has been completely broken down she has sought solace in his presence,one when she had almost lost her babuji and again when she has come aware of Shyams treacheries she has broken down in front of him.Both the tims she has needed someones support,a shoulder to cry on he has been there silently offering his support but why it was him only.it was not that she couldnt tell this to Amma or Jiji but to him it was as if her heart has known where it would find some peace.

Since the day their paths have crossed,her life has taken a 360 degrees turn but did she regret it.How would life has been if she had not met Arnav singh raizada that fateful day somehow the very thought of not having known him created a tremor inside her. All the moments flashed before her eyes from their first meet to her stint in his office,her going to RM daily,their bickerings,Nok-Jhoks,the trip to Nanital,the moments around Diwali all were etched in her heart forever.She may not know answer to many questions but she knew one thing for sure she would never regret knowing Arnavji ever.He was unreadable many times still she felt she knew him better than others.

The pain in his eyes when he talked about his mother,the tender emotions that when he talked with his sister and"and the concern she has seen innumerable times in his eyes for her.MPerhaps that was the reason her every thought be it being annoyed or happiness seemd to ebentagled with him.he has looked out for her,understood her plight and fear when her Babuji was in hospital,he would have silently done everything had she not seen him in hospital that day,he has been there in every way he could.Whether be her being tangled in the lights when she has felt her breath caught in the throat or the way he has fought with goons for her when they had laid a finger on her Arnavji has always been there.

She could have handled it had it been only concern but there was an unknown emotion,shades of it she has seen when he has come to know about her engagement,for a moment though she has seen the same pain mirrored in his eyes which has been in hers when he has announced his engagement,when she has pulled away her hand from his grasp,he hadnt been able to hide the feeling of sudden loss from showing on his face.The same emotion which has come across for a second until he has said those words to her in the boutique when she has moved away from his touch.

Has he been hurt she wondered and as she closed her eyes she found the same molten caramel eyes staring at her,he definitely has,those eyes held only truth but then how could she not move away,she was almost going to be bounded forever to someone else.But with that her inner self screamed that "BUT YOU HAVE NEVER SHIED AWAY FROM HIS TOUCH".

Fine she hasnt as the memories came back flashing,he has touched her and she has never moved away from him,he has held her numerous times and she has not for once felt uneasy from her touch.His touch was always firm,possessive and yet gentle.Especially the last few times when they have been in dangerously close proximity,the way he has slowly unravelled her from the fairy lights,the fall on the rangoli,the way those eyes looked at her,the night of Diwali where everything else has seemed to fade away completely,he has been as affected as her then why has he gone ahead and announced his engagement all off a sudden.It wasn't planned,he has gone ahead with it after their so called confrontation,may be he wasn't ready for answers but did she accepted what laid in her heart?.All the things he has been doing since past few days it gave her a feel that he wanted her to admit that she it made hell lot off difference if he goes ahead with the engagement but again why he wanted her to do that.

She came out of her thoughts as the voice called out to her from outside.She hadnt realised she had been in for such a long time,she looked at the clock and then turned towards the mirror as she made a final glance at herself.There was no answer to that unknown emotion that has been seeped to the very core of her heart and tonight was not for herself,it was for Jiji,she would smile and dance and make it a memorable day for her.Arnavji and Lavanyaji words didnt uttered somehow their name together in creased the longingness in her already aching heart.She just folded her hands,prayed for everyone,,plastered a smile on her face and joined everyone,giving no one a hint of the turmoil going inside her heart.

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