I know that I haven't updated in a while.Blame it on the horrible malaria and exams.I am back now and I am updating hoping you haven't forgotten about this story.Thank you for all the generous reviews I really appreciate you kind words and they are a huge inspiration believe me so keep reading and reviewing it makes me feel very happy and satisfied.Also please do not keep your res if you are not planning on unresing them because it breaks my heart so comment even if you give a short comment.Now on with the update.Major Drama warning mentions of rape though nothing graphic or explicit.Cheers
She sighed loudly and slowly began.I wasn't you're average poor girl you know.I was part of one of the most respectable and rich families here.My father Mr.Gautam Raiprakash the biggest business tycoon was a big gun in the city.
"wait you are Gautam Raiprakash's daughter???"
"correction I was"
He waited for her to explain.
"My dad was a very ambitious person.Even though he was busy with his work he would always be there for me.I never knew my mom.Doesn't mean she wqas dead she was out there somewhere but i did not know her.My dad would spare his time for me and we has a very special bond.I was a typical Daddy's girl.When I was young I used too feel alone and ignored but as I grew Up I changed myself.I became someone I am not.Loneliness did not bother me anymore."
He didn't understand yet how her life changed her this much.
"My life was tolerable but everything changed in a flick of a second I was left with nothing but a broken and scarred soul."
Her voice got a little heavier and he knew that this is the moment where its going to get tough for her.So as encouragement he squeezed her tight in his arms.
She relaxed visibly and then began again.
"Being a high society member I was used to high society parties.They were a big snooze but I had to attend them because of my Dad.I never knew one such party will screw my life so bad"
"shivam Rastogi son of Rajeev rastogi the most successful business tycoon,I met him in one such High society party that my dad threw.His father was my dad's closest business companion.My dad being My dad always thought about business and profit but I never knew that he would use his own daughter as a scapegoat to earn profit"
As soon as she finished her sentence a tear rolled down her eye and dropped on his chest.He was not good with sobbing and crying mess but somehow he could not bring himself to leave her.He clutched her harder to him giving her strength.
"I met shivam and we talked but I was a little skeptical about him.I always felt that he pretended to be someone he was not.He Just didn't feel right but my dad persuaded me to be friends with him and to get to know him so I agreed but somewhere in the back of my mind my inhibitions about him never left.We were friends but not friends if you know what I mean then one day he suddenly asked me to be his girlfriend and I refused because I didn't feel anything about him.
"I was very passionate about dance.It was my way of escaping life.While dancing i felt like I am in heaven.I just didn't know how dance became everything to me.I wanted to become a professional dancer.It became my ambition."
the way she spoke about dance made him believe how much it meant to her.the emotions were clear in her voice.Dance was her life,he couldn't understand how something that was her life could destroy her.So he waited.
"I was so excited to tell my dad about my dream and ambition.I was so sure that he will support me but i was so wrong so so wrong.I told him one day and he went ballistic.I didn't even understand and that's when he told me something that shook my whole world.My mom was a dancer too.She was the best and my dad met her at an event where she was called to perform.He fell in love with her at first sight.He approached her later and they started from then on.Their love grew and they got married.After their marriage dad gave more and more time to his business and less time to mom.My mom felt neglected and lonely in her own house.She resumed dance and my father had no problem.Their at the academy she met someone.He was the same age as her.Their interactions grew into something more and soon they were in love.It was that time she found out that she was pregnant with me.My dad was happier than ever.He thought that maybe a baby will save his marriage from falling apart.My mom although thought completely different so she carried on with the affair and after she gave birth to me she abandoned me and dad for him.From that day onwards my dad hated dance and dancers with a passion.He told me this and I couldn't help but feel guilty for everything that my poor excuse of a mom did to my dad and to me.But was it fair that i was being punished for something that she did.I don't know why but i pleaded my dad to let me live my dream.But he was not ready.I kept my stand and didn't give up so he agreed but he had one condition.Dance was everything to me so i agreed foolishly without even thinking.He asked me that the only way i could be a professional dancer was if i married shivam.I was shocked such a price for asking something so small.I refused but his answer was that marry shivam or forget dance.I...I didn't know what to do so I asked for a little time.My life turned a complete 180 in a matter of hours.I found out the dirty secret of my mom.My dad wanted to trade my life for my dream.I was lost.Days passed by and i was starting to feel suffocated without dance so I decided"
With that she paused with a loud sigh.He was curious what did she decide what happened.He still kept silent he didn't want to push her.She was lost in her own world for a moment before she cleared her throat and shifted a little so that she was lying on the bed facing him.He mimicked her movements and turned around and laid facing her.She looked at him with an intense look and then said.
"Do you know why it was difficult for me to decide even though dance was my life." He didn't say anything just kept looking at her and she continued "because like every other girl I dreamed of finding a guy that i will fall in love with.I wanted a love that consumed me.I wanted to feel butterflies every time we touched,I wanted to feel fireworks every time we kissed.I wanted to share my laughs,my smiles,my tears,my heart,my life with that one special person"
While she was telling about her dreams he couldn't help but noticed how she had a hopeful gleam in her eyes.He eyes at that moment were warm and soft like nothing ever happened to her and the fact that something did happen pained his heart.His thought were broken by her scoff
"sounds like a cliche fairytale right but i wanted to live that fairytale so it was either giving up the idea of love because i knew that shivam will never be the one for me or giving up dance I would have been miserable wither way so I thought that dance guarantees me happiness but there is no guarantee that i will ever find the love or the guy that I wanted so I gave up on the what ifs and agreed to my dad"
He was quiet.He wanted to tell her that she should not have agreed because it was not fair but somehow he knew that she knew that now and she is regretting it too because he could see it in her eyes.The regret and the anguish.
"I had no idea that my decision will cost me everything."She stopped and dropped her gaze to the tangled bedsheet wrapped around both of them.She traced the creases with her fingers and he followed her movements with his eyes.He know that it was taking everything for her to open up to him and she was just regaining her strength.He somehow figured that the next part is where it gets rough and she will need every ounce of strength to not break down.Somehow he wanted to assure her that he will be their to pick up the pieces if that happens but he restrained himself.He was shocked at much he had grown to care about her in the span of only a night.She stopped her movements and her gaze went to him and her eyes caught his again.The pain in her eyes at that moment had him almost gasping.It was sheer agony.
"I trained to become a professional dancer.I lived my dream.I lived and lived and lived and then I died.Shivam and I were engaged to be married.He asked me out on a date one day.My dad forced me to go.He took me to his farmhouse.We had dinner and small meaningless talk.After the dinner he insisted for me t watch a movie so i agreed.We were sitting on the couch in the living room watching a movie.I was engrossed in the movie because I didnt want to talk to him.I didn't notice how he closed the gap between him and me but suddenly he was nuzzling my neck"
FLASHBACK
"what are doing shivam,Get off of me"
"Whats the problem shar,I am your fiancee I am allowed to touch you"
"Shivam i am feeling very uncomfortable so please stop this,I am going OK"
"Sharon don't be such a prude"
"Shivam I think yo had too much wine just sleep it off or something OK I am leaving"
"Where do you think you are going hmm"
Saying so he pushed her back on the couch and straddled her.She was completely trapped beneath him.
"shivam what are you doing let me go,are you out of your mind"
"I am going out of my mind shar,You drive me crazy all i can think about is your perfect body and How i wanna ravish it.Being a dancer sure made you look awesome"
"you are disgusting just let me go or I will scream OK"
"Don't be so melodramatic I am just taking whats mine"
Saying so he kissed her forcefully.She thrashed and kicked but no use he had her pinned beneath him completely.This wasn't what she dreamed of her first kiss to be like.He slowly let his lips travel downwards.He kissed and sucked on her jawline,neck,collarbone and lower.He ripped her dress and carried on with his torture.She cried and thrashed and twisted to escape his touch as much as she could.In a matter of minuted he had her naked and that's when she lost all hope ans succumbed to his torture.He took her against her will.He destroyed her body and soul.He played with her while she collapsed because of the mental and physical pain.Her unconsciousness didn't stop him though he kept going till he was finished with her.
PRESENT
"I woke up with a bruised and sore body.My clothes were on the floor in tattered mess and he was asleep on the lounger.I was numb mentally whle the physical pain was ripping me apart."
She was sobbing now and he didn't hesitate before encasing her in his arms.She completely let go and cried with reckless abandon.She cried and cried and he just held her.He didn't notice when tears sprang in his eyes he was aware of them when one spilled out and landed on his cheek.he let her cry her heart out.Somehow he knew that this was probably the first time since the incident when she is grieving properly.
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Shiv Shakti
