Arhi SS: Aashiqui (Chp 6) End

Arnav was dying. No one could ever understand the pain inside him. She had broken up with him. But what was worse was no one understood him at all.

And Arnav had no idea how to deal with this. He had never thought he will fall in love. But she came into his life and turned everything upside down. He lived so as to fulfill his role for his family.

He didn't want love neither did he want to love. As it is nowadays the very definition of love had changed. It isn't that because of progress love changed but some people changed the meaning of love.

And he knew no one would understand him to the level where he could fall in love with her.

But everything went wrong. He lost all his senses and his control when she kicked open the gates to his heart and entered with such force that she became the queen to rule him.

He had even warned her of everything.

She promised him everything and to one such as Arnav, promises meant everything.

But she broke everything. All the promises. His heart, Everything. Just because she wasn't ready to allow him to meet her parents.

It was all he had ever wanted in his life. Just one chance to meet her parents to ask for her hand. And whatever be their answer he would gladly accept it. That's because he would never ask her to choose between him and her parents.

Afterall Arnav knew how important parents are in one's life.

All he wanted was one chance. But even though she had promised that to him at first, she broke her promise. She didn't want him to meet her parents.

His only mistake was he wasn't from their religion.

Tumhi peh Marta hai yeh dil, adaavat Kyun nahin karta

Kai janmoon sey bandi hai bagaavat Kyun nahin karta

Kabhi zamaney se thi; wo hi shikayat hai tujhsey

Meri tareef kartey ho toh mohabbat Kyun nahin kartey

Arnav wasn't the kind of guy who would force her to get back with him. He of all people knew that love can never be forced.

Love is a feeling. It cannot be controlled. Anyone seeking to control it is just a fool.

Arnav knew that. But what people around him didn't understand was that if love cannot be forced on another, then love could not be forced out of another.

He agreed that he lost his girl friend because she didn't want to love him anymore. But the rest of the people had to understand that his love for her was undying. He could never stop loving her.

Whatever he tried, he just couldn't remove her from his heart.

So he gave up. His love for her was stronger than his logic to forget about her. His heart only loved one person.

It was his angel.

Badalney ko toh in aankhon ki manzar kam nahin badley

Tumhari yaad ke mausam main humarey ghum nahin badley

Tum agley janam main humsey milogi tab tum maanogi

Zamaaney aur Sadi ke iss badal main mera pyaar nahin badla

He had tried everyway possible to try talking her back, but everything failed. He had started to feel that she was lost to him forever.

He stopped bothering her with his talks of getting back together. He thought might as well hide his love from her.

Atleast he would get to hear her voice everyday, get lost in her beautiful eyes, smell the rosy fragrance only she possessed.

But that too didn't last for long. It was really a tough task to hide his emotions from all his friends including her. Each and every night when he poured his feelings into his diary, his tears would flow as though they were perennial.

Next day a smile would be plastered on his face. It was a false smile but none could identify it. He was getting better and better at masking his true feelings. There even came a point where his friends felt happy he had moved on.

They didn't know the hell he lived in at night. His own hell. Wherein he loved someone but was forced to feel otherwise.

It had become a crime for him to love.

His nights, His tears, His hell.

Kisi ke dil ki maayoosi jahan sey hoke guzari hai;

Humari saari chaalaki wahin peh kho ke guzari hai

Tumhari aur humari raat main bas fark itna hai

Tumhari Soh keh guzari hai, humari roh ke guzari hai...

Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. Around his eyes a black shade had formed which were clear signs that Arnav spent many a night sleepless. Even though he tried real hard, he hadn't succeeded at stopping the continuous flow of tears.

So much time had now passed that his eyes had started to pain while he cried. He felt as though his tears were not of water anymore but blood.

Suddenly khushi vanished for a couple of days.

Arnav knew she was going to her hometown and the day she was leaving he asked her to call when she reaches.

But there was no call. He gave her so many messages asking whether everything is alright but there was no reply. Arnav had started to panic. He gave her a call.

The phone on the other side rand once and then someone cut the call from the other side.

Arnav thought that maybe Khushi didn't pick up because her mother was present. So he waited for her to call back.

Hours and hours he waited into the night till he finally fell asleep in the early hours of the morning.

He kept himself glued to his phone the next day too. Waiting and hoping that she would call.

The waiting had turned into days and days had turned into a week. But still there was no response.

Finally she replied. But her reply would only shock him.

5 days he had passed with nightmares torturing him that maybe she was in trouble. Maybe something had happened to her.

Arnav was scared because she was the one thing he would never dream to loose.

Even a small scratch on her was a wound to his heart. Even if she want, his heart would be in pain.

But when he started talking to her, before he could even make sure that everything was alright with her, Khushi asked him not to talk about his love for her and that it was the past. She wanted him to forget about her and move on.

Arnav had now completely lost it. Her words had completely shattered him. She thought his pain was due to the break up whereas in reality his pain was because he didn't know what had happened to her.

She misunderstood him yet again. His pain was misunderstood yet again.

She had forgotten the value of his pain. She had forgotten who he was. His tears were not precious. They were just waste droplets of water.

Ki mohabbat ek ehhsaason ki paavan si kahani hai

Kabhi kabira diwaana tha kabhi meera diwaani hai

Yahaan Sab log kehetey hai ki meri aankhon main aasoon hain

Jo tu samjhe woh moti hai Jo na samjhe woh paani hai...

Arnav had made his mind. He knew his love would never end. But he also knew he wouldn't allow anyone to insult his love ever again. Even if it was his Khushi.

He had told her his decision. Since her love for him had died, he too will die, not physically but mentally break all bonds with Khushi and would be dead to her. He would never again interfere in her life ever again. He would leave her forever. She asked him why he was doing this.

He replied saying that there was no more a need for him in her life.

He hoped against hope, Prayed to the gods that he would stop if she but once asks him to stay. He would stay if she said that what he thought was wrong and that she did need him in her life.

Just once.

Only once.

But she didn't.

She didn't stop him even once. She said that its Arnav's wish to do what he wanted and she would accept any decision.

Arnav's broken heart now turned to dust. He was completely shattered.

He closed his eyes to control his emotions and left without a backward glance.

He went straight to his mother who though had noticed her son's pain but knew he would only seek her when he was completely broken. Interfering before would just make matters worse.

So she patiently waited and today her son came and broke down completely in her lap. She ran her hands through his hair and waited for Arnav to calm down. When he did, she asked him what the problem was. Arnav poured out everything he had stored up inside him. It felt so relaxing to let it all out.

His mother told him that if he truly loves her, then he shouldn't give up.

Arnav reply made his mother's heart lift with immense pride at her son's maturity. He said that he hadn't given up on her. He had only given her the power of her own life.

He would love her all his life even if he had to stay away from her forever. He would love her even if she would not need him in her life. Because it was his heart and his heart had the freedom to love whomsoever it wanted.

Mere jiney main marney main tumhara naam aaeega

Main saansein rokloon phir bhi yahi ilzaam aaeega

Har ek dhadkan main jab tum ho toh phir apraadh kya mera

Agar Radha pukaaregi tab hi uska Krishna aaega

---To be Cont---

Good news is this SS will be updated soon and i will finish it in the next two to three chapters... Do let me know if you all like it...