Ahh! Another emotional update. Poor Kushi. How much more is she going to take?
I'm still not sure why he is doing all this. is it because she is dying? (Everyone thinks that, but is too afraid to say it!) Because really, until he found out that she is really sick, he treated her like shit. In fact, he even abused her and banged her head on the wall, before the bleeding, and said he wished she was dead! Now all of a sudden he is being nice to her. And expects her to forget everything and reciprocate his feelings. The thing is no matter which way you slice it, it looks like he is pitying her, or feeling guilty. Does not matter what he says. If he had just faced his feelings for her before he found out about the cancer, if he had just told her before he found out, about his feelings and that he trusted her, well, it's too late now. He still believes she is in with Shyam. So... I'm glad Kushi is being resistant, although how long for, in her condition, is anyone's guess. I just hope she does not go running into his arms. Of course, I am praying for a miracle, I hope she becomes well, and that the cancer is somehow treatable. But right now, I have no sympathy for him. He deserves more heartache than he gave her. He does not trust her. Period. What kind of relationship can one forge ahead with, without trust? I am sorry, but I think, I am the only reader you may have, that does not want Kushi to be with Arnav. Right now. It will be too easy for her to forgive him and for him to be with her. This sickness has worked as a convenience to bring them together. But I would like to see a full blown redemption of Arnav before they can get together. He made her life hell, and for all intents and purposes, would have continued to do so, had it not been for the sickness. So why should all that be forgotten, just because she is sick? Yes, the focus should be on making her well. And at least, it's commendable that he is doing everything he possibly can to make her well. Whether out of guilt, pity or according to him love, is quite irrelevant. I'll say it again. Where was this love when he abused her and wished that she was dead?
And he would have continued had it not been for the sickness. And this is what is bothering me. He would have continued to give her hell, and abused her, emotionally and possibly physically, had it not been for the sickness. So... I just cannot feel sorry for him or have any empathy for him. In fact, he doesn't even deserve her, for the way he has treated her! Right now, anyway.
(And please don't go the way of the show and sweep all that disgusting behavior from him to her under a rug or a bloody 2 sec apology! In fact, I trust you not to!!!)
Ooops! Sorry! I am so mad at him, I forgot to thank you for the PM!😆
Edited by kbtr - 12 years ago
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