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CHAPTER 4 trust or love???
its been a week since virat came here and know i feel like its been years i know him. dont know why he makes me feel special . actually i love it nobody ever made me feel like the way he does not even my sisters or my mom.
IN CANTEEN
" karan im sorry pleaseee " i was begging karan to forgive me and he was dammm angry becaz since last week virat drops me hostel every day and karu doesnt like it
" manvi i said u before dont get too close to him " karan finally said something
" karan i know ur right but i get late daily what should i do i dont wana bother u to wait for me na" i know he was really pissed off becaz he called me manvi instead of kido
"look kido im not angry with u but just try and understand he will go back after three days and i know ur attached u him ALREADY and then u will defo feel sad" he said calmly
i know he was right that happens to me i get attached to people and when they leave i always end up missing them badly REALLY BADLY!!!
" ok i know now pulejjj man jao na karuuu" i said in baby voice
" ok fine!!!" he said and i did the dhinka chika dance in my mind :p
i went to my class only to get tortured half by sir sam and half by our one and only ria ji grrr
" hey virat !!! umm i guess u were coming but havnt seen u where r u????" i said as i called him becaz he was supposed to be there for the visit but wanst
" hey manvi im sorry i cant come today..." he said in a rushing tone
" but u said u will"
" so what ya i said but im busy i dont have time to answer ur silly question" he was realllyyy rude
"umm ok then see ya tomorrow bye" i managed to say controlling my tears as nobodyyy evaaa taked to me like that
he hunged up without saying anything and left me stunned. he was always soo polite and caring but today i saw a different side of him which i definitely hate :-/
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after attending all my classes apparently but actually thinking about virat i made my way to my hostel ...
it was seven in the evening i was going through my book when ile called me
" hi ile" i said in a least intrested tone
" o hello madam !!! why do u sound like u had a breakup???"
"look ile im nt in a mood so better tell me why u called" yukkk i sounded rude and regreted the next moment for talking like this
" umm manvi ur ok????" and there she was still concerned about me
" ya just bad mood tu bata " i asked her and tried to sound normal
" we were planning to go to movie but its k we will go tmorrow till then ur mood will be fine too"
" umm no dont cancel ur plan ill be at ur place in fifteen" i hunged up... i really dont want my friends to suffer bacaz im feeling weird pshhh virat what have u done to me ...
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we came out of the movie hall... ile porposely made us watch a horror one but she was surprised not to listen even a single scream of mine... let em tell u i tried ALOT but he wasnt getting off my mind na... samjha karo yar!!!!
karan dropped me at my hostel.. i was about to enter the gates when i heard a i voice calling me from behind which i was dying to hear the whole day... and there he was standing leaning against his car's door ... VIRAT
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i walked up to him... he had his head bent down as if he was guilty for the morning stuff... i was dammm angry but then seeing him all my anger vanished...
"hey" i didnt know what else to say
" hi" he said looking up at me and returning to his previous position
there was silence umm not an akward one but silence... he wasnt saying anything and i didnt feel like saying anything either.. after maybe 10 or more mins he finally broke the ice..
" manvi can u come with me" he asked waiting for my reaction
" virat dont u think its quite late... i mean i dont have any problem but..." i was confused he never asked me to go anywhere with him.. this was the first time and that tooo late ...
" i said u trust me" it was a question more than a statement..
" i do " i said as a matter of fact... he yelled on me doesnt means i stopped trusting him
" them please i need to explain " he pleaded and i turned and sat in his car
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it was almost half an hour and he was still driving... and i was really nervous... are i know he's not a bad guy but any girl would feel nervous with a guy in his car going dont know where at almost eleven in the night... and moreover now i had to sneak into my room becaz the hostel gate would be closed...
he applied the brakes and got off the car without saying anything goshhh was he fasting or something ... i came out of my thoughts and went near him where he was standing under a tree near a cliff... i was speechless at the ebauty of the place not that ive never seen such places but there was something special about it
" its beautiful" i unknowingly said
" im sorry manvi" he said as he sat down
i too sat with him keeping a fair distance between us and said " virat its ok.. it happens "
" wont u ask why i shouted on u and why i asked u to come here with me that too at this time" he was saying all this without looking at me
"i dont think i have any right to ask that" i said but felt bad knowing that actually i didnt have any right on him
" u have the right manvi u ahve all rights to ak me whatever u want to"
" i will never force u to share something u dont want to"
" but i want to share it... im not like u ... i cant keep all my sorrows in my heart and keep myself not tell ing anybody about my pain" this time he was looking directly into my eyes
i wanst able to bear his gaze so i looked away " i dont do this virat " i replied trying to sound offended but failed becaz deep inside i was overwhelmed that he knew this about me and seeing my hiding smile he smiled a little too
" manvi u know hoe dadaji died...he had brain tumor.." saying this his voice chocked
i held his hand and gestured him to continue
" i only joined our buisiness becaz he needed someone and i was the only one other than my chachu to help him... my dad died when i was a kid but i had my bhai viren... he became my father andmy mom's support... he's a doctor... i loved him no i love him ..but the day dadaji was fighting with death he was also there but he wasnt able to do anything to save dadu... i know its ridiculous to blame him for dadu's death but i cant help it... i never talked to him after that day.. i didnt know what to say.. and he thought i hate him...how could he??? and then he left and started living in an apartement away from us... my idiotic behaviour made evryone suffer manvi... i wana bring him back... wana say a sorry but something is stopping me " he said and i could see he was having a hard time controlling his tears.. i was almost crying too but i wanted him to cry his heart out i dont wanted him to suffer like me keeping everything inside... so i just hugged him as tight as i could and instantly he hugged me back with the same force ...
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we were sitting there virat was normal now so i thought of taking him out of his trance
" i know what virat we do mistakes but it doesnt means to just sit and cry over thinking about it ... i know what u dud was wrong but it wasnt ur fault... it was time virat.. time has the power to amke us do the things we will never wish to do"
" but he wont forgive me"
i held his hand and said" he will "
" how do u know that " he asked as if a child asks her mother that why stars shine at night
" i know because a father cant stay angry on his son for too long... jake kan pakar kar sorry bol k to dekho... i will change my name agar maff nai kiya to " i said to assure him
" thank u soo much manvi... main janta hon k tumhare pass bhi bohat kuch hai share karne k liye but i will wait and i promise i will make u free of all ur burdens"
" and i promise virat i will one day i will share everything with u i know i want to do that but let the time come"
" u know what ur my angel... i feel like u hace come in my life to make it colourful"
saying this he again hugged me and i wa left speechless hearing his words but this hus was different but i felt myself loosing in his embrace .. soon the hug was becoming more passionate our grips on eachother were tightening with every second and suddenly i came back to reality and broke the hug
" umm i think we should go now its really late virat" i said to wash away the akwardness
" umm ya but the gates will be closed na" he asked me and i said him to drop me at ileana's place ..
after making a fair excuse to ile about me coming sooo late... i made my way to the bed and all the time spent with virat went through my mind and slept seeing his face infront of my eyes...
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i was sitting near my room's window hoding my guitar in my hand thinking about what manvi said ...
" i wont let u down manvi... i will bring bhai back home... will bring our happiness back.. will vring mom's smile back..." i was detemined this time becaz i dont want manvi to be proud of me ...
i dont understand my feelings but im sure im not gona let her go anywhere away from me... maybe im not sure about my feelings but im sure that i cant live without her... i just feel an urge to protect her , to make her feel apecial and happy... and i will... i promise u manvi i will keep take u away from all your bitter memories... i dotn care what they are i just care that they hurt u... and im sure to kick them out of ur life...
sooo this was it for today... i know it was lame and ribish but all ur chappals rotten tomatoes are welcome.. blame my exams for it 🤣 please hit the LIKE button and comment too...
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Anupamaa
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