ARHI OS: Arnav's Diary

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ARNAV'S DIARY

7 February

Hello DiarY!

Do you know what February seventh means to me, Dy? I am talking about last year. You weren't here at that time. You wouldn't know as I brought you home this year. I'll tell you how important today is.

It has been three hundred and sixty five days since I first met my love. Since my heart started troubling me with the feelings and dilemma about my sweetheart.

The memory of that day is still fresh in my brain and heart. She walked into my office like the gentle breeze. She managed to change into something stronger and turned my world upside down.

It felt as if my heart would leap out of my chest.

Love makes you do stupid things, doesn't it? Ask me about it. I have a Ph.D in that department.

I stared at her like a teenager when she came to my room for the first time for an interview. If my secretary hadn't come at the right time, I would have made a fool of myself.

Both of us have come a long way, Dy. It started with me falling head over heels for her. Then it changed to anger for the both of us. She had a big problem with my attitude and I had trouble with the way she spoke to me. Can you believe it, Dy? She often compared me with a kid who had anger issues. She was right in a way. Fine. Fine. She was absolutely correct. Her words bruised my ego and I was rude to her.

A few days later, I realized that my rudeness was mainly because I wasn't able to accept the fact that I was in love with her. I didn't want to acknowledge the fact that someone had control over my heart.

When I understood what was wrong with me… or rather what was right with me, I changed myself.

My behaviour towards her changed and to tell you the truth, I think she began to enjoy my company. We became friends and we spoke about us. I came to know about her life and I told her about mine. We share a great bond. I can understand her thoughts even before she speaks to me about it.

Do you know what the best thing about her is? It is her smile. It captivates me. And her eyes… When I look into her eyes, I find a different world out there. Those two little orbs tug a whole lot of chords in my heart.

Whenever I stand before her, I lose my tongue. Coherent reasoning takes a back seat while I stumble for words. There have been a lot of situations where I could have spoken out my true feelings for her. Something stops me every time. Maybe I am expecting a signal, however small it might be, from her.

I will be waiting for that day… For that small sign.

Until then, I am going to live with her in my dreams. Good night, Dy! No disturbing me.

8 February

Hi Dy!

I have to tell you something. Remember the little sign I was telling you about? I got it today. I know you are not able to understand a word I am saying. Let me explain.

I felt a little low today as I missed my mom very much. My sweetheart was with me the whole day. Instead of going to the office, we went to the park where I had enjoyed my childhood days.

She had her fingers entwined with mine and didn't leave me for even a second. I went to her apartment for dinner. She cooked me Pasta, my favourite dish, while I sat beside her and spoke about the beautiful times I spent with my mother. She listened to everything. I felt at peace when I rested my head on her shoulder.

The clock chimed reminding me that I had to leave. The goodbye is the worst part of my day. I have never been able to say anything during such times. I looked at her and gave her a faint smile.

Her reaction surprised me, Dy. Do you know what she did?

She shook her head and smiled. Then she wrapped her arms around me and gave me a tight hug. Today, I got my first hug from my sweetheart.

Sometimes, I can feel the connection we have. The connection which is beyond everything I know of. It is almost tangible. I have always wanted to extend my hand and reach for it. Fear kept holding me back from trying it out. Today, everything changed.

When she hugged me, I felt her love for me.

Love.

The wonderful feeling where you feel as if you have grown wings. The feeling where you have a sense of belongingness. The feeling where you wish to surrender your life to someone. The feeling where you remove your ego, fear, anger, power, wealth and everything else and lay yourself in front of someone as who you are and not who you have become for the sake of the world. The feeling where you place your heart in front of the person you love without the fear of being trampled upon.

Her one hug told me so much. Her actions spoke louder than words. Sometimes you don't actually need words to express yourself.

Whenever I ask my dad about mom, he tells me about the relation they shared, about their love and about their life with me. Even though all these were important, there was one particular thing which stood out from the rest and it matters the most to me. When he speaks about mom, he has tears in his eyes and a smile on his lips. It made me realize one thing. His unsaid words speak more than the words he voiced out. Those unsaid words is what 'love' is all about.

This is the exact feeling I got when she hugged me. I have always thought my love was one sided. Her hug told me that she loves me too.

Day after tomorrow is an important day, Dy. I am not going to tell you why it is important. Let it be a surprise for you.

See you.

P.S. Same condition. No disturbing me. I am going to dream about my sweetheart and a happy life with her.

9 February

Dear Dy!

I don't have much time.

Well, truly I have all the time in the world but I am not going to stay with you. The reason is pretty simple.

If I stay with you, I will tell you everything about tomorrow's plan and then it would… Wait a minute. Did I just tell you that I had plans for tomorrow? Oh man! Forget about it.

I want to put my pen down, close you and go to sleep. Great idea but it would not be fair, would it?

Let us make a deal. I have always told you about my feelings for her. How about I describe her to you?

You already know about her smile and her eyes. Her eyes, Dy, let me tell you. Before I saw her, I did not know that so many expressions existed. The best one is when she is about to do something naughty. My favourite is the one when her eyes widen in happiness and excitement at the mere sight of cone ice creams. She loves vanilla cones with chocolate chips and syrup on top. I love watching her savour the ice cream till the very last bit.

There is one thing about her that amazes me. It is her craziness for sky diving. Whenever she or anybody speaks about it, her eyes have a dreamy look. My little bro is always after her with sky diving because he has tried it once during his graduation days.

All the talk about my little brother reminds me that he is returning from London tomorrow. I have to pick him up from the airport and ask him about his final semester exams to rile him up.

He knows about my sweetheart. He has promised that he would help me with my plans. The roses are his department and the…

Not again. I am not at all good with this. I think I have to zip my lips tighter. I am not going to open my mouth again.

Good night, Dy!

Wish me luck.

10 February

Hey Dy!

Come and dance with me. Today is the happiest day in my life. She said yes. She said yes. She said YES.

Let me start from the beginning. First thing in the morning, I went to the airport with dad to receive my little bro. After that, I dropped dad in office and went home with bro.

My bro and I had a plan up our sleeves. The electrician arrived and set up a chandelier in the centre of the living room. It made our house look like a castle. We then decorated the room with roses and balloons in white and red colours as her favourite is white and my favourite is red. A table was placed in the middle with a cake and an empty bowl for the ice cream. The ice cream was my bro's job. He had to fill it a few minutes before I brought my sweetheart. As a final touch, we filled a big balloon with rose petals and colour papers and hung it near the chandelier.

It was about seven by the time we finished. I went to our office and ordered my secretary to keep my dad busy for another hour. I told my sweetheart that I wanted to show her something and she came with me without a fuss.

The whole house was dark. I asked her to go to the living room while I spoke with my bro. He told me that everything was ready.

I felt bad for letting her walk in the dark. Darkness… That is the only thing she is frightened about. She called out to me. Without making any noise, I counted the steps in my mind and reached the centre. Thanks to my bro, the room lit up like a stadium at that very moment.

To say that she was shocked would be an understatement. When she looked at me for an explanation, I told her that… Wait, let me you what I exactly told her.

'Life is precious and delicate like a thread. None of us know when that thread will snap. When we wake up every morning, it is like a bonus day. A special day to fulfil our desires. This is my chance to grab what I want… No. What I need in my life. I want to spend all those bonus days with you. I want my days to start with you and end with you. I want to wake up with you in my arms. I want your hands to support me when I feel low. I want you by my side for the rest of my life. I fell hard for you the first time I saw you. I didn't have the courage to express it to you. The way you hugged me day before yesterday chased away my fear and here I am before you. I love you so much. Will you marry me?'

Before you ask me, no. I did not kneel in front of her, Dy. I think kneeling in front of your love is very cinematic. I want my love to be real in every aspect.

A tear rolled down her cheek and she asked me if I was real. I laughed and wrapped her in a tight hug. She was worried whether she deserved me or not. I erased her fears saying that she was stuck up with me for the rest of her life. No more escape for her.

My bro was a professional in throwing darts. His dart hit the bull's eye. Rose petals and colour papers blessed us and we celebrated our day together.

11 February

I am angry with her today. I proposed to her yesterday and today she had the audacity to give me her resignation letter. Dad was impressed with her work and he gave her a promotion. I gave her the letter and she returned it to me along with her resignation. She is going to search for another job. Can you believe it, Dy? She does not want others to think that she has used me to get the promotion. She also told me that she wants to work after marriage.

I didn't speak with her after that.

I am upset, Dy. I'll talk with you tomorrow.

12 February

Hi Dy!

Sorry to wake you up early in the morning.

I thought about what she said. If anybody speaks anything about her, I will not be able to bear it. I think I will accept her resignation.

I have an idea. The little red guy with horns, who is sitting on my left shoulder, has an idea. She can work in some other company for now. After marriage, I will not let her be a mere employee. I will give her the post of 'Advisor' in our office. It is going to be Advisor because she does not have to spend all her time in office. She can spend some time in office… and lots of time with me.

Me again, Dy.

I apologized to her for my behaviour and told her about my condition. I just told her that I would not let her work after marriage. I didn't tell her that I will give her a post in our office.

She told me that she wants to get married to me soon. When I asked her why, she said… I'll quote her words.

'I love you and I want to spend my life with you. When we are clear with what we want, why wait? Instead of starting a life together a couple of years later, we could start now. That way we will have two more years and its memories to cherish in our old age.' She placed her hand on my chest. 'I know. I am making the right decision. I am going to marry a great guy and he is going to be the best husband in the world.'

Her words brought tears to my eyes. I hugged and vowed that I would never hurt her ever.

Day after tomorrow is our first valentine's day together and I have not made any plans. Let me see if I can take her sky diving.

Do you want to know why I always talk about her with you? The answer is pretty simple, Dy. Her name has already been etched in my heart and all the other things around me should contain her name. My angel's name. Only hers.

The only name which looks and feels good with Arnav is Khushi.

RES

Brought tears in my eyes. It was beautiful!!

beautiful is the one word that strike to me when i completed reading yhis os

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Superb confession...
The best I have ever read...
Loved it.

I wish I was that diaru...
He is pouring out all his feelings avt his love...

Superb...