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Hello everyone,

If you had read my last authors note you would have seen that I just recently became an aunty as my Di (a.k.a JennyAvni) gave birth to my beautiful niece called Adhitihi. The cherub just takes cuteness to a whole new level. So this chapter is dedicated to my Didi and to my niece.

So as a special treat I have decided to update. And I just want to say thank you to anyone who congratulated me on the birth of my niece or wished me good luck on my exams. My exams are still going on but I submitted by assignments today and In Sha Allah they shall be good.

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And after that very long authors note I bring to you Chapter 13:

The morning came and Khushi woke up cocooned in the arms of the man that she loved. As she was coming to from her state of unconsciousness she could feel him around her, safe in her haven enveloped in his love.

She did not know why he had held her so? Maybe it was from the weakness he had felt. She just did not know. Her head hurt from trying to work out if he was in his ASR persona or her Arnavji persona. But more that her head her heart hurt. It ached terribly with a piercing man that just would not leave her alone. Unless she was with him. Wrapped safely in his embrace. Khushi saw the time and realized it was quite late. She also realized that she had been crying so she then wiped her tears away and made her way into the bathroom to freshen up…

Arnav had woken up the minute Khushi had left his arms. At that particular moment he felt as if something of intrinsic value to him had gone missing. He was just about to get out of the bed when a blurry prostrated figure caught his attention. Though his sense of vision was slightly blurred his sense of sound was still perfectly intact.

Though he couldn't see her tears he could damn well hear them. He knew she was crying from the way her voice broke. He could hear her word for word perfect and he hated it! The way she was crying it was as if she was the victim but she wasn't! If anyone was the victim then it was him and his beloved sister.

This girl should get an Oscar for keeping up pretenses he thought! But even as he thought that his heart couldn't help but do a somersault when he heard her prayers. It must be all lies his head told him! Lies they are all lies. She knew that I would be up and hear her that's why she is saying all that.

But he did not have any more time to reason with himself as the bathroom door opening and closing brought him out of his trance. He had been awake for a few minutes now so his eye sight had managed to adjust to the change in light. As she emerged from the bathroom though he did not want to he could not help but acknowledge how scared and worried she looked. Could it be that all that worry etched on her face is for me he wondered? Of course not said his brain. It's all a ploy to make you feel as if she cares so that she can scrape a bit more money off you. She probably hoped you'd died so that she could then claim all your money reasoned his brain.

But Arnav did not get the chance to say anything to her as the doctor had just stepped into the room. That doctor… why did his face look so familiar? Thought Arnav to himself. He could not remember yesterday's events clearly. All he could see where blurry mixed visions in his head. He pretended to be asleep as Khushi and the doctor exchanged words so he could hear the entire encounter.

'Mrs. Singh' said the doctor. 'Your husband is doing a lot better now. Thank God that you brought him in when you did else there was a possibility that your husband might have ended up in a coma. But you must do one thing though. You must purchase these medicines for him. I do not know when the last time he had a diabetic review was but it was long overdue. His medication was in dire need of update. His diabetes has managed to shoot up so I am afraid to tell you that his medication will no longer cover it. He is now type 1 diabetes suffer. So he can no longer take tablets he will now have to use insulin to ensure that his diabetes is kept under control' finished the Doctor. 'Thank you doctor' said Khushi. 'Can you please do me a favour and tell me when your pharmacy closes? It's just that I have no money on me right now so I am going to have to arrange for some money before I can get him his meds' explained Khushi. 'Oh no problem Mrs. Singh our pharmacy closes at 7pm but please ensure that you get the meds before Mr. Singh's dinner time as he has to take his insulin shot half an hour before he eats his meals. And one more thing Mrs. Singh I have seen a lot of women come in here with their husbands' but never have I seen a more concerned wife than you. From the look on your face it was as if, if anything happened to him then your whole world would have ended along with him. Mr. Singh really is a lucky man indeed to have someone who loves him as much as you do' said the Doctor and with that he handed Khushi the prescriptions and left.

Khushi then cautiously walked up to Arnav's bedside and just started at him for the longest time before cautiously lifting her hand up and placing atop of his head and then gently stroking his hair and moving the two locks of hair that had come to cover his eyes.

'I won't let anything happen to you I promise. I will get you your meds. I will think of something I promise' said Khushi and with that she purposefully let his room.

As soon as Arnav heard the door shut he opened his eyes and got out of the bed and sat down in a sitting position. He so badly wanted to know exactly what happened yesterday. But more than that Arnav was upset that he had don't seen his Di in two days. It was the longest time that he had not been to visit her. Not matter what happened he always made sure that he saw Anjali every day without fail. And now thanks to that girl he now had not seen his sister for two whole days. Was it not enough that she had taken his mother like sister away from him now she had to be the cause of why he couldn't see her too!?

Agitated he began to pull at the IV drips insert into both of his hands to try and pull them off when his phone rang. It was Aman. What the hell does he want thought Arnav ashe picked up his phone. 'Hello, Sir' said Aman. 'You asked me to keep an eye on Khushi and inform you of her every move. Well Sir, this morning about an hour ago I saw her leave the hospital she looked much stressed. I then followed her to a jewellery store. I followed her in discreetly and saw that she was at the counter trying to pawn some antique jewellery along with what seems a very battered mangalsutra' said Aman. 'Okay thanks Aman' said Arnav curtly as he cut the call.

Oh so now she is pawning her jewellery is she? said his head. Yeah she is said his heart. And you know damn well why that is. You always manage to make an excuse as to why she does what she does. But what answer do you have for this?! What answer do you have for why she is trying to pawn her mother's jewellery screamed his heart? The truth was that this time his head had no answer…

Angered bubbled up inside him because he was not able to come up with an answer. He picked up the glass jug next to him and smashed it on the floor in anger and frustration. Just then Khushi walked in and stood quietly in front of him waiting just, waiting for him to vent out all his anger. Once she saw that Aranav had slightly cooled down and sat back down on the bed she very cautiously put down on the little table all that she was carrying and bent down wordlessly picking up the shards of glass that had fallen onto the floor. One shard cut her finger and blood began to profusely fall from her finger but the pain did not seem to bother her in the slightest. She just aim fully cleaned up all the glass and then once that was down silently still she walked into the bathroom and cleaned her wound and applied a plaster over the cut.

Once done slowly she walked back out and began to sort out the things she was carrying. First she picked up the medicine that she had brought and started to place the needle on the insulin shot just like the pharmacist had shown her. She then turned to Arnav and said 'Sunyeh (listen), the doctor has said that you now need to take insulin shots instead of tablets for your diabetes. Should I give you the shot or would you prefer to do it yourself?' asked Khushi innocently.

'Are you crazy? Like I will listen to anything that you say to me. Call a doctor or a nurse and get them to come in here so I can get them to check all this to ensure that you have not tampered with any of it' growled Arnav. Khushi said nothing just grabbed the nurse button in front of her and buzzed for the nurse. A few seconds later the nurse entered. 'You buzzed?' She asked. 'Yes' said Khushi. 'My husband needs to take his insulin shot but I have never done this before and nor has he so could you please check that I have done everything correctly please?' 'Sure thing' said the nurse as she began to help Khushi give Arnav the shot. Finally, the shot had been given and the nurse left. Khushi was just about to ask Arnav what he would like to eat when the doctor came back in to inform them that Arnav was fine to go now and would be discharged as soon as his discharge documents were prepared and then left once more.

'Why are you still here Khushi? 'Woh (that)… I was going to …' You were going to what?' roared Arnav. 'How many times have I told you to just get lost? Are you suffering from amnesia do you have an illness of being forgetful? Why can't you just get the f**k out of my face! You are everywhere I go. You've made my life hell! I hate you okay and not only that but I know what girls like you are really like so do yourself a favour stop wasting my time and yours and just leave!' growled Arnav.

Khushi knew that the best thing to do now would be to leave. She did not want to stress him out. So she said nothing just picked up her phone made one phone call and then just left the room silently.

That was almost too easy thought Arnav. Hmm… He was expecting her to start protesting with him and almost begging him to let her take care of him. He didn't think she would heed his words so easily and just leave like that. Something must definitely be playing in that girl's head he thought. But he did not have enough time to think about it as one of the nurses came back in with his discharge documents and he was all set to go home.

Once he got outside the hospital he was just about to call Aman to ask him to come and pick him up when he saw that Aman was already waiting there for him with the car. Wordlessly Arnav got into the car and let Aman drive him back to his hotel room. When Arnav got to his hotel room he was expecting to find her there. But she was nowhere to be seen. Every trace of her had been removed. The only evidence to show that she had been there was his clothes and the dress she had worn freshly washed and neatly folded on his bed.

Arnav could not explain the feeling but he had a restless feeling inside him since he had told her to leave the hospital. He couldn't explain it but a feeling of unrest had settled in his stomach. It felt as if his words had more finality in them that he had intended and that she really would get the f**k out of his life. He admonished himself for thinking such a thought and tried to block it out but for some reason he couldn't.

He had only ever felt like this once before in his life and that was when his Di became ill. He hated the feeling of losing her and not being able to do anything about it. He thought that he had left that feeling behind him now. Never did he think that he would feel like that for anyone especially not for this girl of all people…

Khushi walked aimlessly through all the headstones. She didn't have to check where she was going. She knew where she was going she could navigate her way there with her eyes closed. It was the only place that she could go to that offered her some degree of solace when she was in despair. As she got closer she could not help but let the tears fall. She had composed herself so well in front of Arnav but it was hard when she came here. She moved closer and sat down next to the gravestones of her Ammi and Baba. Two living breathing happy souls. This was all that was left of them now. Two gravestones and two graves where the only evidence of their existence in the world. She needed them now more than ever but they weren't here. She couldn't even feel their presence around her right now. And she felt from what she had done that her best friend, God too had removed his hand from over her head and she no longer had his blessings…

A jolt of light came from the sky seconds before thunder ripped through the sky along with it removing Arnav from his thoughts. On a normal day if that girl had invaded his thoughts and made him think of her then he would have done something to make her pay. But this time he couldn't. He just did not have the energy to. As much as he tried to not acknowledge that fact he convinced himself that the only reason that he did not have the energy to hurt her today was because he had been hospitalised for 48 hours and that he sucked the life out of him. Arnav then decided to turn his phone on silent and headed for the shower…

The rain began to pour down not long after the thunder had appeared. Khushi made no attempts to move. She just sat there with her head lying on her parents grave stone whilst the rain fell down and took in her tears. Before when Khushi use to come here and cry and it use to rain she use to tell herself that this was God sitting there crying with her. But today she did not think it was possible. Today she did not think God was crying with her. She had neglected God for her Aranvjii for quite some time now that she did not think it was possible for God to sympathise with her anymore.

Scared and terrified Khushi knew she had to try. She had to try to make God understand why she had done it. Why she had abandoned her faith the strongest thing she had her God, for the sake of an ordinary man. She felt that if hse explained herself to God then maybe just maybe, God would restore her connection again with her parents soo that she could feel their presence once more…

Arnav came out of the shower feeling refreshed but not any better. That feeling… it was still there. He just… he did not want to think of it anymore. He could feel another headache coming up due to the complexity of the situation and so to avoid thinking about it he decided to drown himself in work.

Loading up his computer and logging onto his e-mails he saw that his inbox was over flowing. Damn not checking your emails for 48 hours did have its setbacks. But this was good thought Arnav. If he drowned himself in work then he would not be able to think about her. And so that what Arnav did in to the late hours of the night and the early hours of the day…

Listen to this song as you read the next part: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLUWpt64GMc trust me it will really help set the mood.

Khushi's hands trembled. They trembled as she put them together in a praying position as she kneeled down in a prostrating manner and closed her eyes. Before Arnav she use to do this all the time. But since she had been with him she hadn't done this in so long. But being here now doing this once more she felt the familiarity of her undying faith in God come back to her. She closed her eyes once more and prayed.

Dear God if you are listening, I know you must be furious with me right now. I know you are because my parents, their presence I can't feel it anymore. I can't feel you anymore either. I need your hand over my head in blessing once more. Please God?

I know that I Did a terrible thing but I just… I fell in love God. Surely You can understand that? You can understand how strong love is as You are the creator of it. I didn't ask to fall in love with him God You know that don't You? You know how important my faith was to me, is to me… You know that because of the countless during the day I would confined in You, pray to You and ask You for help. I need You like I need oxygen.

But God now there is someone else in my life who I need almost as much as I need You. I need him. I need Arnavji. I need my husband. I know that You probably won't grant me that wish because of what I have done. And I am not that selfish to ask you to bring him back to me knowing that he doesn't want to be with me. But God I just needed You to understand because You are the only one who can support me through this. The world may not understand because not everyone in this world has felt love but I know You have. I know that You know what love feels like . And I also know that You know just how strong it is.

I am sorry that my love for him turned me negligent towards You. I am so sorry. But I am here again because I have once more seen your strength. I saw You take him to the brink of death and then bring him back to me. I nearly died seeing him like that. For a second I felt like everything that I needed, my whole world was being snatched away from me. But then you brought him back and I will be eternally grateful to you for that.

But God I need you to heal him. Whatever happened to him I need you to heal it. He is somehow related to Anjali, something also happened with his mother too I just need you to heal him please? No matter what anyone says I know that he is a good person. I saw it. I felt it. And I know that You know that too. I have seen your miracles happen in front of my eyes countless times before so please just perform another and erase the pain from his life. If You need to give his pain to someone then give it to me please God.

I can't even feel my parents presence around me anymore I need them back. God them and You are all I have left. Another soul is growing inside me and that soul is not to be blamed for anything so please God for the sake of that soul let me please be able to feel my parent's presence around me once more so that I will have the strength to go on please?

And more than anything please forgive me God. Please, please, please forgive me? Prayed Khushi as she collapsed onto the headstones of her parents and rested her head on there as she cried silently still praying to God…

Arnav's phone remained on silent so he could not see the amount of missed calls he had gotten. If only Arnav checked. If only he checked his phone at that particular moment. He could have spared himself and another a whole lot of heartache. If only. If only he had checked his phone. If only…

Khushi did not know how long she had laid there in the wet muddy grave yard crying and praying. The rain had come and gone and all had dried up; all but Khushi's tears. Khushi was so deeply engrossed in her prayers that at first she couldn't feel it. But after a couple of seconds she felt it and when she did she bolted upright. She felt it again. That cool, calming, soothing gust of air. It was what she felt every time she came her. And when she use to feel that gust of air it would caresses her hair oh so lightly and it would feel as if her mother was caressing her hair just like she used to when she was a little girl…Khushi did nothing she just sat there with her eyes closed and let herself get lost in that wind, in that feeling with a smile on her face.

She smiled because she knew. She knew that God had forgiven her. And for her that was enough. She now had her best friend side by side with her again. And He would offer her strength and support. Strength and support, to face the world once more. And not only that but her parents. She had a feeling that her parents too had forgiven her. And so in that instance sitting there with her eyes closed and one hand firmly on her womb and the other on her parents gravestone with a smile on her face with God's hand over her head once more side by side with her parent's she let herself get lost in that feeling. Because she knew, she knew that right in that moment she had everyone that she needed by her side there with her once more aiding her in this battle she called her life…

And so here it was finally an update. This was nine pages on MS Word by far my longest update up to date. I am not even going to ask for comments or like for this chapter (even though it would be nice to get some) for this chapter I am just going to ask you guys to pray for my niece and pray that she has a happy and healthy life ahead of her. And pray for my Di too who has made me a proud aunty of such a cute baby.

Having said that today was the first day I have had off in so long. And the first thing that I did was update for you guys as my way of saying thank you for sticking by me and making COL such a success.

PS. This has not been edited properly so apologises for all the grammatical errors.

Happy belated new year to you all. 🤗