Infinite December..thread 2..#38 pg70 - Page 38

Sw: I am so sorry Sharon… but I have no choice…. I cannot afford to lose you……. Tum mere sab kuch ho Sharon…. I cannot live without you……* tears rolling down his face*

Swayam moves and hugs Sharon by her waist and whispered near her stomach…

Sw: hey buddy * choke*…. Daddy… daddy loves you…. But he has no choice….. please don't hate him….. he loves you a lot….. but ..but he loves you mommy too.. and wants to keep her safe….. and they say that she wont be safe if she have you…… please buddy… don't hate us…..i..i…

He just burries his head in her stomach and cries.

Sh: Swa..Swayam???

He looks up at her with his bloodshot eyes.

Sw: Sharon…

Sh: Swayam… what did you just say?? What will happen to me Swayam???...

Sw: woh… kuch…kuch nahi…

Sh: TELL ME DAMNIT!!!! * grabbing his collar*

Sw: * in between his sobs* woh… doctor ne kaha tha….ki…ki we shouldn't have a second baby….because…..be..because then..i ..i ..might lose you….Sharon… I don't want to lose you…. I wont be able to live… I know that I am being selfish…but …but.. I love you…and want you…..i..i…

Sh: Ssshhh!!!! Swayam……chup ho jao…chup… rona band karo.. * wipes his tears away…*….

Sw: Sharon… I love you…..

Sh: I love you too swayam….. I love you too….

Swayam just climbes onto the bed and sleeps off with his head on her lap……..

"Swayam….Swayam…" someone called out. Swayam opened his eyes and looked at the blured image of a person in front of him. He closed his and opened them again, acquiring a clear image of the person in front of him.

Sw: ma….aap.??? *confused*

SS: haan…. Tum..tum yaha kya kar rehe ho?? And that too this late??

Swayam just looked at her , confused. Then he looked around and found himself in his study. He must have fallen asleep there. Then, …Then that meant he never talked to Sharon… that… that ..was just ..a…dream. She didn't know… nothing was right…

SS: Swayam.. beta ..kaha khogaye ho tum…??? Are you alright???? I have been noticing you and Sharon for a while now. Ever since you guys came back from your vacation , you have been behaving real weird. And today…. You just go off just like that… Your father is really upset with this action of yours , you know…

Sw: maa… I am sorry… I .. I needed sometime alone…ma.. I just want to go and sleep right now… can we please talk later….

Saying this he walks off to his room. Sharon was already asleep. Swayam remembered his dream. He wanted to go up to her and tell her everything, but he didn't. Instead he just climbed onto his side of the bed and closed his eyes, hoping that sleep would come. But that was not easy. Her fragrance was engulfing him, pulling him towards her. He just wanted to gather her in his arms and cry his heart out, telling her how much he loved her and their baby, and why he was doing all this. But he couldn't. He knew that she wouldn't be able to handle it. He knew that it would kill her to know this. He also knew that if she knew the reason, then there would be now freaking way that she would let this baby go. With all these thoughts clouding his mind, he slowly slipped into sleep, not a peacefull one though.

The next morning…

Swayam woke up just to find Sharon staring at him. She tried to maintain a plain , emotionless face but she couldn't hide her sorrow from him. She could fool anyone else with that expression but not him. He wanted to take away her misery , but sadly he couldn't. He couldn't because he was the reason for this misery. Sharon just gets up and walks towards the door …..

Sw: Sha..Sharon…

Sh: *turns..smiles sarcastically* oh.. toh you remember my name. Swayam..what is your problem??? Tumhe pata hai … I was so tensed yesterday.. ek ..ek phone nahi kar sakte the kya???... mom dad kitne pareshan the…. Par tumhe kya.. you don't care about anyone but your damn self……

Sw: *raising his voice* Sharon.. SHUT UP..

Sh: No…NO SWAYAM… I am going to speak today.. I want to know what your problem is??? Why do you want me to kill our child ..?? OUR CHILD SWAYAM..OUR…

SW: Sharon just shut up.. *throws a vase down*

*knock* *knock*

Swayam and Sharon , both , turn towards the door. Ridhima was standing there.

Ridz: can I ..umm… come in??? or is it a bad time??

Sw: umm.. nahi ..ridz…come…come in….

Ridhima comes in and looks at both of them…. She saw Sharon's tear stained face and the broken vase…and the anger blazing in her eyes…

Sh: Swayam… I want an answer for my question…

Sw: Sharon..we'll talk later…

Sh: no.. I want an answer now…

Ridz: umm.. you guys talk.. I'll come later……

Sw: no bhabi… its alright… stay.. please *looks at her pleading with his eyes*

Sh: SWAYAM…. WHY THE HELL DO YOU WANT TO ABORT OUR CHILD?????? Yeah di… he wants to do that….i.. I just want to know why

Ridhima looked at him and nodded...

Ridz: Sammy…. Tell her……

Swayam just stared back at her disbelievingly ….

Sh: tell me what??? Tell me what damnit….??

Ridz: you tell her now…or else I will….

Sw: she wont understand… She wont be able to handle it…

Sh: handle what damnit….???... tell me… * catching him by his collar*

Ridz: Sharon… this baby… this baby can kill you…..

Sharon just froze… she couldn't grasp what was told to her… were they crazy??? How can they say that???

Sh:…wa..what???

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