SS: Living Without You: Part 27 updated - Page 11

Smita🤗
congoz on new thread!

Beautiful updates!I loved them.
Khushi's confusion about her feelings..Arnav making her realise..WOW!Dhak Dhak..Holi revisitd😍
'..Humari dhadkan ek ho jaati hai..'❤️
And I so loved Arnav line at end'...its about Us..'❤️

Beautiful words.. "There is no U and me, only US!!" Total romantic!

congrats on new thread. thank u. loved their talk and hug.😊

Oh my! Revisiting Holi! I love it!! Thanks for the PM! And congrats on the new thread! :)

Congrats on the 2nd thread 👏

No doubt the last line of Arnav was fantastic!! Aww...the way he says it...totally in love!!

Loved it Smita. You are superb.

Congrats for new thread.. Superb parts..

Part 19

Khushi stood looking at him, realising that running away from him was never going to work. The problems between them had to be dealt with. They were in too deep for quibbling.

She tugged at her hand. He let her go reluctantly.

"What do you think of me?", she asked.

Relief eased through his veins like a pain killer. She was willing to ask and to listen.

"The most beautiful girl on earth...made for me..."

He lifted his hand towards her face, but she leaned back. His arm dropped. Her head was spinning as it was. The last thing she needed was his touch to confuse her further.

"And?"

"You have immense courage. Only you are brave enough to play with the lion, put her head in to his mouth..."

"And?"

"Thodi Pagal, Bahut Nadaan...", his voice sounded like honey.

"And?"

"Made for me, only me..." His possessive eyes ran all over her.

She gulped. "And?"

"Your commitment to your family is absolute."

"And?"

"You love my family."

"And?"

"You love me. With every fiber of your being."

(Thanx, UltimateBarun!)

She looked at him. A while later, she asked, "And?"

"You have a fine sense of what is right and wrong. You deviate from the straight and narrow path only out of love for your loved ones."

"If I am such a principled person, why did you trick me in to a live-in? Didn't you know what it would do to my life, my reputation, my family? How could you play with my life and future to satisfy your ego?", she asked to know, not to vent.

Arnav caught hold of her arm and led her to the bed. He sat down beside her.

"On Payal and Akash's wedding day, I left you and went down to meet Nani. It was then that I found out that Di had gone to the temple a couple of hours ago and hadn't returned. I got a phone call from the police that she had been involved in an accident and the car was in a bad shape."

She drew in a sharp breath, and he paused.

"I ran out of the house to get to her, and found her standing outside the door, her arm bandaged, her body bruised, her sari torn in places. She was distraught..." He shook his head as though to get rid of the pictures from his mind. She touched his arm. He quickly caught hold of her fingers in his.

"I took her to her room. We cried and talked for a while. She knew how much I loved you, and didn't want me to waste time dithering. So she asked me to enjoy every moment of my life as though it were my last, to ask for what I wanted before it got too late. I left her, determined to get you alone. I wanted to propose to you..."

Tears fell down her cheeks. Her eyes closed in anguish.

"I saw you go up to the terrace. I followed you, but was stopped a couple of times by the guests. When I got to the terrace, I saw you in the arms of Shyam. I heard him declare that my sister meant nothing to him and that he loved you. Before I could digest that, I heard you ask him why he didn't leave my sister." He sighed. She held his hand tighter still.

(Thanx Aquiline)

"I was devastated. For myself and my sister. Everything that I had believed came down crashing around my ears that moment. My Jiju for whom I had the utmost respect was nothing more than a sleazebag. My sister who worshiped her husband was going to have her life turned upside down. The girl I loved had been pretending to care for me while she had been having an affair with my Jijaji under my nose. My whole life, my family, my heart... Khushi, I lost everything I had in one moment... Just one moment...

I had no time to take it in, Khushi. I had no time to think, no time to even wonder which wound hurt me more, your betrayal of me or Jijaji's betrayal of my sister. I had time only to react. And action had to be taken fast. There was no time to be wasted.

I confronted that rat who told me that you loved him and that he was going to leave Di for you. I had no time to verify the facts, Khushi. I needed to warn Di. And when I went to her, as I was about to tell her the truth, she fainted. She was pregnant. It was the last blow, Khushi... My hands were tied. I couldn't kick him out, atleast till the baby was born. I had to keep him at home and away from you.

I came down, and saw you standing with NK and Akash. You smiled at me. The pain of losing you, knowing that you loved someone else and not me, the knowledge that I had to keep you away from that scoundrel for 6 months, atleast till Di gave birth, the realisation that all your smiles had been false...

I went crazy, Khushi. I wanted you... With me... A part of me. I was not willing to even think of you going away from me."

He looked at Khushi, with pleading eyes. "I had never fallen in love before, Khushi. I didn't even know that this feeling existed. And when it hit me, it hit with such a force that I couldn't control it. It was bigger than me. All I knew was that you were leaving me, and I couldn't bear that. I just knew that you were mine, as much as I was yours. I felt I would die, I wouldn't be able to breathe...

You smiled at me, Khushi, and I knew that I couldn't lose you. I rang up the priest at the temple and asked him to leave me a mangalsutra at the feet of your Devi Maiyya. I intended to marry you, Khushi. But at the last minute, I realised that I would be doing you too much damage, tying you down in a relationship you didn't want. You deserved to be free, to be happy...That is why I specified 6 months, and ensured that the priest wasn't there and that we didn't have any witnesses. I knew in my heart that the mangalsutra and sindoor would stop you from accepting Shyam as a lover atleast when you thought yourself married to me."

He smiled at Khushi in a wry manner.

"I was confused. I wanted to keep you with me. I also wanted to free you to seek your happiness... I was crazy, Khushi... It was never your fault. It was always mine. My pathetic life, my bad judgement, my family and its problems, my anger, my prejudiced world view... But I never intended to harm you, Khushi. I never thought of it as a live-in..."

They sat silent in the cold, huddled against each other on the bed. Finally, Arnav said, "I hurt you, Khushi. I harmed your family's reputation. I destroyed your life. Not intentionally, but I did it."

He cupped her face in his hands and looked deep into her eyes.

"But Khushi, had I told you that I was in trouble and that the only way out was you entering in a live-in with me, do you know what you would have done? You would have agreed to it without sparing a thought for your family, reputation, or life. You would have given up everything you held dear, just for me. That's how much you love me, Khushi..."

He kissed her on her forehead.

Part 20:

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/fan-fictions/2990495/ss-living-without-you-part-27-updated?pn=35

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Awww! I'm glad Khushi stopped running away from her feelings and him! They needed to have this conversation. But Arnav is so cocky in the knowledge that she loves him inspite of everything he has done to her! :) She already understands his situation but the live in was the only thing that was hurting her more than anything. Now I wonder how she will react to his version of the whole situation. Will she believe that he only wanted the best for her, that he loved he all this while? Cant wait! :)