Dil V/s Mind - A Swaron SS!! - Page 12

I came home tired, well for the first time I was surprised to realize that even mental strain can be so much tiring than physical strain. Enough tug of war today, was what I thought.

I decided to freshen up and have a shower, so I had a shower which cooled me to an extent, wore a comfortable shorts and a tee, and decided to snack on something. I just remembered that since what seemed to be a forever time, I was on a fast, not that I do fasting, but well thanks to the dominacnce of dil vs mind, I didn't pay attention to anything else.

Now that my tummy had a chance, it growled and sent a signal. So I made a sandwich and ate it, was satisfactory and decided to do my favourite hot chocolate. Well I took somethings fast, and within minutes was ready with a great glass of a drink, which seemed chocolate by no angle. What was it then? Certainly magic wasn't possible, here that someone jjust gave my chocolate a transformation spell. I looked bewildered and just tasted it, it was an amazing drink well it was the best cold coffee I tasted after ages. It felt so good and refreshing!

I drank it and amidst it..I had a thought which I shook away, because I wanted to get lost in the taste of coffee and let nothing ruin it and have some peaceful time for gods sake.

Well I had my great moment and enjoyed it thoroughly, and then I froze. Did I just have coffee? I questioned myself, and yes I did and enjoyed it, after ages..I drank coffee, I never did for some reason! Plus I had promised and owed I wouldn't drink coffee to someone, and had possibly broken someone's heart I clearly remembered'just a year back!

When I felt all was peaceful, actually it wasn't, my mind and heart were in a full war mode today, till I didn't give a firm decision..

Well it was Coffee with Swayam, and the memories didn't stop..it was exactly one year back,

Flashback:

It was a rainy day, and it was raining heavily outside!! I and Swayam had to work on our project together. So Swayam had come at my home. We were amidst the discussion when Swayam had said that we needed to take a break, and after sometime I had agreed. Our project was almost done. I somehow liked Swayam I guess since that time or before that, but never wanted to accept it, possibly I didn't have the guts or due to some reason I didn't know.

Swayam suggested we have cold coffee, and I questioned him that in rains we must have something hot like hot chocolate. It was my favourite. Swayam had told that sometimes in life you should do the things for fun of it and let yourself be a off guard.

Well he made cold coffee for both of us and I had enjoyed it then with his random discussions and talks, and he had showed me how to make it, as I hardly ever made it.

Then Swayam was explaining to me that sometimes you should enjoy life in a different way, like just be yourself and do things because you want to try them and experience them. He told me that I was a perfectionist always and sometimes I should give time to myself and experience certain things, and get myself off guard, just as I had cold coffee..

That was when I lost my temper, afterall I was Sharon Raiprakash and this person was telling me to experience some other side of me, and be off guard. I have put years of effort and dedication to build this image and a reputation, and being perfect..I cant just lose it in sometime! I had got very angry and told him that, then'he had tried to explain to me, that he didn't mean it that way or hurt her, but when I lose my anger I am in no mood to listen anything!

That was also a time when I had a tug of war in my dil and Mind. Where somewhere, my heart had told me, why not give a try to what he is saying'afterall it wasn't wrong! I did have somethings which I didn't experience and wanted to, so why not now? At least I can enjoy or have the satisfaction of trying them.

But then my mind had dominated, saying that I just couldn't lose my reputation and do something as mad as experiencing certain things. I had a way and logic in everything and it simply should go that way to be right. So we just got done with the project, and I had screamed on him and blasted him, to give such ideas. I had also stopped talking to him almost completely, which was too tough for me. That was the time to show my stand I told him that drinking cold coffee in rains was illogical and by mistake I came in his talks and drank it, but I would just give up drinking cold coffee forever..and that basically meant I was never gonna be off my guard and try out different things as he had said.

My heart had lost to the mind then.

Well that was it, I got too carried away with the flashback, that was a year before and today I was in the same situation'just with no Swayam around me now! But the same fight, though I had pretty much given in sometimes today, now this was the most crucial decision of my life. I guess I can just wipe it away as that time and let the mind win over again..afterall my reputation was important wasn't it?? My mind asked dominatingly again'

Well that's it guys. I do tell, writing is not my thing I guess'cos the flow is slow for me. So have patience. Hope u liked this part. Comments and criticism is welcome!

Amazing update, worth the wait i would say.

So the Dil/Mind battle is still on, but one can clearly vision the dil leading to glory. Loved how you tied in the drinks to her inner turmoil keeping her battle alive. She drinking the cold coffee and actually finding it refreshing and enjoying it was sure a win to the Dil team.

Sharon thinking of Swayam beautifully shown. The same situation but with no Swayam and yet even after a year Sharon's thought drifting away to him.

Sharon was caught off guard and has started enjoying cold coffee.

Beautifully written👍🏼 waiting for the next update.