SS-Mrs &Mr ASR-Until Death does us apart P7 PG 84 - Page 32

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Chapter 5

She wanted to get up but she felt an inexplicable weight on her which pulled her down. However it was more of a pleasant feeling. She made one mighty effort to open her eyelids heavy with sleep & realized with a shock that the pleasant weight on top of her was actually an intoxicatingly familiar body crushing her. He had his face resting lightly on her breasts, his hand was hugging her waist lovingly & his right leg was hooked around her legs. She started fidgeting nervously. His presence as usual drove her madly senseless & she dint want him to find her this weak & vulnerable. God knows how much he would hurt her if he realized the effect of his presence, his intense gaze, his touch, his kiss. She shuddered with pleasure when she relived those blissful moments yesterday night & was appalled to find him waking up slowly.

It took some time for him to realize who he was crushing after which each cell in his body was attuned to her every moment. He had a mad urge to kiss every inch of that soft frame pressed against him. He wanted to hug her & never let go. He wanted to lock her up in his room & make love to her till both of them faint in exhaustion. He was delirious, with pleasure raking every part of his body. He knew he loved her, wanted her. But this thirst, this urge to possess her, devour her, breathe her in shocked him. Was he a lusting maniac he wondered? He had never felt like this before. He was scared of the emotions she evoked in him. This was not just lust or physical attraction. This was something totally out of the world. But his mind interrupted his loving fantasies & he closed his eyes wearily. Why did his mind always try to tug him in a diametrically opposite direction of his heart. Why was he still unable to surrender completely to her, why did he still have those nagging doubts in his mind, why couldn't he just TRUST her completely. He opened his eyes to find her looking up at him in a quizzical manner. He averted his eyes & immediately felt her shift under him.

She was trying to read those myriad emotions flitting across his face. She saw tenderness, love, passion, thirst, confusion & finally guilt. She was initially baffled & then slowly enlightenment dawned on her. She let out an angry growl & wrenched herself away. He saw as if in a daze as she slapped him real hard. To say that he was stunned was the understatement of the century. His ears were actually ringing from the impact. She threw him a disgusted expression & started dressing rapidly. She was almost near the bathroom door when he came out of his trance & ran to catch her. She uttered another guttural growl & tried to shake him off.

"Don't you dare touch me" she screamed.

"Kushi please……………………"

"Don't you dare open your mouth. After all that had transpired between us you are still unable to trust me. You disgust me RAIZADA. I absolutely loath you."

"But Kushi I love…………………..."

She interrupted him again & pushed him away.

"Don't you dare say that you love me. Coming from your lips the word sounds twisted & perverted. Maybe all you wanted was my body just like your wonderful jiju."

It was as if she had slapped him again. But the pain that her words caused was more than that caused earlier by her palm crashing against his cheek. Finally he understood what people meant when they said that words can cut you & hurt you more than physical abuse. He just stared at her in shock.

"Today you made me feel like a filthy wh**e. I never thought I would say this to you but finally the day has come. I hate you. Do you understand I really hate you & wish I had never met you. You not only made me hate you & my family but you have made me hate myself. Today I feel as if my body & my soul has been violated, sullied. I am disgusted with myself. I just want to die!"

She closed the bathroom door with a bang, crashed to the floor & started sobbing her heart out. When she finally came out ages later she found him sitting on the floor, eyes closed, head resting heavily on the bed. She ignored him completely & stormed out. As if in automaton he got ready & left without eating his breakfast. She dint seem to care & her indifference & hatred broke his heart. Finally he understood the pain that he had caused her all this while with his fake indifference & hatred. He was getting a taste of his own medicine & he was shaken.

She rushed to the kitchen to get a grip on herself. His face had been ashen almost dead. She realized that today she had effectively killed him with her words. She saw him walking in a numb manner not taking in anything going around him & she felt a fresh stab of pain in her heart. In a daze she saw him refusing breakfast, not replying to Anjali & leave. In fact he was trudging in a weary manner, clutching his laptop in a disconsolate manner & all she wanted to do was rush to his side & hug him, comfort him. But she stopped herself in the last minute. No Kushi be strong. Don't let him affect you ever again. He doesn't deserve your love. But he loves you as well a soft voice whispered in her ears & she felt tears threatening to breach her eyes again. She hated him for not trusting her. How could he love her & yet not trust her. She wanted to shake him by his collar & pound some sense into his brain.

"I told you Kushiji that marrying him was a big mistake."

Her eyes jerked open to find the creep leaning against the counter dangerously close to her. He grabbed her hand & she wrenched it violently from his grip.

"Don't you dare touch me else I will scream."

"Scream away to your heart's content Kushiji because no one is around. Everyone has left to the temple to pray for the wellbeing of the family. I told Rani sahiba that I will fetch you in a separate car since it was getting late for them." He leered at her & she rushed out of the kitchen.

She was really scared now. She reached her room, locked it & searched frantically for her mobile. She started dialing the number of the only person who truly cared about her but she only got the infuriating message that his mobile was switched off.

"Please Arnavji please answer the phone, Please…………" she was actually crying loudly.

"Ah I told you not to trust saale saab. He is very unreliable you know."

She turned around to find the lecher entering via the French windows & she dropped the phone in panic.

"Don't you dare come near me. If Arnavji finds out he will murder you with his bare hands."

"Oh I don't care as long as I get to sleep with you before that. I am sure saale saab would not have even come near you. You see I have totally misled him by pretending that our love was mutual. He thinks that you were also a consenting party in this crime, happily willing to cheat him & his family."

Kushi was shaking with anger.

"How dare you lie about me. Forget about Arnavji. Guess I will kill you myself. If it had not been for Anjali Di either of us would have killed you long back without any qualms. You don't deserve to live."

"Ah Kushiji lets not waste energy in idle talks. Being a lawyer I am just fed up with lengthy lectures even at home. It's time for some action. You can continue with your shouting contest later! I have always felt………………….."

But what exactly he felt remained unsaid since Payal had by then stuck him on his head with a vase that was lying on the coffee table. Kushi was stunned momentarily before she rushed to her & hugged her tightly. Payal patted her with a grim expression on her face.

"The moment that pervert said he will fetch you I freaked out. I started panicking in the car & finally cooked up some excuse to Aakashji & rushed back. Thank God I came at the right time." Kushi dint answer & continued to cry on her shoulders.

Arnav wanted to shout, scream, bang his fists on the walls & probably kill himself. Kushi was right. He had indeed treated her like a wh**e. He plonked on the chair & massaged his temples to shake the throbbing headache off. He rubbed his cheeks where she had slapped him in anger.

He had been in a string of meetings from morning & lack of food was worsening his condition. He just wanted to lie down for some time with no interruptions or noise. His room door opened with a crash & he was surprised to find NK standing there with a furious look on his face. Arnav groaned loudly. There goes peace, quiet & lack of interruptions he thought resignedly.

"NK I am very busy & also tired. Come later."

NK strode angrily in & pulled up in front of his desk.

"Well Nanav I have something very urgent to discuss with you. It's about Kushiji & jij…………… I mean Shyam. I suggest that you have a look at this video."

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Well guys i know that u guys ll b furious with me aft this update. Many of u had already commented hoping that arnav doesnt go back 2 square 1 the morning after. But kya karen he always finds it difficult 2 trust people. He is a v complicated guy & i know currently all of u mayb angry with him like kushi. Its quite justified but plz dont hate him too much. Remember he is flawed just like you & me.

Go on start throwing asr's favourite karelas on me. i ll take them all 😳