ArHi FF: The tears I've cried/ ALTERNATE Ending. - Page 6

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Chapter 5

You are all fair, my love;

there is no flaw in you.

S O N G O F S O L O M O N 4 : 7

"You think I don't know what love is. You appoint yourself God, Arnav, to teach me a lesson. That love is stupid. I learned a different lesson long before I knew you.

"I was fourteen. A servant came to my room and told me my mother wanted to see me. She had been ill for so long and I had hardly seen her in weeks. I was so excited I ran down the long hallways.

"I walked to her bed, confused, because something was different about the room. mamma lay against the pillows, and she looked so tired and pale, and smaller than I remembered. I had always thought of her as tall and beautiful. Then she turned to me and smiled, brilliantly, as if she weren't ill, but instead was healthy and calling me over to see some special thing for just the two of us to share.

"She patted the bed next to her, and I remember crawling up there. She only held me, and for the longest time. I felt safe, and it had been so very long since I'd been held by her or felt that security. It seemed too short a time when my father cleared his throat and said I should let her rest. I kissed her goodnight and started to climb down, but she stopped me and held my face in her thin hands, then she just looked at me as if she wanted to memorize my face."

Khushi stopped then because her voice cracked. He heard her take two long breaths that laboured in her chest.

"I got into bed and I can remember lying there in the dark and I suddenly thought, what would I ever do if she died? She had been ill for so long I suppose I had accepted her illness as part of our life. I hadn't thought about it as being a part of death.

But I lay there shaking and afraid to think about it because by doing so I might make it happen."

"The next morning I was told mamma died at nine o'clock." She paused and in a choked voice added, "In my excitement the night before, because the child in me needed to be held, I never had the chance, once more, to tell her that I loved her.

"I can't walk away from someone I love without saying 'I love you' one last time. I've known how very much I've loved you for a long time. You think I'm a child and I know nothing about the world or about love. But I know about love. I know about loss. And I know about loneliness, and goodbyes, and about never being able to voice those feelings again.

"Perhaps you've said those words, Arnav, and not meant them. But I never have."

But you're right. We should not marry. Not without considering the consequences. I would always be your failure, Arnav. An embarrassment. Never entirely worthy of you.

Not in your eyes.

And there would come a day when I would not feel worthy in my own." As she spoke the words, she was struck by the realization that she finally understood what it was she wanted from her life. From her future. "I deserve better. I deserve more. And so do you.

I gave you my heart Arnav. That's all that I can give. And if that's not enough for you, then I'm not enough for you.

The door clicked closed, leaving him standing alone in the bleakness of the music room. He still stared up at the ceiling, his shoulders straight, his back stiff. And tears streaming from the corners of his eyes.

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