MAHSOOS- (M & G) THREAD 6 - Page 21

wow... how long will you take???

Alarm buzzed through out the master bedroom. Echoing. Geet flew open her eyes only to see a dark room. All the curtain blocked the strong sunlight, but still a beem managed to penetrate through the thick cotton to touch a part of the bed. She blinks few time to get rid of the feel of sleep that was gliding in her eyes. Her hand felt on the cress of the bed where maan probably have been sleeping. "maan..."
She looks from one direction to another. "maan?" she gets up and opens all three door but there whole room was empty. "maan..." she sits down on the sofa. It's Saturday, and surly, she have expected him to be home. It's 11am! God knows how much she was sleeping to. Geet shouts again... "maan..."
Then suddenly her eyes fell on his diary...

She sat on the couch, leg crossed and tried to read the diary. It's hard. She know something but reading like maan, that would never worked.

Soon after a click of the door nearly made her drop the book she was holding. It's no other then maan. The noise made him curious and it was clearly visible on his face. She was still scared that the anger is still there.
"au..." she rests the diary on the table. "I- I couldn't find you!"
"hmm..."
"I-" geet stood up, she still wanted to know the reason behind when he blurted out he is scarred of her love. Those words ripped her heart apart, but maan was also surpassing his anger.
"maan... Why won't you talk to me?" she bluntly questioned.
"I am talking to you..."
"no... Per.." there was unusual calmness. Something she found it rather new after 3 days.
"it's a bit to late for breakfast. Everyone is waiting for us for lunch!" geet bit her tongue. How long she was sleeping for?

Maan walked in to his study, picking up his diary which was rather in odd position. He clearly remember how he left it. He opens last few pages, feeling what exactly he wrote.

He was so angry, so heart so much in pain but it seems like it all have disappeared yet not fully! "hmm..." it only required geets one word to be furious and. It only required geets one word to calm him. It's surprising how much she effects him. Yes the anger, he won't deny, the pain was still there with those words but after yesterday, it felt soothing in a extent.

But the question is why it made him so much angry? Was it because geet is so close to his heart, that one word from her lips shatters the deep emotion he posses for her or was it simply. Because he feared she will be distant from him.
Geets payel brought back life in maan. "I- i was wondering why can't we go out for lunch?"
"umm..."
Geet still felt he was to quit, even though there was little softness but still to quit.
"please..". She comes down and sits next to him. Maybe they required time and talk, and break this wall of silent and along with his anger. Maybe he should scream at her or something like that.
"au.."
"please..."

Maan didn't say no. Much as her, he also wanted to spend some time, maybe understand her little more. When she spoke to her friends, he felt so loved, almost it didn't matter.
"ok..."


The car moved rather slowly to maan. He anticipation waited or even tell the driver off. He picks the phone up from the side and, it wasn't shout but nor it was quit gesture.

Maan leans back to the leather seat. And lazily faces towards the window, concentrating towards the noise.
Geet observed him, faintly smiling. At least he took her out.

Car came to a private resort. It was rather a beautiful view. "this is pretty..." she tells maan. As they stepped in, she realized it's a small cottage. Private small cottage. She walked in, it's a glass house, facing at the big lake that laid few feet below. Table was already covered with lunch. It smelled amazing.

Maan just felt every vibration of geets moving foot. The the noise of the chair...
"maan... Thank you..."

He sat opposite, they silently ate...

Geet hesitate to start the conversation, she twists her lips, "maan, I - are you still mad about that thing? I can't- u can't see you upset, see you this low... Please why can't we be like - we were before..." she looked at his hard face. "I I really didn't mean anything... Why- why are you scared of my love?" maan stands up and was about to leave but geet comes along and instantly stops him.
"I - I really didn't mean any of those words... I... I.."

"you hurt me allot geet!" a sudden silent covered the whole area. as geets hand falls to her side.
"I never thought you could say such thing... Not at-least now!" he backs way a little. "you have hurt me, hurt me allot. his black eyes looked directly at somewhere, with pain clearly visible.

Maan impatiently looked at the black. No matter how much he hers that she loves him, no matter how much they share there feeling, the fact is she have thought about those words even after what they shared.

Maan closed his black eyes with the pain, it was still there lingering somewhere. Every time he remembers the words a piece of his heart dies. "I am scared, I am scared what you call love... Do you love me? Am I the love of your life? Am I the perfect person that you always have dreamed of... What If instead of me, you married someone els... Would you fall in love with that person exactly the way you love me? a blind man"
His each questioned shocked geet beyond. She looked down with his thought, she looked down deep in her hand, thinking...
Geet pulls her for head skin up, taking a deep breath. She restlessly looked here and there.. Then back to his face.
"why do you love me geet? You hated me. You hated me when you first came to our house... Then what made you whisperer those 3 words to me day after day..."

Maan wasn't sure where exactly he was facing. The worry, the emotions that have taken over his mind wouldn't let this nuisance brain to concentrate any where else.

"what's love to you geet?... Appearance? Or the mahsoos? What am I to you? a joke that you were ashamed of?"

"maan..." geet whispered, she truly did not have any answers.

"when you told your friend you are ashamed, that's what came in my head... That's what made me scared of you... What do you feel for me geet? I can't see you... I can't tell you what color is our life... I can't help you with anything. I am helpless... What do you expect from me geet? I am not like any other guy, who could see to love you... I am not like any other man who will be able to tell you how beautiful you are to me... I am not one of them who could walk with you anywhere... I don't have the ability to enjoy the view, share there experience like any other would. I am not the person who would be a dream man for anyone... Then why do you love me? What is love to you? What is mahsoos to you?"

The only noise that sang along in the room was there pounding heart. Geets chest went up and down in a rhythm that for a moment she thought, this was her last breath.
Silently listening to his plead made her world upside down. Made her think the depth of there relationship...

Wow ...

Res

diii do not create misunderstandings for maaneet..

finally maan speaks up.. 😛
waiti 4 geets reply..
probably dis wil help her understand better d bond dey share..
beautiful mahsoos..!!
updt soon!!

maan had very valid questions to ask. it wud b interesting to c what geet has to say. how she'll understand her luv and explain it to him.

EDITED MY COMMENTS ON PAGE 36 .