Chapter-6
Faded memories
After that dance class,I was in complete illusion that I am in love with Mayank sir.I was happy with this thought and was doing all tits and tricks to spend more time with him.During those practise classes my mind used to engross in finding ways for getting closer to Mayank sir.I did not know what I was expecting,what I was doing and whether it was right or wrong!
But a person who was equally closed to my heart,who always stood there with me in all ups and downs,was worried.It was Gunjan.As she was out of my illusionary aura of love,she could make difference between right and wrong...she could see the thin line between Love and infatuation...she could feel the pain which I would feel to know the reality instead.
15 days of rehearsals...I have faded memories of them in my mind...though they were most adventurous and playful days of my life...I dreamed of my happy life...I was in love and feeling of that made me dreamy and romantic..I started loving all girly stuffs, Bengals,jewellries,girl outfits and specially loving them in pink or red color.My life was colorful...but now I hardly remember anything except those colors!
That was the competition day and I was very excited to perform dance on stage for the first time...since morning we all were getting together in changing room behind the stage...each group was indulged in their own dressing ups,make up,final pratice and all.
Gaurav and me were the pair...so after dressing up in pink,golden gownish frock I was ready to re call our steps with him.He was looking handsom in black suit...Mrs.chawla played the music and we started doing steps lightly.I was waiting for Mayank sir to come...it was 10 A.M and one and half hour left for dance competition to be started...
"Why the hell Mayank sir is late today...!!!"I grumbled.
"Nupur!be serious!"gaurav frowned.
"Sorry!" I diverted my mind towards dance.
After half and hour Mayank sir came,I felt a strange happiness and energy...I almost rushed to him and said,
"Sir!Why are u so late?I was waiting for you..." although I said that in excitement but immediately realized what I said!So I escaped an eye contact,but he caught me escaping eye...
"Why?"he asked.
I had no answer so I said nothing,only looking left and right to find a reason...I did not realized at that time that Mayank sir had sensed about my secret love...he might understood my feelings for him...
"Tell me nupur,why were you waiting for me?"he asked again.
I could'nt find any reason,"I don't know sir!" words escaped from my mouth.I was all wet due to sweat and my palms were cold due to nervousness.
"Nupur,it would be good for you to concentrate on your dance right now...and after that focus in your studies...its the high time for your studies and carrier..."he said.
I could'nt understood why he said that and that was my biggest mistake!
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We were ready for our turn,I was more nervous than others due to my first on stage dance performance...
Our team was called and we moved to stage,"Okay guys All the best!!!"said gaurav and we all shouted,"LETs ROCK!!!"
I looked at Mayank sir ,"All the best"he said and smiled.
I smiled in return and with full of energy,I moved with my team-mates.The curtain raised and song started...
O re piya haye..
O re piya haye..
with a turn,gaurav picked me up and I opened my arms to embrace the love in me...
Udne laga kyon man baawla re
Aaya kahan se yeh hosla re
O re piya haye..
O re piya haye..
smoothly I came down and we a roll we ran apart...with our hands in eachothers...
Tanabana tanabana bunti hawaa haaye bunti hawa
Boondein bhi to aaye nahi baaz yahan
Sagish mein shaamil sara jahan hai
Har zare zare ki yeh iltiza hai...
and I looked at Mayank sir with a proposal of love in my eyes...he was looking at me constantly...as if singning a song for me...
Tumne jo dekha suna sach tha magar...
Itna tha sach yeh kisko pataa..
Jaane tumhe maine koi dhokha diya...
Jaane tumhe koi dhokha hua...
I scared...dhokha...!!! kya ye pyaar dhokha hai...??? tears formed in my eyes...nahi nahi!! ye dhokha nahi ho sakta...I really love Mayank sir...I really love him...my tear filled eyes again glanced him...he was looking at me awkwardly...shayad humari aankho ne bahut kuch kah diya...shayad unhone bahut kuch samjh liya...par jo jaana samjha,unki aankho ne uspe parda daal diya...
My heart was sinking with unknown fear...I was shattering...is Mayank sir understood my feelings...is he angry with me...!kya tha un aankho me gussa,pyaar,nafrat,dukh ya phir kuch nahi...!
Tears were rolling on my cheeks...
Chalna aahiste ishq naya hai
Pehla yeh vada humne kiya hai
O re piya haye..
I was broken,his silent eyes were unbearable for me...and it made me to think where was I wrong!!!For the first time I was regretting on my feelings...
Aisa lag raha hai achanak se akeli ho gayi mai...kahan hai wo pyaar..wo parwaah jo dikh thi un aankho me...kahan hai...
Nange pairo pe angaro
chalti rahi haaye chalti rahi
Lagta hai ke gairo mein
Palti rahi haaye
le chal wahan jo
Mulk tera hai
Jahil zamana
dushman mera hai
O re piya haye..
Today if I look back and think about that day...I could not visualize anything except those silent and blank eyes...!
kabhi qareeb ho tu kahain tumhain..
en lumhon ko yaad kr
en juzbon ko hiyat dey..
mairi beaab zindgi ko chanab dey..
jis main door tuk sehar na ho..
koi raat aisi nawaz day..
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