How could he let a girl do this to him but did she really do anything? She was just being herself and he was being himself, the Arnav he hides from the world. He could not sleep that night. He was restless and was feeling like something deep down was dying all over again. He felt the pain that he felt when his mother died, the pain of losing someone you love and cannot live without.
Next day morning he got ready to get back to his old mundane routine. He joined everyone for breakfast and deep down wanted to see Khushi to ensure that she is fine. But how can she be fine after what he did to her. Anjali broke his chain of thoughts,"Nani aaj Khushiji ka subah phone aya tha. She said that since her job is finished she will not come anymore and also that her wedding is set. Aaj unki engagement hai and maybe within a week she will get married." Arnav choked hearing all this. Anjali rushed to him with water but he just got up and left. Anjali, Nani and La were all shocked to see Arnav react like that. He went straight to his bedroom and again closed his door. He had tears in his eyes. He thought to himself, So Mr.Arnav Singh Raizada you finally succeeded. She is out of your life. You will never see her again, touch her again. She will not eat your head with her nonstop blabbering. You lost her and you are the only one to be blamed. He could feel his knee going weak, feeling light headed, and dizzy. He felt like he was going to die. Everything in front of him was black. Anjali knocked but he had locked the door from inside. He did not want anyone to see him this vulnerable. His feelings were written all over his face. Finally after sometime he went to washroom washed his face and came out. He left for work.
Anjali came to his room with tea after he came back from work. She was getting tensed and worried and thinking if he was doing the right thing. Anjali asked him if he is happy and he replied, yes. Anjali could feel a hesitation in that yes. She turned him around and she could see the same sadness in his eyes which had taken over him after their mother's death. She had lately noticed a glint in his eyes, similar to what he had before that fateful day. She could see that she again lost Arnav but she wondered that Lav is still here then why is there so much pain in eyes. Was he hiding something and was Lav part of ASR's artificial picture perfect world?
Anjali: Chote I forgot to tell you Khushiji got engaged today evening. We could not go but I am excited to attend her wedding next week.
Arnav: Next week (in shock and words hardly coming out of his mouth). Did her family ensure that the guy she is getting married is indeed a good one.
Anjali: I am confiding this just to you but I had a feeling after talking to her when she came home today to say us goodbye that she was sad and not at all happy about this wedding. She is compromising her life for her family. I have always seen Khushiji full of life and spread happiness where ever she went but today I felt as if deep down she is dead, someone broke all her dreams. She said that she does not love her fianc but not everyone is lucky to get married to the one they love and it was time for her to come out of her fairy land. In real life prince don't exit who would save an entrapped princess. I really tried telling her not to get married in haste because it is a matter of life. Her reply shocked me. She said that she was not sure if this life was worth living any more. Since childhood after she lost her parents only one dream has kept her going that one day she will meet that one person who will sweep her off her feet, fill her life with love and happiness and finally she will have that one person who will be her's, just hers. Since she is not lucky to settle with that special person anyone else will be fine to spend life with. Chote I really feel sad for her. Something really bad must have happened to break someone like Khishiji.
All this while Arnav was standing with his back turned on Anjali. It was too much to bear. He was the reason for all her melancholy. He knew that atleast he must make sure that the guy she marries is a good one. He better he someone who can fill her life with happiness and joy something he can never do. But the thought of Khushi with someone else was too much of a pain to bear and if he stood there with his sister some more time his sister will be able to sense his feelings. He requested Anjali to leave him alone for sometime.
He closed the door, switched off all lights and broke down crying. He was sobbing like a baby and all he could remember was what he did to her. He knew that no one will ever take her place but first time he felt that how will he spend the rest of his life without her. This thought almost choked him and he was breathless. His sisters voice echoed in his ears, "Tum unse door reh he nahin payoge kyunki sanse rook jayengi."
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