AR FF~ 'IT WAS'NT MEANT TO BE'PG54-14/01/13 - Page 32

Part 19

Tum Kahan...??

"I am really sorry for the trouble…believe me I can do it on my own"

Way to her college, she tried to convince last night's young boy, whose name turned out to be sam after the brief intro of last night when she entered in, aunti introduces her with her husband, ray was suppose to call him uncle but when she met his glare she could not say more but

"hii sir" sir just nodded and went to his room, may be it was mid night for him or rather morning, you never know, the person who implies the rule of "no entry after 10 pm" god knows at what time he must woke up, that thought only scared her but anti moved her attention to the long hair boy, quite a shabby look "ray…meet sam..my one and only son" anti looked at him with all the love, he just rolled his eyes saying "I know you are ray…save the time and now good night"

Wohoo….these people even know the term call guests or not, men of the home definitely have no idea what it is about, thank god anti is here at least, behaving like a real host with big smile always.

"good night beta…don't mind please….ye dono aise he hain"

"its ok anti…good night" there was nothing good about that night, it was new place for her, and her first intro with them had not been as pleasant as it should have been but she cared less about it, she did not come to jail or to follow any stupid rules, in the morning only I will tell them I am here to stay with peace, I wont interfere in your lives and I would really appreciate if you do the same, I am feeling really sorry to say that I wont be able to follow all your rules.

Yeah….this should be fine, sweet coded words, they wont feel bad and I can live on my own, all problems solved.

Digging herself deep in the pillow and other pillow hugging to her chest, she was ready to sleep with small smile on her face, how the day started it was not so good except all those moments with armaan of course but she will make it better tomorrow by talking to uncle/sir, then she will be a free bird like before she was, but what she did not know was that after wakening up in the morning, first she was informed was that rule # 2

Sam will pick you and drop you at college…you are not allowed to drive on you own….NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!

She could actually see that no matter what!!! Written in capitals, she just sighed and gulped her breakfast, there was no time to argue with that Hitler at that moment, she was really running late for her first lesson but when she looked at sam, he looked so relaxed….focusing on each and every bite of toast like it was some maths sum…she could not believe herself….like he was not the person only…they just talked about…after watching him 5 minutes…munching at turtle speed, she cleared her throat to start "actually sam….i am getting late"

He looked at her once, like meeting her first time, taking five seconds to absorb her face then making a face like "o yeah"

"why you did not tell me before…you should not be wasting your time….just looking at me after every five seconds"

Her mouth literally dropped…he just picked up his sandwich and keys….she ran after him.

After the ten minutes of awkward silence in the car, she finally thought to talk to him, may be he can help her to get out of all this crap, may be he was nice and helpful, she just should not make any opinion about him….after just two brief encounters of them…she should definitely give him second chance…framing plan of action in her mind…she cleared her throat one more time when she heard him

" let me tell if you do it just to get the attention….its really irritated"

She took more than a moment to get what he was talking about, very rudely he hinted towards her clearing throat habit…which she had done most probably more than once since morning, for obvious reasons…she was damn nervous about all this, she did not want to upset massi neither she could handle all those crappy rules where were made to just test her patience only.

She sighed….if she thought armaan was the rudest person alive on earth….she was so wrong….now she was realizing how sweet he had been after all those true reasons he had to be rude…but now look at these people were so rude to her….and the best part was for no reason.

"listen I don't know what problem do you have with me….but I had enough of two of you already….i cant stand this anymore"

She stated as a matter of fact, she was the pampered kid of her family…not used to of all this behavior. He looked at her once …first time in the whole journey

"wooh….anjie was right"

"about what…..and wait how can you call my massi with her name…its not allowed"

When he raised brows on this, she explained more "I mean….she is older enough for you…..its not a nice thing"

She sounded like a teacher "relax…..even though she is my type but I know its impossible"

What….did he just accepted he liked her massi….not as in massi but in other meanings…OMG this could not be happening…how much more drama in one morning she had to bear….opening her mouth a little in shock but it was shut again by him "close it……and save it when you get to know me more"

With that he winked at her but not smiling.

"I am not interested" folding hands on her chest.

"believe me….i was not either but I changed my mind"

"about what?"

"are you that dumb always….or it's a special morning"

"excuse me……?"

"excused……and by the way if you are planning to bunk your class let me do you a favor again…..dad will send you back in a week only….its inside scoop and your welcome now"

When she looked out in his gaze direction she realized they were outside college,when the car stopped she had no idea as she was so busy to get the meaning of his words but she failed terribly…..affording no more embarrassment for a day she just murmured small thanks and left for the class.

After back to back lessons, she was hell tired mentally as well as physically…not to forget emotionally….she sat on ca fee table alone…trying to concentrate on her life and the new appearances in her life….how to handle those species who just looked like humans but had nothing to do with humanity…taking one sip of coffee, she looked at the blank paper before her and started writing point for action again….she was not going to lose it without fighting at least.

Talking to uncle cross

Talking to sam big cross

Talking to aunti (I don't think she can help much…like that hitler uncle will hear her beloved wife…no way)

Talking to armaan (about what? What to say him…the new home my massi chose for me have mad people with bloody rule list…which I am not liking at all and asap I want to run to your home rather I would prefer your arms….goddd how desperate its even sounding while writing only so no way for implementing it also…..cross)

Talking to massi (she must be expecting me to do this sooner or later…..i cant prove her right…it will spoil the image of armaan…she would think he is forcing me in to something when I am just suppose to be kid….yeah kid for her…whatever…bad idea…cross cross)

Is there anyone left in my life….how can I have just few people in my life….there is no one to help me…I don't even have looser type of a best friend who is there always in movies to solve all the problems of the herion…..on that thought where is my hero….i miss him.

"hey princess"

And here he was there with big smile on his face.

"omg armaan….you really gona live long I was just thinking about you"

"is it necessary to discuss the age every time"

He faked to look offended, she smiled.

"no…its not" hugging him, kissing him once then parted abit to seek his reaction and here he was rolling his eyes " chance pe dance..haan!!!!"

"I don't need chance to hug or kiss my boyfriend"

"ohh…boyfriend…this is what you call"

"yap….any problem?"

"no…not at all……..just that boy"

"shut up na armaan…..here I am already worried and you are making it worse with your sad jokes"

"what happened?"

"aaah…nothing big…you just tell me what would you like to have?"

She tried to change the subject.

"not until you tell me whats going on in your tiny viny brain"

She kept silence, deciding about weather to tell him or not but looking at his face, she understood he was not going to leave this unless he gets out of her what he wanted.

After taking a long breath, she started

"my new house mates are mad"

"okay….so you should be enjoying there"

He was trying to make it easy for her with glint of mischief , she came up with her standard "armaan"

"okay okay…no more interruption now, so tell me"

"aunti is good, I mean she is really nice…she reminds of massi all the time and her smile I am just in love with that….i cant believe how can she be so unlucky about her family…uncle he is soo soo soo I don't know there even exist a word for such people, he is khuroos actually…yeah he is very close to this one, he has some very very strange rules in his home, like he is running his own territory…I mean are you serious ?? how can you boss over your guests and when this was not enough they have this very strange son too, what to say about him…like father like son"

Finally when she stopped to take one long breath, she read his worried lines on his face, it was then when she realized she had told him much more than needed.

"I am sorry armaan, I did not want to tell you all this crap but you know I don't have anyone else here, I am really sorry"

Here her eyes went all moistered, it was not that big deal then why she was making of it, I mean it was just a second day she was there but the feeling of being in cell was just so scaring for her, all her life she had been given liberty more than any normal child would get and she never mis used that liberty rather she had to take care of trust given to her with that liberty and now it was all different, so difficult for her to absorb, in this all trauma she did not know she had alarmed armaan with her tears, she was trying best to smile to assure him she was ok but damage had been done she knew when he held her hands in his "hey princess…don't worry I am here na, please don't cry…we will do something with this"

"I am not crying" sobbing silently, it made him smile only.

"yeah…I can see that very well, for now I have something really important to do, sorry I have to go, you take care, I ll see you soon"

Surprising her twice,one for kissing her second for leaving like it, how much his kiss pacified her but his leaving was making her disappointed somewhere inside, she expected much more than this may be what he said to her, but may be he really have something important at the moment, important than me?? This thing was really disturbing her but she was not going to show it to him of course, she could not afford to prove him how immature she was, she had to behave mature one, no matter if it will take all her courage and will power.

"bye cya"

She just whispered on his back as he did not waiting for her to say it.

"wow…it hurts"

She said under her breath, this was the first time in their small relationship period when he ignored her like it, even before their confession when he had ignored it used to hurt her so much and now it just multiplied, he would never do it for no reason, he actually have some important work..thats it, simple!!! You jerk, why making it so complicated??

Jerking her head, she left picking up her books.

At night, she was trying his number again and again but he was not picking it up only.

"armaan…pick up the damn phone"

When 5^th time she did not get any response, she threw her cell on the bed fortunately which saved lots of money, she was irritated frustrated, disappointed and what not, this was the time she wanted him to be with her and he was no where, after all that what she has told him, what was disturbing her, she expected him to be her side, to comfort her, may be she was being demanding but is it too much to ask for some time from your boy friend? I don't think so!!! I will not call now, use baat karno hogi to khud kare ga!! Taking last decision she opened her book, with no interest ofcours, no idea which topic and page no to open to start then there was sam standing at her door, already frustrated of her, she could not take it more

"have you ever heard of knocking the door before entering"

"yes I have but its not in my list of rules"

"list of your own convenience rules"

"whatever…I just came to say, dinner in 5 min,5 min means 5 only, you can make it 6 if you want to skip your dinner"

"what…no way…I cant eat at this time, my eating timings are odd"

"well….you are odd actually"

"excuse me"

"never mind…I guess you can wait till breakfast then"

"nooo…I mean I can take it myself when I will feel hungry"

"I am afraid…you cant"

"why??"

"do they teach you how to break the fridge locks"

"noo…but why are you asking this?"

"hmm…because without this talent you wont be able to take dinner at your own odd time"

"what do you mean?"

"I would have love to explain in hindi again but you know only one minute is left and I am really hungry"

"but wait…."

He left without wasting another second,

"goddd!! am I on mars??…please save me"

After completing her assignment she looked at the clock, it said 1.20….looking at screen of mobile one last time in hope of call or text by him, but there was nothing, she was damn angry by then, he was never so busy to give her text at least, many times when he was in meeting he had text her to call later but this was the first time she was being ignored like real time.

"smajhta kia hai apne aap ko…hmphh"

Stomping her foot she headed towards kitchen, after all that work done she was really really hungry now, taking every step with so much care, not wanting to make any noise rather someone wake up and make another rule of not geeting out of your room after getting in once, she shrieked on her own thought, it was scary but next thing she witnessed was more than scary she tried to pull the handle of the fridge, once, twice, third time with little more force but I did not open then she rewinded all her conversation with sam earlier night.

"do they teach you how to break the fridge locks"

"OMG…he was talking this, god you have to be kidding me, are you serious?? Who one the earth lock fridge in his own house….massi..biii….i want to come to you"

She reached her room, holding her stomach, feeling more hungry with the thought of not having anything to eat, she lied down on bed, looked at her mobile one more time "I hate you armaan"

Ofcourse, with empty stomach you cant even love anyone, thinking of something she picked up her pillow and there was her life, she smiled broadly finding those chocolates under her pillow, armaan had bought to her earlier in the day, her savior for the night at least.

On breakfast she was the first one to come for obvious reasons, when sam came to join her, gave her devilish smirk, she had not energy to abuse him under her breath so just let it go.

Day at college was very much routine except for one thing armaan, who had not turn up at lunch time like yesterday she was expecting him, she was so angry to him..planning all the time how to teach him lesson for this but he never gave her this chance only when it was again dinner time and she checked her mobile one last time, but there was nothing…she started panicking now it was not usual of him, forgetting all the revenge plans she dialed at his home.

"mai ray bol rahe hon"

"jii main thek hon"

"armaan kahan hai…phone nahe lag raha us ka"

"what..meeting kay lie par kahan?"

"kuch bta kay nahe gea…hows that possible"

"jii….han mai office call karon gi kal"

"thanks…bye"

He was out of station and she was not being informed about it, mr mallik you are in real trouble . it was too late to call at his office so she decied to ask about his ware abouts next day.

Another day passed waiting for his call but ended with disappointment, she was told by office they also had no idea where he went and it was not planned meeting too…she wanted to throw cell on the wall right in front of her but that hope may be he will call, did not let her do it to get out of her frustration…she was not able to concentrate on studies, she did not feel like having lunch, dinner. Now she was worried for him, praying he must be fine wherever he was, his cell was off constantly.

"do you want me to give you something to eat in your room?"

Aunti asked when she did not turn up for dinner, she had seen her upset the time she entered in home but she thought it was tiredness may be but now looking at her, she was laying on her stomach and looking at her mobile blankly she got worried for her.

"no I am fine"

Well!!! She was anything but fine, aunti moved to her bed….taking her face in her palms and this was it, she burst in to cry.

"what happened….please tell me"

Ray just hugged her and keep crying on her shoulder.

"please tell me beta what happened….did any one say anything to you…I know this is not the perfect place to live but I will do anything for you please tell me?"

She was really worried for the little girl in her arms, crying like kids.

That was time when ray relized she should not had broken down before her, because of two reasons

1. She had to tell her now what was wrong with her which included of course armaan part and then there was most difficult question who is armaan?

2. Aunti can call massi and tell about all this, it can create a great mess.

"vo aunti…actually I did not score good marks in my project"

Well!! That was easy one!! Isn't it ? she thought parting away from her.

"are you sure that's the reason"

Aunti did not look much convinced…she should not be actually the way she cried.

"yes aunti…so sorry main ne ap ko preshan kar dia I am really sorry but I am like this only"

"hmm…next time work harder….. ok? Crying is not solution to any problem"

"I know…thanks aunti for being there"

"anytime"

There came signature smile, she loved the most. As she left the room, ray looked at her mobile one more time.

"armaannn….where are you?"

One tear slipped down her cheek.