ignore the mistakes please 😳
PART 12
~Give Me All You Have!!! ~
*************
"kaise lag rahe hon mai"
She came in his room, he was working on laptop, this girl was going to give heart attack one day now he was very sure of it, he had made himself comfortable around her, but now a site before him was not comfortable at all for him, she was wearing yellow color same saree of her mother in which he had seen ridhima first time, memories of that day came to him with bunch of pain in his heart, he was trying to control this feeling, this feeling of pain,cry,loneliness,rejection everything came back to him and he was helpless again, she twirled before him once again to give him clear view of her, asking again "bolo na armaan…tum kuch bol kiun nahe rahe"
"don't call me tum ever again"
He was angry for the reason he knew only but she was clueless of his sudden outburst, she had always called him tum but what was problem he was having with it all of sudden.
"par mai to bus…."
"leave please….i have lots of work to do"
"armaan………?".
"I said….leaveee"
He shouted finally, his anger growing with every second he had no idea what he would do with her which he would regret later on, but this shouting was also part of this regretting later on but better than what if she would be standing before him for another second, she left room while crying until she reached her room and hide herself in her lap and cried whole heartedly, she was regretting the time she decided to come here she was regretting all the years she had dreamt about him, regretting all the time she spend in planing for him, all was so much in vain, he was so far from her, he would never allow her t come close to her, she could never make him her, this was confirmed by now, he was so much bounded in his own shell, he would not let come out a single feeling of him, not a single memory of his past, something was very wrong with him, wrong in his past, she wanted to remove all that, all that pain of his past but he was not allowing only, how she would do it without his consent, it was impossible she hated herself for loving a impossible, nothing was left to do now but to cry for her.
**************************
Last week between them was nothing less than fun, everyday he would take her to show a place in chicago, they would enjoy each other's company, he was so different, he was so so different from all that she had always known about him, he was so like her, they would enjoy dinners every night out, happening pub places where even he never been in last years living in same places but she would just drag him saying "chalo na armaan plzzz…mujhy ye dekhna hai" and he could not say no to that pout with so much exciting in eyes but later he started enjoying himself, he started looking forward to those evenings with her, those dinners outside, those slow dances when she would drag him on dance floor and literally begged him to dance with her or she would pick any other guy from the place which was not so safe at all he knew that well so he had to say yes to this too like hundredth of other things in one night she would make him accept.every thing was fine, more than fine between them she felt at least it was going great between them, they had laughed together, danced together, shopped together, she did not know about him but it was best time of her lifetime, she could not ask for more, he had given him all the hopes all over again when he had agreed to her for doing those little silly things on her request or he had just held her hand while crossing the road or he had just pulled her in to him if she had tried to dance with anyone else, was he was keeping his promise to bii or it was something more than that? She was not sure to answer this question but whatever it was she was having the time of life and she had no complain about it but one night when after dinner kaka told her armaan like girls more in sarees, she did not give second thought but wore that single saree she had with her which she had always kept with as the memory of her mother, if she felt alone or sad anytime she had just hugged this saree and felt like her mom was with her, but first time she wore that saree that too for armaan she was very excited to show it to armaan but what kind of response she got, it was last thing she was expecting for this effort. She cried and more cried silently and finally slept with dreamless night.
**************************
It was not a good morning at all when she woke up, her head was heavy because of crying late night, she did not want to think anything at the moment, she needed some real peace of mind, the person called armaan mallik had exhausted her so much emotionally, she was feeling so dumb she was not able to understand this human, one moment he would be the most decent man of the world and next moment he would shout at her for no reason at all, something really really wrong with him, she thought, getting out of blanket then saw a note on her side table.
"I am sorry :)"
This note did not do anything to specify her but annoyed her more.
What…he is human or what…..you need a doc armaan mallik…definitely you need one.
She threw the note in basket, she had enough of him now, it was the limit now, she was not going to take anything from him just because she was staying with him, it did not give him right to throw any crap on her whenever he wanted, she had been more than generous with him but not anymore, she decided.
"ray ko bulaye breakfast kay lie"
He was waiting for her since 10 minutes but there was no sign of her anywhere around,finally he asked kaka to call her.
"vo to chale gaye kab ki"
Ramu kaka informed him.
"kab…kiun….i mean bina breakfast aise kaise?"
He had no idea what he was blabbering, after what he said last night she had every right to behave like this, he was once again on a mistake, everything was just going fine in last week, they have come quite close, he felt himself comfortable with her, as a matter of fact he was enjoying with her, her company, her antics, everything was so familiar for him, it was like he was watching himself again via her, she was just like him in many things, every prank of her, every nutanki of her, every excitement, adventure of her, was just reminding him of him only, how he used to be like this only, not a single moment he thought about riddhima in all these evening spend with her but last night, when he saw her in same saree, he could not stop himself from shouting on her, inside he was well aware of the fact that he was doing wrong thing, his conscious continuously reminding him she did not deserve this, she was innocent of all this things, why she? Why she? And now when she did not turn up for breakfast he was sure this time it was going to be really tough, its ok life was never bed of roses for him, so lets do one more time.
He thought and left for work.
************************
"can I come?"
He peeped in the room, in evening as he reached home, after getting her whereabouts kaka told him the time she had come back she was in her room, not talking to anyone, without looking at him she just said "No"
Wohh…that was rude, but not more than what he did last night he thought about it and ignored it, getting in the room, sat just before her.
"thank you"
He smiled to himself.
She caught him smiling "what is so funny..care to share please"
"vo…vo…vooo"
He was actually scared of that look, his voice stuck in his throat, his scary face was so funny, she urged to laugh at him but her could hold till he apologized from her properly, she thought.
"I wanted to say something"
"jaldi bolo…time nahe hai mere paas"
This was real revenge time, she so wanted to dance, but she compromises on bhangra in her heart only, any public display of her happiness could have fail her plan badly, which she never wanted of course.
On the other hand, he was hell confused, he was not used to tackle attitude at all, he was the one who had showed attitude to others throughout his life but now when he was on the ther end, he had no idea what to do but he had to do this thing, to settle it again, do he had any choice of not doing it?
"I am sorry"
"okay bol dia…I really have some work"
She was going to buy this I am sorry thing again and again. He held her both hands in his, this was only way left to make her trust on his words "listen to me please" she looked in his eyes and this was mistake of her life because she was going to trust anything in the world whatever h would say now, she knew it she had lost the battle the time she looked in those eyes "I know I should not have shouted on you and I know I am doing the same mistake again and again but I don't know….i just cant…."
He lowered his head, he was helpless and she could see it but what was that thing which was making him so helpless, she wanted to know that thing.
"aise kia baat hai armaan….mujhy btao please…agar mujh se koi ghalti hue mujhy btao please, meri kise baat per gussa ho share it please…I will make it up for it, but please atleast tell me baat kia hai"
She made her grip strong on his hands, may be he could trust her and tell her what was this thing, disturbing him and making him a physic before her.
"I cant ray…sorry I just cant"
Tears appeared in his eyes,signs of helplessness and pain gathered on his face, she could see it, she could feel it, only the thought of something was making him cry, making him helpless, he was not comfortable thinking about that thing leave talking about it, she came close and hugged him, trying to take all his pain from his heart to her heart if it was possible, soothing him with patting on his back, he gave up to her, he wanted this embrace at the moment, he was exhausted emotionally so much, in all those years he had been keeping this thing to him only, not a single person he shared this pain, he was bearing this pain on his heart for long years, long nights of loneliness, he wanted to tell her everything, don't know why but he felt like sharing everything with her, every single moment of his pain, sorrow, helplessness, unspoken words he had ever imagined to say to riddhima but she was never there to listen but he wanted to share this with ray, she was not the right person he knew it, but in all those years if he wanted to share ever this part of his life, unfortunately it was ray only, what was reason for this he had no clue, he did not know when he came close to her emotionally so much, when he started depending on her emotionally, like now she was supporting him, soothing him with her touch, with her embrace, he felt everything so right then, at its right place, no confusions, so guilt nothing but a feeling of relief and satisfaction, he was at peace after long, he should not be thinking like this, he should not feeling the way he was but was being coward once again and ignored everything for the moment and decided to live in that moment only which was giving him peace and his soul back, which he needed badly from someone, fortunately or unfortunately it was her, it was ray for him that person.
"its ok…don't say anything"
After few long moments, she parted caressing his cheeks with her thumbs, smiling at him. He responding back with smile, after this little encounter both of them knew something changed between both of them, they were good friends before but now they were close emotionally to each other, depending each other for anything, when she needed anyone outside the pub, it was he only standing there for her and when he needed someone, who would just understand him without poking him to say about his past, without saying those things which he waned to die with but not to share with anyone, it was she only, it was ray only, who stood by him, without asking a single reason for his moist eyes and sleepless nights, but just understood his pain, felt his pain her heart and took all from him at least she tried to do and she was very succeeded to do it for that moment, to remove it from his heart forever it will take time, a long time but she was ready to give that forever time to him, to his pain whatever it was and whatever it will take her to do it, it was decided so it was decided by her.
Kyunki Saas Bhi Kabhi Bahu Thi 2
Mannat Har Khushi Paane Ki
