Sid - It's gonna hurt while it heals Pt 38 Pg 106 - Page 55

hey bro..plzz update...if u have time

Nice Update!!! Eager to know what will happen next

Hi All I was just about finalizing and then something untoward happened which put me off pretty badly and has drained my energies very badly.

Nothing personal. But just happened to witness some altercations in the neighborhood. One thing which I hate is. So I plan to take a break and will come back soon with this update

Thanks to Lennie all my confusions are sorted and I am on track

Lennie ... This SS is all thanks to you. Thank you for all the support 🤗

Lennie once again Thank you so much for clearing my doubts and confusion.

DI I have finally updated and the updates will flow on this SS too. 😳

Part 33

Sid felt at ease with the kids; innocent and uncorrupted. He could safely say these had no malice or ulterior motive unlike the opinion his prejudiced mind held for all others.

As night fell he left to go to the guest house after putting Tamanna to sleep. He had chosen to stay at the guest house not wanting to create a bad impression coming back even slightly tipsy.

She had spoken non-stop. Her constant blabber about Riddhima triggered his misery. Her questions too added fuel to his agony. How was he to explain why Riddhima was not with him? She did not fail to recount Riddhima's recent visit and miserable state which baffled Sid for a few fleeting moments but dismissed it as a child misunderstanding Riddhima pining for him. Yet later over drinks it kept tucking his heart. His previous encounters with Riddhima and Tamanna's testimony were forcing his heart to wage war with his pre conceived notions. His heart was betraying him. Riddhima's guilt ridden face kept flashing before his eyes refusing him any peace. He hated that fact that he remembered every detail of that disgraceful moment when he worded that crude comment.

As soon as he had left the orphanage had another visitor. Wary of the past few day's events and having faced rejection she had come here to find some solace being with kids.

'Aap?' questioned the matron.

'Haan socha kuch ki bacho ko mil loongi.'

'Oh!! Mujhe laga aap bhi annual check-up ke liye yaha aayi hai Dr Siddhant ko help karne.'

'Dr Siddhant yahi hai.'

'Haan aap ko nahi pata?' The revelation hit the lady hard. Her presence was agonizing him which was why she had come away. She was not required in his life but here she was, in the same place as him. What was destiny asking of her? Probably it was just a coincidence. She should leave immediately and not burden Sid with her presence. How could she leave? She had dismissed the cab the minute she reached there. Was there some place she could stay till morning?

'Kya hua?' enquired the matron.

Waiting back was also not the best option. Probably she should leave.

'Nahi kuch nahi Kya main Tamanna se mil sakti hoon.'

'Woh sow rahi hai. Kya aap rukne nahi wali?'

'Nahi main yaha se guzar rahi thi isiliye aayi. Todhi der ke baad main Pune ke liye nikal jaoingi' She gave a lame excuse to move out.

'Main Tamanna ko sirf dekh ke nikal jaoingi phir.'

'Theek hai.' agreed the matron.

She deposited her belongings and went to check on Tamanna.

Tamanna stirred from her sleep for a moment and excitedly sat up seeing the visitor.

'Riddhima didi!!!' The pain ridden face immediately had Tamanna asking 'Aap itni sad kyu hai? Genie bhaiya abhi aap se bahoot fight karte hai isiliye aap sad ho na. Maine genie bhaiya se kaha ki main bahoot naraaz hoon ki woh aap ko saath nahi leke aaye.'

'Nahi Tamanna ..aisa kuch nahi hai. Woh yaha kaam karne ke liye aaye hai na isiliye main pehle nahi aayi.'

'Par mujhe maloom tha aap zaroor aayogi. Aap genie bhaiya se dur nahi reh sakti na.'

'Genie bhaiya ko maine kaha tha ki aaj mere saath yaha pe rahe par woh nahi ruke. Main unse baat nahi karoongi.'

Riddhima gauged the reason for Sid not staying at the orphanage. She explained to Tamanna that Sid was working very hard and needed rest hence he was staying at the guest house. She urged her not to trouble Sid and bother him with her topics knowing well Sid's state of mind with her.

Riddhima got Tamanna to go back to sleep and left to make way towards the market hoping to find a bus or cab which could take her away from this place.

As she walked out of the gate her mind wandered back to her past associated with this spot. It was here that Sid had said some very harsh words to her and later had punished himself for it. He had said something equally harsh recently. Those words pained her but the pain of knowledge of Sid punishing himself for those words seemed much greater

Sid too was fighting a battle. Both were trying hard to find peace but could they really knowing that the other was in pain.

The pain was excruciating. Thought of Sid fighting his battle with those questions was urging Riddhima to go to him. She wanted to help him. Clear his mind and perceptions. Doing that would bring more grief. The pain from that grief that he has misunderstood her would shatter Sid but oblivion of the facts would not let him live peacefully either. She too could not ever live in peace either ways. They were connected by destiny and this pain seemed to become their destiny. Maybe she would have to live with it all her life. She dismissed her thoughts for a moment to book a cab. 'Pune'

'Haan Ji chaliye.'

She handed her bag to the driver and settled herself in the car. To distract her mind, she started observing the surrounding.

'Madamji chale?' asked the diver throwing a back glance at her. In that split second the man assessed Riddhima's state of mind.

Hmmm ..'

As the car pulled out of the parking Riddhima's eye caught a reflection in the side view. 'Nahi..'

'Kya hua?'

'Gadi rokiye.'

'Kyu?'

'Maine kaha gaadi rokiye please.'

She jumped out the moment the car halted to take a closer look. Her eyes focused on the man walking on the road. He walked with wobbly feet, almost tripping on his own feet taking the support of a nearby park car or pole to steady hims once in a while. Siddhant!!!' she gasped almost lunged she forward to help.

That sight brought back that sharp pain which she experienced when she had first seen him such.

The irritated driver who had followed suit looked in the direction where Riddhima was looking. 'Hai rabba aaj kal ke jawaan.'

'Nahi ..tumhara yaha hona usse aur jyaada dard dega...Par main usse akela iss halat main nahi chod sakti. Chod de usse apni halat pe. Nahi'

Seeing her contemplating the old driver asked 'Chalna hai kya ab?'

Tearing her eyes from that dreadful sight she turned to the old driver who looked almost irritated with this delay. Yes, maybe that was it and with a heavy heart said 'Haan chaliye ..'

She dragged herself back to the cab. Before sitting in she turned back to take one last glance at him.

Sid was resting against a car to gain control on him. Her heart cried 'Nahi main usse iss halat main nahi chod sakti.'

'Ji kuch kaha aapne?' asked the perturbed driver.

'Sardarji aap please mera ek kaam karenge please.'

It was definitely associated with that drunken man which bothered him. 'Ji boliye.' He asked half heartedly.

Riddhima crossed over to the other side and explained the driver her request.

It was the most weird sounding request which forced him to protest 'Par aap..'

'Main manage kar loongi aap please unko sambhaliye.'

'Lekin ..'

'Chahe toh extra paise le lijiye par please mera yeh kaam kar dijiye.'

'Paise ki baat nahi hai.'

'Please kar dijiye na please.'

No one would do anything for a stranger in this world and the pain which he saw in this woman's eyes was definitely not for one. That drunken man seemed too important for her. He could not understand the relation but she cared dearly for that man. Reluctantly he agreed.

Knowing Riddhima was alone in the market place the driver got back quickly. 'Kya woh theek hai?' question laden with concern confronted him the moment he reached.

'Haan theek hai.'

'Unhe aap ..'

'Fikar mat kijiye unhe main unke kamre tak chod ke aaya hoon.'

'Unho aap se kuch poocha?'

'Nahi uss halat main hi nahi the. Par ..'

'Par kya?'

'Nahi kuch nahi sab theek hai. Kya ab chalna hai?'

She again turned back as if she could catch another glimpse of her dear one and settled in.

The old driver could make out her state. It was closely related to what he experienced while dropping Sid back to his guest house. The faraway troubled look was searching for some answers which were connected to the drunken person on the road whom she had asked him to help.

'Aapke koi khaas hai aisa lagta hai?' question breaking the silence.

'Apne sawalo ke jawab dhondne nikali thi na?'

The lady's silence was affirming all his beliefs.

'Aur ab sawalo se bhaag rahi hai.'

'Ji?'

'Mere kehne ka matlab hai ki itne sawal leke yaha se kyu jaa rahi hai aap?

'Aisa kuch nahi nahi hai Sardarji.'

'Agar keh rahi hai toh theek hai. Par maine bhi bahoot duniya dekhi hai. Aankhen sadak pe rehti hai par passenger ka haal achi pad leta hai hum driver log. Woh bhi apne sawalo ke saath ladte bhagte aaj iss mod pe aa khade huye hai. Hum insaan bhi ajeeb hotey hai kabhi kabhi hamare sawalo ke jawab wahi hota hai jaha se hum dur bhagna chahate hai.' what that not so well educated gentleman said was true. Those were words of wisdom which came from experience.

She was running away. She had always done that and that is why she too was standing at this point in her life. Every time she tried to take a stand she was met with more pain. For herself and others.

'Par ..Sadarji ab iss sab se kuch hasil nahi hoga sirf ..'

'dard hoga? PutarJi ..Tumse jyaada pada likha nahi hoon par tumse bada hoon Tumse jyaada duniya dekhi hai aur mera tajoorba hai ki sawalo ke jawab milne pe utna dard nahi hota jitna unke na milne se hota hai. Aur agar yeh dard tumhe rok raha hai toh woh darr dimag se nikal do. Kyuki yeh kudrat ka niyam hai. Jab insaan bimar padta tab bhi usse takleef hoti hai aur theek hone ke liye bhi usse kuch dard ka samna karna padta hai jaise suyi lagwane ka dard. Uss dard ke darr kya hum ilaaj karwana toh bhi chodte na. Aisa socho ki woh sab sawal ek bimari hai aur jawab ek dawai jiske kadve ghoot peena ab lazmi ho gaya hai. Aur shayaad woh dawai aap ke pass hi hai.'

'Hmmm'

'Toh phir kyu jaa rahi hai?'

That old driver had been driving a point which probably she always knew. She was a doctor and indeed while healing every patient had to endure the pain encountered during the healing process. If not then normalcy could never be attained. Only they both could heal each other. If that was so then she may have to do it even if it meant confronting this pain and enduring it.

'Sadarji yaha pe ek orphanage hai. Kya aap waha pe mujhe chod sakte hai?'

'Jee bilkul. Yahi toh hamara kaam hai. Musafir ko apne manzil tak pahochana.'

This time round there was no backing out.

Link to the next part

https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/post/50891809

Wow...i loved this part..though it had no SR scenes together...so ridz did come to panchgani...n was abt to run away like always...bt thank god for sending the driver...to give her some sense..n i really love the analogy u used b/w..medicine..and confronting our probs...amzing...i never thought of it that way...n at last glad that she stayed bk...however, i feel that sid is drinking too much...i thinks its high time he gets hold of his drinking habits...maybe tamanna cld do the trick...i also have feeling that when sid sees ridz here, he's gonna start blasting at her again..really looking forward to know whats stored in the future for them...plz continue soon!! :)

Nyce part
destiny always brixg thm 2gether
thnk God ridz ruk gayi
nxt update soon

nice update

continue soon...

Awesome update!!! Like the scene between Riddhima n the old driver... I love that "Only they both could heal each other"... So Riddhima is ready to contront Sid n endure the pain...

Unreserved my comment