SS: 'Will he be okay?' Updated Part 5 Pg14 - Page 2

Originally posted by: NaDzGirl

option 1 for sure sweetoo!!!!!

btw la went left da mandir before she did, remember?!? and as for da pervert, well nope! kushi ain't gonna see him dere. she's sooo gonna get distracted tnx to arnav babu...

hayeee monday where are u!!!??!

Originally posted by: NaDzGirl

WHAT?!?! u posted an os and scraped it off?!?!?!

urghhh nidhiii 😡

post it back rite NOW dats an order from nadz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😕

Originally posted by: ArnavKhushi1996

Hahahahha Yeah I did but Ill put it right back on 😊

Let me warn you, its not good. at all 😕

Hi! Sorry for deleting it over again 😕 I didnt think anyone would like it so i deleted it but here it is 😊

This part is really slow as its just their monologue and it will get better!

Thanks, Love 😊

PART 1

Looking in the mirror, I went through all the things that happened today. And my feelings to them. When she came, looking beautiful in the sari, what happened to me? Why did my heart flutter and thud so loud that I bet she could have heard it all the way from there. Why did nothing else come in my mind other that thoughts of her? Why does looking at her give me a temporary soothing? Why? I ignored my questions but could not resist seeing her unconscious face in my mind as the memory of her fainting appeared in front of my eyes. The scent still lingers on me- sweet and innocent. That's what fears me the most. That's what always makes me run toward her. She is just so…innocent.

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I was so angry that nothing seemed to soothe my mind. I didn't even understand why. Is it because I saw that Laad Governor break Lavanya's fast? Or is it because he just irritates me to death? That must be it. I cant feel bad that he broke Lavanya's fast. He belongs to Lavanya. And yet when I thought over that sentence, I felt a punching feeling within me.

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Why doesn't she say anything? The Khushi who constantly chatters and insults me did not say a word to me. Why didn't she behave normally? Even when I tried to talk to her, all she do was run away. I could not stand her constant nonsense, now I cant stand her silent eyes talking to me. Maybe she does not even feel im worthy to talk to. Was I that bad? Have I hurt her that much?

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Even Payal Jiji noticed my silence. Even she wanted to know what was bothering me. I wanted to tell her that I wanted to know myself, but all I said was 'im fine.' He has really hurt me in the past. Then why is the one person that hurts me so much always saves me? Why am I even thinking of him? He is the one that puts me in trouble in the first place. Him saving me the first time we met, him saving me from the screeching car, him saving me from the bungalow and he only broke my fast- along with Lavanya's. Doesn't that Laad Governor have some shame? Breaking two girl's fasts. How can he break Lavanya's fast after breaking mine? And if he had to show so much affection to her, then why did he scream at me for telling nani? As if everyone wouldn't know already. Ugh, why am I even thinking about this? Devi Maiya, help me. Help me forget him altogether. This is the last time I will see him anyway.

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What happened to her though? I broke her fast- by accident. I was meant to break lavanya's, and I guess that would have been obvious to her. Then why did her small eyes widen when I broke Lavanya's fast? Why did her eyes show anger? What did that mean? She felt angry? She felt…hurt? For me? Or for the fact that I was so harsh to her about disclosing about Lavanya when it is so obvious anyway. Whatever it was, I couldn't lift my eyes of her. I didn't even feel like beaking Lavanya's fast. I never feel like doing anything anymore. Why? What is happening to me? Will I ever see her again?

Originally posted by: NaDzGirl

bring it back!!!!!!!!!! and i'l decide whether it's worth it or not ok!?!!?

me waitin here... *nadz glarin at nidhi in ASR style* 😡

Originally posted by: ..Jojo..

Decide karne ki zaroorat nahi hai.. it is freaking amazing! the way she has described the feelings is awesome! i love it <3