Maneet FF-tum mere kaun hu-pt-48- pg-144 - Page 63

PART- 41

When geet entered the Radhakrishna orphanage home mansion still children are sleeping. It is now 7'O clock. she moved to water fountain. Her look stuck in Radhakrishna statue which is made from white marble. Same to same in RM. But it is made by white marble .

The great lovers of Indian history. What a tragedy Radha loved lord Krishna...he married thousands of gopikas but he couldn't marry only Radha...why ...having such a power in his hand he failed. But Radha succeeded to be with lord Krishna by converting herself to flute. Today the human bees are remembering them they are great lovers.

She sat on the stone . she lost in Radhakrishna statue. There is lot of love in both the eyes. her eyes filled with tears. She covered her knees by her arms. She placed her chin on knee.

Past two years back...when she almost lost her life...but Dr.Arman didn't leave her so easily. He know she is sinking ,everything is over. Shilpa and anni were scared to agree the truth that geet is no more. But Arman at lost started to hit on her heart. He tried to wake her by giving artificial breath to her...he is trying his best hitting hard on her chest. Finally at the end he found some sensation in her. slowly her heart beats raised. Her body temperature raised. At the end arman succeeded to bring back her to sense. Anni holed his hands and cried bitterly thanking him. Hole khurana family thanked him.

After three days geet well improved but she is thinking some thing always. She remembered again and again maan words. He is not happy with me...he used me just to fulfill his desires...mere shakal...mere shakal amesha parishan kar diya...finally she decided to leave KM, but dadima, anni, vicky...and baby...

Baby is part of her body ..how can she leave baby...no she pressed her baby to her chest...her eyes filled again. But she can not be here..maan directly hit on her self...esteem and her presence not given any happy to him. she don't want to see him in pain.

She packed all her stuff in her bag. She wrote a letter to dadima. She took the baby in her hands. Its too much of pain to leave her..she is the part of her...she is her own blood...she shared her own blood and flesh...how can she leave her...but maan...she know how much he love her baby. if she take baby he couldn't be alive. With out baby how can she will...at lost she placed the baby on bed.

While moving ,her baby holed her fore finger tightly. Baby is smiling she lost in her smile for a while. again she try to remove her finger baby started to cry bitterly. Within a few seconds baby turn red . she is kicking her legs and hands as she know her mama is leaving her. geet felt first time if she dead at the movement is better then living this life. she grabbed her baby to her cest. she lifted her kurthi and started to feed her at lost time. baby silenced when she caught her mother nipple. Baby is too hungry , she sucking very fast again and again trying to remove her pain, but her pain is not ending. after its tummy filled baby slipped to sleep.

She placed the baby in crib. When she moved from there again something stuck her back side. When she turn back baby holding her dupatta and sleeping. Geet couldn't control it. She cried bitterly. Bhabaji why you are giving me such a punishment. There is the big clash between her mother hood and her love. finally her love wined. She want to end her chapter in maan life. she know very well if she take baby with her maan will not be alive. Already once he lost sangeetha till today he didn't recovered by his pain. again baby...no...he should be happy. She want to end his pain . At least after our separation he will be happy." Maan I hope our baby will bring back all your happiness.." at lost she kissed baby once. At sleep her baby is moving her tiny lips feeling like sucking nipple." Sorry baby I love your papa more then you. Always I want him to be happy. Unfortunately I have not brought any happiness in his life. he is given everything to me. if he is not there I am not be here. I hope papa will take care?.i am leaving you under the shelter of your papa, dadima, anni and vicky. They take care. I know no one can fill my place but baby for me maan is important then you. Baby papa loves you more then me." She kissed her on fore head. she left her baby, her soul, her love every thing in KM and left like a dead body.

She is sitting in bus station. Don't know where to go. Actually she planned to go amrithsir to meet her bhabhaji. But again she is angry with him. how much she trusted his bhabhaji at the end he made her leave everything. She sat there nearly four to five hours. Her Brest is swelling. She know now her baby will be waked from her sleep. whether anybody observed her not...suddenly she felt odd...anybody changed her napkin or not...she might be hungry ,again she run to KM. nobody observed her. she rushed inside. as she guess her baby already wake . anni feeding her milk by feeding bottle. Hole KM is disturbed might be all are searching. Geet once again saw her baby. she filled at lost once in her eyes and her heart. Again she left KM.

Finally she reached Bangalore. She reached RM to meet meera but she is in USA. Her father raj well know about geet and meera friendship. Right now she need a job. She spoken to meera by phone about job. She recommended her dad to appoint her in radhakrishna builders. After meera left Bangalore raj become alone he is a heart patient. He need anybody to take care him. meera requested to geet stay in RM and take care about her father. Geet agreed...she taken care of Raj and his company. once again Sevier heart attack caused to him. geet taken care him like her own father. Even raj looking meera in geet.

When her marriage she come to know she is marrying prem...she is very happy...some how everyone are happy...but what about her nights. She didn't sleep a single night peacefully after separating her baby and maan. when she close her eyes ,her baby image will appear in front of her. sucking its thumb, hitting their tiny hands ,legs and smiling innocently . it is questioning her again and again "ma mere galathi kya hain kue muje chodkar chale gayee..." Her heart is aching too much. She want to know about her baby. but she can not go now..as per her already chapter is closed...many nights she didn't sleep. she didn't close her eyes for a second.

Her bed , her pillows are proof for her restless nights. There are count less nights she spent wetting her pillows and bed. Many nights her Brest swollen due to her milk. When she is pumping milk out in washroom she poured countless tears .there is no ending for her tears. There is no end for her pain.

When mentally too disturbed she made a practice to visit Radhakrishna orphanage home. Looking many orphanage children she try to control her pain. try to forget baby...but how can she forget her baby just three days baby she left in KM. many times she convinced her self that maan will take care of baby... but still she can't...how can she...baby is the part of her body ,her soul everything...whatever till today she didn't forgive her self to leaving her baby in KM.

"geet...didi...geet didi...aap agayi" ..no children's rushed towards to her. she hugged everyone at once. Trying to claim everyone at a time...she brought many of gifts to children. She knows today is her lost day in India. She don't want to hurt children. She shared sweets, cloths, toys , books everything.

She smiled when they enjoying their gifts. She is taken care each and every child as her own. Yes she didn't give her love to her own baby but she is become mother for many other orphanage children. She is not even using her salary for her own. Everything she spend for children. Once one child badly hurt in accident. She gave her blood and she saved her. she is ready to do anything to them. Isha, Alisha, ramu?ravi there are many...she is become lovely geet di for them.

Chethana aunty called every one for prayer. Even geet joined with them. The children's stands for only innocent and purity. They don't know nothing only they know about love. They missed their parents love. But they know how to love each and other.

Om...asato ma sadgamaya
tamaso ma jyotirgamaya
mrtyorma amrtam gamaya

om shanthi shanthi hi..

when maan enter orphanage home just he heard the prayer. There is a pin drop silence. There is a peace. Only prayer waves passed like chill wind on him. Maan liked the place . but when he saw geet in between children he shocked.

When prem explained about geet ,Maan frozen watching her real life with children. His eyes filled with tears." ...Great really she is great...mere geet sabse parayi ...wo saabith..kardiya..."

she saw small two years baby running towards to her...she is almost same age of her baby. while running she fell down. Geet rushed to her "sangeetha..." slipped a word from her mouth. Maan stunned. Yes they had the plan to name her own baby sangeetha, but dadima after geet left KM she is hate the name of sangeetha. She changed her name kuhu...but here the same name she kept for another child...geet hats of to you...for your love...how much love you filled in your heart geet... he is questioning silently her...

When he rushed to meet her prem hold his wrist. "no maan...she trusted me ,now she comes to know that I am behind of you she will loss trust on me...i hope you won't expose me in front of her. I don't want to be cause misunderstandings between you and her. that's the reason I cleared. Now you think what to do."

Maan once closed his eyes. now I should think and move. Some how I should hold geet in India. But how prem can help me..." prem can you get me the passport to me..."

"no maan. she handover this to me. if I give you, she l doubt on me. try any other ways... I help you..."

Maan knotted his eyebrows. How can I stop her..his gaze again moved on her...now she is playing with children like a small kid. as a human bee he can appreciate her...but as a father he never forgive her. his eyes turned to red. Somewhere now he didn't like her attitude. His mind filled with jealous. Where his own baby didn't get her mother love but here she is trying to fulfill her motherhood desires with other children. He is becoming selfish...autocrat...geet you have to pay for it. I agree you are great. But what about my own baby...My baby deserves your love at any coast. You can not just escape from my grip.

Precap: maan trapped geet...

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