Part 31
The last month had been a very tough one for the two; they have experienced emotions they never knew existed; it was like roller coaster ride with many ups and downs.
Maan's POV
I never thought that my emotions will erupt in such a way;
I had never been insecure before when as a child I was forced away from my mother I was effected but had Anvesha to think about; when Pammi nanny came in as my new mother I felt a pang that a mere servant has come to replace my mother;
but she was sweet though I never gave her the place she was there for but still I liked her;
when I was 10 and had to look after my stupid step brother and was humiliated now and then because of him I had to put away my insecurities for DM's sake;
from the very early age I have been hiding them under the mask of my arrogance and anger;
the day I heard Geet I still remember the voice saying tayji it's still 5 why should I wake up and from that day I always felt that I will never be insecure;
but here my life the one who is always there for me the one I always shared my insecurities with had to go through so much and that too because of my negligence
When I found her being trashed by that devil Raj I would have surely killed him if others won't have come in between;
when I saw her broken elbow and bleeding forehead I simply lost my mind and broke his same arm and trashed his forehead it was his luck that Geet came in between; when she fainted in my arms I felt my blood has drained out if my body;
she was in such a bad condition; I later came to know that she had gone through multiple fractures she was unable to open her eyes her face was a lump of flesh the doctors took her in to clean and bandage I too wanted to be by her side but how what was our relationship;
why I was worried about her? When she hugged me as if I am her life line? The way others looked at me, though at that particular time I paid no heed to it but now as I think they had millions of questions in their eyes;
When the Khurana's and Kapoor's came running by and I had no reason to stay behind I felt broken; to involve my self with them I talked about Shiv and Gauri's relationship and at the same time told them about Prem and Heer;
now that my love is yes it was then I realized that how much I loved her, though I never met her but she is my soul and my heart my every breath is for her
How many nights I spend by her side, thanks to Shiv who understood my emotions towards her without any questions in his mind, how many nights I spend by her side massaging her face with the cream the nurse gave me;
how many times I rubbed her feet when she shivered, though I was tempted to follow what the nurse said, when she suggested that instead of rubbing her feet I should hug her and lie by her side, the human body warmth will help her more and at the same time my touch will help her lessen her pain, when I looked at her with questioning eyes she simply smiled you love her a lot and by the way she responds to your touch she too loves you, there is no need to feel embarrassed in front of me, yes in front of your family you can pretend and she laughed
When ever she struggled to open her eyes thinking about me I sat their helplessly what could I do more then just caress her face, my touch seemed to ease her a lot
I almost died the day she opened her eyes and said that she was not able to see anything her eyesight was seriously blurred; that day I wanted to pluck Raj's eyes out and hammer nails their;
when she cried for the fear of loosing her eyesight I was shattered in million pieces; when she wept in my arms I prayed to the heavens to make me blind, I did not want to see the world my love can't witness.
The day she went through multiple surgeries for her injuries and eyes I felt a pain that was unexplainable; I felt like shouting my lungs out;
but no one there other then Shiv seemed to notice the pain I was going through.
The day when her eyes bandage was to be removed I wanted to be by her side but it was Anvesha's mehendi ceremony and Geet forced me to go to Delhi and also took a promise that I will not come until Anvesha's Bidaai.
When she told me that she can see everything and her eyesight was perfect I was on cloud 7; that day I did not know that she will sink in coma 2 days later
As soon as Anvesha was seated with Arjun on her side and I bid her goodbye and stepped in the mansion I felt her struggling I could sense that she was sinking,
I was confused as to what happened now that she was improving her condition was stable why was she sinking why she tracing the path of no return and its then I suddenly realized that she was holding herself for Anvesha's marriage just for me;
she knew that if something happened to her and if she choose to go to the path of no return I will break down, I will hold every thing even my sister's marriage if she synced;
she had not wanted such situation to arise when I had to choose between her and my sister;
because she very well knew that I will choose her. And that's what happened, when I reached Luck now I was late she had started her journey she left me I knew she was no longer breathing I saw the ward boy reaching to lift her life less form and,
but how can I be alive if my soul was not there so I just shouted that no one will touch her it was later that Shiv told me that the moment I shouted and held her hand she came back the ward boy went running to Shiv to tell that her heart started beating,
he told me how shocked Mohinder uncle and Rano aunty were to know that it was my voice and my touch that forced her to retrace her steps, how happy they were to know that some one loved their daughter so much.
Later when I realized that she was back and had gone in coma I was relieved but at the same time upset, I never left her side, I just wanted to crawl by her side and hold her in my arms,
I was afraid I might loose her again I just wanted to kiss away my insecurities feel her skin and kiss her till she responds to the warmth of my love,
it took every ounce of my courage to keep my hands off her,
and today when she finally came back just for me as she was not able to see me suffering, and what she said I am hot not that she would have ever said that she only wanted me to come out from my cursing session and for that she had to make a shocking statement that was unlike her,
and then when she blushed reading my thoughts and permitted me I could not stop my self and did what I should not have done, not that I regret it but some things should only be done after marriage, now that I know how she tastes I don't know how far I will be able to control my urge to feast myself with those lush, wait Maan you are ridiculous remember she reads your thoughts
precap: Geet's POV
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