PG 118 - FOR NOW AND FOREVER - Page 85

Hey ppl...im back with another OS...its a simple one and not based on anyone as such...no names have been used and so you can picture it on anyone you want to...take care and enjoy😊

For Eshi...Happy Belated Birthday, my sweet...hope you like reading this story😊

For Anu...For telling me to pen down this OS when i mentioned that I had an idea for an OS in my head😊


Here goes ppl :)

THE LOVE BETWEEN US

As the last strains of the song 'Te Amo' faded away, a tear fell out from my eyes. I wiped it off and closed my eyes tight to try and block out the pain I was feeling deep inside me. I knew I probably deserved this pain. I had hurt someone who meant the world to me and this pain was probably a punishment for that. It wasn't a physical pain and that meant I did not have the means to stop it. More tears fell out of my eyes. I missed her so much. I wanted to meet her but did not have the courage to get in touch with her. I looked at my phone and my fingers itched to text her. I scrolled through my phone book until her name came up. I ran my finger lightly across her name and wished I could touch her, hold her, as I had done before when we had been together. Then I finally made up my mind – I had to get in touch with her and meet her. Our love for each other deserved another chance. It was worth it. I decided to text her instead of calling. I sent up a silent prayer hoping that she would respond to the text then I started typing.

'Hi. I know you are probably surprised to hear from me. I really need to talk to you. Could we please meet at the beach where we used to hang out? If not for anything else, then for old time's sake? I would really appreciate it if you would agree to come. Please.'

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I was reclining on the sofa in my living room listening to music and as the song 'Te Amo' ended, I realized I had tears in my eyes. Lately I had found myself teary more times than not. So many things reminded me of him and I couldn't believe he was no longer mine. The tears in my eyes fell out and I wiped them off angrily. He had hurt me and, here I was, wasting my time thinking of him. He was probably partying at the moment, without a care in the world, and all I could do was brood over what we had had with each other and wishing we could have it again. I switched off the music and decided to watch a movie to shut out the thoughts of what could never be. I had just gotten up from the sofa when my phone rang indicating an incoming text. It was 8 in the night. Who would be texting at this time?

I picked my phone up and opened the text. It was from him! I couldn't make myself open the text and stared at his name for a while. After we called things off, I had tried deleting his number from my phone but I could not make myself do it. I finally took a deep breath and opened the text. What I saw made me wonder what he was up to this time. 'Should I go?' I thought. I spent half an hour trying to decide whether I should meet him or not. I finally decided to go. What did I have to lose anyway? 'Your heart,' came the answer from somewhere inside me, but I ignored that.

I texted him back: 'Fine. I will meet you in half an hour. Don't be late.'

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I read her text and was all smiles. The gloominess that had gripped me since we had called things off, started fading away. Maybe we still did have a chance with each other. Hope swelled inside me and I rushed to freshen up. I wanted to be there before she arrived.

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When I arrived at the beach, she was not there yet. I looked around the place and smiled as past memories flooded into my mind-memories that I had never forgotten. We had spent some of our best times together here at the beach. I removed my shoes and sat down on the sand, running my fingers through it. I picked some of it up and it trickled out of my hand. Suddenly I realized that this was the way I had let my love trickle out of my life. I had not tried harder to hold on to it and I had regretted that decision ever since.

Just then I felt someone sit down beside me. It was her. She was dressed in a simple top and jeans but she had never looked more beautiful to me.

"Hi."

"Hi. How are you?" she said.

I smiled. "What do you think?"

"How would I know? I haven't met you since…" Her voice trailed off.

I knew we were both thinking of that fateful day when we had put an end to our lovely relationship. I thought I saw tears forming in her eyes but she blinked just at that moment and her eyes cleared.

"Why did you want to meet me? You could have sent your wedding card to my house. There was no need to deliver it personally, you know," she said sarcastically.

"There will be no wedding. At least not the one you are thinking of," I said.

She looked at me, shocked, and I managed a small smile.

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I had been close to tears since I had arrived at this beautiful beach which held a lot of memories that I had been trying to forget, albeit unsuccessfully. I don't know why he had to call me here of all the places. I saw him sitting on the sand, deep in thought, watching sand trickle out of his hand. I walked up to him and sat down.

He looked up and I could see a haunted, sad look in his eyes. Was he here to patch things up? A slight ray of hope appeared inside me before I ruthlessly crushed it. Why would he want to patch things up? He was going to get married to someone else. We greeted each other and I told him he could have delivered his wedding card to my house instead of calling me here. I almost started crying but managed to blink back my tears in time. It would serve no use to cry here in front of him. I knew I would cry when I got home, because that was the only place where I did not have to put up a strong front.

Then he told me there would be no wedding. That shocked me out of my wits. Either he was lying to me or I had heard wrong. But he had a small smile on his lips and I couldn't help but wish that what I had heard was true. 'Please let it be true,' I thought.

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I could literally see her thinking. I knew she thought I was probably lying or she had heard me wrong.

"I am not getting married. Things were called off," I said, watching as her eyes widened at this news.

"Are you messing with my head?" She asked, and a light chuckle escaped me.

She got offended and got up. "I am leaving! I don't even know why you called me here! Jerk!"

I got hold of her wrist just in time and halted her in her tracks. "I am sorry. Please sit. I can explain."

She turned and gave me a long, hard look, probably wondering if I was worth her time, before she pulled her wrist out of my grasp and sat down again. "Don't touch me!"

I nodded and took a deep breath, wondering how to start explaining.

"How long do I have to wait for you to say something? I am sure you did not call me here to admire the scenery, and if you have, then I had better get going," she said.

"I am sorry. I just don't know how and where to start," I said, feeling nervous, now that I had to tell her everything that had happened in the past few days.

"Just start from the beginning."

"Okay, here goes. I broke off my engagement. She was not whom she seemed to be. You were always right," I said.

"What? Okay, let's take it one at a time, okay? You broke off your engagement because your fiance…"

"Ex-fiancee," I interrupted.

"Okay, ex-fiancee, was not whom she seemed to be, right?" She said.

I nodded.

"What exactly do you mean by that?"

"Well, she pretended to be a friend to both of us yet she had her own hidden agendas which I had no idea about and despite your warnings to me, I went ahead and trusted her. That is why I said you were always right. I can't believe someone I trusted so much was purposely trying to break us up. It is still hard to digest," I said, feeling the disgust I had felt on knowing the truth, flow all over me once again.

"Yeah, well, I knew about the pretending and agenda bit. Anyways, I am sorry about your engagement and maybe you should just move on now. No use reminding yourself of all that has passed, right?" she said a bit too casually.

"Have you moved on?" I asked, praying her answer would be a No.

She looked at me, her face not revealing anything and it was one of the rare times that I could not read what she was thinking.

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When he told me he had realized the true face of the woman who had pretended to be a friend to both of us, I sent a heartfelt thanks to God for making him realize the truth in time. It had hurt when we had called things off but it had hurt more knowing that he had chosen a woman who would not appreciate him for who he is and would never be able to give him the love and respect he deserved.

I had known the true colours of that woman but despite trying to show him the truth, I had always managed to make myself feel a fool when he took her side instead. So I had finally given up – something I was not really proud of. I loved him and even to-date, I knew I should have fought harder instead of giving up on him. But I was really happy that he had finally realized the truth before it got too late.

So I casually told him it was time to forget the past and move on when he threw the same question back to me.

"Have you moved on?" he asked me.

'No! No! No!' My heart shouted out.

I schooled my features into the best unreadable expression that I could, because I knew how easily he could read my thoughts.

'What should I tell him? The truth? No, that would probably make me look like a fool once again and I am not risking that ever!' I thought.

"Yes, I have moved on. My work keeps me busy and has helped me a great deal. So, yes, I have moved on," I said and mustered a weak smile, hoping he wouldn't read through my lies.

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"Yes, I have moved on. My work keeps me busy and has helped me a great deal. So, yes, I have moved on," she said, and gave me a weak smile before turning her gaze away from me.

'She is lying,' I thought. She can't look me in the eye. Then it struck me that she was lying because she did not want to get hurt once again. She had not yet realized that I still loved her. Despite everything I was still in love with her. And I was sure she loved me, too, but she was afraid of getting hurt.

All the self-directed anger I had been feeling since we had called things off had intensified when I had learnt the truth of the woman who was supposedly my closest friend, and that same anger worsened now. I felt like a total heel and I did not know how I was going to make things up to this wonderful lady I was so much in love with. And now that I thought about it, I had no idea how I would have spent a lifetime with someone else when I was in love with the woman sitting next to me.

"Are you lying to me?" I finally managed to ask her.

"What? Are you crazy? Why would I lie?" she said, a bit too quickly.

"Let's prove it," I said, even though I did not know how we could prove such a thing.

She looked at me, an incredulous look on her face, and I did the next thing that came to my mind. I kissed her! Hard!

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He was quiet for a long time after I told him I had moved on. Then he suddenly asked if I was lying and I gave him a quick reply – way too quick. After answering him is when I realized my reply had been quick and defensive and therefore proved that I had indeed been lying to him. He knew me too well and he would not let this go.

Then he asked me to prove it and I started at him. He really had gone bonkers. How on Earth would I prove that to him?! Then suddenly he kissed me and all my thought processes closed down. It had been so long since we had kissed and all the pent-up emotions inside us came out in the kiss which turned passionate in a matter of milliseconds. He put his arms around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I ended up putting my arms around his neck to hold myself steady.

Finally we broke apart and I pushed him away as soon as I could think clearly.

"How d-d-dare y-you?! I don't b-belong to you a-anymore so you j-j-just can't –can't go around k-k-kissing me like t-that, okay!" I said in a near shout, cursing my stuttering tongue inwardly.

I had a feeling that the kiss had answered all his questions and he now knew that I was not over him and that I had not moved on an inch also.

He ran his hands through his hair and muttered a Sorry to me before looking away. I frowned and wondered what he was thinking.

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When she responded to the kiss immediately I laid my lips on hers, I had the answer to my question. She had not moved on and was definitely lying about it. Then I forgot everything except the feel of her in my arms. It seemed like centuries since we had kissed and there were so many emotions inside me that needed an outlet. The kiss became the outlet.

It must have been the same for her because I could sense the same emotions in her that were running through me – anger, sadness and finally bliss, at being in each other's arms again. The kiss turned passionate and I couldn't bring her close enough to me. I kept tightening my arms around her although she was completely pressed against me. She put her arms around my neck and held on.

Finally when we broke off, I realized what I had done and I could sense she was angry at me before she started shouting at me. She was stuttering due to nervousness and all I could do was say Sorry to her.

'Now what?!' I thought. I cursed my lack of control and looked away. I had practically ruined the whole thing. I had no idea how I would manage to sort this when she suddenly spoke up.

"I know you are cursing yourself, but it's okay. Such things happen. We used to date and at the moment we are both in a weird situation where we do not know what lies ahead. We don't know the next step to take and so it happened. It was just a kiss. Don't work yourself up too much over it. We probably needed to get it out of our system anyway."

I looked at her, shocked. "It was just a kiss? Are you very sure?"

She just shrugged and looked at her feet.

"Will you do me a favour and look at me while we talk? When you look down it makes me feel like I am a cockroach you are looking for so you can kill it," I said.

She burst out laughing at that and I realized how much I had missed her laughter. She looked glorious and her eyes twinkled. The fact that I had made her laugh made me happy – very happy - and I smiled widely.

When she saw me admiring her, she stopped laughing and smiled instead. "I could imagine a cockroach with your face and thinking how much I would love to step on it."

"Very funny," I said sarcastically, but could not stop smiling.

After that, none of said anything for a while before I broke the silence. "We need to talk about this, about us. There is something between us for sure and I think we need to give it a chance. What do you think?"

I saw her take in a deep breath and take in what I had just told her.

"Well, yeah, but there is so much we need to consider, so much that has happened, that I wonder if we will ever be able to go back to what we really had before. We might be able to sort this and even get back together but I don't know if things will work out. What we went through has changed us both in some way and I don't even know if we are even compatible anymore," she said.

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When I felt he did not know what to say after the kiss, I tried to shrug the kiss off as a casual kiss that was needed and he looked at me, shocked. I knew how hard it had been for me to say that to him and I did it because I thought, for a moment, that he was regretting it. His next question proved me wrong.

"It was just a kiss? Are you very sure?"

I had no answer so I just shrugged and looked at my feet.

Then he told me to look at him while we talked because he felt like a cockroach I was waiting to kill when I looked at my feet. That cracked me up and I laughed like I hadn't laughed in days. I could not stop laughing until I noticed him looking at me with that admiring expression of his and that stopped my laughter. I started feeling nervous and smiled at him.

Then we were silent for a while until he mentioned that we needed to give 'us' another chance. I wished for the same but there was so much between us and I did not know how we would overcome all that. I told him that and I prayed hard that he would assure me that we would get over all of it together and nothing mattered as long as we were together. He probably read my thoughts because those were his very next words to me.

"Nothing matters as long as we are together and you know that. We have gone through worse before so why do you doubt the strength of our love now? I have always loved you even when I was engaged to someone else and I still love you. I know you love me too. You do, right?"

I nodded and he smiled.

"I know I have a million things I have to apologise for to you. I have hurt you immensely but I promise that I will do all I can to make up for it, and this time the promise is real. Kill me like that cockroach if I break any promise this time. I won't blame you for it."

I laughed lightly at that cockroach bit and shook my head.

Then he continued, "I let my ego come in between us and I gave up on you. That was the worst mistake in my life and I will never let such a thing happen. Come what may, I won't let anything or anyone come in between us, ever. I now know that I had been emotionally blackmailed by the people around me and, the gullible fool that I was, I fell for it. I have realized that I can not do without you. I need you, my love. You bring out the best in me and you are the only person I can be myself with and not be afraid of being judged. Will you take me back in your life? Please?"

I did not realize I was crying until he wiped the tears off and shook his head, indicating that I shouldn't cry.

"I love you," was all I could say before I hugged him.

He hugged me back tightly and pressed a kiss to my shoulder and my hair. "I love you, hun."

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"Nothing matters as long as we are together and you know that. We have gone through worse before so why do you doubt the strength of our love now? I have always loved you even when I was engaged to someone else and I still love you. I know you love me too. You do, right?" I said.

She smiled and nodded. All the while I kept praying that she would allow me back in her life. I was lost without her and I could not imagine myself without her any more. I don't know how I could have been stupid enough to give up on the one person who could bring out the best in me. I had to apologise for a million things but I was ready to do anything as long as she would have me back. I couldn't imagine hurting anyone the way I had hurt her and I would hate that part of me forever. I promised myself I would make it up to her for as long as I lived. I needed her and I could not imagine life without her. I had no idea how I had agreed to marry someone else. Family pressure and emotional blackmail could do a lot of harm and mess up with someone's brain, I thought.

"Will you take me back in your life? Please?" I said.

She was crying so I wiped her tears off and shook my head.

"I love you," was all she said before she hugged me close.

I hugged her back as tightly as I could and kissed her shoulder and hair. "I love you, hun."

We were quiet for a while before she spoke up. "I am sorry."

"What for?!" I asked, puzzled.

"For letting my ego come between us and for giving up on you as well," she said. "When I realized I was being proven a fool all the times I tried to show you the reality, I decided to give up on you, on us, not realizing how huge a mistake I was making. I have been miserable all this time and nothing seems to make me happy. I am so sorry. Maybe if I hadn't given up, things would never have gotten so worse."

"It's okay, darling. We both made mistakes but the best thing is we realized our mistakes before it got too late. Maybe it had been planned that way by destiny so that we realized just how much we mean to each other and how much we need each other in our life," I said, smiling, and felt her nod. I sent up a small thanks to God for bringing us back together and teaching us the importance of each other.

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After his apology, I felt like I had to apologise to him for giving up on him as well. Even I had let my ego come in between us and had not been patient enough. So I apologized but the genuine guy that he was, he brushed off my apology without making me feel bad about my mistakes and instead put it all on destiny's doorstep. 'Yeah, I definitely loved this guy and I would not let him go away from my life, ever. I had learnt my lesson. He completed me like no other.' I sent up a small thanks to God for bringing us back together and teaching us the importance of each other.

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Two days later, at her house, while watching a movie…

"Will you marry me?" He said, out of the blue.

She looked at him, shocked. "We are in the middle of a movie, you do realize that?"

"So? I couldn't wait. I wanted to do something special but something keeps coming in the way. So I decided to use whatever time we got together to ask you. And well, this is the only time we got after that night on the beach," he said with a bit of a whine in his voice, letting her know that he was not happy about the fact that they were not really getting proper time with each other.

She laughed and shook her head before ruffling his hair with her hand.

"Yes, I will marry you, my love," she said.

"Really?!" He said, trying to look shocked.

"Like you did not know I would agree." She rolled her eyes.

"Yeah, well, I knew, but I thought a little drama would be nice."

She laughed again and he pulled her close to kiss her hard.

It felt great to be in love and to know you would be marrying the love of your life – very soon.

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Six months later – Their Wedding…

The priest pronounced them man and wife after all the rituals were over and told them to take blessings from their elders.

Before they got up from their seats, they looked at each other and each knew what the other was thinking.

"Thank you for coming into my life. I am so glad you are finally mine. I will never let anything or anyone come between us, I promise. I love you, now and forever, and this love between us will never fade."

Enjoy, Amy😃

Beautiful OS 😃

What to write? *ThinkingHard* Waise toh your golden words always heal mah pain...Dis OS z so Beautifully written by a Beautiful Lady like you..my Amy Di..my Amy Baby..i shouldnt 'Thank you' for presenting me this gift..You are so close to me..u hold a place in my heart just like my parents..Do i thank them when they give me a surprise? No never...The same applies for you...
Cuming back to the OS i simply loved the last quoted lines..wish both of us(u knw wat i mean) end up saying that...more than that i badly wish our favourite 'Butter-Chicken Lovers' end up saying that very soon..;)

And about Liking ur OS..i swear the Like button doesnt work thru my cell..when i click on Like,it shows 'Error In Request' isme meri galti hai tum batao?? :(
Bohot jyada he bak-bak kar liya..dis z the first time ever i posted such a huge reply undr an update...For extremly special people like my Amy Di i just can do anything... :)

Lodsa Love,
Eshi.

amy...all i wanna say is to what u have written is...

Princess.. couldn't you find a better creature than a cockroach???? But, I'll just say that HOPE This OS of yours comes true... each and every word... AMEN...but cockroach.. ewww 🤓

@AmyArTiMayUr: Awesum n fantastic!!!!😊