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Hey...finally finished anu's request!!! lol hopefully you all will like it!! thanks for all the comments *hug* "Oh that Riddhima...don't worry she'll still get married on the same day?"
p.s. Sneha...thank you soo much for helping me again!! What would I do without you? *hug*
Back to Origin
Imagine...leaving a place...leaving everyone that you identified with behind...leaving the one you loved behind...and then coming back to the same place. But this time as a change person!
Naina told me that she was coming back tomorrow...but why now? Why now...when I was ready to move on? When I had moved on? When I had realized that I was never in love with her...
I don't know if he is still in love with me...when I had made sure that I convinced him that he wasn't.
Sanjeevani
"Sid, can you please go pick Tamana from the airport...Omar uncle asked me to...but Dr. Keerti is making me stay overtime today!" Naina quickly called out as she left the locker room...not even waiting for me to respond
I tried to get out of picking her up...but it seem as if everyone had something or another to do...so I was stuck!
Airport
I was waiting for someone to come and pick me up...I wasn't sure who was coming...but Baba did say that someone will be here.
I was trying extremely hard to go in...But I couldn't get myself to! This was the exact same place where she left my life forever...why did she come back?
I decided to walk out of the airport...maybe look for a taxi...it had been almost two hours...and no one was here yet.
I looked at the time for the twentieth time...or maybe more...her flight landed two hours ago...but I was still standing by my car...at least I was out of it.
I saw him standing by his car...well it was hard to miss it...the yellow car! He was looking at his watch as if it was the most interesting thing on this planet...I unknowingly started to smile loudly.
She tapped me on my shoulder...lightly...as if I was a kid...which made me automatically scowl at her. She backed off with a shocked expression...as if she was afraid of me...a kid!
I wasn't expecting him to react to me like he did...it wasn't the reaction that was like him...it made me regret my decision to leave. Was I responsible for his changed behaviour? Did I want him to change? I did tell him to change...wait, no I didn't! I told him to stay as he is...because that is what I like the best about him...actually love the best about him.
I did not say anything but simply moved to the driver's seat and opened the trunk...
He simply took my bags and put them in the trunk...all without a single word. After putting the bags away...he went back to sit on the driver's side and unlocked my door.
I started the car as soon as she sat...without giving her a second look...but why did I feel like confronting her right now.
I wanted to desperately ask her why she returned...when I had managed to forget her. Did I really forget her? If so, then why is my heart aching right now?
Car
I wanted to talk to him...ask him how has been...but should I? I should...
"I...how...I missed you!"
okay that wasn't what I wanted to ask him...but it was the truth I didn't know what to say to her...I wanted to taunt her...yell at her...but the truth was I missed her too...so I opted to not acknowledge it at all
He didn't reply to me...why? Why did he change? Why was he not like the old Sid? Was I responsible for it?
Was she really responsible for my changed behaviour? Did I change because she rejected me...or SHE was responsible for it?
I tried again...
"Sid...are you...are you mad at me?"
This time I replied...
"How is Aniket?"
"I hope he is well, wherever he is!"
I looked at her for the first time since we sat in the car...
"He died..."
Despite, trying not to cry...silent tears dropped
I noticed silent tears dropping from her eyes...the eyes that I...that I...I stopped the car immediately on the side of the road
"I...Tam...ana...please...stop crying! I...I..."
"It's okay Sid! I am sorry for crying!"
"Tamana...why are you so sorry? I am sorry!"
"It's okay...I am alright!"
I wiped my tears away and gave him...or tried to give him my best smile...but I guess it failed because his face turned even sadder. "How have you been?"
I tried to make small talk...while he started the car back again "I've been alive!"
This wasn't the answer I was expecting...but so far nothing has been going as I had expected...what did I expect anyway?
"Hmm..."
"I am getting married!"
Now this was definitely not what I was expecting...Sid getting married...was I gone that long?
"Oh...um...um...congratulations! Who is the lucky girl?"
"Dr. Shashank's daughter, Dr. Riddhima Gupta!"
"Oh...I think I've met her once! She is a nice girl...I...I...I am happy for you!"
Why did I just lie to her?
Why did I just lie to him? I wasn't happy...why though? I knew why...and I was prepared to admit it...but six months is a long time...I guess...he has moved on...without me.
I could have moved on...since I had never been in love with her...was I never in love with her?
I try to make another attempt in the small talk series...because I am trying to be happy for him...right?
"So...when is the wedding?"
"Soon...you're coming right?"
Why did I just ask her that...do I really want her to come? Why am I so interested in seeing her reaction...to know what she thinks?
"Um..no!"
"Why...aren't you happy for me?"
Why the hell do I care? "I just came here to see Aayi Baba...I am...I...am moving to New Delhi branch...I am leaving tomorrow!"
That's a lie but...well I am going to leave tomorrow...why should I stay? For whom? I'll take Aayi Baba with me too...Baba has always been there for Dr. Shashank...he wouldn't mind doing him a favour right?
I wasn't sure how to react to that...shouldn't I be happy that she was leaving again? Shouldn't I be used to it by now?
"Why are you leaving?"
I didn't want to ask her that...but I couldn't help it...
I couldn't answer that question...should I tell him that I came back for him? Should I tell him that I left Aniket before he died? That the only reason I stayed there was to take care of his mother...who passed away two weeks ago?
Should I tell her the truth?
"Tamana...I...I want to tell you something!"
Maybe...he wants to tell me all about Riddhima and I was not interested at all...but should I listen to him...for him? I decided to...
"Yes Sid?"
I stopped my car on the side of the road the second time since we started on our journey together...journey...our journey since the beginning...something just struck me...no not literally but figuratively...
"Can we start over again? I want you back in my life...if you want we can start over as friends!"
Or not
"I would love to Sid...but I won't be around anymore...not that I was around for quite some time!
Um...you should really focus on your new relationship with Dr. Riddhima...she is more important! I am just another girl that you've met in your life!" The only girl I've ever loved...
"Don't worry about my relationship with anyone! I am worried about you!"
"Don't be!"
"Why?"
"Because I don't want sympathy!"
"I am not trying to give you any!"
"Yes you are!"
"For once will you stop assuming things about me!"
I didn't know what to say after that...so I simply let the tears fall from my eyes...
"Stop crying! Do you...do you not want to be even friends with me?"
"That's not true!"
"Will you answer me truthfully for once?"
"I am telling you the truth!"
"Do you love me? Have you ever loved me?"
I looked at him with a shocked expression...I wasn't expecting that...at all
"Sid...you've moved on! And please stop asking me questions that I can't answer!"
"Why? Because you love him? Because you hate the fact that I have moved on? That I have changed? That I love someone else? You have always been wrong Tamana...you never knew me! You thought my love was nothing but just an infactuation of an immature kid! Do you really think moving on is that easy? Forgetting your love is that easy? I can see my love in your eyes...why are you afraid to confess?"
I am not sure where that came from but it did...was I assuming things now...like she did?
I think it was time...
"Yes, I love you! I really love you! But what's the point? You already have someone you love and who loves you back. Cherish it! Life is too short for any regrets! Forget about me...I am your past! It's my faul that I lost a love like yours but don't make the same mistake as I did. Go after her...and make her happy!"
Please don't go!
"See...that's where you are wrong! I have and will always love you! No matter what!"
"But...what about Riddhima?"
"Who is Riddhima?"
"Your fianc, Sid?"
I looked at him as if he had suddenly grown a horn...
"I lied just to see your expression...but why do I have a feeling that your expression is changing to something scary now?"
I gave him my best angry look...but I couldn't help it...
"I love you, Sid!"
"I love you too, Tamana"
And then we hugged....
Preview of the next one
Santa's Little Helper
"We are just going away for two weeks...make sure that Arjun is alright when we come back or else I am going to kill you!"
"Di...it's not like the first time I am taking care of him!"
"Mac...don't remind me of the last time I left Arjun with you...I don't even know why Sanjay wants to leave our kid with you again", Mac sister looked at her husband who looked up from his newspaper and quickly looked away when he saw the angry stare.
"Di...stop scaring Jiju!! And don't worry this time I won't forget Arun on the race track!"
Mac grabbed the cookie from the plate that was placed in front of him."If you...hurt my kid...or forget him anywhere this time...I am going to make it my mission to never allow you to eat again!! I am going to cut your guts out!"
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
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