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Happy Birthday Mimi & Sara
2 very different people with one thing in common:)
🤗 🤗
Lag jaa gale
Its been 3 years, I have no idea how the time flew by. I was part of the show till the end and my motivation was nothing but her. The best co-star I could hope for, dream of. I have no idea why I feel this way, she is a great friend of mine, we'll be in touch even now, even then I feel terrible. I feel like I'm leaving a part of me while I leave this character, its not the character, its her..I know. I cant imagine my life without her around. Its been like that for 3 years now, we were constantly together as our work demanded it and we liked being with each other. God, I'll miss her.
There is a small get-together today to mark the end of the show, we were moving on to other things in life, I dont want to somehow. Its abnormal, I get bored easily with things, I need challenges to keep me going, but with her around I needed no motivation, no change, she was good enough for me to keep going. Do you think I'm in love with her? I dont know ..I have lost track of reality, did I become the character or was I acting real? I have no idea, in the show I loved her from the bottom of my heart so my real feelings for her confuses me. What do I , the person, feel for her, the person and not what my character feels for her character?
We were all sitting around in a circle, it was a close knit group, just us the actors and some members of the crew. She was sitting next to me as usual. Call it a habit, we always sit together, even now, when we were no more the characters and no more doing interviews together. I guess its our bond, the friendship we share. Or is it more, I looked at her.she caught me gazing at her and asked me to stop staring. She always did that, but ofcourse thats because I have this terrible habit of getting lost in her when I look at her. She has a magical effect on me, inspite of the 3 years together, I cant help being mesmerised by her.
We had a round of games where random couples were called and we had to dance for a song played..or act out the song played. We went through various combinations,it was fun. Some new songs , some old songs. Slowly the crowd was dwindling as people were getting sleepy. Finally it was our turn the lead couple, we gamely went upto the floor right in midst of a few people who were not very attentive to what we wer edoing. They played a song...and I held out my hand for a slow dance...
Lag jaa gale ke phir
ye haseen raat ho na ho...
give me a hug for i dont know whether
we would get to see a night as beautiful as this
shaayad phir is janam mein
mulaqat ho na ho...
for I dont know if we'd ever meet again in this lifetime
We were swaying to the music like a couple, perfect pose and all, but my eyes were deperately trying to avoid hers, I couldnt hold her in my arms and hear that song. It was breaking my heart. I finally gathered the courage to look at her,
]hum ko milee hain aaj ye ghadeeyaan nasib se
these moments are very precious as we have got it because its in our destiny
jee bhar ke dekh lijiye, hum ko kareeb se
look at me from near and fill ur heart for what may be the last time
she wasnt looking at me, then as if breaking free from an internal struggle she looked at me. What was it that I saw in her eyes? I dont know, I dont even want to know.
fir aap ke nasib me, ye baat ho naa ho
it may not be in ur destiny to see me so close to u in this lifetime
shaayad fir is janam me, mulaakaat ho naa ho
for I dont know if we'd ever meet again in this lifetime
I just knew at this moment looking away will tear my heart to pieces.
paas aaeeye ke hum naheen aayenge baar baar
come near me for I wouldn't be back ever again ..
baahe gale mein daal ke, hum ro le jaar jaar
I want to put my arms around your neck and cry my heart out
She slowly put her arms around my neck without breaking the eye contact, I held her and I felt a searing pain shoot through me every time we swayed. Did I hear a sob? I m sure nobody else did for it was so subtle and very well camouflaged but I heard it, I dont know if I knew it because my ears heard it or if it were my heart. It reached my heart, that I knew.
aakhon se fir ye, pyaar kee barasaat ho naa ho
will my eyes show such love for you(rain of love) ever again?
shaayad fir is janam me, mulaakaat ho naa ho
for will we ever meet again in this lifetime..
I slowly took her face in my arms to see her beautiful eyes filled with tears and I did the only thing I could think of ...hugged her...finally something seemed right.
Note - Added the translation to the song in brown
Link to the song
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvrnXi0H-T8[/YOUTUBE]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvrnXi0H-T8
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