I am standing at the gate of my house waiting for him with a broad smile with shyness in the eyes and excitement in my heart as I have waited for this day from long but more than me I know he has waited for this day. I know I never ever took him seriously and may be hurt him unintentionally too. Whenever he said 'Tarani My three true words, 'I love U',I had an expression of, 'Don't start this again..' he has been my childhood buddy from long.. In our gang of 10 friends I never understood why he was so outspoken about his feelings right from our schools days… The first time he proposed to me was in class 8th and I cried the whole day I do remember. It was after a week he apologized saying he wrote the letter as he felt whatever he feels for me was special and it was love … I felt I was too mature and guided him as a friend. After that in class10th he proposed me again, it was our farewell party and I was complimented by many as it was the first time I wore a Saree…. He looked into my eyes kneeled down and said giving me flowers he had collected from the tress of our school ground… 'My three true words, I LOVE U', all my others gang friends had laughed and so did I… I really felt his maturity hadn't increased.. He was the funny chap in our gang of friends who made all of us laugh and smile.. But seldom did I take him seriously. We entered college and were together again but had a larger friend circle now.. Whenever we 10close friends met we were the most happy…and everyone knew Vishesh had soft corner for me.. There were four more girls in our gang. I never liked him giving me special attention as it would become a topic of laughter for the others… He never misbehaved but was cute funny and I always felt he was not serious about life… Vishesh and his THREE TRUE WORDS.. I had laughed wondering when will he grow up.
We went far away from each other after our graduation; we had our respective choice of career but were in touch through phone and internet… Once he came all the way down from London to propose me yet another time… it was windy evening near the beach we walked recollecting our time with our gang of friends and he had held my hand.. He gave a tiny little pearl in my hand an original pearl.. And asked me to put it in the chain I wore if I loved him and if not just to throw it in the water beside…His said, My three true words always stay the same,' I love U ', but do u think ur true feelings have those three words for me…' For the first time I felt tensed, to say anything to him...as his eyes were full of affection and nervous to know what I may do... He looked into my eyes and said.. in my entire life the only girl I have proposed number of times is u and this is the last time I am going to propose u',… and I didn't knew what happen. I was shivering. why was he so serious.. Why couldn't he be the same funny and joyful.. I didn't want to wear it in my chain. I knew I was not in love with him. As I never seriously felt he was mature enough to know what is love… I didn't want to throw the pearl as well as I knew it was not expensive but it was priceless as it had Vishesh's feelings attached to it which he carried. .how could I throw that away.. The person on who's face I never saw stress or tension was standing with stern look. I remember I just quietly said, " I cant wear this pearl.." before I could even complete Vishesh took that pearl threw it in the water.. and walked away. I stood there wondering he may turn back saying it was a joke … dont be so serious… he can never get angry on anyone especially on me whom he just was always always very caring and sweet.. He went away never to turn back and see...
Afterwards I contacted him, told him I can never hurt him, tried hard to tell him and he was genuinely not wanting to hear anything on that topic he spoke nicely but very formal and just not what he is .. just not what I liked in him.. his way of chatting , talking towards me changed… he was keeping a distance but always trying to make me feel guilt free that he isn't hurt , he is ok.. and he has forgotten and not to remind him.. But I had not forgotten… and those eyes with that pearl in hand.. how could I ever forget.. so much love for me.. Now it felt I was continuously thinking about him.. all the memories of our childhood came to me and I laughed again remembering, I smiled again remembering how special he is to me. I met him one day at a party, I was just soo sooo happy looking at him.. I saw him after months and felt he is so charming.. I don't know why I started getting attracted to him physically as well… never had thought about how he looks, how he walks, how he smiles, how he talks.. but now all that came to mind.. I knew I was not feeling bad that he was not giving me special attention just the fact that I know him and I am able to look at him after so much time made me feels so excited and happy. I knew I was fond of him, and yes I liked him.. when I now recollected the many times he has proposed me I blushed and felt I would now cry if he had proposed me.. as the tears of happiness are something I couldn't hide now… I wanted him now to somehow feel the same and somehow wanted him to come to me and ask me this final time. And for sure not only will he hear yes from my side, I would hug him and kiss him as I would tell him how lucky I feel that he choose me to be his life part.
He would not propose me now I knew it, the last time he had very seriously told me it is the last time he will ask me out. I knew now I had to take the lead and ask him, I have to do this for myself if I seriously don't want to loose him. I called him up saying all our friends are coming at my place there is a very important matter and he needs to come along. I was too nervous to be that honest enough to say I need to talk to u… As I felt scared that he may say NO and not let me show how much he means to me. He said he will be here, Its half an hour pass the time he had informed he will be here, still he hasn't reached. I am sure he will be very happy looking at me. I am dressed in a lovely saree, with my hair ironed and silky; I have not cared to be so properly dressed ever in my life. Matching jewllery, nailpolish, makeup I don't know what not I have worked on. Even after all this I am nervous whether he will like all this. I have arranged a beautiful place for us to sit and chat in the backyard of my house with lightening and decorative pots with flowers who's fragrance is spreading around the area. All the flowers, colours, food are of his choice. Here he arrived.. OH God..
Vishesh: Hi
Tarani: Hi…
Vishesh: everyone must have arrived… soo… I am late I think..
Tarani: No, u r not late.. Actually I myself was late.. but its never too late…. Right?
Vishesh a bit confused: Ya.. lets go in.. where's everyone? No noise.. why everyone is so silent..
Tarani: This side.. lets go towards the backyard where we have played in our childhood… so many memories I have of ur funny games and how much u have made us laugh.. Mom dad always adored u...
Vishesh looking at the backyard: hmm… what's all this decoration, lightening.. Wow!! The fragrance is soo good… these flowers plants… what's all this? Where are our friends?
Tarani: There is just one friend here for me… that's U .. Whom I have invited here to listen to something very important I want to say...
Vishesh: U lied to me… Tarani.. let me go from here I really am not interested to spend time with u alone… I don't want to make my heart loose its direction…I am happy with myself.. I really don;t want to hear anything which will affect me.. I have come out of a lot of pain. I dont want to take more nor give u pain..
Tarani: Plzz Plzz one chance to let me say what I am here feeling.. Just sit here… Vishesh.. I know many times u have proposed and I have refused rejected and u were hurt… I seriously couldn't understand why u liked me.. But somehow my liking my friendship with u has made me realize how much I like u and I have feelings for u ….and I really My three true words … plzz listen to them… ' I LOVE U..'
Vishesh: I ignored u ...and now u feel u love me… Is it that u miss the attention I gave and not actually 'Me'..
Tarani: I don't feel u should look at me.. or u should look for me.. I dont think about what u could do and what u have done… I have always started thinking in these days how much I havnt done.. how much I could.. and how much I have felt.. How much I liked been with u … how much I miss to chat and how much I have shared with u.. How much I trust u and how much I could be happy if I had u … My three true words I realized and felt.. I mean it truly.. 'I LOVE U '
Vishesh: The feeling of u loving me is very very special.. But somewhere I feel its for the moment.. May be its not real in nature.. u missed me as I wasn't here and when I am with u .. May be after little time u will feel like a friend u had missed me.. How to think u actually were missing me as I was much more special for u…. May be u confusing usrself with friendship and love. What didn't happen in years would happen in months… U always told me I was confusing myself and was not mature enough to realize what's close friendship and what's love?
Tarani: Friendship was beginning, close friends became the after part… u decided very early what all u liked and how much u liked and what u want in ur life… what space I could have.. But for me I wasn't sure why u felt.. I wasn't sure how u felt.. I considered u immature and never took u seriously but really U were much more mature, I had no reason to say No to u except for the fact that I couldn't understand ur love for me.. But somewhere I was immature to understand whether I could ever fall in love with a person like u or not.. I was questioning myself why u love me… and whether u were seriously right or wrong but not realizing whether I had any feelings for u or not.. I took years to realize U have everything I want in my life partner… but I realized in these few months… I need ur love, I need u and I want to be with U forever.. I really LOVE U … truly I missed not just friendship but ur love as well… Lovers we can become when friends we stay always
Vishesh: Tarani, the pearl I gave had one thing on my mind. As the Pearl is in the depth of a sea, my love for u was that deep. Giving u that I wanted u to keep ME in ur heart with that much deep feelings. And if u didn't feel the depth of my love I wanted u to throw it away saying u don't care anymore. At least that will make me come out of this crazy feeling of wanting u every time in life and taking the bitter truth that u never took me seriously ever.. Sorry Tarani I don't want to get into all this now.. I have moved on.. I am trying hard to cope up .. Let me go .. I am not in any position to say anything to u any more..
Tarani: Vishesh .. wait…. Don't go like this.. Wait here… one second.. Just look at this… for a moment wait..
Vishesh: what's it..
Tarani: After falling in love and understanding my love for u .. I have understood u and ur love for me as well.. I had realized what feelings u had behind giving me that pearl… and with the same feeling … U have every right to reject refuse me... Take this watch and wear it if u 'LOVE' me.. and if u dont love me than also wear this watch… As time doesn't wait for anyone it keeps moving and my time in ur life is not over yet.. This is not the last time I will propose I will keep proposing u on n on… for life time…
Vishesh smiling: Ohhhhh… U have become like me...
Tarani: I have become like u?
Vishesh:My three true words remain the same as well, " I love u … "
Tarani : aa… what.. I mean.. r u sure… U love me u said. Right?
Vishesh: Ofcourse.. u heard it right dear.. I always loved u and .. I cant even think of anyone else or even think of not wanting to be part of ur life.. u r the centre of my life as always…
Taran happy and confused and tensedi: suddenly.. u had just said....
Vishesh: Giving u the pearl, I had decided the same thing what u said now… if u love me wear it and if u dont love me than also take it.. But dont throw it away.. I wanted to say this but our friends, Our gang they told me I was not going to get u like this.. I had to first see if I have a place in ur heart .. they somehow felt I was trying hard in the direction where there was no love at all.. They force me to take a stand and ask u saying what all I told u that day.. After getting rejection my option were less.. But I had to go by what I had told u … Friends were there to calm me down to support me.. But I was angry at them.. Due to them I felt I could loose u forever.. I was upset with them but somewhere I was sure I had a place in ur heart, even when they would say Tarani doesn't love u , leave it.. I told them .. on that day Tarani said SHE CANT wear the pearl.. and not that SHE DOESN'T want to wear it.. They laughed they felt I was blindly looking for getting ur love …U know Tarani when we met after that incident.. All our friends informed how they observed for the first time ur eyes were soo soo happy looking at me.. They believed that u actually had feelings.... when u called today I was stunned but somewhere knew may be u love me.. as all our friends had already informed that there was no talk of meeting at ur place… I just tried to get it out what u thought of me.. If I said no.. or if I said am not sure…I feel sooo soo happy that even u share the same feeling of giving time but not giving hope .. Giving our love every chance to get together.. Our three true words, "Love U forever'
Taranni with tears in eyes and smiling with happiness: Let me propose u , kneeling down…
Vishesh: Nooo.. No.. I cant let u do that, I have to kneel down and ask u to not only accept my love but …
Vishesh kneeled down removed a pearl from his left pocket: My three true words, "I LOVE U "DO u love me Tarani…
Tarani taking the pearl: I love u …
Vishesh taking out a pearl bracelet and asking her: My new found three true words, "MARRY ME TARANI"..
Tarani blushed laughed and hugged him, wore the braclet…. Saying:marriage is a huge responsibility, r we mature enough for it..
Vishesh raised his eyebrow… smiling along
Tarani wore the bracelet: maturity?.. legally we are mature.. I think that's the think I was talking about .. so its fine.. CARDS be printed with the three words, " Tarani Weds Vishesh"
Both smiled, sat, chatted, hugged, kissed and felt they found three words more, "LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL"
**************Love does not alter the beloved, it alters itself. ****************
Love is Strange; Love can't be arranged,
As friend one meets; Love starts to breathe,
Love brings hope alive; becomes the reason to survive,
Love cannot be measured; it can only be treasured,
Love is not hugging each other getting intimate;
Or dancing with romance;
Love wants & thinks for others good;
Having patience, giving, hoping for another chance,
One can't love as the other is looking beautiful,
The other starts looking beautiful as one is in love,
Have Faith Hope & Love, trust urself and love more n more…
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