Aarzii.....SujalnKashish.....Last Part..12/03 - Page 69

Two days later......

Two long days have passed since Sujal left.....Kashish is in the kitchen cooking while Heer and Prem are in the lounge working on a case.....the silence in the house gets disturbed by the phone ringing......Kashish lowers the gas and goes to pick up the phone.......she picks up the phone.....

Kashish: hello....Kashish here...

A lady on the other side of the phone answers back.......

Lady: hello...Kashish ji main asylum se bol rahi hoon...room number 13 ki patient jisse aap milne aati hain...woh apni aakhri saansein le rahi hain...aap please jald se jald asylum pohanch jaiye..

Kashish: kya...Padma Masi...lekin unhe hua kya.....woh thik to hogi...kuch to boliye..kya hua..

Lady: unke bachne ke chances bohat kam hai...unhe heart attack aaya tha...humne senior doctor ko bulaya tha lekin woh kehrahe the ke waqt bohat kam hai...please aap jald se jald aajaiye..

Kashish: main bas abhi aa rahi hoon....aap ple unka khayal rakhiye....thik hai...bas 15 mins me main aati hoon..

Lady: ji theek hai...hum unke paas hi hain..don't worry...

Kashish quickly puts the receiver down and rushes back in to the kitchen and turns of the gas...Heer and Prem see Kashish rushing past them.....they get worried as to what happened so they get up and go in to the kitchen to ask Kashish whats wrong......while Kashish is in the kitchen thinking about what to do becuase she cant hide this big of a news from Heer as Padma masi is Heer's mother......and she couldnt hide that Heer's mother is dying....but she also cant tell Heer the truth after all this time......Kashish is in a dilemma as to what she should do......

Heer: di kya hua...aap is tarah kyun khadi hain...aap kuch pareshan lag rahi hain..

Kashish: Heer....hume abhi kahi jana hai.....tuje mere saath chalna hoga....chalo hume dair ho rahi hai...Prem tum bhi..

Prem: kahan jaana hai di?

Kashish: tum dono sawal kiye bina chaloge ab..

Heer: theek hai di...chaliye...

Heer and Prem rush out of the door to keep up with Kashish......Kashish locks the house then they all drive off to the asylum......after sometime they reach the asylum and Prem and Heer are shocked to see where the came.......they look at Kashish in suprise.....she looks at them then quickly gets out of the car and rusdes to room 13.............Heer and Prem are very confused as to why they are here and why Kashish came here herself........with questions on both their faces they follow Kashish in to the room........and get shocked at seeing Padma.......another million questions pop up in their minds as to who the lady is....Heer walks further into the room to where Kashish is sitting near Padma's bed.........Padma is out of control and Kashish is trying her best to control her....

Heer: di...yeh aurat kaun hai?...

Kashish: Heer...yeh Padma masi hai meri.....aur....aur tum...tumhari ma..maa...

Heer takes a step back at the shock of what Kashish just said......

Heer: kya!..kya kaha aapne...meri maa...di yeh meri maa kaise hosakti hain...aap meri dii hain..to yeh bhi meri masi hi lagegi na....aur hamari mom to woh hai jinhone hume sambhala...hume bada kiya...yeh meri maa nahin hosakti..kahiye na di ke aap jhoot bol rahi hain...

Kashish: Heer....tu meri sagi...sagi behen nahi....tu meri cousin hai.....tu meri masi ki beti hai....I am sorry Heer.....I am sorry....muje maff kar de Heer...ple..

Heer looks at Kashish in shock while her tears start to flow down her face...At seeing Heer cryin Prem rushes to her and holds her.....

Heer: nahin...aisa nahin ho sakta...aap mujse jhoot bol rahi hain...nahin maanti main yeh...Prem dekho na di kya kehrahi hain...main aapki sagi behen hoon di...please mujse aisa mazaak mat kijiye...

Kashish: main jooth nahi bol rahi...Heer pagal mat ban.....teri maa ko teri zaroorat hai....tuje kal yeh mauka nahi milega....aakhri bar mil le..

Padma's condition is getting worse and it seems she wouldnt live much longer...Heer walks upto her and sits beside her....she holds Padma's hand and cries uncontrollably...she cant believe how her life has changed within a few minutes...she never expected that a truth like this could change her life......

Prem: Heer khud ko sambhalo.......

Heer: kaise sambhalun khud ko Prem...aaj tak main yahin sochti rahi ke meri mom mar chuki hain...lekin aaj achanak muje pata chalta hai ke meri maa koi aur hai...woh bhi us din jab woh apni aakhri saansein le rahi hain...kaise sambhalun Prem...tum hi batao

Kashish: Heer....main janti hoon lekin kya kar sakte hai....unki halat tumse dekhi nahi jati..

Heer looks at her...

Heer: mushkil to hota di...lekin muje itna jaan ne ka haq to tha na di...aapne aisa kyun kiya mere saath..kyun?

Kashish: abhi is baat ka waqt nahi....tumhe kuch waqt apni maa ke saath bitana chahiye..

Heer looks back at Padma who's breathing is getting heavier and heavier...she tightly holds on to both Kashish and Heer's hand as her eyes start to close..

Heer: Maa.....maaa....aankhein kholiye.....Prem dekhona Maa kuch bolti nahi...Premmmm...

Prem has tears in his eyes too..as he holds onto Heer while hugging her from the side...

Prem: shh...Heer khud ko sambhalo...tum is tarah nahin toot sakti...

Heer: kya karoon...Prem...maa muje aaj mili aur aaj hi....Maa ek bar muje dekho to sahi...muje pehchana aapne..

Padma is not in her senses... it seems like she is under a trance..as she tries to keep her eyes open.....She looks towards Heer and closes her eyes while taking her last breath........

Heer: maa....Maaaaaaaa.....aankhein kholiye...Premmmm....maa ko kya ho gaya..

Prem hugs even more tightly to himself.....while his own eyes fill with tears....

Prem: Heer...ab maa apni aankhein kabhi nahin kholengi...khud ko sambhalo please...

Kashish just sits there and frozen while her tears continuously fall from her eyes at seeing Padma in this state...she finally moves forward a little bit and closes her eyes whilst crying.......she looks at Prem who is supporting Heer and for a moment, Kashish wished for the same support from Sujal....she wished that he could be here with her.......in her heart she knew that if Sujal had been in Mumbai he would have definately been here to support her......She missed him a lot especially at times like this when she was feeling alone and needed him to support her........A nurse comes and informs that the they need to do the last rituals within the next 2 hours....Kashish looks at Padma then wipes the tears from her face and gathers her strength to do what needs to be done.....She tells the nurse that they will make the arrangements soon.......the nurse leaves from there....Kashish signs at Prem telling him to speak to Heer.....Prem understands what Kashish is trying to say and nods at her......he looks down at Heer......

Prem: Heer...chalo...maa ka antim sanskar karna hoga hume...jaanta hoon kitna mushkil hai tumhare liye...par tumhe maa ke liye strong banna hai...tum himmat nahin haar sakti..

Heer: mujse nahi hoga....Prem....main nahi kar paungi dusri bar....ek bar to main mom ka ...ab maa ka bhi...

Prem: jaanta hoon tumhare liye kitna mushkil hai...par tumhe yeh karna hoga...apni maa ke liye...kya tum ek beti hone ka farz ada nahin karogi?

Kashish: Heer zaroor ada karegi...chalo Heer..

Heer looks at Kashish...

Heer: main karungi...lekin sirf apni maa ke liye...aur kissi ke liye nahin..

Kashish: maa ke liye hi sahi...mere liye yahi kafi hai...Prem....tum jake sari taiyariyaan karo..

Prem: ji di...main dekhta hoon...Heer tum theek ho na..main jaaun?

Heer: hmm...main thik hoon....tum jao...

Heer looks at Kashish and sits down beside Padma holding her hand in hers while tears again start to run from her eyes.....Prem looks at Heer than leaves to clear last minute records....Kashish comes close to Heer and puts her hand on her shoulder to console her...Heer looks at her and pushes her hand from her shoulder.. Kashish looks at her and her tears start to run from her eyes......but she knows that is a hard time for Heer so her reaction to Kashish is understandable.....Kashish thought it was best for her to give Heer the space she needed to deal with Padma's death......and that after some time everything will go back to normal.......30 minutes later Prem comes back into the room after making all the neccesary arrangments for Padma's last rights.....they take Padma's body to do her last rituls....

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After performing Padma's last rituals, all three return back to Kashish's house late at night......they walk in and sit in the lounge....the air filled with silence and dread......all three of them just sat there without talking....finally Prem gets up from his seat.......

Prem: I think muje ab chalna chahiye

Heer: main bhi tumhare saath chal rahi hoon..

Kashish looks at Heer in shock.......

Kashish: kya!..Heer yeh tum kya kehrahi ho?..tum Prem ke saath kyun jaaogi...yeh ghar tumhara hai

Heer: dii....jo aapne mere saath kiya uske badle to main aapko kabhi maff nahi karungi....waise kitne saaloin se aap mujse yeh sab chupati aayi hai....abhi aur kitne jooth sunne baki hai jo aap hamesha nahi batati....lekin aaj muje mere saare sawalo ke jawab chahiye....aaj aapki meherbani se muje maa ka to pata chal gaya...lekin ab aap muje mere baap ka naam batayegi..

Kashish couldn't help but cry at hearing Heer's tone...she never expected this from Heer..

Kashish: yeh tum kya kehrahi ho Heer...main jaanti hoon ke maine tumhe sachai se durr rakha par yeh maine sirf tumhare liye kiya...main jaanti thi tum sach bardaasht nahin kar paogi...kya dekh paati tum masi ko us haal me?

Heer: sach jaanne ka muje bhi hakk hai...maa thi na woh meri....lekin aaj sirf aapki waje se main use baat nahi kar payi....aapki waje se muje meri asli maa ka pyaar nahi mila...woh jaisi bhi thi ..thi meri maa hi..

Kashish: main jaanti hoon Heer...woh tumhari maa thi...lekin woh is baat se anjaan thi ke unki koi beti bhi hai...agar woh tumhe pehchaan nahin paati...tumhe beti kehke bula nahin paati to kaisa lagta tumhe...woh apne hosh me nahin thi...main nahin chahti thi ke tum is takleef se guzro...isliye maine tumse sach chupaya...agar yeh meri galti thi to muje maaf kardo...

Heer: iske liye to main aapko kabhi maff nahi karungi....ab kya aap muje pura sach batayegi ...mere paida hone ke bad kya hua.....main kiski beti hoon....muje sab janne ka pura hakk hai..

Kashish: theek hai Heer...tum sach jaana chahti ho na...to aaj main tumhe poora sach batati hoon...main ab aur sach chupane ki galti nahin karungi kyunki baad me ilzaam muj par hi aayega...sach sunna chahti ho na tum...to sunno...Padma masi ki shaadi nahin huyi thi...woh kissi aadmi se pyar karti thi...jiska natija thi tum...aur us aadmi ne unka saath chod diya...tab masi mumma ke paas laddakh agayi thi...jahan pe masi tumhe janam dene ke baad is haal me agayi thi...unhe kuch yaad nahin tha ke kya hua kya nahin...aur na hi unhe pata tha ke unki koi beti thi...yahin hai sach..

Heer: aur....iska matlab main ...main ek aisi aluad hoon jiska koi baap nahi.....mera koi wajood hi nahi....Dr Heer Sinha.....sirf aaj Dr.Heer ban gayi.....main sirf ek nazayas hoon aur kuch bhi nahi....sharam is baat ki aati hai ki muje mere baap ka naam nahi pata.....aaj muje ehsaas hua ki sharmindi kya cheez hai.....is tarah zindagi jine se to muje paida hote hi mar jana chahiye tha.....kyunki mere baap ke saath muje meri palnewali mom ...dad....aur meri yeh dii....sabne dhoka hi diya.

Kashish: Heer yeh tum kya kehrahi ho...pagal to nahin hogayi tum...tumhari ek pehchaan hai...tum hamesha se Dr Heer Sinha thi aur hamesha rahogi bhi...kissi aur ki galti ki sazaa khud ko mat do...jo hua usme tumhari koi galti nahin thi...hum dono ka rishta chahe khoon ka na ho par tum hamesha meri choti behen rahogi...jisse maine saggi behen se bhi zyada pyar kiya hai tumhe...tum kyun aisi berukhi se pesh arahi ho Heer?..kya maine kabhi bhi tumhe is baat ka ehsaas dilaya hai ke tum meri behen nahin ho?batao muje Heer...mera kasoor kya hai?

Heer: aapka kasoor sirf yeh hi aapne muje kabhi sach nahi bataya....ek dhoke me rakha....aur uske liye main kabhi aapko maff nahi kar sakti.....I am sorry dii....main is ghar me aapke saath nahi reh sakti ab.....main yeh ghar chodke Prem ke ghar ja rahi hoon..

Kashish cries continuously...

Kashish: Heer please meri baat samajne ki koshish karo...main tumhara dil nahin dukhana chahti thi...

Prem: Heer yeh kya bachpana hai...tum di se aise kaise..

Heer: dii ne shayad pehli bar hi sahi lekin mera dil itna dukhaya hai ki ab kabhi bhi yeh zakhm bhar nahi sakte....aur tumhe kya muje apne ghar rakhne me problem hai....agar hai to main Hotel rehne chali jaungi...lekin is ghar me ek pal me nahi reh paungi...dum dhudta hai jab main dii aur dii ke jooth ko dekhti hoon....main nahi bandhna chahti is behen ke joothe rishte me..

Kashish is heartbroken...

Prem: Heer...yeh tum kya kahe ja rahi ho...kuch to soch ke bolo...di ke haalaat ko samajne ki koshish karo...di ne kuch galat nahin kiya woh sahi hain...

Kashish wipes her tears...

Kashish: nahin Prem...Heer tumhari hone waali biwi hai...tum usse is tarah nahin chod sakte...tumhe Heer ka saath dena chahiye...agar yahin Heer ka faisla hai to main chahti hoon ke tum uske saath raho..usse akela mat hone dena...zindagi ke kissi bhi mod par

Heer; tum yahi ruko main apna saman leke aati hoon....kyunki ab main yaha wapas nahi aana chahti....

Prem: thik hai...main bahar intzaar kar raha hoon..

Prem looks at Kashish helplessly then walks out whilst Heer goes to her room to get her things...Kashish breaks down...she sat on the floor beside the sofa holding on to it and crying bitterly......today she felt completely alone in the world...she had no one in her life....she lost everyone in her life- masi, Heer and Sujal.....ten minutes later Heer comes down with her belongings......she looks at Kashish but still walk ahead...at the door she stops and turns back....

Heer: thank you........thanks a lot....itne saal tak aapne meri dekhbhal karne ke liye....good bye..

Kashish looks at Heer walk out of the house...

Kashish: Heer tum....

She places her hand out to stop her but Heer already left the house.......Kashish sat there helplessly as she cried her heart out thinking about the events that happened in her life.....asking why she has to suffer at every point...why?

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4 days later......

Sujal's film released on the big screen the night before.....the premier for the movie was a grand event......as expected the movie opened to brillant reviews by the critics and an even better response by the audience....Its now the day after the release Kashish was sitting in the lounge holding a mug of coffee lost in her own thoughts with the tv on in the background.....Kashish hears Sujal's name so she looks at the the tv to see what it was about...

Reporter: ab jaise hota hai woh to hota hai....aakhir kar SG ki nayi film ke sucess ke bad aisa to hona hi tha.....sunne me aaya hai ki premier ke bad SG late night tak Bar me the aur...kareeban raat ke do baje woh kisi ladki ke saath jate huye dikhe gaye....abhi tak woh ladki kaun hai uska pata nahi laga...lekin kareeban yeh baat 99% sach hai ki SG puri raat us ladki ke saath tha....

Kashish looks at the screen...her vision going blurry as tears ran from her eyes...she is heartbroken by what she is hearing.......her heart keeps telling her that there is no way the news is true.....

Kashish (to herself): kyun mera dil tumne is kadar toda Sujal.....main samajti thi ki tum ek hi ladki se pyaar karte ho lekin tumne....kyun kiya tumne aisa....aaj muje hi galat thehra diya...meri soch kitni galat thi....tum bhi baki ki tarah hi..

Kashish sat there crying continuously...the hurt she felt from the news was unbearable......it felt as though her whole life has fallen apart.....the reporter spoke again...

Reporter: chaliye dekhte hain ke aapke chahite star SG ka kya kehna hai is baare me...

Sujal: dekhiye main yeh to nahi kahunga ki jo khabar aayi hai woh joothi hai....haa kal raat me premier ke bad Ali aur kuch dosto ke saath bar gaya tha jaha pe waha kuch meri fans thi....hum log raat ko saath me bahar nikle the lekin phir main waha se akele sidha apne hotel chala gaya....kyunki.....kyunki main kisi ko dhoka nahi de sakta.....khaas karke jise main dilo jaan se pyaar karta hoon...haa aapne sahi suna....meri zindagi me ek ladki hai...jise main bahot pyaar karta hoon aur woh bhi.....aur yaha se jate hi main usko aapke samne leke aaunga....kyunki abse kuch hi dino me main usse shaadi kar raha hoon....I am getting married to my love......thank you all...bye..

Kashish walks upto the screen..gently touching Sujal's face as he is there on the screen saying all this...she is kind of relieved that the news is false but is still hurting about the fact that Sujal loves the girl so much but it isn't her...and he would be marrying her soon......she can feel him going away from her but there was nothing she can do to stop him.....on top of the hurt was confusion as to why she is hurting so much by the news......she didnt know what to do expect to release her pain by crying.........she hears the door opening so she quickly moves back while wiping her tears...she sees that its Heer...

Kashish: Heer...tum yahan...

Heer: haa woh...woh main apni kuch books yahi bhul gayi thi....bas use lene aayi hoon...lekin aap....aap ro kyun rahi thi.

Kashish looks away from her...not meeting her eyes...

Kashish: main...nahin main..ro to nahin rahi thi...kuch nahin hua..sab theek hai

Heer: SG ke interview se pareshan hai aap.....janti hai kyun....kyunki aap hamesha se hi apne jasbato ko leke jooth bolti hai.....aapne mera aur aapka rishta banaye rakhne ke liye jooth bola....aapne apne aur SG ki dosti ko bachane ke liye jooth bola....lekin sach to yeh hai ki aap khud ke liye jina kabhi sikh hi nahi payi...her waqt dusra kya sochega wahi aapka nazriya ban jata hai....aur her bar jab aap sach batati hai to bahot dair ho jati hai...jaise meri maa...jo kabhi ab wapas nahi aa sakti....aur aaj...agar aapne SG ko sach bata diya hota ki aap unse pyaar karti hai to aaj aapke pass uski dosti ke saath pyaar bhi hota...lekin aaj dost ke saath pyaar bhi aap kho chuki hai..

Kashish couldn't control her tears any longer and neither could she hide the truth...she knows what Heer is saying is true.....also that is too late now...she lost everything in life...her sister who she brought up like a daughter...her love who will only remain a friend now...she had lost everything and now she is all alone with no one to turn to....

Kashish: shayad tum theek kehrahi ho Heer...maine hamesha apnon ki khushi ka socha hai...aur main apne aap ko hi bhool gayi...shayad yahin meri sabse badi galti thi...lekin main aisi hi hoon Heer...main chah ke bhi khud ko nahin badal sakti...nahin chal sakti is duniya ke saath jo swarthi hain...jo hamesha apne baare me sochti hai...i am sorry Heer...i'm really sorry

Heer: sorry kehke ab kya hoga dii....ab bahot dair ho chuki hai....SG aapko chod ke chala gaya....aaj bhi ab aap chahe to apne pyaar ke liye lad sakti ho...lekin main janti hoon ki aisa aap kabhi nahi karegi......aap sirf aur sirf harr ke aanshu baha sakte hai.....aur kuch nahi hoga....aap akeli thi aur akeli hi rahegi...

Kashish is deeply hurt by her words and just sees Heer walk straight upto her room..she just sat there crying and thinking over what Heer said......Heer comes down with her books...and she looks towards Kashish once and then leaves from there without saying another word

Kashish: tumne sach kaha Heer....bahot ...bahot pyaar karti hoon main Sujal se....itna ki koi use mere jitna pyaar nahi kar payega...kyunki mujse jyada use aur koi nahi samaj sakta....hum dono hi ek dusre ke liye bane the lekin usne sahi kaha tha....Sujal ki manzil koi aur hai.....main uska pyaar kabhi nahi ban sakti...kabhi nahi..

Kashish looks at a photo of her and Sujal on the table while tears flow from her eyes...she went to her room crying bitterly...

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2 days since that day.....

Everything is still the same way in Kashish's life.........she sat in the lounge flipping through a magazine without reading anything in it....with her mind just dazing away in space......just then the door bell rings bringing her back to reality..... Kashish closes the magazine and puts it on the side ....she holds herself for a moment as she felt herself go weak emotionally.....it was as if she felt Sujal was somewhere close.....She closes her eyes and opens the door opening her eyes..... She was shocked to see Sujal standing at the door...

Sujal: hi Kashish...

Kashish: hmm...hi...

Sujal: andar aane ko nahin kahogi?

Kashish: nahi...woh...

Sujal: its ok..tum nahin chahti to main chala jaata hoon

Kashish: mera woh matlab nahi tha....ple andar aao....

Kashish moves aside letting Sujal in...while Sujal is busy observing her and he notices that something is bothering Kassh...

Sujal: Heer nazar nahin arahi Kashish?

Kashish: Heer....woh...woh hospital gayi hai....

Sujal: ok...aur tum..tum kaisi ho?

Kashish: main...main waisi hi...bahot khush..

Sujal: woh to nazar araha hai muje...batao kya baat pareshan kar rahi hai tumhe?

Kashish: kuch bhi to nahi...bas aaj kal kaam jyada ho jata hai..

Sujal looks at her not meeting his gaze...he gently holds her hand into his...

Sujal: tum khud se jhoot bol sakti ho..mujse nahin..batao kya hua?

Kashish: Sujal haath chodo mera....ple chodo mera haath..

Sujal: pehle batao kya gua?

Kashish: kaha na kuch nahi...pareshan kyun kar rahe ho....aur tumhe yaha nahi waha hona chahiye tha..

Sujal: kahan hona chahiye tha muje?

Kashish: tumhe...tumhe waha jaha ,.,,i mean jise tum pyaar karte ho...

Sujal notices the hurt look on her face and realises why she's hurt..

Sujal: jaaunga..zaroor jaaunga..lekin sabse pehle main apne dost se milne aya tha..i need your best wishes

Kashish: bahot khush hoon tumhare pyaar ke liye....duniya ki sari khushi tum use de sako....bahot pyaar karna ...use kabhi akele mat chodna....ab aur samaj me nahi aata kitni wish doon..

Sujal looks at her..holding her hand tighter..

Sujal: bas itni hi kaafi hai..baaki ki main poori kardunga...aur tum dekh lena,.bohat pyar dunga main usse..uska haath zindagi bhar thaam ke rakhunga..kabhi nahin chodunga usse

Kashish: hmm....aur main janti hoon ki tum apna vaada zaroor nibhaoge..,,,lekin Sujal main tumse bahot naraz hoon...

Sujal: kyun?maine kya kardiya?

Kashish: tumhe pyaar ho gaya aur yeh baat muje news me pata chal rahi hai....

Sujal: i'm sorry Kashish...lekin sab itna achanak hua ke muje samaj hi nahin aaya..London se aake main sabse pehle tumhe batata,par haalaat hi kuch aise hogaye the ki muje yeh sach news me batana pada..

Kashish: haa ab to main parayi ho gayi na tumhare liye..

Sujal: aisa kachi nahin hosakta...tum meri family ho Kashish.,tumse pehle koi bhi nahin aata mere liye..

Kashish: bahot achche se janti hoon....ab ...ab tum jao...muje kuch kaam hai...

Sujal looks at her...

Sujal: theek hai...jaisa tum chaho...apna khayal rakhna..bye

Kashish: bye...use mera hi kehna....aur meri....meri aur...aur se bahot pyaar karna..

Sujal: zaroor karunga..bye

He looks towards her and gently releases her hand..he is about to go when he stops and turns towards her to take her in his arms...Kashish closes her eyes holding on to her tears......she moves her hands on his back holding him...He felt her pain through the hug......he knows that she need him but still she is thinking of his happiness..she had always thought of others before herself...and he promised himself to love her till eternity..Kashish opens her eyes and realises that she is becoming weak....she moves her hands pushing him back not looking into his eyes....

Kashish: Sujal...tum jao...

Sujal doesnt want to hurt her anymore so he leaves after saying bye,.Kashish walks towards the door and closes it....she puts her head on door while falling down the floor crying.. She is completely shattered and it felt like by shuting the door she had shut out all the hapiness and love that could have been hers...she gathers herself and walks towards her bedroom...