~The Fear Within~ Part 29 Pg. 44 2-27-10 - Page 6

Very intense part! This story is very different, but in a good way.

**Part 6**

~Later at Night (after the party) ~

Muskaan is lost looking in the mirror thinking about the dance and what happened at the party, she has no clue what came over her, and how she gave up all her control, she was feeling guilty. Trying not to over think anything she sighs and then closes her eyes as she hears Armaan's footsteps approaching. She quickly fixes herself and starts taking off her jewelry. Armaan comes in the room and closes the door behind him, then smiles and walks over to muski to help her take the jewelry off.

Armaan: You looked beautiful tonight...bahut khubsorat lag rahi thee..

Muskaan: (looks up and smiles) Thanks…

Armaan: Party achi thi na? (he walks back towards the bed unbottoning his shirt)

Muskaan: Hmmm…achi thi…(she said softly, then takes out an envelope from the drawer and places it on the dresser)… tumharey liye aik present hain…

Armaan: Meray liye?

Muskaan: Haan tumharey liye…(She stands up and smiles at him) Itni achi party jo organize kit hi, abb present toh milna he hain na…

Armaan: Okay…in that case mera present hain kahan?

Muskaan: De do…?

Armaan: Of course, jaldi se… (Muskaan walks over to him and hands him over an envelope... she smiles and he looks at her confused, then he opens it..and his expression changes...seeing it)

Muskaan: (smiles) Surpised na? i knew it...ke tumhein yakeen hi nahin ayega jab tum dekhooge...phele mera bhi yehi reaction tha...i knew kay tum dekh ke heeran hojaoge...

Armaan throws the paper on floor, looks at her sternly and leaves the room. Muskaan is left in shock. As Armaan leaves the room slamming the door, Muskaan picks up the envelope from the floor. It was her Pregnancy report from Sanjeevani. Muskaan is tensed about the way Armaan reacted to her pregnancy report and left. She goes and changes in to her night suit, then goes outside the room to look for Armaan but finds a sticky note of the fridge that said "I am going out"-Armaan. Scared and worred she waits for him all night arnd 3:30 in morning the door opens and its Armaan.

Muskaan (sad): yeh kya baat hui...aise ghar chor ke koi jata hai..?

Armaan :mujhe samajh nahin araha tha ke mein kya karoon (comes over to her and sits next to her)

Muskaan: isliye chale gaye...aur mujhe pareshan kiya

Armaan: Muskaan... I didn't mean to… main aisa khabhi bhi nahin karoonga..

Muskaan: Promise…..?

Armaan: yeah..

Muskaan: good..you better not (She smiles, and starts to get up)

Armaan: toh ab kya karna hai ?

Muskaan: kis baat ka ? (confused by his question she turns and asks)

Armaan: us report ka...

Muskaan: report ka tumne karlia jo karna tha

Armaan: main bache ki baat kar raha tha

Muskaan: Armaan..loog bacho ka kya karte hain...

Armaan: ek min bethoo..(he makes her sit on the couch again and hold her hand) listen...hum yeh bacha nahin rakh sakte...tumhein is bache ko abort karna hoga..

Muskaan: mazak kar rahe ho na Armaan? (shocked she pulls away her hand from his grip)

Armaan: Zindagi mein har cheez planning ke saath hoti hai....aur yeh bacha humare plans mein nahin tha...

Muskaan: Armaan..yeh koi office work toh nahin hai...this is our baby...Armaan, sochoo humare ghar mein ek chota sa baby hoga...we have alot of time to plan everything out...

Armaan: Per meri job aur business…

Muskaan: Main ho na ghar per…

Armaan: aur tumhari volunteering and boutique thing with ridzi…

Muskaan: i don't care.

Armaan: But i care...mein tumhien hum dono ki zindagi barbaad karne nahin dounga...we can't have this baby...Aur I thought you were on the pill? Tumne mujhse jhoot bola?

Muskaan: Armaan maine koi Pill layni stop nahi ki hain…mujhay nahi pata yeh kaisa hua…it just happened, aur main tumse jhoot kyun bolo ge?

Armaan: Bus…mujhay aur kuch nahi suna, kal mein tumhay doctor ka phone number likh jaoga, tum call kar kay appointment bana lena…

Muskaan(stands up): Armaan tum yeh kaisi baatein kar rahe ho....yeh humara baby hai..isse rakhne na rakhne ka sawal kaise paida hosakta hai....

Armaan: hosakta hai...because mein keha raha hun (saying that he gets up walks over to his side of the bed and turns off the light to go to sleep, while Muskaan is left depressed and concerned with his plans)

~~ Next morning when she wakes up Armaan had already gone for work. She is really worried as she doesn't want the old Armaan to return. They were doing so great like this. It's been a long time since they have fought or argued, she loved his like this, she was happy with him then why was he being so difficult? She just couldn't understand why at this moment of joy, there was no happiness on Armaan's face. She didn't know how to explain this to him. All day she paced around the house trying to find a way to get him to understand how much this baby means to her and then finally Armaan came home.~~

Armaan: kya kaha doc ne? phone kya tha usse ? kab ja rahi ho?

Muskaan: kyun kar rahe ho itni zid Armaan...

Armaan: zid mein nahin kar raha tum kar rahi hoo...jab humari shaadi hui thee maine tumhein kaha tha ke mujhe bache nahin chahiye..... aur tum maan bhi gayi thee..

Muskaan: Armaan..ek bache se kya fariq padega tumhein...

Armaan: baat ek ya dou ki nahin hai...abhi mujhay bachey nahi chiyay...

Muskaan: abhi ya baad se kya fariq padhta hai Armaan… I want this baby now....kab tak intezaar karwaoogay…(she was pleading)

Armaan: jab tak hum finanically settle nahin hojate...

Muskaan: Armaan..sab kuch toh hai humare pass....what else do you want..

Muskaan: maine kaha na itna nahin hai abhi humarey pass...

Muskaan: Armaan...plz in baaton se kya fariq padhta hai..

Armaan: Yaar mujhe tumse argue nahin karna...meri na nahin badalne wali..mein sirf yeh poach raha hun...ke kal tum doc ke pass jaa rahi ho ke nahin...? (he makes his arugment clear in a frim voice)

Muskaan: nahin hai muj mein himmat... (she looks away sadly them looks up and says) tum saath chaloge?

Armaan: Hmmm Fine… kal chaltey hain

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~ Rahul in Sanjeevani ~

Suku: Kya baat hain rahul tum kafi dino se kohye kohye lag rahay ho?

Rahul: Nahi Suku bus yunhi…

Suku: You know share kar saktey hoon…I am always here for you…

Rahul: I know you are…aur agar koi problem hui toh pooch loon ga…don't worry…

Suku: Theek hain phir chaley surgery kay liye late ho rahey hain…

Rahul: Yeah lets do this…case kya hain waisey…

Suku: Rahul abhi toh bata ya tha…

Rahul: I am sorry main sun nahi raha tha…

Suku: Tumor…left frontal lobe…Mr.Raichand…34 years old…

Rahul: Ohh…haan okay…got it…unki file kal he review ki thi…

Suku: Thank ghawd! Tumhay yaad aagya…waisey sanjeevani ki Oncology department ki head ka ajj farewell hain…she is moving to Australia…

Rahul: Acha…toh phir koi replacements?

Suku: Abhi tak toh nahi pata…per vacancy achi hain…tum kisi ko jantey ho jo iss job kay liye acha fit hoga? I mean Sanjeevani mein opening toh bahut rare hoti hain na…

Rahul: hann voh…(he is about to say Muskaan as he remembers Armaan telling him about Muskaan;s profession, but then stops himself)

Suku: Koi hain kya demaag mein?

Rahul: Nahi…never mind…but main kohshish karoga… I am not sure if it will work but I'll try…

Suku: Good…chalo OT chaltey hain…

Rahul: Yup lets go…isse pehlay voh tumor aur kahein spread ho…

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2 Weeks Later

~Muskaan and Armaan are still going through some arguments regarding the baby.Muskaan went to the doctors as Armaan wanted her to, but the doctor told her about the future complications and risk, which made Muskaan's decision to keep the baby even stronger. Armaan on the other hand is not buging from his decision and Muskaan has been trying very hard to convince him otherwise.With this concern in her mind she has come to Ridzi's boutique to divert her attention and share jhe rproblems with her best friend and her sister.~

Ridzi: Per Armaan ki problem kya hain…

Muskaan: Bus voh abhi yeh sub kuch nahi cahta…I mean I guess I understand him too but abortion…ridzi main humaray baby ko kaisey… you know even the doctor he made me go to said that there will be complications if I do this…(she sighs and hold her head in her hands)

Ridzi: (walks over to her) Muskaan… Tu aisey preshaan kyun horahi hain? Bus Armaan se theek se baat kar…Usko bol na kay tu tum dono ka baby rakhna cahti hain aur abortion safe nahi hain…

Muskaan: Kitni baar yeh usay kaho…har bar voh kuch na kuch excuse de deta hain…time, career, paisa…sub kuch uskay liye important hain per humara baby nahi….

Ridzi: Muskaan…tu aik baar..

**Rings…Ring** (muski's phone)

Muskaan: Hello…(she mouths armaan to ridzi as she asks who is it)

Armaan: Muskaan Tum kahan ho?

Muskaan: Ridzi kay pass ho…

Armaan: Ghar aa sakti hoon…kuch baat karni thi…

Muskaan: Ofcourse…tum ghar agaye…

Armaan: Haan…I really need to talk to you…

Muskaan: Theek hain I'll be there in 20 minutes…

Armaan: I am waiting jaldi ajao…

Muskaan: Okay, see you… (Muskaan hangs up and sighs in relief)

Ridzi: Kya hua?

Muskaan: Armaan ne bulaya hain…finally kuch baat karnay kay liye…I hope abb koi argument na ho… (she picks up her hand bang and tells ridzi)

Ridzi: I am sure iss baar sub theek hojaye ga…he is stubborn per dil ka acha hain…

Muskaan (Smiles faintly) I am hoping the same…I'll see you later…

Ridzi: (Comes and hugs her) Don't stress so much okay…everything will work out…take care…

~~During the rush hour Muskaan drives through the traffic to get back home as soon as possible. For some reason she was letting herself belive that everything will be fine and that Armaan will agree on her terms eventually. She was trying hard not be negative in any way or form and before she knew it, she had reached home and it was time for her to face whatever it is that her fate has in store for her. ~~

Muskaan: (Walks in saying) Mujhay pata tha tum zaroor shamajh jao gay…

Armaan: Muskaan…idhar aao…(he calls her towards him and she comes and takes a seat next to him on the couch) Maine aik aur doctor kay saath appointment le hain..aur iss baar no excuses…voh mera dost hain aur hum dono chaly gay ajj he…

Muskaan: (Shocked) Armaan …Tum yeh kyun kar rahay hoon…? (She softly asks)

Armaan: hum iss sub kay baarey mein baat kar chukay hain..please don't make this harder than it already is…

Muskaan: (moves closer to him and cups his face in her hands, looking right in to his eyes) Armaan this is our baby…yeh humara khoon hain…our own…please baat ko samjho… aik baap ki tarah soocho…

Armaan: (At first looks at Muskaan just as she was looking at him, then he slowly takes her hands down from his face and gets up) Muskaan jis mein meri koi planning nahi thi voh mera khoon nahi ho sakta… Aggar mujhay yeh pata hota kay you are not taking the Pill I would have never… Khair choro…iss problem ka solution main dhoond chuka hoon…

Muskaan: (silent tears form in her eyes and she quietly get up and stands next to armaan) Main yeh baat pehlay bhi bata chuki hoon kay maine koi Pill kahna band nahi ki hain…I have been taking all my medicines, per kabhi kabhi yeh sub kuch upper waaley kay saamnay kaam nahi karta…jo kuch ussnay humay diya hain tum usko nahi rakhna cahtay aur yeh tumhari zidd hain…aik baar sooch kay toh dekho kay humey kitnay saloon baad yeh khushi mill rahi hain…Tumharay kehnay pe main uss doctor kay pass bhi gaye thi per usnay khud kaha kay aisa karnay se future mein complications ho sakti hain…Per tumhay iss baat per yakeen nahi hota... Abb tumhari jo marzi aaye karo…I don't know what to do…

Armaan: Bus kal meray saath chalna…I promise yeh sub jaldi kahtam hojaye ga…(He said casually as Muskaan looked up shocked and thought if he even listened to any of the things she was just saying a moement a go) Meri Shilpa kay saath appointment hain iss liye jara hoon…late ho jao ga, tum dinner kar lay na and go to bed subah 9 bajey hospital mein appointment hain…(he leaves as Muskaan just watches him go from the living room window. She stands by it for a while, just staring at the empty road as still as her life and as lonely as herself.)

~~ Armaan and Shilpa Having Dinner~~

Shilpa: So, kya Muskaan maan gaye?

Armaan:Hmmm…voh mujhay kabhi na nahi kehti….

Shilpa: Per Armaan kay usnay kuch bhi nahi kaha? I mean yeh uska bhi baby hain…

Armaan: Meri bewi ko wahi pasand hain jo mujhay…kuch kehnay ya na kehnay ka sawal nahi banta…

Shilpa: Armaan waisey agar ajj Muskaan ki jagah main hoti toh shayad yeh sub kabhi hota he na…

Armaan: (laughs as he continues to eat without looking up, while Shilpa looks at him seriously) Shilpa, Kabhi Kabhi mujhay tumhari baton se darr lag nay lagta hain…

Shilpa: Voh kyun?

Armaan: Vo hiss liye kay tum vohi baat keh deyti ho jo mein sooch raha hota hoon….Aggar saach mein tum meri wife hoti toh I wouldn't have all this mess to deal with…

Shilpa: Bus mujhse thodi der hogaye…

Armaan: Haan, shayad… (he laughs lightly) khud he chali gaye thi England aur phir jub waapis aaye toh meri shaadi ho chuki thi Muskaan se…

Shilpa: Armaan tum har baat itnay casually kaisey kar saktey hoon?

Armaan: Matlab…?

Shilpa: Matlab yeh kay…kya tumhay kabhi nahi laga humarey beech…

Armaan: Shilpa…come on Yaar…tum meri sub se achi dost ho, aur isse zayaada kya chiyay…

Shilpa: Tum nahi samjhogay Armaan….(she mumbles and looks away)

Armaan: Kuch Kaha?

Shilpa: (Looks at him) Nahi…tum aur kaho na…please…(She serves him more)

Armaan: Thanks…waisey England mein rehnay say you have learned to cook great food…continental is my favorite, you know… (he says while eating)

Shilpa: I know tabhi toh banaya hain…(She smiles)

Armaan: Thanks…Itnay stress mein toh main acha kahna bhi bhool gaya tha…this is great…!

Shilpa: I am glad you are enjoying… (She watches him eat as he continues to talk casuallu about office problems and his personal dellima's. Shilpa was glad just to have his company as it is what she lives off of. The memories she had of him never leave her in her lonliness and with the little time she spends with him, she always tries to make the most of it. Thant's exactly what she was doing tonight as she invited him over for dinner to discuss office plans as well as personal problems, and so far it was going great)

Precap: Muskaan and Armaan at the Hospital…

~Hey guys so i know thsu update had very little of Rahul and it's mostly Muskaan and Armaan but wait for the next update for more of Rahul...Please read and comment back...Thanks..~

Armaaaaaannnn ugh!! Poor Muskiiii nayways FAB Updatee can't wait for next part 😳 😳 😳