~The Fear Within~ Part 29 Pg. 44 2-27-10 - Page 30

I love the way the story is shaping and this update was amazing!!!

all rm scenes were so cute spc the mirror ,kaan scene and the naak pe scene were very cute.....though i hated armaan in the beginning now i feel reallly bad for him bechara ......shilpa is the culprit 😈but then again she is guilty also...no wait i m glad she was the culprit or else RM ek kaise hote 😃

Imaneeeee.. it's been long since I commented here.. I just read a couple of parts I missed and they were literally awesome.. I knew you would definitely bring Armaan back, good that he is going to die soon :P and yayyyy RM got married, lovely!!
You are a mastermind Imane, you know how to make the readers glued to your FF, am so very curious as what is going to happen next.. please continue soon and thanks alot for the PM(s) :)

- Mewi

Part 28

Recap:

Rahul enters as Muskaan is standing like a statue staring at Armaan's letter in disbelief…

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Rahul: Kya hua Muskaan?..

Muskaan: (without answering she simply puts the letter in front of Rahul and turns the other way and walks towards the bedroom window)

Rahul: (without looking at it) Yeh…Yeh kya hain? Appointment letter…tum toh Job kuch saal baad…khair main pharta hoon… (he smiles and as he begins reading it he realizes the situation…the weight the letter carried with it…after absorbing his own mindset in shock he looks over at Muskaan who was frozen like a statue, looking out in the dark night. He slowly makes his way next to her and they both stood there quietly for a moment…their world turned upside down just like that but they were quiet…)

Rahul: (breaking the silence after a while) Mus…

Muskaan: Ra…Rahul…I am…I am tired…mujhay neend arahi hain… (she turns around and walks to their bed to "sleep" as Rahul sighs and follows after her)

~That night was the longest night of their lives, the quietest one too. It had that sort of eerie feeling that both Rahul and Muskaan were trying to avoid for a long time and somehow they had pulled themselves through it, they WERE happy together. But, as the silence prevailed and the night grew darker, Muskaan's doubts about her happiness were proven right. She was crying silently just like she used to before. Her knees curled in to her stomach, her posture turned away from Rahul, and her fears taking new roots. She wished that night to be some scary dream of hers, the one that stings her every now and then, but the fact that she woke up staring at that same letter sitting on her nightstand, refuted her prayers and wishes instantly.~

Muskaan: (looks around the room for Rahul as she sits up in her bed, her eyes are still moist)

Rahul: Coffee?? (He entered with two mugs in his hands and a simple smile she had accustomed herself to love and adore)

Muskaan: Itni jaldi uth gay Rahul…? (she questioned back instead of answering as he remained standing, offering her the mug in his hand)

Rahul: Muskaan…Coffee?

Muskaan: Nahi chiyay…

Rahul: Toh phir chai…? Chai laao?

Muskaan: (Shakes her head) Nahi, tum beht jao…yahaan meray pass…(she scoots over for him and Rahul settles himself comfortably next to her. There is complete silence in the room except for the clock hanging on the opposite wall ticking away seconds…minutes…days…years.) Ra…Rahul…tum ajj Sanjeevani nahi jao gay?

Rahul: Nahi… Aaj kuch khass kaam nahi hain…

Muskaan: (gets up from the bed, Rahul watches her as she once again turns herself away from him.) Tumhay jana chiyay…

Rahul: Muskaan… (he got up and walked towards her, she was standing by the window) kya hum please… kal raat…Muskaan tum theek ho…? (he gently asked her as he came and stood next to her. He knew she was dying little by little inside, they both knew as they had already counted each others tears the night before.)

Muskaan: (turns to face him with a fearful and shattered expression, her bloodshot eyes had just enough pain to break Rahul's heart in to pieces) Voh jhoot bol raha hain….! bahanay bana raha hain Rahul…! mujhay preshaan karnay kay liye aisa kar raha hain…main ussay achi tarah se jaanti hoon Rahul…voh sirf mujhay…

Rahul: (holds her by her shoulders to calm her down, his touch quiets her a bit but her tears continue to roll down her rosy cheeks as he watches helplessly. He needed to be strong) Voh jhoot nahi bol raha hain Muskaan…Itnay saal kabhi tumsay contact karnay ki kohshish nahi ki…kabhi Prateek kay liye vapis nahi aaya…voh jhoot nahi bol raha…

Muskaan: (breaks from his embrace and withdraws her hands from his, she looks at him in disbelief, in shock and anger)

Rahul: Musk…Muskaan meri baat toh suno..please…

Muskaan: (shakes his head and turns away from him as she walks away weakly)

Rahul: (follows after her) Please…Muskaan…meri baat..

Muskaan: Kyun?! Kyun suno tumharai baat!! Kyun….Kaisay sun lo voh baat jo main sooch bhi nahi sakti!! Kyun mujhay itni bari saaza de rahay ho…Jao yahaan se…chalay jaoo... (she tries to push him away while breaking down, her loud cries made Rahul's heart melt and his own feelings were pouring through his eyes. She was fighting so hard to not listen to anything, not to face this reality…she was losing it, she was giving up, and after much struggle she gave up in his arms. She surrendered herself in his embrace; weeping hopelessly, crying her eyes out…she slid down to the floor holding on to him. Soon they were both on the floor, her cries much more audible then his silent tears. They could feel the agonizing pain that rushed through their souls and caused everything inside them to grow desolate and bleak. Their hearts empty, their eyes burned out, and their weak emotions crumbling slowly in fear.)

Rahul: (controlling himself he begins to pacify Muskaan) Shh…sshhh…Shhh…bus…Muskaan aur nahi…Sssshhh…Prateek uthay ga toh tumhay dekh kar preshaan hojaye ga…Ssshh…

Muskaan: Kya kaho ge ussay…kaisay ussay…nah…nahi…!! (her hiccups were breaking her voice and she felt her limbs growing numb as Prateek's reality strikes her)

Rahul: Ssshh…Muskaan pehlay khud ko sambhalo…main..main ho na…tumharay pass, Prateek beta hain na mera…humara beta…?

Muskaan: (nods her head) hmm…sirt tumhara beta…humara hain voh…sir humara…

Rahul: (hugs her tightly as she wraps her arms around him while sobbing silently. She was starting to calm down, Rahul held her tightly, fearing the destruction that lies ahead of them) Muskaan…?

Muskaan: Hmmm….

Rahul: Paani…paani lao..?

Muskaan: Nahi…mujhay yunhi apnay pass rehnay do… please…

Rahul: Main kahein nahi jaraha…I promise, tumharay saath hoon…

Muskaan: Vaada adhoora toh nahi chooro gay na?

Rahul: Marr kar bhi nahi…

Muskaan: Mujh se durr nahi jaao gay na?

Rahul: (pauses for a moment, then softly speaks up) Muskaan tumhay uss kay pass jana hoga…

Muskaan: (looks up at him and shakes her head) Na…Nahi…main uss kay pass…Nahi Rahul…

Rahul: Muskaan aik baar…aik akhri baar…(he cups her face gently and looks right in her eyes) Please…ussay aik akhri baar alvida kehna hoga…

Muskaan: Yeh galat hain! Uss ki saaza itni asaan nahi hosakti….nahi kar sakta voh aisa! Ussay tarapna hoga! Ussay JEENA hoga!! Voh marr nahi skata… khel raha hain voh meri zindagi se…mujhse…tumse…apnay app se…main ussay aisa nahi karnay doon ge…ussay zinda rehna hoga!

Rahul: Nahi Muskaan…voh saach kehraha hain, itna toh main bhi ussay jaanta hoon… Please ussay itni bari saaza na do…na karo itna zulm kay voh…

Muskaan: Rahul kaisay pati hoon?! Kyun mujhay durr kar rahay hoon…kyun vapis behj rahay hoon vahaan jahaan maine kabhi na lautnay ka vaada kiya tha?

Rahul: Main tumhay durr nahi kar raha Muskaan…main toh tumhari dharkan mein hoon…har yaad mein…har aati jaati saans mein…Hum durr nahi horahay… hum alag nahi hain…(he kissed her forehead while enduring his own pain bravely)

Muskaan: Tumharay pyaar ne tumhay sub kuch sikha diya, per shayaad khudgharz nahi bana paya…! Kaash kay tum khudgharz hotay, kaash mujhse itna pyaar na kartay!

Rahul: Mujhay kamzoor mat karo Muskaan…please…(he closes his eyes, holding back his tears infront of her.)

Muskaan: (looks up at him and take his hand, getting his attention) Itni takleef akelay sahogay? Itna dard khud mein dabao gay per mujhay phir bhi uskay pass behj rahay hoon…

Rahul: Tum chali jao Muskaan…meri taraf se tumhay puri ijazzat hain…

Muskaan: Lakin…

Rahul: (cuts her off before she gave him another reason to regret) Chali jao Muskaan… Iss waqt ussay tumharai zaroorat hain…(he said controlling his tears)

Muskaan: Tu…Tum bardaasht karlo gay…?

Rahul: Haan karloonga..lakin agar tum nahi gaye toh shayd khud bardaasht nahi kar paaoge…(he wiped away her fresh tears once again and sighed)

Muskaan: (sobs a little) Voh mar raha hain…Rahul…voh..marr gaya toh main khud ko..khud ko maaf kaisay kar pao ge…

Rahul: Yumhara koi kasoor nahi Muskaan…aur ussay kuch nahi hoga, sub theek hojaye ga…

Muskaan: Tumhay mujh pay ghussa nahi araha?

Rahul: (shakes his head and looks at her with a smile)

Muskaan: Kyun…? Tumharai bewi hoon main, tumhay pura haq hain kay mujh per cheekho…mujhay bura bhala kaho…kya haq hain mujhay kissi aur kay liye yun tarapnay ka…yun ansoo bahanay ka…? (she looks down guilty of her tears)

Rahul: (pauses for a moment then holds Muskaan by her shoulder so she looks up at him) Maine ussi Muskaan se pyaar kiya jo Rahul nahi Armaan se pyaar karti thi…Aaj mujh se karti hain…(Muskaan looks down not being able to face Rahul's bravery or his selflessness but he continues) lakin Armaan se durr ho kar bhi usska aik hisa ajj bhi ussi Armaan ki amanat hai….

Muskaan: Mujhay rokh lo Rahul…? Mat janay do…manah kardo janay se…usska abb mujh per koi haq nahi hain… (she manages to request him once again through her tears and sobs)

Rahul: Ruk sako ge? Nahi ruk pao ge…aur tumhay rokh liya toh jee nahi sakoge..rooz ghuthi raho ge, marti raho ge..aur main tumhay roz ghut ghut kay martay huye nahi dekh sakta… (he lifts up her chin so he is looking right in her eyes that are threatening to spill the moisture they are withholding) Jao Muskaan…mujhay tum pe pura bharoosa hain, main tumhara yahi intezaar karoga…Jao…Jao aik akhri baar ussay alvida kehdo…dil se…puray yakeen se kay abb tum usski nahi…tumhara dil usska nahi kissi aur ka ho chuka hain..tumharay ansoon per…tumhari muskurahat per abb usska haq nahi…Jao Muskaan, shayad yun tum ussay bhula pao ge…(he lets go off her shoulder and once again wipes her tears while pulling the loose hair strands away from her pale face.)

~Later that Sameday in Mumbai~

~Armaan is standing alone in his balcony with his cell phone glued to his ear. He is on the phone with his lawyer.~

Lawyer: Humnay app kay saray papers ready kardiyay hain…Jaisa kay app nay kaha tha humnay saari property aur bank balance Mrs. Muskaan Rahul Garewal kay naam kar diyay hain…

Armaan: Thank You…

Lawyer: Kya main pooch sakta hoon aap ka Mrs. Muskaan Garewal se kya rishta hain?

Armaan: Nahi…iss liye kay iss rishtay ka koi naam nahi hain…aur aggar main chaho bhi toh iss rishtay ko main koi naam nahi de sakta…

Lawyer: Aggar app nahi batana chahtay toh appki marzi hain…vaisay humari taraf se sari formalities aur paperwork are done …

Armaaan: Main chahoga kay meri maut kay baad app yeh papers unn tak pohcha day…

Lawyer: Kya voh jaanti hain kay app apna sub kuch unn kay naam kar rahay hain…?

Armaan: Issay kya farq parta hain…maggar voh itna zaroor jaanti hain kay meri har cheez per sirf aur sirf uska he haq hain…aik request hain app se… main kuch dino mein app ko aik letter doonga app please unn papers kay saath voh bhi Muskaan ko daydejiyay ga…

Lawyer: Theek hain jaisay app kahay gay vaisa he hoga…

Armaan: (he hangs up the phone and once again looks out to the open sea that was in front of his house. Looking up at the horizon he notices the black clouds hanging from the sky, they were ready to brust just like him as he stood there remembering his sins…his past…his Muskaan…)

~Back in Delhi~

Nikki: Pagal hogaye ho Rahul! Itna bara faisla….kaisay jaanay de rahay hoon ussay…

Rahul: Di please…maine app ko yeh baat discuss karnay kay liye nahi batai…

Abhi: Rahul per Muskaan ko uss insaan kay pass vapis behj kar tum apnay liye dard maang rahay hoon…phir se jeena chor doo gay…

Rahul: Nahi jeej…Mera liye Muskaan ka pyaar meri subse bari taqat hain…Mujhay uss per aur humaray pyaar per bharoosa hain…pura bharoosa hain…

Nikki: Tum pagal ho chukay hoon Rahul…! Apnay liye kyun zidnagi ko mushkil kar rahay hoon…kabhi soocha hain tumhara kya hoga uss kay chalay jaanay kay baad…phir se koh behto gay apni khushi ko… aur main phir se apnay bahi ko martay huye nahi dekh sakti…!

Rahul: Di, I promise…app mujhay uss halat mein nahi dekhay ge…Muskaan sirf kuch dino kay liye…voh hameesha kay liye nahi jarahi hain… voh vaapis aayege…meray pass…humaray pass..

Nikki: Aur Prateek? Ussay kya kaho gay…! Kya karogay uss kay sawaloon ka jub voh yeh jaanay ga kay tum uss kay… voh abhi bahut choota hain…

Muskaan: (enters the room, she was passing by the door when she heard the conversation Rahul was having with Nikki and Abhi inside their bedroom)

Rahul: Mus..Muskaan?

Muskaan: Prateek kahein nahi jaraha…Prateek yahi rahay ga Rahul kay pass…

Rahul: Muskaan tum yeh kya…

Muskaan: Please Rahul…sahi toh kehrahi hain Di…Tum kyun apni zindagi mushkil ka rahay hoon…?

Rahul: Muskaan main di se pooch nahi raha tha…unhay humara faisla bata raha tha…hum yeh baat pehlay he discuss kar chukay hain…

Muskaan: Rahul di humari bari hain…voh galat toh nahi keh rahi…Voh insaan toh yahi chahta hain na kay main uss kay pass chali jao….mujh se aik baar milna chahta hain…toh theek hain main chali jao ge…aik akhri baar ussay hameesha bhool janay kay liye…per Prateek se usska koi rishta nahi hain…voh mera beta hain…voh humara beta hain… humnay yeh faisla kiya tha na kay hum ussay kabhi uss insaan kay pass nahi behjay gay? Please, ussay uss dard mein mat daalo jis se mein ghuzar rahi hoon, please ussay apnay naam aur pyaar se alag nahi karo…Please Rahul…(she pleaded infront of Rahul as Abhi and Nikki watched her beg and cry helpessly)

Rahul: (takes her pleading and folded hands in his own, he felt something inside him die seeing Muskaan in such a condition) Muskaan maine toh yeh kabhi nahi kaha kay Prateek mera nahi hain…voh mera beta hain..humara Prateek hain voh…Agar tum ussay apnay saath nahi lejana chahti hoon toh yeh faisla tumhara hain aur iss faislay se mujhay koi aitraaz nahi hain…Kabhi aisa soochna bhi mat kay main Prateek se apna naam ya pyaar juda karoonga…

Muskaan: Thank you…(she wipes her tears away and then turned to Nikki) Di iss mein Rahul ka koi kasoor nahi hain…yeh toh khud meri wajah se majboor hain…issay toh khud apna dil torna par raha hain…main..main bahut majboor hoon…aggar voh marr gaya toh mein apnay app ko kabhi maaf kar paao ge…please app Rahul ko meri galti ki saaza na day…(she pleaded in front of her as tears escaped from Rahul's eyes, watching her defend him)

Nikki: Nahi Muskaan..main toh sirf tum dono ko saath dekhna chahti hoon…khush dekha chahti hoon… mera voh matlab nahi tha…(she held her hands and hugged her as she tried to pacify her)

Muskaan: Main bahut jald vaapis ajao ge, uss insaan se mujhay aik akhri alvida kehna hai…bus aik akhri baar…Meri zindagi mein uss kay liye koi jagah nahi hain…aur meri duniya abb Rahul aur app logon se hain…mujhay apnay bharoosay se durr na karay…

Nikki: Sshh…Muskaan…bus abb tu aur nahi roye ge…aur hum sub tumharay saath hain…I am sorry aggar meri wajah se teri ankhoon mein ansoon aaye hoon…

Muskaan: (coming out of her embrace, she smiles at her) Nahi Di… ais akuch nahi hain…app toh sirf meri aur Raaul khushi chahti hain…aur yeh ansoo toh app syb se durr janany ki vajah se hain…I'll miss you…bahut yaad aye ge app…

Nikki: (gets emotional and cries upon the realization of Muskaan's pain) Mujhay bhi…Bahut yaad aaoge…jaldi vaapis ana Muskaan…tumhara ghar tumharay bagai bahu udhaas rahay ga,,

Abhi: Nikki…please Muskaan ko aur sad na karo…voh jaldi vaapis aaye ge…(he smiles holding Muskaan by her shoulders and looking towards Nikki who was trying hart to be normal)

Muskaan: Jeeju app Di ka bahut khayaal rakhna…yunhi inhay ronay se tok dena…

Abhi: Hmm…theek hain per tumhay bhi jaldi vaapis ana hoga…

Muskaan: Haan main… main jaldi aaoge…(She looks over to Rahul who was sanding at a distance watching her be as strong as she possibly could infront of everyone)

Abhi: Rahul tickets aur Flight confirm hain?

Rahul: Jee..sub..sub kuch confirm hain jeej…bus unhay pick up karna hain travel agency se.

Abhi: theek hain main kar leta hoon... Tum tub tak Muskaan ki packing mein help kar doon..

Nikki: Haan aur main bhi abb chalti hoon..Roshni aur Prateek ko promise kiya tha mall lay janay kay liye... Tum dono lunch kar lena main bacho kay saath bahir he lunch karloonge…theek hain..

Muskaan: (nods her head) Jee…

Nikki: Okay Abhi aur main chaltay hain bachoon kay saath tum dono apna khayaal rakhna, aur Rahul jub tak hum vapis aai yeh sub rona dhona khatam hojana chiyay…

Rahul: (wryly smiles) Jee Di…and I am sorry maine app se..

Nikki: Nahi Rahul…I am sorry kay main tumhay samajh nahi paaye… (She comes over and hugs Rahul and Muskaan together and then leaves the room with Abhi before getting more sentimental. Rahul and Muskaan are left standing alone ine the quiet room.)

~ Next morning Muskaan woke up knowing that today she'll be leaving to go back to her past which was responsible for every tear that she had cried, every wound that was left unattended, and every fear that remained within her even today. She sighed heavily and looked over to her left, hoping to find Rahul but was surprised to see an empty bedside. She got up and looked around and found the balcony door in their room open, Rahul was standing outside watching the sunrise, he was trying to muster up the courage he needed for today. He was hoping to find his answers in the rising sun that symbolized a new day for the world but for him it was the day he had to find enough strength to send Muskaan back to where he pulled her out from. He had to send her back to Armaan.~

Muskaan: Tayaar nahi huye tum? Hospital nahi jana…? (she came and wrapped her arms around Rahul from the back, not wanting to let go. She wanted this day to be normal.)

Rahul: (smiled and places his hands over hers, he loved it when she would wrap herself aorund him, they were complete like that) Aaj mein hospital nahi jaraha…

Muskaan: Kyun? (she asked peeking over his shoulder and he pulled her forward, she was now facing him as he held her by her waist and looked in to his eyes)

Rahul: Aaj tumharai flight hain…

Muskaan: Flight toh sham ko hain… (Muskaan placed her head on his chest and quietly reminded him, she didn't want this day to be spent sadly. She didn't have enough courage to leave Rahul sad, he heart didn't agree with what she was doing, but she had to. They both knew that.)

Rahul: Haan lakin aaj tumhara akhri din hain meray saath…pata nahi kitnay din lag jaye tumhay aattay aattay…(he caressed her back gentlya s she tried memorizing his hearbeat in her head)

Muskaan: Rahul…?

Rahul: Hmmm…

Muskaan: Are you sure kay main chali jao?

Rahul: I am sure…sure na hota toh main kabhi janay kay liye na kehta…bahut miss karooga tumhay, tumharay bagair rehnay ki addat nahi hain mujhay…spoil kar diya hain tumne mujhay…kal se naashta bhi khud ko he banana paray ga…

Muskaan: (smiles while lifting up her head so that she could see his face while she remained in his embrace) Hmmm..mujhay miss akrogay ya meray banai huye naashtay ko…

Rahul: (looks down in her eyes while holding her) Har uss cheez ko miss karoonga jo tumse hain Muskaan…aik aik cheez ko…(he placed a kiss on her forehead and closed his eyes embracing her like that for a little while longer.)

Precap:

Muskaan walks in Armaan's house and they look at each other with tears in their eyes…

Awesome part!!

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwsem yaaaaar

Imane u did a gret job with this part luved it very much
it was sad, but also showed the love RM have for eachother and told us more
abt their strong relationship.

looking forward to the next part.

luv
pari😊

wonderful part imane!!

continue soon...can't wait...

Awesomely written,Imane!!

LOVED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! awesum....the way u depicted everything...the hurt the sadness...u rock... Continue soon...........Dying to know what happens when Muskaan N Armaaan r aamne saamne.........