Lost Love2[AR]!~Pt 16 p53 UPD 20/7 - Page 3

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!**~~Part 11 LOST LOVE~~**!

Riddhima heard what he said to her, she wanted to dig a grave for herself and hide there forever, so that he can't see her being all helpless in front of him, she wanted to hide herself from this ruthless world, "This plastic world' where there were people like him, whom existed, she wanted to hide herself from these creeps, from these selfless man, they were all jerks.......They have lost their humanity. she didn't want to show her face to anyone of this unfair world ESPECIALLY him, the man in front of her......That Ba*******"

She growled thinking……. 'How can he even dare to say that…?? What does he thinks of me…??'. She wanted to give him a tight slap for having the courage to offer her the condition, if she could have done it she would have been glad to do it........but she growled she was helpless. Yes she wanted to answer him but remembered what Dr Modi did tell her........clenching her fists together, preparing herself to tell him, she gulped in the pain that was about to erupt like a volcano through her, her eyes were brimming with tears......taking a deep breathe, she controlled the tears which were brimming in her eyes building the volcano inside her, she prevented it from falling down.......she was glad that he was not facing her, because if he was then she would have given him a tit for tat by now........but was not ready to risk her father's life at any cost.......without thinking twice, she made up her mind when she whispered, "I will be there at 10:00 tonight......." and she left the room….

Armaan heard her tell that….He closed his eyes….Disgusted with her completely, "She was the same…Like those people and i…" He grimaced his eyes moist…."Why did I feel for her….why….???' She was talking about her self respect so much….Where did it go now…?? Where…?? Why didn't she hit me…?? Why didn't she kick me out of here….when I tell her that??? Why didn't she blast at me…??? Why….??? Why did she let her so-called self-respect go down the drain, does that money meant so much to her??......feeling disgusted by her, he swore at himself for even thinking of her being different from other cheap sl*ts......the sudden cracked sound made him look at the poor pen in his hand, as it became the victim of his anger.......it got crushed, I Will never let this type of girls affect me now….

Before she could leave the place, she felt a sudden force in her heart that was telling her, forcing her to turn and answer him, she had a desire to share her pain with him, she didn't knew it why…?? But she confessed in her broken voice, "I Knew you were so disgusting Mr mallik, I knew it….!!!!, but I thought that you could be the helpful one, may be I would be wrong about you…may be I was so fast to build that notion about you….may be……She sighed thinking...growling she looked back at him her eyes blazing with helpless tears given by her. "If it was not for my father's life, then I would have accepted death over this offer.....bu...."......unable to continue any further, she ran out of the room crying, slamming the door behind, leaving behind a shaken Armaan as he immediately turned back to stare at the door gaping at her…thinking what she told him. Her words rung through his mind again and again, which were telling him what he did to her. What did I do…?? How can I do this..?? She was asking money for her father. She looked horrified at the door as he saw her figure departing through the door. He raised his hand to stop her but she already left. Drowning in humiliation he cursed himself.

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"Did he agree Riddhima...??!!" she asked riddhima as she came out of the his cabin, she was desperately waiting for her to come out, 'Will he give the money...???' seeing her coming out she got all worked up, and looked at her, waiting desperately for her to tell something, she asked her finally........




Riddhima looked at her, she wanted to let herself loose in front of her, she wanted to cry, she wanted to do it desperately, as a volcano that was errupting inside her was like a fire that was burning her, His words were ringing through her ears, "You have to give pleasure to me….???" Disgusted she huffed, "you trash your 'precious' so called self-respect and keep it all aside and help me out for tonight............come to my palace.............and be my pleasure just for the night....." She growled thinking how could he do that…?? He doesn't has any respect for Girls…?? Doesn't he..?? She thought. she was feeling disgusted by hearing his condition to be his one night stand, she was damn disgusted with herself too..."How did she agree to it...How...???"

"How could she give her self respect to him…?? Her everything to him?? To that Ba******, That creeep….Beast" She groaned disgusted, tears threatening to fall out of her eyes. she wanted to let it out all to her best friend, but she didnt wanted that beast to see her in such a vulnerable state. She didn't wanted him to laugh at his victory, she knew that she has to do this to save her only hope….She has to sacrifise herself, she looked at muskaan, nodding her head in affirmative manner at her, Riddhima half smiled holding back her tears still which were still threatening to fall out.....

Muskaan looked at her as she nodded at her....a smile broke out on her face knowing that he agreed to help her, she knew that he would give it to her. He was not that Bad.....He had plenty of money and if he would remove a penny from it then it wont harm him……….. "OHHH Riddhima...???......I told ya, he will never say 'no'......" She told looking at her……."Yeah I agree he is little arrogant and insensitive" She sighed thinking numerous times he had scolded him……."and a little Khadooos too but he has a humble heart as a person" she looked at her concerned as she saw tear escape her lone eye being helpless.

Riddhima sighed hearing her growling inwardly, 'He and humble…??' That word doesn't exists in his dictionary…he hasn't learned to be humble..!!!...she Huffed in deep thought…. 'Was that a mistake…??' She thought groaning. She looked at muskaan thinking how wrong she is in judging him….she grimaced looking at her, ........"if only you knew muskaan, under which circumstances he agreed to give me money....i had to sell myself, i had to become his so called one night stand.....I Have to leave my self respect for that beast so that he could unleash me..!!! " she growled, helpless she looked at her again her eyes filled with tears of helplessness, a cry escape her eyes, she instantly rose her hands and wiped her tears that was threatening to fall, 'she would loose her everything today, She would loose herself' she was going to do it.

Muskaan looked at her, she saw her crying, 'Awww…she is crying…Nothing will happen to uncle now, he would be fine……' she thought looking at her........"Heyyy!!! Don't worry Riddhima....???" She told looking at her catching her in a warm hug....."everything will be fine.....trust me......uncle will be fine nothing will happen to him. God will save him." holding back her tears riddhima looked at her earnestly. Muskaan consoled her sister like friend with a warm hug........."just relax and go to the hospital, as money matter is solved......everything will be fine...!!!"

She looked at riddhima as she parted from her and who was looking at her at the moment earnestly, there was a hint of helplessness in her face, she could make out that she was worried, really worried at the moment. She knew it why…!!! Her father was her everything after her mother died 5 years ago, she has no one except her father with her and he meant world to her. She was concerned about him. She hugged her again brining her into her warm embrase and whispered to her, "Everything will be fine riddhima…Have faith in god, he will do everything right…!!!" she spoke looking at her earnestly.

"He will be alright naa muskaan…?? He wont leave me naa…??" she asked her helpless, fear to be left alone in this ruthless world was killing her from inside. She wanted some assurance. Muskaan nodded at her, seeing which riddhima smiled through her tears departing from her and went away.

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Armaan growled cursing himself for acting like a beast with her, 'What had I done..??' He thought. How can I even think of that..How…?? Never in his life he was so desperate to kick himself for behaving so unhumanly with her, 'Am I am beast…?? What was I thinking there, how could I ask her to spend a night with me..?? This was not armaan, I had never done anything like this before, never…!!! When ever I slept with anyone, it was with their consent only and they were all characterless girls.. then why did I made this mistake today…why….??' He thought.

"Was it because of my feelings towards her?? Was it because I am scared to fall for her?? Was it because I am scared to fail in Love again??" He growled thinking, cursing himself for behaving like an insensitive Jerk with her, He grimaced "How would she be feeling now…?? I should have stopped him… "On the impulse as it came to his mind he instantly rose from his seat and ran for searching her., I have to find her….!!!"

Armaan ran toward the door of his cabin and opened it to look for her, if she was there still but frowned seeing that her seat was vacant. He looked for muskaan and found her there on her desk, he moved toward her and nudged her by calling her.

"Muskaan…??" He asked her.

Muskaan jerked out of her thought, she was in deep thought about Riddhima, her sixth sense was saying her that there was something that riddhima was not telling her, what it could be…?? She had seen those tears in her eyes and she knew that it was not because of her father's state. Its cause was something different. But what could it be…?? Why was she holding back her tears….why…?? She never did that with her before..she always shared her little thing's with her, then why she was holding back today…why..?? She was brought out of her thought by armaan as she heard him call her, instantly jerking up from her thought, she stood there in front of her vicious Boss…She sighed "Ohhgod..He will not leave me now…He will literally kill me, I was not working…Poor me god please save me…!!!" She looked scared at armaan, scared to death. What do I do..? I will ask him to forgive me before he fires me..Yeah…!!!'

"Sir…Please don't fire me…I will not do it again. I will not…please forgive me I was just lost somewhere, it will not happen again, please don't fire me.." She was blabbering asking him for forgiveness.

Armaan growled looking at her, "Damn…What is she doing..?? Why is she saying sorry…Do Hell with herr sorry, I am here searching for riddhima and she is wasting my time. Where hell did she go…??" He looked at muskaan glaring with murderous eyes controlling his anger.

"Sir Please forgive me..it wont happen again…I was thinking about riddhima…She was crying naa..her father…you might be knowing it..??" she spoke looking at him praying for him to not fire her. She looked at him earnestly.

"Shut-up, Where is Riddhima…??" He asked her coming right to point. He felt really bad, felt like killing himself for behaving in such humanless manner with her so that she was crying. Why did I do this..?? He thought. He waited for muskaan to tell him.

Hearing his angry voice muskaan gaped horrified, she whispered in low voice, "Sir, she went there, just few minutes back…" she notified direction where riddhima went and looked down to save herself from his wrath, he was looking really angry at the moment. She Gaped as she saw him turn back and run towards the direction she showed him. "What is he doing…?? Where is he going…??"

"Is he mad…??" she thought.

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Armaan was searching for riddhima, it was about 15 minutes since he was looking for her but was not able to find her. "Where did she go..?? Where is she…??" He asked himself helpless.

"You are Stupid Armaan…How could you think of her to be like those other cheap girls…How…?? She was the one whom you were waiting for and when she came to you, you showed your back to her, you humiliated her?? Not once but twice…?? Today you crossed all the line…?? You asked her to spend a nig…" "Shiiiii…." How could you be so disgusting…Armaan???.

He cursed himself. He frowned as he heard some sound, he could make out that it was her sound, he could make it out easily. He had heard her voice so many times in his dreams too, she used to haunt him, but he had never felt like this anytime before, He looked for the source of voice and heard that it was coming from his right, instantly coming to his senses he walked over to the source of voice and found it to be coming from the washroom. He looked at it denoting "Ladies Washroom…" He growled.

"Damn Armaan…why did you made separate bathroom for ladies and gents…" He groaned at himself…"What a stupid question it was, there has to be separate ones…" He sighed thinking how to go in…?? He was the boss, Should he use his post to go in and peek in someones Privacy..?? No he can't. He growled. He moved toward the door and heard sound getting louder and louder, he was trying to make it out what kind of sound it was, as realization struck him, He gasped horrified, "Omggg…" He was hearing a cry. Yes that was a Helpless cry of a Girl that he had just humiliated to core just now. He growled cursing himself for being so cheap, so rude, so inhuman, for behaving like a beast with her. HE was not even behaving humanly with her. How could he ask her for that??? He was feeling really bad now as he heard her helpless cry coming out of the washroom, He had a urge to go to her and console her, moving toward the door he thought how to go in. He puts his hand on the door and it slides a little giving him a look of the commotion inside the room.

He was stunned, horrified as he saw her lying on the ground of the Bathroom, she was crying really badly, her sobs were turned in desperate hiccups due to intense crying. He cursed himself for telling all that to her, why did I do this?? He saw her sitting there, indeed lying on the floor in one of the corner hugging herself resting her body on the ground and crying. HE could see her face and it pained him deep to see that redness of her face, she was gone all red due to crying. He wanted to kill himself at this moment when he saw her balling there in front of him on the ground crying heavily. She was panting for catching her breath occasionally; he wanted to console her, to tell her that he was sorry for what he said to her. He wanted to do that desperately, but he was scared to go to her.

"How could he go in front of her now…How…?? She was there because of him only…." He growled cursing himself for the umptenth time for his foolishness. He looked at her she was breathing heavily to catch her lost breath, her sobs turned wild, a loud cry escpaped through her mouth as she cried more harder , she was shattered. Her father was on his death bed and she needed money and the man whom she came for help asked her to be her mistress for one night, to pleasure him for a night. "What could she do..?? She has to loose herself and her pride for her father to that beast…She has to give herself respect and her everything to that meniac that ba*****" She cried hard not finding any way for herself. She looked at door instantly and saw that same man standing there, anger took over her as she saw his face. She instantly rosed from ground and wiped her tears, she didn't wanted to show her tears to that Monster. She went to wards him and jerked the door, opening it wide and not even looking at him she escaped the room.

"Riddhima…." Came a voice from armaan's mouth trying to make her to stop. He wanted to tell many things to her. He wanted to ask her for forgiveness. He looked at her as he stopped hearing his voice. He heard her voice.

"Don't worry Mr Mallik… I Know that you won this challenge…and don't think that I will betray you, I will reach there right at 10:00, Keep the money ready. I will be there for you so that you could unleash me and kill me…so that you could win the battle…..But keep one thing in mind….You will never get that win over me…Yes I will be there, but it won't be that Riddhima in real sense…!!! It will only be my Body, My Lifeless body that you are hungry for, that you are lusting….You will get that body for yourself, so that you could do anything to it, but you will never get to unleash Riddhima that was there inside that body as it died today…I murdered her now, I am just coming from her funeral, I killed that riddhima just now and you will never get to win over Riddhima….Never in your life….and once a time you will pay for all your deeds, all your Bad works…you will have to pay for all those girls whom you have destroyed for your fun, for your pleasure….you will be crying one day Mr mallik and you will not be able to live after that, you will not get what you want…it is my final words to you….." She told him not even looking at him, her eyes not having a single tears, she was like a different riddhima all together. Yes she was died as she said. She has murdered her soul that was there inside her. She walked off her voice hard and strong.

Armaan's world collapsed right in front of him, he felt like burying himself for what he did to her that had given so much pain to her, He looked at her parting figure and growled cursing again. He turned and went back to his cabin her words ringing through his mind again. "HE WILL PAY FOR IT"

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Armaan growled sitting on his desk, he knew that he was so unfair to her........"how could I do this to her????" he whispered to himself......he had never gotten this mad at himself before, never in his life, getting up from the chair, he went over to the little bar in his cabin......cursing himself, but this time, for daring to compare her with that prost*t*te, with those characterless girls.....taking heavy breathes he tried to think straight to fix the biggest mistake he had ever made in life, running fingers through his thick hair, he tried to let out the frustration....... nothing is working for him right now as he just banged his clenched fist on the glass counter of the bar, smashing it into uncountable pieces.......to his surprise, he didn't even feel the pain of his blood that was running down like a fountain, it didn't even equals a penny of pain she was going through at that moment, when she was crying there in bathroom. He was dying thousand deaths to see her being so helpless and cries there lying on the floor; He had never thought that he could do that to anyone. He has himself faced much pain in his life then how could he give her the same pain that kills the person.

He looked at blood ozzing out of the cut that was made in his hands due to glass pieces that got embedded inside his palm, He smiled he liked it, that was like a punishment for what he did to her, It was nothing compared to what he would have gotten and he would get it all as she said, he will pay for all hia deeds, Not paying any attention to his hand, he quickly made up to the desk, "Muskaan?? Do you know who is dealing with Riddhima's fathers case…??" He asked calling her on the line…" hearing his strict tone, muskaan didn't even waste a second to to answer him, "Yes sir!!" she replied.........

"Then connect me to him….right now…!!" She heard finality in the tone of his, she connected the line not even wasting a minute.

His entire body was shaking badly as he was listening to the doctor about the case, ".....hmm!!!.....ok......please proceed with it......the payment will be done on time......but please do the best you can....you have to save him at any cost, or I will not leave you…You might be knowing who I am…!!" He ordered the doctor.

He looked at his hand blood still coming out of it, He was still not feeling the pain, He gave himself a sarcastic smile and proceded towards the counter again, picking up the glass pieces that was scattered on the floor of the counter he pressed them on the wounded hand and groaned as the uncontrollable pain from both his heart and hand erupted which was killing him now from inside too, He wanted to punish himself for what he did to her, He wanted to not forgive himself. He knew that he was wrong in doing that to her.

"Are you alright sir…??" muskaan asked hearing his pained voice, She had heard his yelp.

Hearing the voice from the other end of the phone he sighed groaning in pain, it was killing him now, He spoke answering to her query….before hanging up the phone, " I am fine….all right……." Before keeping it he made a last request, "Done let anyone know about it…"he knew whatever he did to riddhima couldn't be reversed by any means , he had commited the crime but he could do something that could reduce her some pain, so he made a confidential settlement with the doctor that apart from the operation expenses, his company will take the responsibility of all the extra charges including the medications'.........keeping the phone down, he smiled to see his hands bleeding terebly.

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Muskaan looked at his wounds, she groaned. "What was he doing…??" she recalled what had happened before she came to his cabin.

She had entered his cabin and was extremely horrified to see all things scattered on the floor, she groaned cursing her boss for his insanity, she just glared at him with a half-open mouth staring in shock at the place.....the glass counter of the little bar at the corner was on the floor broken into pieces, her eyes instantly caught the red blood on the floor, horror took over her and she instantly looked at him, and caught look of his hand, she gaped seeing blood still dripping.......armaan looked at her as she was looking at his hands , "What are you looking at..?? I am fine, absolutely fine….!!! ......just a little cut in the hand......nothing to worry about....."......but being the most frightened and caring girl that she was , she almost ran out to him and caught hold of his hands looking at it carefully, leaving her boss to roll his eyes at her sudden act........

Muskaan gently cleaned his wound, she looked at it and flinched as she saw scalp of his palm was dislodged and there was a deep cut in his hand, the blood from his hand was still coming , she gently applied cotton over it and gasped as she heard his cry, she looked at him earnestly scared if he would hit her, she cleaned his hand and applied antiseptic ointment over it muttering something under her breath, cursing him for being insane, How did this happen…??she wrapped bandage around it carefully........out of all the lady employees, she is the only one whose sudden kiddish behavior always keeps him entertained, she was very bubbly, He really adored her after Anjali, yes he didn't showed her but he had immense concern for her, He always saw a little sister in her. He doesn't know why, but he always finds himself being so chirpy with her, he is always himself with her. He adores this little 'kitten' of his.......that's why whenever he becomes frustrated, he pours all his anger on her, knowing her sweet nature, she would forgive him Preety soon.......

Armaan looked at her, she was so sweet girl, but she always is scared with him. He looked at her dressing his palm, He heard her say something to him…."Sir…Thanks for helping riddhima…." Armaan didn't look at her, he was disgusted with himself, something came to his mind, he asked her….."Did riddhima took money from the counter…??" He asked her. Muskaan heard him tell that….she nodded her head in no…"No sir…." Armaan growled.

"Then do one thing deposite the money to Hospital account, it has to be done today….." He told her not even looking at her, He was not able to meet her eyes for the humiliation that he was building inside him.

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"What are you doing here??" Riddhima looked at muskaan coming toward her......".....you forgot the money Riddhima......What were you thinking?? so sir asked me to make the payment as it had to be done today...."

Riddhima saw Dr. Modi coming toward her, she heard him say to nurse to get everything ready in the O.T........Riddhima looked at himearnestly, her heart beating really hard….."Riddhima....beta, we will try our best......but I already told you the chances are very low as he isn't responding to treatment.......just pray and keep faith in God he will make everything better….!! "Comforting her he left for the job......she was like a child to him.

It was almost 6 hours since the operation had started, impatiently waiting for the doctor to come out, Riddhima glanced at her clock , 8:30pm it read......She thought , 'Why did he send the money today when I even didn't took money with me..???.......what if I may change my mind and don't come to him, then what would he have done??' she thought.......but he trusted her and she can never break anyone's trust......she can never think of betraying anyone........

The opened door of the operation theater brought her back from her thought, almost running to the doctor, she waited, hoping for a good news......feeling sorry for the girl, he confessed, "....We have to keep him under observation for 24 hours.....if he gets his conscious back by then everything will be fine....otherwise....." unable to continue after noticing the change of her expression, he completed before leaving for his cabin, ".....we are hoping for the best......just pray to God dear......."

Riddhima heard what doctor tells to her, she gasped horrified, extremely shocked to hear that, He was the only one she had at this moment. She just can't loose him. She was feeling like crying, but she even couldn't do that as she didn't had enough energy left inside her to even cry at her fate……walking over to to the idols of God, she helplessly pleaded to save her only support in life......she heard clock click It was 9 pm, she has to leave, to sacrifice herself......to complete her part of the deal.... to pleasure him to become his one night stand.

Armaan was sitting on the bed of his house all drowned in misery, He was feeling pathetic of himself. He loosened the tie and unbuttoned his sky blue shirt.......it's been half an hour that he came back home but still not in the mood to change himself.......feeling low and pathetic.......he finished his final Pack of drink, He wanted to drown himself in that liquor.

He heard doorbell ring, He woke up and went to door in his dazed state to open it, there was over effect of alcohol and his pent out misery which was making things harder for him. He opened the door and gasped as he felt his heart just skipped a beat at the sight of her, he felt his heart do a summer sault.........there she is standing in front of him, she was all drenched due to rain still falling heavily, Yes it was raining…….He looked at her she was shaking due to coldness, She stood there almost hugging her partially soaked figure tightly not looking at him, Her eyes downcast.......

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i got ur pm while posting comment...lol 😆
awesome part rohit....liked muskaan's blabbering and what a silly question armaan asked--why he made separate bathrooms???? too sillyyyyyyyy 😆
and riddhima's part was veryyy well written. i completely visualized her during d scene in which she was broken down.
and armaan asked himself-"am i a beast?" i just spoke--yes you are... 😆
riddhima's final words to her were so painful as well as so tough.....
he just worsened her condition..... and he deserves her curses in return. liked armaan-muskaan's part too.
thanks for updating. waiting for next epi

Aww.... Rohit...

first of all congrats on the new thread 👏

hey rohit...!