Part-105
he asked sister lovely to dial her number, when sister lovely gave him receiver, armaan first felt little hesitation, then remembering riddhima he finally take the receiverā¦..
A: helloā¦
Sa: (from other side) ji kahiye mr.armaan malik, kya kehna chahte hai aap???
A: sanjana mujhe tumse baat karni haiā¦
Sa: boliye mai sun rahi hunā¦
A: wo baat phone par nahi ho payegi, kya tum hospital aa sakti ho???
Sa: aapko shayad sister lovely ne bata diya hoga ki mai leave par hunā¦
A: to kya tum kahi bahar mil sakti ho, it's really urgentā¦.
Sa: (thinks a bit) mai try karungi, but I'm not sureā¦.
A: agar tum mil sako to please green valley garden mai aa jaana, I'll really be thankful to youā¦
Sa: okkk.. (and she cut the call, leaving armaan in a doubtful condition but armaan hopefully goes out from hospital and with in 10 minutes he's in green valley garden)
He settled on one bench again lost in thoughts, thinking pata nahi wo mujhe maaf karegi bhi ya nahi, maafi to baad ki baat hai filhaal to ye bhi nahi pata ki wo aayegi ya nahi, riddhima ke liye bhi message nahi choda, by chance use break mila to wo mujhe dhundegi, usse message kar deta hun ki mai ghar aa gaya hun, he took out his cell again thinking nahi ye to jhoot ho jayega,
and from his heart one sound came to ab kaunsa sach bol raha hai tu uss se, itni badi sachai chupakar kaunsa mahaan kaam kar raha hai tu, waise kehta hai ki riddhima teri jindagi hai, tere jeene ki wajah hai phir tu uss se kyu ye sab chuppa raha hai, uska iss baat ko jaan ne ka pura hak hai, chahe uska jo marji reaction ho, par tujhe ye baat usse batani chahiye, soch agar riddhima ki jagah tu hota to tub hi yehi expect karta ki wo tujhe sab kuch bata de, waise hi wo bhi yehi expect karti hai aur tujhe usse bataye bina kabhi sukoon bhi nahi mil payega, chahe sanjana ki maafi bhi mil jaye, usse sachai bata de, aur aage sab kuch riddhima par chod de (he again memorizes all the words which riddhima said 2-3 days ago) again his heart said just be loyal to her.. tell her everything, she'll surely understand,
again he got confused, ek side usse khone ka darr, aur ek side loyality, kisse choose kare, his heart said jo tum riddhima se expect karte ho, agar wo iss situation mai hoti, usse hi
choose karna, and with in a second he chooses loyality, and mumbled yahan se jaane ke baad mai riddhima ko sab kuch sach sach bata dunga, phir uska jo marji result hoā¦ (lets see if he'll be able to do so, you never knew what next moment has in store for you)
2 hours passed but she didn't came, atlast he stand up to go, but saw her coming from front, little hope covered his heart, sanjana came to himā¦
Sa: kaho kaunsi urgent baat karna chahte ho??? (in a very rude tone)
A: (taking her rudeness very obvious) samajh nahi aa raha kaha se baat shuru karun, (he turned such that his back was faced by her, once again he closed his eyes and in front of his eyes riddhima's face came with a smile which he really adores, and her opened arms inviting him to comeā¦ he opens his eyes and found his heart saying aaj tujhe baat karni hi hogi, nahi to riddhima ko tu kho dega, you have to do it and he turned again.. and without wasting time, he straight forward ) sanjana mai tumse maafi maangna chahta hun, mujhe pata hai maine jo tumhare saath kiya wo shayad maafi maangne lyke nahi hai, na hi mai tumhara wo saal tumhe waapis laakar de sakta hun jo meri wajah se waste hua, na wo aansu tumhe waapis kar sakta hun jo meri wajah se tumne bahaye, mai tumhe kuch bhi waapis nahi kar sakta, par phir bhi mai tumse maafi maangna chahta hun.. (he joined his hands, and his eyes was saying that he's really feeling guilty)
Sanjana didn't said anything and her face expressions saying that she's really not
interested in hearing, but next step of armaan was really surprising for her when armaan settled on his knees, she was really surprisedā¦
A: sanjana mai bahut galat tha uss waqt, kya karun uss waqt dil, pyar, dhadkan, deewangi inn sabke matlab se anjaan tha, sab bekar ki baatein, time waste lagta tha, feelings kya hoti hai pata nahi tha, isliye shayad kabhi tumhari feelings ko nahi samajh paaya tha, par aaj samajh sakta hun tumhari har baat ko jo tumne kabhi kahi thi mujhse kyunki ab unn sab cheezo ka matlab samajh aa gaya jinse kabhi mai dur bhaaga karta tha,
aur inn sab cheezo ka matlab maine uss ladki se seekha jisse pehli mulakat ke baad sapno mai bhi nahi socha tha ki aage jaakar wo mere jine ki wajah ban jaayegi, ka buss ladki ne ek play boy ko lover boy bana diya pata hi nahi challa, kab aur kaise usne mujhpar magic kiya aur mai jo sirf apne baare mai sochkar hi jeeta tha kab apne se pehle uske baare mai sochne laga pata hi na challa,
aur wo ladki hai riddhima meri basket, my love, my destiny, my world, everything of mine.. I really love her like hell, aur dekho na aaj uske pyar ki wajah se hi mujhe apni galti ka ehsas hua, realize hua ki maine kitni badi galti ki thi, mujhe koi hak nahi tha tumhare ya kissi ke emotions ke saath khelne ka, kaash uss waqt bhi samajh paata ki mai kitni badi galti kar raha hun, parā¦ ho sake to mujhe maaf kar dena sanjanaā¦ (once again he joined his hands and bends down his head )
sanjana looked him thoroughly, then moved close to him and holds his hand, armaan stood up with eyes full of hopeā¦
Sa: ammy tum sach mai bahut badal gaye ho, jo ho gaya wo ho gaya, ab jo hona hai wo hoyega, (armaan looked her doubtfully)I mean maine tumhe maaf kar diya, mujhe tumse ab koi shikayat nahi haiā¦.
A: tumne sach mai mujhe maaf kar diya???? (looked her unbelievingly)
Sa: Past ko past mai hi rehne do, sirf apne present aur future ki chinta karo, tumne riddhima ko hamare relation ke baare mai kuch bataya????
A: nahi abhi tak to nahi bataya, par ab jaakar usse saari sachayi bata dungaā¦
Sa: kyu???
A: kyunki mai uss se jayda time tak kuch chuppa nahi sakta, mujhe lagta hai usse iss baat ko jaan ne ka pura hak hai aur riddhima mujhe itne ache se samajhti hai ki usse pata chal jaata hai ki mai kab pareshan hun, kab dil se hass raha hun, to uss se chupana theek nahi hogaā¦.
Sa: par ab tum pareshan kyu ho, matlab tumhari pareshani to mujhe lekar thi, aur maine tumhe maaf kar diya hai to ab kisliye pareshan rahoge????
A: haan, parā¦
Sa: (cutting him in between) par agar tumne usse bata diya to kya itne sure ho ki wo iss sach ko jaan ne baad bhi tumhara saath degi, agar wo tumhe chod ke challi gayi to kya karoge tum??? Kyu apne past ki wajah se apne present aur future ko stake par laga rahe ho, mai to tumhe suggest karungi ki tum riddhima ko kuch na batao, kyunki iss sach ko sirf hum dono hi jaante hai, mai to usse kabhi kuch bolungi nahi, tum bhi bhul jao aur hassi khushi riddhima ke saath apni life enjoy karo, that's it, baaki tumhari marji..
Armaan again thought a bit, sanjana again started
Sa: aur agar tum usse batao to may be wo tumhe kuch kahe na, par tumne socha hai ki aage iske concequence kya honge, iss sach ko jaan ne ke baad wo jab bhi hume sanjeevani mai saath dekha karegi to hamesha shak ki nigah se dekha karegi, bekaar mai hi misunderstandings aa jayengi tumhare beech mai bhi, mere riddhima ke beech mai bhiā¦
A: (he again found himself confused, kitni mushkil se to himmat ki thi riddhima ko sab sach batane ki, par sanjana ki baatein sun ne ke baad phir taye taye fish ho gai, thinking iske baare mai to maine socha hi nahi) to tum kya kehti ho mujhe kya karna chahiyeā¦
Sa: I think tumhe use kuch nahi batana chahiyeā¦
A: okk, agar tumhe yehi sahi lagta hai to mai use kuch nahi bataunga, par be sure ki tumhare muh se bhi uske saamne kuch na nikleā¦
Sa: tumhe lagta hai ki itni badi galti ho sakti hai mujhse, kuch to jaana hi hoga tumne mere baare mai unn 6 mahino maiā¦
A: nahi, I mean mujhe pata hai ki tum aisa kuch nahi karogiā¦.
Sa: gud, I think ab hume challna chahiye, bahut der ho gai haiā¦
A: ya sureā¦ (sanjana turned to go) sanjanaā¦ (she turned back again) thanks,
Sa: no need to say thanks, byee..
A: byeeā¦ā¦ (take a deep breathe, his cell start ringing, he smiled when saw riddhima's name flashing, he picked the call, riddhima from other side asking where are you armaan, kab se tumhe dhund rahi hun, kissi ko kuch batakar bhi nahi gayeā¦. Armaan said wo achanak hi program ban gaya, tum busy thi to isliye bata nahi paaya, riddhima asked kitni der mai aa rahe ho?? Armaan said bas 10 min mai pahunch raha hun, tum bahar wait karna, riddhima said okk, armaan said acha suno, riddhima said I know you love me, armaan smiled and said yupp, I love you basket, riddhima said aaj lag raha hai apne armaan se baat kar rahi hun, tum haste hue bahut ache lagte ho, luv u 2, byee, she cut the call, armaan moved towards his car, very relaxed and thought to neglect his past 3 days as if nothing happened, he started his car and very excitedly moved towards hospital)
On other sideā¦
Sanjana was feeling just great, she again remembered how armaan knelt down, once again smile covered her face, she mumbled mera yaha aana successful raha, kitna sukoon mila mere dil ko armaan ko iss haalat mai dekh kar, ye to mai jaanti thi ki wo mujhse maafi maangne jarur aayega kyunki riddhima ke liye uska pyar use maafi maangne par majboor kar dega, par ye nahi pata tha ki wo itna majboor ho jayega ki apne ghutne tak mere saamne take degaā¦.
She remembered the day when she asked riddhima to come as she wants to talk with her, while talking her gaze fell on armaan, who was constantly looking at both of them and his fear can directly be seen on his face, sanjana then asked riddhima armaan kya sach much tumse bahut pyar karta hai, riddhima gave surprised look when this question was asked by her suddenly, but still she blushed and that was enough for sanjana,
riddhima asked par tumne suddenly ye question kyu pucha, sanjana said bas armaan ko dekhkar aise hi puchne ka mann kiya, riddhima mumbled armaan.. then she turned in the direction where sanjana was looking, she smiled when looked at armaan but then ran hurriedly when she saw that armaan's on the verge of falling, and after that sanjana observed them very carefully till they didn't moved towards fire escape,
and then she concluded that armaan has really changed and loves her wife very much, she understands his fear and she was expecting sorry from him soon, and everything goes according to her thoughts, armaan with in 2 days called herā¦ andā¦..
sanjana again smiled victoriously, armaan tumhe kya laga mai tumhari ye stupid si bakwaas sun ne aayi thi yaha par, jo tumne mere saath kiya uske baad to tumhara chehra ki ek jhalak bhi dekhna na pasand karun, mai to sirf tumhare chehre par darr dekhne aayi thi, wohi darr jo aaj se 4 years pehle mere chehre par tha, tumhe kya laga ki mai tumhe itni aasani se maaf kar dungi, jaise tumhare maafi maangne se mujhe wo sab waapis mil jaayega jo maine khoya tha, agar tumhe aisa laga to tum bilkul galat the mr. armaan malik, ye baatein kabhi bhi bhulayi nahi jaatiā¦.
tumhe tumhari galtiyon ki saja to milkar hi rahegi, maaja to ab aayega tumhe sajaa dene mai, kyunki ab tum pyar ka matlab jaante ho, kitna maja aayega jab riddhima tumse alag ho jayegi, hamesha ke liye tumhari jindagi ko tanha kar jayegi, mere liye wo din sabse jayda yaadgaar hoga, jab apni aankho ke saamne tumhe barbaad hota hua dekhungi, aisa lagega jaise mujhe naya janam mil gaya ho..
abhi jo sab kuch maine kaha tha wo sab jhoot tha armaan, tumne jo karna tha wo kar liya ab mujhe jo karna hai wo mai karungi, kaha tha na maine ki I'll ruin your life, I'll ruin you, aur ab to bhagwan bhi mere saath hai, warna wo achanak mera saamna tumse na karwate, ab tumhe pata challega khone ka dard kya hota hai, dhoka dene ka dard kya hota hai, tumhe kabhi bhi pata nahi challega aur riddhima tumse dur ho jayegi..
satya waadi harishchandra ban kar riddhima ko sab kuch bata to dete, par phir mere liye to nuksaan ho jaata na, agar wo tumhe maaf kar deti toā¦ usse sacchai pata challegi par abhi nahi, thoda sabar karo, pehle usse yakeen to dilwa dein ki aap uss se pyar nahi karte, bas naatak kar rahe the, aur aapke maan mai phir se aapki ex-girlfriend ne jagah bana li hai, uske baad usse ye baat batayenge taaki koi chance hi na rahe aap dono ke saath mai rehne ka, sahi baat sahi mauke par hi ki jaati hai, bahut maaja aayega ye game khelne mai, tumhe kabhi pata bhi nahi challega aur tumhari life ka tamasha ban jayegaā¦just wait and watchā¦ (she shut the door behind her and very happily settled on sofa)
7 days passed, nothing much happened this week except sanjana and armaan became friends, no prank she played on armaan as she wants to take armaan in confidence, and armaan riddhima's relation was going as usual very sweetly, same schedule which they're following since last 24 days and yes in armaan's behaviour one change came,
he acts normally with riddhima like loving, caring in front of everyone but whenever sanjana came in front of him, he always tries to maintain a distance from riddhima, for eg suppose he's holding hands of her, but when ever he saw sanjana coming he quickly drops it, if they were on the verge of hugging each other out of happiness ya something else,
he immediately stops himself in doing so whenever he saw sanjana, like this many instantces were there, he doesn't eat from her plate in front of her, he back outs instantly from kissing riddhima on forehead whenever realize sanjana's presence,in short he always try to maintain one distance from her in front of sanjana, and the thing is that he himself don't know about it, means he's not doing all this intentionally,
it's like khud hi ho jaata tha aur usse pata hi nahi chalta tha, and he's totally unaware about this change in him, but riddhima surely noticed this change coz never he did this before, he doesn't get affected by anyone's presence, if he wants to hug her, he'll surely do, who so ever looking at them and when riddhima says ki armaan rohit, niki sab yaha hai,
he normally answers to kya hua, apni patni ke hi gale mil raha hun aur kisi ke to nahi, then he normally turns to their friends and asks them tumhe koi problem to nahi hai na agar mai apni biwi se gale millun, agar hai to aankhein band kar lo, and ridhima always hits him and says armaan thodi si sharam, and armaan says thodi si sharam ko side kar dena chahiye, hainaā¦. Riddhima always shakes her head and armaan opens his arms, riddhima always hides herself in himā¦. Still he's the same but a slight difference, and riddhima was not able to catch the reason why armaan sometimes acts weirdly and unknowingly and particularly on what occassion he does so, that was all happened with in a weekā¦..
armaan was doing his duty, last hour of his duty, he's going towards general ward, suddenly bumped into sanjana, who was coming from frontā¦
Sa: hi amm, I mean armaanā¦
A: hii, tum yahanā¦ (before he could speak anything, he saw riddhima coming from front) riddhimaā¦
Her face was looking sad, she stopped near armaan, armaan saw two fat tears in her eyesā¦
A: (worriedly) riddhima kya hua??? (riddhima as an instant hugged him tightly and start crying little loudly, audible to armaan only, for the first time in front of sanjana armaan hugged riddhima tightly, and ignored her totally) kya hua riddhima, mujhe batao.. (riddhima still didn't speak anything, armaan asked nurse to gave her a glass of water, after having a little water, riddhima's tears stopped a little, but still holding armaan very tightlt, armaan was caressing her hair..) kya hua riddhima?????
R: armaan mai uss roni se car drive karna nahi sikhungi, wo mujhe bahut daant ta hai.. (armaan relaxed a little, then smiled)
A: kyu daanta roni ne meri princess ko???
R: aaj wo mujhe rush mai drive karwane lekar gaya, ek jagah mai nervous ho gai aur accelerator par se paer hatta diya aur phir clutch par paer rakh diya, to usne mujhse kaha ki tum kuch bhi theek se nahi kar sakti, gaadi sikhna tumhare bass ki baat nahi hai, maine aaj tak kabhi itna bekaar driver koi nahi dekha, pata nahi kisne driving mai bhej diya aur phir usne majak banate hue kaha ki gaddi sikhegi ye madam huhā¦ usne mujhe itna daanta, itna to aaj tak kissi ne bhi nahi daanta hoga, mai ab uss se kabhi gaadi nahi seekhungiā¦ (again 2 fat tears fall from her eyes)
A: (clearing her tears) ohh my baby.. (once again hugging her) mai roni ko bahut daantunga ki uski himmat kaise hui meri princess ko daantne kiā¦
R: promise, usse bahut saara daant na.. (in a babyish tone)
A: promise, challo ab rona band karo.. (he clears her tears) tumhare inn motte motte aansuon ne to mujhe dara hi diya tha, tumhe pata hai tum bilkul 1 saal ki bachi jaisi lag rahi ho, bilkul waise hi jaise hamari beti lagegiā¦ (riddhima turns towards glass and looked her self thoroughly)
R: acha hamari beti aisi hogi..
A: haan dittoā¦ā¦..
R: armaan aisa kaise ho sakta hai, hamari beti jab duniya mai aayegi tab itni badi thodina hogi, wo to bilkul chotti si nani munni si gudiya hogiā¦
A: challo 1-2 saal baad aisi lagegiā¦
R: kyu tum jabse 2 saal ke ho tab se aise hi lag rahe ho, 2 saal mai hi itne bade ho gaye theā¦
A: ohhh meri maa, mujhe maaf kardo.. (he joined his hands, riddhima laughed, armaan cupped her face) that's like my princess, tum rote hue bilkul achi nahi lagti.. (he kissed on her forehead)
R: I luv you armaanā¦
A: love you too babyā¦ (once again they hugged each other, and break apart when sanjana clears her throat..)
Sa: congratulations???
R: for what, mujhe roni se daant padne ke liye??? (looking confusingly at her)
Sa: nahi iske liyeā¦ (pointing to her tummy)
A: suit ke liye??? (as usual apna dimag bahut challane ki adat hai hamare armaan ji ko)
Sa: are yaar tumhare baby ke liye, so kaunsa month chal raha hai riddhima????
before riddhima could speak..
A: (moved towards riddhima) kyaaa????? Hamara baby... (shocked) riddhima tumne mujhe nahi bataya, mai papa ban ne waala hun aur mujhe hi nahi pata, riddhima how come???? (sanjana was looking puzzled)
R: (who was herself confused about what's happening) sshhhh..(placing fingure on his lips) armaan agar aisi koi baat hoti to ofcourse tumse pehle ye baat kissi aur ko kaise pata chal sakti hai, bilkul budhu ho tum, tumse pehle ye baat kissi aur ko batane ki soch bhi kaise sakti hun, koi deserve bhi nahi karta tumse pehle ye baat jaan ne kiā¦
A: matlab hamara babyā¦
R: matlab hamare baby ke baare mai agar koi bhi news milti to ofcourse uske papa ko pata chal chukka hota.. (she caressed his cheeks) kyunki uski mumma sabse pehle har khushi uske papa ke saath share karti hai uske baad dono milkar sabke saath apni khushiyan share karte haiā¦.
A: to theek hai its done agar tumhe pehle pata challa ki tum mumma ban ne waali ho to tum mujhe sabse pehle bataogi, aur agar mujhe pata challa ki mai mumma..
R: kyaaa????
A: (realizing what he said) matlab papa ban ne waala hun to mai tumhe sabse pehle bataungaā¦.
R: armaan ye sab kyu keh rahe ho, tumhe mujhpar yaheek nahi hai kya, kitni baar kahun ki sabse pehle tumhe hi pata challega, obviously jisne tumhe duniya ka sabse pyara gift diya hai tum sabse pehle usse hi to shukriya karoge, to mai bhi to wohi karungiā¦ (armaan smiled and caressed and loved her with eyes)
Sa: excuse me, (both turned towards her) koi mujhe batayega ki kya ho raha hai yaha par???
R: sanjana pehle tum batao ki tumhe kisne kaha kiā¦ā¦.
Sa: tum dono abhi to baatein kar rahe the, beti and all thatā¦
A: ohhh, wo to hum aane waale baby ki baat in the sense abhi nahi aane waala par kabhi to aayega, to tab ke liye keh raha thaā¦.
Sa: matlab she's not pregnantā¦
A: lagta to nahi haiā¦
R: armaanā¦ (armaan giggled) sanjana abhi aisa kuch nahi haiā¦
Sa: kyu??? Tumhari shaadi ko 1 saal to ho gaya hai, koi medical problem???
A: oee meri riddhima ko koi problem nahi hai, it's like abhi we are not preparedā¦
Sa: why??? (armaan looked at riddhima)
R: still waiting to get mature, abhi to hum dono khud hi bache hai, kabhi armaan bacha ban jaata hai aur kabhi mai, thoda sa aur mature ho jaayein aur jab hume lagne lag jayega ki yeah now we are able to take responsibility, and we can give our child the best care, thenā¦ā¦
Sa: tum dono ka collectively decision hai ye???
R: haan almostā¦.
Sa: itni soch milti hai tum dono ki???
R: ye achanak aap itne questions kyu puch rahi hai???
Sa: waise hi generallyā¦.
R: okk, waise hamari soch 1 % bhi nahi miltiā¦
Sa: to tum log tackleā¦ (her pager start ringing, so she said bye to them)
Thinking in mind acha hua koi bache ka chakkar nahi hai, nahi to akele kaise palti uss bache ko riddhima bechari, aur aage ke liye plans to aise bana rakhe hai jaise jaante ho surely aisa hi hoga, gud news dene ke liye tum dono saath bhi to hone chahiye na, dekhna ya to tumhare baby ka sapna sapna hi reh jaayega ya armaan tum duniya ke pehle nahi balki aakhri insaan honge ye jaan ne ke liye ki tum papa ban ne waale ho, tumhari sachai jaan n eke baad riddhima kabhi bhi tumse ye khushi share nahi karegi, ifact wo kabhi tumhare bache ko tumse milwaayegi hi nahi, I really feel pity on you..
To be continued, just can say stay tunnedā¦ā¦.
Next update on Monday, same timeā¦..
Deepu: all the very best for your exams, aur comment ki chinta na kar aaram se kar diyo, apna hi ff haiā¦ hee hee
Sonia: tu kithe gayab ho gayi ab, sab kuch theek thak to hai na???
Anupama: oe yaar tune kaunsa question pucha tha mujhse????
Lots of luv
Ishankiā¦.
Shiv Shakti
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