There a moment in everybody's lives when you are forced to choose and decide the one single decision that can make you or break and that one decision effects every single second of your future life and if you make the wrong decision there is no one to blame except you. I have been given exactly 5 hours to make a decision that I had never imagined I would make. The words, faces and feeling echoed through my body just like the blood each moment of what happened earlier replayed in my mind. The pain with my mother's cold words contiounsly made my body shiver only one thought came to my mind what is my fault in this what did I do wrong my only crime was that I fell in love with Raghav. Then my mind suddenly shifted to Raghav words I could see the pain in his eyes the anger in his voice the frustration and helplessness in body.
For one second my mind would think about my mother's cold words "you choose Kalpi who do you want me or do your want Raghav" I thought about so many things that I didn't even know which part of me should I listen. My mind told to be to think about my mother yet when I do all I felt was pain and anger all those years of being placed second. I felt frustrated, cheated and used but she was mother yes she replaced me yes she always choose Pakhi but she was my mother.
For the next few moments I thought Raghav my heart begged me to understand his pain "kalpi of I lose you today then I will die" he made me feel protected when am with him I feel safe I feel cared for memories between us began to play with in my when he first confessed me when he first kissed me and how those moments that I felt was important yes important he made me feel was I was worth something which my own mother failed to do.
I never wanted this I wanted my mother to understand how Raghav made me feel, how my heart would beat faster when he would be around I wanted her to understand raghav gave me something which never did importance. I thought about so many things if I loose raghav no then what would happen I needed Raghav just like she needs dad.
I wanted to cry, to scream , to yell and I wanted her understand what was my fault in this. I wanted my mother and Raghav was this too much to ask. My heart and my mind is in a consistent battle my heart begs to choose Raghav yet my brain tells me to think my mother.
Arjun
Cricket
