This is an Os Presenting a page from Maanvi's Diary.I am dedicating this to Nina ji.
A PAGE FROM MAANVI"S DIARY
Turning few empty pages I reached a particular page. Empty days empty pages I said to myself.
Last Few days or even months were so empty that the diary dints find a place in my life. Something in me said to me to write it was today. Still my hands are shivering while holding the pen, it pains a lot to write these days. The physical strength in me has been slowly eaten away by the medicines. Every time the nausea starts and I rush to the bathroom I pray not as painful as before, but still I am left with loads of tears there. My legs hard find to place my feet on the floor, I take a deep breathe and hold tightly to near by support to stand firmly. The unusual body pains I get make me grow even stronger mentally though I grow physically. Hours before I witnessed blood clots on my tissue I still ask the same question to my self has cancer chosen me to be the victim to its strength or my strength? I answer to myself Maanvi is stronger than the cancer. Every time I am rushed to the hospital I am unable to witness things running around me. I feel the time is set to run so fast that things around me take a sudden change. The more physical pain is killing me, the more emotional pain is killing me. Di who is always with me taking care of me as my savior and protector has been mom and dad I always needed. She has always there to wipe way my tears. But I feel guilty when I am not around her to wipe her tears caused by my health. I just want run near her and say I fine di, I am very fine, We will always be together as we always wished. And Viraat Pour soul he is always around me when ever I need an emotional support and strength. Some time I sit there completely drained out and empty Viraat brings back the hope I am always looking out, he spends sleepless nights taking care of me. I want to Promise him to bring back the peace in him and make him sure I am always there when ever he needs me just as he is there. Jiju has always been best support to di and Viraat when ever they are worried about me. He has always extended his best support we three need at time. Hope things around me get better. ..(The words after this look broken as if written with high shivering) Still I smile looking at the sun and moon witnessing the dangerous challenge of my life. With this I am putting my pen down and wish to hold the pen with same strength as before.
(The end of the page was wetted by her tears)
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