How life goes on... (SS) - Page 4

loved it...it actully compensated for the lack of virika track in the serial...update soon

Thank you all for liking my SS.
Julie you used my full name, am I in trouble?
Again guys this part is somewhat long, to make it easier to read all dialogue is in blue. Not sure if that helps.Fair warning- some of my dialogues are a tad long- blame One Tree Hill and Grey's for that. Watching them recently, had meant my speeches tend to go on. I have some grammatical errors in this part, they small but they bug me, I can't change them presently, but I will come back and edit them. So please excuse them, as they were an oversight. ENJOY:D

Part 4

Back in Jeevika and Viren's room, once coming to the conclusion of possibility of taking Maanvi out for a day may not be a bad idea. Discussion later turned to their marriage. Viren had spoken with such honesty earlier in the day that a discussion was imperative. Jeevika could no longer simply ignore her feelings and nor did she have the luxury of distance anymore.

Jeevika and Viren stood by the foot of the bed, she peered down, trying not to meet Viren's eyes. His words flooded back to her. He wanted to accept his faults and make amends. However, was it that simple? Could she just go back into her wedded life, with the same commitment she once had.

"Virenji, Maanvi is the most important person in my life and that will not change. The choices you once made, can be changed, they don't have to define you, if that is what you like. However, you have to understand, that my first priority is my sister, and I can't and won't change that for anyone. I don't believe there is good or bad. There is only good, and what is good for you. That might be bad for someone else, but that is left to your perspective. This may seem to be the wrong in the eyes of others, but not for me. It is not only my duty, but my instinct.

Is that something can you can deal with? A wife who's first priority is not her husband and the running's of our household. I'm not saying that I will not do those things, or that they are not important, but they do not take precedence over Maanvi, in my mind."

Viren and Jeevika had come a long way from the beginning of their marriage. Both had changed over time, but that is to be expected. Visions of their future seem a distant memory, as neither of them could look past the day at hand.

Finally they spoke with honesty, and had laid all their cards out, it was now it was up to them. How would they move forward? Could they do it together or will circumstances force them apart. On one side, you have Jeevika and strong women who will fight the world for her sister. Was she able to let her shield down and allow her husband in? Or would allowing him in break her further? All Viren wanted, at this moment was to be her saviour, it is the heroes instinct. Could she let him be that person? She did not need rescuing, so why was he adamant of being there? Or could he simply support her silently in the background?

Viren sat on the bed and placed his hand on his head. With so many questions in their marriage, they unfortunately did not have the answers. They knew where they stood, but were unable to decide. With no response, Jeevika looked down at Viren and saw his helplessness and frustration. She knew the situation was too large for both of them to handle. She quietly stepped out of the room, leaving Viren clenching his fists and surrendering to himself, he was left wondering what he could do.

Viren had come to Rishikesh for many reasons, but his main reason was to attempt to be there for his wife. However, he was finding that it was more difficult than he ever expected. Saying that he would be there was simple, but following through on his words was something different entirely. Leaving his frustration behind, Viren decided to take a walk and try to clear his head, he ended up by Maanvi's room. Where is she was still asleep on her bed and with Jeevika by her side. He stood by the edge of the doorway, and watched as Jeevika gazed at Maanvi and ran her fingers across her face. It may have looked as if Jeevika was not doing anything, but he knew that just by being there, she did the only thing she could. As he looked on, he felt a hand, he glanced over his shoulder, he saw his brother behind him, with tea in his hand. Virat gave the nod, the nod that everything would be alright, before he entered in the room. Virat passed the cup of tea to his Bhabhi, and asked her to take a break and that he would sit with Maanvi. Jeevika told him that she was perfectly all right and she would stay.

Viren watched her as she sorted out the room, Maanvi's clothes, her medicines, and how the room was filled of memories of the past and present. He wanted to enter the same way his brother just did,
but couldn't bring himself to do so. As he looked down in shame and was about to leave, when Jeevika caught a glimpse of him. She was taking out blankets from the cupboard and saw him standing by the doorframe. She placed two blankets on the bed and held one in her hand. Slowly she walked to the door to where Viren was standing, in her hand was one blanket; she peered down at it
and put one arm out, and offered it to Viren. He had a hint of a smile and took the blanket from Jeevika's hand.

Once he had taken the blanket from her, she turned backed and sorted out Maanvi's medicines. He brushed his fingers though his hair and stayed standing there for a few moments, after he left leaving Jeevika and Maanvi in their room.

Viren slowly wondered back to his room. Thinking about what his life had become. As he laid on the bed, he wondered when did life become so complicated. Why wasn't life as simple as it once was? When knowing what to do was easy and following through was simple. Why did life have to be so complicated? Suddenly he heard a knock on the door; he quickly turned and saw Virat standing by the door. Disappointed, Viren welcomed him in.

"Bhai?" Virat spoke with a serious tone.

"Look Virat, I'm not really in the mood for anything right now, I justwant to be alone. Collect my thoughts- as that's all I can do." Spoken with so much pain and anger.

"Bhai, I know you and Bhabhi have your issues and I don't want to get in the middle of that. But I do want to say a few things - that's only if you're willing to listen?"

Viren was not stubborn, but when it came to his marriage he preferred it if they could sort out their own problems, without taking advice from others. However, by this point he was exasperated and gave Virat free reins.

"Bhai, we all know you love Bhabhi, no one is questioning that. But you need to see the bigger picture. She's sick, I mean really sick and I don't know how Bhabhi will handle it. She strong don't get me wrong and will battle through it, but she has shut herself down from everyone. She's crumbling and there no-one there"

"Virat, don't you think I know this! I'm trying I really am, but it's not enough, it just never enough. What am I suppose to do. Make her talk to me? Force her in a room and coerce it out of her. I try to be there, she doesn't let me, and God forbid she'd let me all the way in.

I can sit here with my hands on my head, but that doesn't help either. There is no magic solution to this, she is dealing with it in her own way, and I have no idea what to do. I haven't a clue. Do you how that makes me feel? I sit here helpless, as I don't know what to do. If someone has the answers, I'd wish they give it me, because apart from yelling my frustration out..."With all his pent up anger, he punches the mattress, he had enough anger inside him to punch the wall, but he knew he shouldn't do that.

"She says she wants to be there for Maanvi and do all, fine, there nothing wrong with that. I've never stopped her. But in her attempt to do all, she shut me out. She shut me out, not the other way around.I want to be there, I do, but it is different for you and it's different for me. You love the girl. And I love her too, but I'm secondary and even if I try I will always be secondary. I would love to care for Maanvi in the way you and Jeevika are, but when I do it looked upon as my obligation to my wife and somehow resentment kicks in."

He pats Virat on the shoulder and walks behind him.

"Look Virat, I know you're just trying to help, but this is more complicated than anything I've ever known. We are trying and I know it hard and it's going to get harder, I know what I want to do, I just can't do it. There is something stopping me, from being all in. I can support you, I can support Maanvi but for some reason I can't support my wife.

She laid the cards out earlier today basically told me everything- well almost. Honestly, I don't mind playing second fiddle, because I know the importance of Maanvi. I'm here to give her support, to be someone she can lean on. But for that to happen, she had to want it. She got her guards on and is protecting herself trying to internalise everything. So where does that leave me? I'm not the jerk who won't support his wife, I'm the guy who can't support his wife even if he tries."Viren sighed with hope.

Virat wanted to help his brother, he wanted to help see another side of it, but he and his Bhabhi had so many issues that fixing one would not resolve another. Life had changed for all four of them and it was harder than they that ever imagined. Who knew life could have so many obstacles? Who would have thought that you could feel that helpless? Minutes turn into hours, hours into days and days into weeks, where nothing is resolved and moments, important moments lost without even a second chance.

Coming up-... haven't decided yet

PJ- hahahaha nahiii yaar<3 I really liked part 3, which resulted in me using your full name ROFL

Anyways coming to your story :

"Is that something can you can deal with? A wife who's first priority is not her husband and the running's of our household… they do not take precedence over Maanvi, in my mind." Now this is the kind of conversation I want to hear Jeevika having with Viren… these are the kinda sentences I want to hear her say

I want to see J and V's relationship progress in a similar manner to that of your story, we started seeing glimpses of that occurring in the show, but unfortunately it was not portrayed intelligently; whereas in your story it does seem to be portrayed in a sensible manner:D

Loved this

"I'm secondary and even if I try I will always be secondary. I would love to care for Maanvi in the way you and Jeevika are, but when I do it looked upon as my obligation to my wife and somehow resentment kicks in." This is exactly how Viren feels in the show, just wished the writers would incorporate it in a similar manner as your story!

I really liked the conversation between Virat and Viren aswell, it felt real to an extent, the manner in which you have written their feelings, doesn't seem fictional, if you know what I am saying LOL…The fact that Viren didnt want people interfering in his marital issues, him wanting to sort it out himself... loved it all :D

Waise maybe in your next part, you could have Viren and Maanvi having a convo- where M'S illness takes a turn for the worst!.. but then again am a not as much of a creative thinker nor writer, used to hate English literature haha :P