I want to be positive ff..finale.. Part 8 and just a lil after thought - Page 3

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Part 7

Suman was still recovering from the kiss Shravan had placed on her hands...she knew it was just a gesture of thanks but still it affected her beyond any explanation...and she was annoyed with her own self...why the hell this guy affected her so much.. She is "supposed" to hate him..she reminded herself...

Apart from the reasons world knew of she avoiding Shravan..Suman knew in her heartsof heart that if she gave him a chance to explain himself she might be vulnerable again..she may not b able to hate him or at least put up a show of hating as she had maintained..she may fall in love..she shut herself even at the thought of the word and shook her head madly..and said nooo...

like last time Shravan was guarding himself with the same defence.."main phir se tootna nahi chahata"...sumo found herself sailing in the same boat..she didn't want to b broken again...and that's why she built this castle around her...

The destiny had actually played an ironical game with both of them..as Shravan was trying hard to be like Sumo.. positive ..open to love wanting to believe and Sumo was becoming almost like Shravan(older version) who was scared to love and open up and scared of being betrayal and not ready to be broken again!!

Suman thought to herself she has to continue guarding herself and not let Shravan break in again...she has to avoid this conversation with him...though she had said yes to giving him 10.mins she was articulating excuses to avoid it...

Her thoughts were interrupted by Mamiji ..arey khana lagao Suman..jaldi karo...

Suman served food to everyone and realized Ramnath had left giving excuse of some urgent case in the court.. Everyone relished the food and she saw beaming face of Shravan who hadn't stopped smiling since the time she had agreed to talk to him..he had food to his hearts content and complimented Sumo on everything even on lauki which was his most hated vegetable...She knew it wud break his heart if she avoided him again but she had to do it..this time for herself ..she had always put Shravan first..all her life...but not this time she had to guard herself from hurt from love..and again she shook her head again wildly at the thought of that emotion..and Shravan looked at her and said..kya hua balo mein makhi ghus gayi kya..she said nahi dimag mein keeda hai...and paused and then said to herself

pyar ka jisse nikalna hai...

Shravan said...kaha hai keeda main nikal doon...she looked at him not knowing what to say as he definitely cudnt help this time!! She turned around saying mera phone baj raha hai..and left trying to hide the emotions she was not ready to acknowledge.

When everybody left Shravan waited patiently in the portico to let Sumo finish her chores..

Suman came out and Shravan said ab baat kare..and she said lowering her eyes unable to lie..woh PCT mein kuch problem hai mujhe jaldi pahuchna hai..Shravan was surprised the way Suman s eyes were wandering v and not she was not looking into him...he said really??

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Final Part 8...( the new beginning)

maine tumhe galatSamjha kyonki mujhe main insaan ki parakh karne mein chook gaya..maine apne papa par aankh band karke vishwas kiya isliye jab maa mujhe chod ke gayi tabhi mujhe wohi dekha jo mujhe dikhaya gaya aur tumhare saath bhi wohi kiya..he paused and cupped her face in his hand and moved closer..he could see tears in her eyes despite the dripping water..he continued par ab aur nahin..meri guilt ki maine tumhare saath kitna galat kiya mujhe chain se sone nahin deti..main bilkul bhi justify nahin karunga jo maine kiya..bus itna hi kahunga ki shayad yeh har bache ka haq hain ki apne maa baap pe blind faith rakhe..par mujhe yeh haq nahin hai jab tak maine ye jaana maine tumhe bhi kho diya tha..hurt and tears evident in his eyes...Suman almost felt the dagger in her heart seeing him like that...Suman said par Shravan galti sirf Ramnath uncle ki nahin thi tumne jo PCT ke saath jo kiya phir woh land papers to pull me down.Shravan moved even closer and said woh sab Papa ne humare beech misunderstanding create karne ke liye kiya tha..aur maine apni ego mein uss situation ko aur bura bana diya..bigad diya.mere paas koi proof nahin hai apni baat saabit karne ka aur tumhe poora haq hain ki tum meri baaton par vishwaas na karo ..tears of regret remorse started flowing down his eyes...he let them flow not shying away to show his tears to the person he loved the most. And to the one he had wronged the most...he put his head in her lap and almost wept like a child...she cupped his face and made him look directly into her eyes ..she said...Pata hai Shravan kissi par bhi vishwas karna mushkil baat hai..aur ek baar vishwaas toot jaye dobara karna tho aur bhi mishkil hai..aur sach batau tho maine bhi yehi socha tha...ki ab tumpe kabhi trust nahi karungi...par she paused moving closer their face just a few mm away...main tumhara vishwas karungi kyonki main karna chahati hoon..sirf tumhare liye nahin par apne liye bhi..insaan ki sachai sirf kisi testimony ya kagaz se prove nahin hoti..uski akhen uska sach batati hai...aur tumhari akhein ne mujhe tumhara sach bata diya hai..mujhe proof ki zaroorat nahin aur most importantly main bhi inn negative thoughts negative emotions of hatred se bahar nikalna chahati join...I want to be positive..about u about me..main...she wanted to say something but Shravan pulled her against him and locked her into a tight embrace ...she couldn't continue to say anything she could hear his heart beating hard.like .almost ready to pace out...he kissed top her head and then bent down to kissed her forehead. Suman was abt to say something but he closed her mouth with his hand and shook his head...and said ab main bolunga ..and took a deep breath and said "I love u Sumo..love u more than anything I have ever loved or desired...loved u since the time I dint know what love was or what it meant...for me u r love personified...I have loved u since our childhood and he took out the letter he kept folded in the plastic to save from rain...yeh maine...she cut him and completed the sentence for him "12th std mein likha tha Shravan looked visibly shocked...tumhe kaise pata...She said sumo ki akhon se kuch nahin chupta...and she gave him that iconic laugh he had been wanting to see for a very long time. She came back to being serious and said..maine use din tumhari packing karate hue dekha tha..he said oh tho tabhi woh cross questioning sofa par ho rahi thi...and it struck him and maine tumhe bola ki I have moved on..par Sumo honestly I could never move on aur way from u...u were with me everyday every moment even when I was in London..u were there in my thoughts in my heart in my poetry...all over me..and the connotation of his words made her blush...he could see her blushing and teased Sumo aur blush kuch suit nahin karta...she looked back at him and said..main yeh tho janti thi ki tum mujse pyar karte ho. Par itna..iss intensity se yeh nahin janti thi..he placed a kiss on her cheeks and then became a lil stiff..she cud feel his stiffness and knew why...he hadn't yet got her answer...she placed a kiss on his cheeks and smiled..Shravan smiled back and said..Sumo kya tum bhi..mujhse...he trailed..she completed it for him.."pyar karti ho?..Mr. Shravan Malhotra aapne mujhe I love u bola kiss kiya aur maine aapko waapis kiss kiya kya aur thappad nahi mara...yeh bahut nahin aapko yeh samjahane ke liye ki mai bhi aapse pyar karti hoon Mr malhotra..and if words r so imp then I love u Mr. Malhotra..I love u with my life with..she paused ... looking directly into his eyes...before she could realise she felt his lips on hers initially gently then blazing...almost crushing her tight as though he was hanging on to her for his life...he had got his Sumo back...the one who inspired him who spoke poured her heart mind to him...and he had learnt to pour out his heart to her..and wanted to keep this learning lifelong...the thought made him deepen the kiss and he passionately moved his lips on hers making her gasp for breadth ...they almost had to break the kiss to breath..Shravan looked at Sumo and kissed her eyes her nose her forehead...the closeness sent shivers thru her spine she shivered..not bcos of cold but becoz of the affect he was having on her..Shravan realised she was shivering and said with naughtines in his voice.. "mere hote hue bhi u r feeling cold and she knew exactly what he was saying...she muttered under her breath I am not shivering bcoz of cold but bcoz of ur ...she left it at that..he knew what she was saying..he picked her up in his arms and nudged the door open with his elbow...he was naughtiness personified right now...he was looking into her eyes and bumped against the furniture making a noise and she said kya kar rahe ho sab jag jayege...he said jag jane do...I wont have to wait till morning to tell nanu and mamaji to prepare for 2 weddings instead of one. She looked at him...not knowing what to say...and exclaimed shaadi???!!...in disbelief

Haan Suman ab main tumse aur door nahin reh sakta nah mentalyy na emotionally na hi physically she cud see the desire burning in his eyes...he contd..I want to wake up next to u every Morning and want to see u when I come back from work and want to have u around me every moment of my life...share every moment good or bad or worse with u...we have wasted too much time already...she could see the determination which with he proposed her..he could see tears of happiness in her eyes...just to break the seriousness he had created he said "haan agar tum aise hi mere saath move in karne no tayyar ho tho phir shaadi ka Kharcha bach jayega...he chuckled...and gave a naughty laugh...she widened her eyes in disbelief and hit him hard..utaro mujhe neeche she said...he said nahin..and closed the distance again bw them and kissing her this time with a promise to never let her go..She returned it back with equal passion...

Nanu heard them fighting over either to make ginger or cardimom tea to ward away the rain affect...nanu cud hear the tinkle in their voices while they fought like Shravan and suman of childhood..and he told himself I can sleep peacefully now my Suman is where she belongs..

Mil gaye the jo bane hai ek doosre vaaste..

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