trying to be good-6/2/14

iam posting after a break i guess!

todays epi was great- a respite from all the 70 style action sequences. it finally concentrated on the other inner feelings churning in the three characters's mind and heart , now that they have a small respite from our gabbar( kala)/ mogambo(rp) combo wala villain and have been beautifully portrayed by all three

seeing todays episode i have given this post the title that was my first thought.

tara- well madam you have impressed one and all ⭐️👏

whether its her bhai of bhopal moments where she bashes up goons along side patidev or using god given brains in the face of death hamari tara was exceptional.

and in yesterdays epi itself tara had decided upon the future course. now some might say that we have not seen that much chemistry between mj and radha toh why is tara worried? why is she sad? why should she be jealous?

now i have never been in the kinda romantic love that people portray and speak of but from what i understand all of taras emotions are justified just for one reason- tara is a good person.

as a person tara has a huuuge heart. it is this heart and the love in it that decides taras actions.

earlier it was her love for her family that decided her marriage to mj.

later it was the compassion in her that saw past the facade presented her with and could make her see and try to know the person he is in reality.

when she realised she couldnt leave him no more, not when she knows he is innocent, it was love. tara has been in love with mj for some time by then( from the time he saved her in the car accident) but it was only after listening to raghu kaka that she could say it to herself.

and in all the time tara went with and believed her heart and what she has seen. she gave her love to him quite unconditionally, never for once doubting that they would have a happy ever after.

but since tara came to know of mj and radhas pakki dosti, doubt has entered her heart.

here is the guy her mind said, for whom she walks through fire( sets fire to herself too😉) and he only grudgingly listens. he rarely smiles with her, always looks like he has the whole worlds burden on his shoulders( which he does ) and behaves as if its by barest of patience that he is listening to her. he is so closed off infront of her that she has to bully, push and shove him to get anything done( dont bash me guys , i think mj has so far been like this only, we were treated to an over dose of patidev - patidev were we not?) how is she to know how much he loves her? every girl even a tomboyish one like tara needs the words!

and yet minutes after he finds bff dearest, mj is smiling, his relief apparent and talking to her the way he never did with tara. for the first time tara has seen a glimpse of the guy he was and would have been but for the incident that wrecked his life altogether.

taras or in any girls mind, the first emotion for such behaviour is a jealous impulse. tara has so far believed mj as hers and now even if mj doesnt think so, radhas affection for him is teetering on the thin border of friend ship and love. tara, herself a girl in love has seen right through radhas love. and mjs apparent attention for radha even platonically will sting.

but our tara controls herself. she asks herself to be reasonable, not make a mountain out of mole hill and yet at every given opportunity she is given a glimpse of the closeness mj and radha shared. tara is too good to be openly jealous and the situation is far more serious than jealousy which tara understands. hence her inner turmoil continues and converts in to sadness, at her own plight for here she was who has given, not a drop but an ocean of love and yet the words of acknowledgement dont come. but how easily mj speaks to radha on how much he missed her, mourned her etc etc. at this point doubt and jealousy give way to sadness. here is where being a good person, tara decided her feelings on the situation dont matter, just like they did nt at her marriage,mj and radha have been through hell and back and in our good samaritans mind that includes happy ever after for them not her. not many people have that kind of strength.

hence even though its killing her, she has decided to take the high road so to speak.

mj- now here is one confused banda! but forgiven after all love is known to make people muddle headed.

mjs love for tara so eloquently and poetically monologued is without words when tara is infront of him!😆 he shows it in subtle ways but taraji is not a subtle girl by nature. he should know that by now!😆

and as far as mjs closeness with radha is concerned, i see that there is no romantic inclination from mjs side ever for radha and i am glad for that.

then why the over dose of bachpan ke saathi?

in my pov- as per creative teams outlook, radha is a character thats being developed as the story progresses. and thats possible only with a slight elaboration of mj-radha equation at every possible opportunity.

2) as character wise, radha is a girl who has beeen through much. some thing thats not easy to come out of. so as her bff and the person who knows her most after her baba, its mjs responsibility to not let her despair , to fight back. ab radha tara ki jitni strong nahi hain. all in all she comes across as an innocent fragile person and mj is rightly worried for her. and what better way than to reminisce about old ways so that she remembers there is good in the world- there are people like her meer who will be with her always.😊

hence if mj lays a bit of more emphasis on radha than tara thats bcoz radha needs him even though he needs tara. hence his own life and everything in it including tara takes a backseat.

tactless , yes, but once again its just mj being the good person he is. now that bff is good enough to play love guru may be he will woo wifey dear😉

but i have my doubts on that part after seeing precap. you see there may be 3 paths here

1)mj might give wifey a piece of mind and tell her radha is a friend not lover/wife. those labels he has already given to tara

2) he might think after all tara doesnt love him or is fed up of him(proving he is without brains in front of her) and decide to leave her be as she wished

3) he might actually understand taras insecurity with radhas help and set about wooing wifey dear

now which one will come up is anyones guess so lets wait and watch.

btw mj! what exactly were you talking of when you were telling tara that they should not let go of the time they have together???? kya pak raha hai dimag mein?

radha- and finally radhaji.

my judgement is still pending on her.

the shock and hurt in radhas eyes tells that she has loved mj very much but its always been onesided. it just shows that sometimes hiding a feeling causes more pain than expressing it.

radha has been through a harrowing experience and has just come out to see her world changed. here i blame raghu kaka( my he rip) but it was tactless on his part to not let radha know of mjs marriage. radha ko mj se chupana samajh mein aata hai, mj ke baare mein radha se chupana samajh mein nahin aata. but then may be he had no idea either like mj that radha loved him or may be he did and wanted to spare her but still, he shouldnt have alienated her from everyone like that.

and here radhas mindset is also quite clear though her future decisions are not. radha is a lovely person by heart just like mj and tara, which is proved by her attempt to hide her tears.

her compassion to tara showed that she is a good person and doesnt begrudge anyone for her situation.

her eyes had seen what tara has failed to only bcoz she knows him better. that for first time her mj is in love. and she is trying to accept it.

right now radha is feeling much too greatful to tara to hold anything against her

but in future, how will she deal with the situation that is yet to be seen.

for now radha just like mj and tara is trying to be good.

p.s.- so radha was neither raped nor murdered just used as a ploy by rp . but to get rid of whom?adi/mj/ and why?

the plot has taken an interesting and welcome turn. wish luck for our three musketeers , everyone!

pps- phir se zyaada likh diya yaar! hope nobody minds😳😊😊

You described both Tara and MJ very well!!!!!😊 😊 😊 👏 👏 👏

Tara is not wrong to think the way she is thinking!!!!!

Tara's love is unconditional and MJ really needs to tell her and show her that he loves her and only her!!!!!😊 😊 😊 😳 😳 😳 😳 😳