@mmz mahi, y'day i was watching dat arjun break down seen...i hav watched it many times...
after seeing ur comment...again it came back...i was thinking wether to share it or not...
after nandhu's truth z revealed, its likely dat arjun left from there...n so nandhu followed him to d house...definitely he came to home only...its his confined area wer he can be himself...atleast...
so wat i thought z, after telling sam abt her decision, radhika also gone home only...after nandhu leaving house telling few things...dats fine...
wat i totally feel z radhika could hav gone looking for arjun first r8...wether he z alri8 or not...
instead of changing her cloths n ready to leave...
i think there m8 b some conversation btween ardhika, then she left him there to change n came back vth her trolly to leave...
i think dat conversation z totally abt nandhu...
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its just a thought of mine as usual...
after entering d home...after nandhu leaves...d first thing radhika wanted z to see arjun r8...
so she goes to their room...she seems him sit there quietly on d bed...keeping his head in his hands...
radhika knows its d situation which changed his life upside down...
he m8 hav felt his total life z a lie now...she felt bad for him...she knows he needed time to take d truth n setlle vth it...
she clearly knows more than agnry at nandhu, he flet betrayed n hurt...he z totally wounded person now...
she remembered nandhu's words in d party, a normal person who z not invloved also could hav felt sad...so if its arjun, who gav n lived his life for his sister...n left his wishes n dreams just for her...dat words could hav felt n caused unbearable pain to him...
but still she knows one things...in future he m8 b happy sovling all his problems, but he cant b totally n truly happy...wen part of his heart feels d need for dat one person...who z his only family wen no one z there for him...who he treated as a mother figure eventhough he called her di...he needed her in his life...she z part of his life...
so she wanted to set things r8 between d brother n sister...bcz she knows nandini m8 hav been used her brother...wat she said z truly not acceptable...but in all vth d ugly things...she has to agree vth one things...dats
"nandhu loves his brother arjun..."..
so she just sat next to arjun, n put her hand on his shoulder...he flet her presence long back...he wanted n waiting for this person r8 d moment he heard those words form his di ...his nandhu...who thought her as his mother figure, his guide, his only family...he can do anything for her...not bcz she took care of him...bcz he cant see her tears...he still remembers d way she fell down after her suicide attempt...he dnt want to lose her...he wanted see her smile...for dat anything...if it means giving up his wishes n dresms n love...let it b...
but all he got was betrayal...in her words ...he has seen only anger for radhika...n dat tone she took wen she said i vl do anything bcz i am indebted to her...it was killing him...dat she thought abt him like dat...
deep down he know its not totally true...
dats wen he felt radhika's hands on him...he wanted just her...n nothing else...so just he turned n hugged her tight...
//i can only think dat at d moment...bcz if u look at d face...words r needed...but he cant express at d moment...i feel like dat...//
radhika also knows, he z in his most vulnerable moment now...who always masks his emotions n shows d rough side n bold side of his face always, now not able to face her...shows wat he m8 b gng through...
she just hugged him let him b like dat fro a while, just sotting him vth her gentle carasing of his hair some times n sometimes his back...its her way of taking his pain...no word can make him feels better...words not needed...
after some time she says, "sir, i know u r hurt badly, i just wanted to show u d intensions behind nandhu's work...who u blindly trust...
its not ur fault, bcz she did few things behind ur back...i know u r hurt vth her words , not angry...
u both are in this revenge for a long time...u both r in tune vth it...wen u said just taking of BS n hurting samrat...nandhu wanted to see samrat sir hurt...n to know how it feels to b betrayed...
wen he let loose her...she just hugged him n said, i got to know few things from rana kaka, rememebr dat day u wer palyoing house of cards...he said few things abt u n andhu...i was intrigued after d store room failure...one day i met rana kaka n spoke to him...he wanted both u happy...so he said d story...how u r not totally orphan...how u lost ur parents...especially ur mom...how nandhu took care of u...how she attempted suiciide by cutting her wrist vth knife, how u cried, n how u guys left to london...if i hav known d things b4...i teird my best stop this...but i came to knw on d divorce paper day discussion day only...
arjun tried to move...she just hugged him, he hugged her...n she continued...
//she cant see him in d eyes...wen she says this...she cant see his tears//
wen u ented BS, n wooed sam...everything z gng fine according to ur plan...she was happy sir...she z gng to see samrat's sir downfall...
wen i entered n become z pathar in ur way, ur attension z totally turned from sam to removing radhika...dat delayed ur plans...
after lonavala, even though u hav dat rough edge...u become more soft...u let ur gaurd down sir..wether u agree or not...
nadhu didnt like it...wen u started caring for me...n delaying things...nandhu was angry at me...not on u or sam...
she doesnt like any other person taking importance in ur life...
vth our marriage she felt left out in d revenge sir...its not ur fault...
u nevr expected me to go to dat length...for sam...
i nevr expected u take dat step either...i wanted u tell d truth to sam...nothing else...
wen d divorce paper topic came...u asked me wether its just for sam did i marry u...
i thought a while, wen i come to d step of marriage for d friend i only known for 2 months...
how can u step back from d revenge u r trying to take from ur childhood...n all these years leaving everything for dat revenge...i lost it sir...d only way left z to show nandhu's side...
nandhu z more angry at me, bcz after our marrige i was d one challenged her dat i vl change u for good...she has seen u moving away from her n revenge...
dats y she tried emotional black mailing...some times her anger n emotions are in extreme level dat she dnt even know wat she says n does...
dats y she felt this revenge z only now hers, n u r dng it not whole heartedly...but she knows u can do anything for her...wen u see her tears...
today also, she was totally angry at me...not at u...
dats y those harsh words...she always says thigs to make me back off... not bcz she see u like dat...
after ur chnage only, she planned thinsg on her own, she didnt tell u... wen she said d revenge n every plan to u...y did she hide few things from u...
bcz those works she didnt like to do...but dats d only way she thoguht helpful in removing hurdles in her way...n she knows u dnt like dat...u m8 dislike her for dat...
he cant see dat from u...if she z ur only family...u r her only family too..
she did mistake n hurt u...
u also hurt sam na...by acting dat u love her...
to err z human sir...just forgive her ...give her a chance to mend this relationship...bcz i know u cant b happy vthout her in ur life...she z like mother to u...
i know u needed time...take time but mend things vth her sir...
arjun came out of her hug...n asked "did u know she z d one who z responsible for dat fire accident in ur shop"...
radhika just nods her head yes...
arjun asks still u r asking me to mend my relationship vth her...
she did d accident, but u saves us...u wer there na sir...
she z hurt too sir...her only family moving away from her...just give her a chance...
i know u vl set things r8 vth her...as u set thinsg r8 vth sam...now u can give her ur true love...
saying this she moves away from him...getting up she goes from d room...
arjun just stares d way she z gone...he knows wat she said z true...he needed time...
he just hoped his wife vl b there vth him in dat needed time...
apart from nandhu, he z more worried abt radhika...now wen evrything came to d front of his eyes...he z worried abt wat she z gng to do...dat worried him hell...
he was in his thoughts, wen radhika came changed her dress into long skirt n top, a ablue scarf...for d first time he was looking in this tyep of dressing...she was d best thing happend to him in his entire life...
she just came n sat down next to him...n asked him " sir eat this", she showed him a plate vth rotis n dhal...
arjun said "i am not hungry radhika"
radhika says "sir app aaj poore din kuch nahi khaye hai..thoda khalijiye na..."
she just takes a piece of roti...n says again"sir app kal bhi kuch nahi khaya, just drink a glaa of milk last n8...n nothing else from dat time..."...
arjun knows his wife observed each n evry move of him...to speak vth after their marrigae he ate more food...more than mala, radhika made many things n tried many ways to know wat he likes to eat...daily she prepares varieties in brek fast...she brings lun ch for him...makes him eat dat in directly...he knows dat...but he enjoyed his food...she always took care of his all small small needs also...dat too vthout him saying or asking...
"sir plz ..eat a little bit sir"...she was very much worried abt him...he knows even d bukkad she z, didnt eat anything y'day n today..she was totally worried...dat bubbly gal was gone long back...just focused gal z there in her place...
"sir aapke liye nahi tho sahi, mere liye...plz sir..."...her voice almost like crying...he knows she z stopping her tears...just for him...
she brought dat upto his lips, he took d piece of roti...tried to swallow...
after dat byte he said "radhika i am not able to swallow...plz..."
his tears wer rolling down...this z wat she cant see of him...she avoided all this while...now has seen dat...his most vulenrable form...
she was sure, nobody has seen this arjun...ever...she parayed to god dat...he nevr has to face this type of situation ever in his life...
she was crying too...she cant take any more of it...or him...its already killing him...he cant see her crying...so he left d room...n gone n sat in d living room , his back to d wall...just staring somever...mind somewer else...
radhika who cant able to take...n knowing wat she z gng to vl cause more pain...left d room vth tears...
after a while she came out dragging her trolly...
dats wat we hav seen...
// i really dnt knw wat i hav written...i wanted to write wat ardhika felt...but it gone soem wer else it seems...dnt knw...my only thinking z, ardhika had a conversation b4 dat trolly scene/...dats it.to use i honestly know d dialogs r repetetive...but d thing z truly i dnt know wer it n wer not...n trul;y dnt knw wether its r8 or not also .just wrote in d flow.../
Edited by lovv - 9 years ago
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