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I love him. I love him so much. But I know that he doesn't love me. He loves someone else. And seeing them together, I feel like my heart getting pierced into pieces. But when I see that beautiful smile on his face accompanied with those cute dimples, I forget the pain and gain the strength to hold myself and be happy in his happiness. I don't know how long I will be able to bear it,so I'll need to leave, go far away from his life. I know that no matter what, he will always capture my heart but neither I want to see him sad nor I can afford to see him with someone else. I don't have that strength. So I'll leave. Wherever I go, I'll always love him and will be happy knowing that he is happy. And that will be enough for me to live the rest of my life. I guess there won't be any problem cause I can always feel him by my side. I know it's just my imagination, not really him. But still that IMAGINARY ARJUN is all I am left with. At least if I leave, I won't need to go through the pain of seeing him with his girlfriend anymore. So I am leaving tonight, cause it will be best for everyone. So he will be able to live his life without any obstacles. That's right, I am a great obstacle in the path of his future life. So today this whole thing will end forever.
I am Radhika Mishra.An ordinary girl and profession;I work in a prestigious company and the post is also a reputable one. My life was very normal and boring until I met him. Actually it wasn't a normal meeting. It was an accident but I am grateful as this incident paved the way for me to find the true love of my life and make me fall in love which I always thought to happen only in fairytales. But it happened to me for real and when I fell in love, I realised that the feeling of being in love is truly wonderful.
I walked down the street near my home and I was really tired after the day's work. I had just
reached my apartment building when suddenly I heard a weird sound. At first I thought of ignoring it but then I couldn't stop myself from checking. As I proceeded, it sounded like a person groaning in pain. As I discovered the source of the sound, I stood still to find a man lying on the ground, drunk and wounded a bit.That day changed my life totally. At that moment I didn't know that the man whom I took care of, was actually my boss, the owner and managing director of the company I was soon going to work in.
The day when I first got to know this, I was literally shocked. No need to mention that his condition was the same. He later thanked me and expressed his gratitude which he couldn't do earlier. At first I found him to be really weird and a bit rude too. But with time passing by,I observed him more and found that he was a very kind hearted person indeed. As I worked with him andwe spent more time with each other, unknowingly I fell in love with him. Even knowing that he has a girlfriend and he loves her a lot and even plans to marry her but still I fell for him. I couldn't do anything cause I have no control over my heart; whom it will fall for.
I could understand why his behaviour was rough. He had a complicated family life. His father abandoned him and his mother when he was a little boy. Since then he hated his father and would always say that he didn't have any family as his mother had already left the world and his father lost the proper place in his life.Even if I wasn't a very important person in his life;not even close to it but he considered me a true friend. And I guess,in honour of that friendship, one day he put out his heart in front of me, he told me everything which he had suppressed within himself for so long. I didn't expect that he would share something like this with me. As I was only a friend to him. So I couldn't stop myself from asking him if he had told Bonnie about it. I was so sure that it would be a yes but when the answer came negative, I was shocked but deep inside my heart,I was happy. As he finished his life story, he was sobbing and his face was deeply saddened. I couldn't bear to see him in so much pain and spontaneously I reached out my hand towards him and rubbed his back lightly. In reply of that,he hugged me and I was literally frozen at that moment. I didn't restrict myself and I too hugged him back. Unknowingly we both were lost in that graceful embrace and when I slowly realised and broke the hug, he simply looked at me with teary eyes and then kissed on my cheek. I sat like a statue, not able to believe if It happened in reality or I was dreaming.
I had never liked Bonnie for obvious reasons but only for Arjun, I was happy for them. As I was Arjun's friend,so I also used to talk to her when there were situations that I couldn't avoid her. For Arjun's sake, one day I simply told her to take care of him regarding his family life and to be with him forever. To which she replied "Who the hell are you to tell me what should I do and what I shouldn't? Arjun is my boyfriend, not yours. It's personal ok! So just stay out of it!" I stood there astonished thinking is this the girl whom Arjun loves this much. Surely Bonnie was a nice person but it seemed like she was more interested in her career than Arjun.
Whenever I used to see them together, I felt a deep pain in my heart. Well,after I joined the company and as days passed by, I observed that Arjun had reduced the time he had spent with Bonnie. And I too noticed that we were getting closer to each other and our friendship was getting stronger and that made me happy but still that didn't change the fact that he still loved her. I still remember that one day I had seen them leaving a hotel together and that broke my heart into pieces. I knew that they were in a serious relationship but still I couldn't take it. I don't drink but that day, I don't even know how badly Igot drunk. And when he saw me in that state and asked me what went wrong;out of desperation, I told him the truth that I had started liking him. He remained silent in shock and I didn't have any other option other than leaving that place.
From that day onwards, I avoided him as much as I could. I could see anger on his face whenever my eyes
fell on him but I tried to ignore completely. One day when I was working; he stormed inside my cabin and before I could even react; he grabbed my arm,pulled me up from the chair and pinned me against the wall. As he came closer, my heart started beating faster andI started stammering "A..Arjun..
wh...what's..what's the matter?.." I didn't dare to look into his eyes as if I did I knew that I would break down and melt in his arms. I could feel Arjun giving a sharp look to me as he bluntly replied "Why? Why the hell are you doing this to me? What the hell.." I burst into tears and pushed him away and shouted "Cause I don't want to make things more complicated Arjun. I am sorry. I was drunk, I myself didn't know what I was saying. Please don't take it seriously. I didn't mean it. Trust me. I know that you love Bonnie and I am happy for you two. I want you to be happy, that's all. You are one of my best friends and I wish you all the best for your life." I gave a pause and then not finding further words I said in a low voice "Please excuse me." With that I ran out of my cabin; looking insane as I was crying profusely. That day I decided that I have had enough and I should go away from his life as soon as possible cause when I'm around him;I guess a guilt will always chase him and I didn't want that to happen.
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