Dear All Forumwasio,
I don't know where to start. We've been together 2 years and we've had so many problems along the way. I've mistreated you, spoke to you like you were nothing, acted like you were nothing, ignored you, and still you stayed.
You stayed. Because you believed in something, you stayed.
Whether we were ever "compatible" or not is totally irrelevant. I know we don't have a future...not now. Someday enough will be enough and you will drop me, as you should.
But I want you to know that I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for being so hateful, rude, unintelligent, childish, selfish, passive-aggressive, unfaithful, hopeless, careless, and flat out mean. I'm sorry for not caring when I said What I did, not loving when I said I did, not listening when I said I did. I'm sorry for throwing away the wonderful life you offered. I'm sorry for not speaking up when I should have, not being as assertive as I could have been, not respecting myself enough to know that my self-loathing was being spilled over onto you.
I don't know what the source of these problems is,
I love you the only way I know how to love a person, which doesn't amount to much in the eyes of someone who loves as much as you do. I'm so sorry. Don't think about forgiveness...just know that I wish you nothing more than peace.
I guess I was under to much stress and/or not in my right mind. I hope you can find in your heart to give me another chance as I work on changing myself.
I didn't understand how much I was hurting you. Forgive me. You were the most magical, spiritual experience of my lifetime.
I'm so sorry for the way that I spoke to you. I wish I was as gentle and forgiving as you are. I promise I will be a more understanding compassionate friend. You have so much insight and love and I just squash you with my almighty ideas. I should not do that. I acted like a know it all... I'm so ignorant sometimes.
Please just know how much I love you as my special friend and how sorry I am.
Im so sorry for hurting you... these past days have been hell without you by my side. Im so angry at myself for destroying something that was so amazing and so unique.. we were so happy together and i miss that. You are such a great people.
I can't tell you enough or in the right words how sorry I am for the things that I've done. I wish I could take back the cheating, lying, and deception. You were supposed to be the people I loved more than anything, and I betrayed you and hurt you the worst that I could have. I wish I could be stronger at times when we're fighting to not egg it on and to be able to just apologize to you and make it stop. I love you, and I pray every night for us to get back the trust and love we once had. Please never forget that I love you more than anything, and you mean the world to me.
Im sorry for the trouble I caused...
Your Loving Friend (I Hope),
-Ifz (Suchi Ji & Ria Please Forgive Me)