Boli aankhein tere liye sandesa hai, haan hai
Jaagi aankhon ka bhi sapna milega
Koi khushiaane ka bhi andesha hai, haan hai" hearing the song play on the radio, I broke out of my thoughts and looked behind to see my mum giving me a 1000watts smile, her eyes lit up as if a kid was told that there is no school today. She walked towards me singing "Kuch toh huwa hai, kuch ho gaya hai, do char din se lagta hai jaise sab kuch alag hai, sab kuch naya hai" I was having difficulty understanding what she was hinting me.. it was quiet clear that everyone has noticed my changed behavior.As I was leaving to prepare breakfast she said " maa hoon teri, tere dil mein kya hai acchi tarah se samhaj ti hoon". I was still confused and I refused to accept what my heart was telling me.
I was already late, I rushed to see Aajii and ooopss bumped into the idiot, the day hasn't started if I don't see his pathetic face "Raghuuu! Kya - " he cut me off like usual.
Why are you screaming like I'm a ghost ?
No, you don't fit the definition of ghost, you are a monster ..
Me? Nahhh.. seriously your voice is that dangerous, poor birds..look they flew away.
Ughh, and you think your voice is like sonu nigaam??
NO, I think its better. You need to go to doctors and get your ears checked up. He winked and walked away.
See, what I mean, he just has to start a pointless argument and he always wins.. he has to be the last one to say something otherwise this could carry on forever.. he has nothing better to do than irritate me .. purposely.
The day went quick, yes, it wasn't exactly how I imagined it, but I'm used to it, hearing Raghu threaten someone, his rough language, always swearing and coming home every hour just to annoy me for no reason, but then also the day doesn't end if I don't see his face.. and hear him say "ayee Miss Kaul.. saal mein 365 days eydee banna zaruri hai kya?"
And even today, he grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to his chest " ayee Miss Kaul, sunn na, idhar dekh, Ek baat poochu? Nahi matlab.. mein kya.." I rolled eyes in amazement that he was asking for a permission and he was stammering like he was going to confess his love? "sala, tu bhi eydee hai" now it was his turn to be surprised hearing that but the truth is I don't even know how that language came out of my mouth.. but I was lost in his eyes as I couldn't think of anything else but the fact that he was so close to me, he has come closer many times but this was different, I wasn't the one that was pinned against a wall, he was. He wasn't holding my one arm tightly, he was holding both my hands and then pulled me from my waist, and put his arms around my neck.. wait.. what was happening? This time it was like he had every right to touch me like that? I know Raghu, he doesn't feel anything like that for me.. he like to irritate me and put me difficut situtations and thinks I'm a full on drama queen.. how can he? No, no.. what am I thinking, if Raghu could read mind he would totally said " eydee k dimag mein kya kachra bhara hai.." and I closed my eyes tightly and Raghu whispered in his husky voice "teri shaadi hone waali hai jo tu subha se itni muskura rahi hai, aur ab kya teri suhagrat hai jo tere gaal itne tomato jaise laal ho rahe hai?" I quickly opened my eyes wide, and my mouth I couldn't speak as to what I just heard.. oh god,.what the hell..before I could speak, he again interrupted " Ab aise ankhe fad k kya dekh rahi hai, dulha mein nahi hoon." What?! "pagal ho gaye ho tum? Dimag switch off hai kya? Accha hai tum mere dulhe nahi ho, kabhi hoge bhi nahi, mujhe toh apna rajkumar mil gaya hai."
Not sure, why I said that, did I just admit that I have found the guy of my dream.. yes, the guy with that sexy voice.. oh damnn why am I still here? I need to see if he sent me another letter today, he said he had something special to say. As I wondered back to reality, Raghu's expressions had changed.. he was in no mood to play cool, or pull my leg.. he had become serious..he told me to look into his eyes and repeat that she was in love with someone else. "toh kashimiri larki ko Mumbaiki hawa lag gayi huh" I don't understand why it mattered.. I tried to escape but I only got closer, he held me tight now, my head hit his broad hard chest, I could hear his heartbeat..i moaned "Raghu, it's late, let me go.." he broke the semi hug and pulled away.. he was in confusion as to what I just said, it's late for what? Late night or too late to be part of her life to be with her..
I run, although I didn't know what I was running from.. I got home and realised everyone was asleep.. I didn't want to think about what just happened there.. the thoughts of Raghu and his words are running wild on my mind, I know he didn't say it directly, that he somewhat is attracted to me but spending that 10 mins there with him was enough to give me a hint. The past few months, I have got used to him, I don't want things to get awkward and I remember everyone saying that I always talk about Raghu, like there is nothing else in my life but that's not true.. its not the same feeling as I feel for my mr.SuperNightstar.. thinking of that.. I found a heart shaped letter on my dressing table.. it was from him.. for a moment I forgot everything and remembered the moments with my Mr.SuperNightStar.. it started 2 months ago.. hearing his voice at night, I would sing as if we are communicating through music.. then we started sending small chits to eachother.. but not revealing any personal info..just normal conversation..like people do these days on socail sites.. and then these conversations got bigger, we tried to meet but it never worked out and today, this letter was going to be a surprise.. and its all ruined cos of that Raghu..nevermind.. I was waiting for that voice tonight but I didn't hear it.. there was no sound at all.. the silence was unusual.. the emptiness in the air. I decided to read the letter..it said to my sweetChilli.
Cricket
Bigg Boss 19
