Chapter 38
"misscal ab andar chal yaar nahi to shardi lag jayegi..." Raghu said looking towards antara who was playing on the lawn. All the way back to home there was light snowfall and antara was jumping, laughing and smiling like a child who was observing snow fall for first time. Even after coming back to home she was still running all over the lawn in so much excitement. "nahi jaungi!! Kitne dino baad snow fall dekh rahi hoon aur tum kahe raho ho andar jane ke liye... maine Mumbai mein kitna miss ki hain ye sab..." she answered in chirpy voice. "arey pure raste bhar to baraf main uchal kud karti rahi abhi bhi tera man naiii bhara?!" he asked in a bit irritation. But he was really enjoying her childish joy, her smile. he never saw her like that. So energetic and bubbly and her smile was just breathtaking, a smile in which anyone would be ready to give their life. "nahi bhara... mujhe abhi bhi bahar rahena hain... tumhe thand lag rahi hain to tum andar jaon... par mujhe abhi nahi jana.." she said with a stubborn voice. Raghu couldn't force her to move inside. In fact, he didn't want to break her happiness which she got after so long. She kicked on the snow and white flex spread on her. She giggled like child and a deep breath escaped from raghu's chest. she jumped and clapped with huge laughter. He stood there still looking at her with intense eyes. kitni sundar hain na... bilkul uss girti huyi barf ki tarah...' His inner voice spoke. Her giggles reflected in her ear. S**a raghunath ho kya raha hain tujhe?!...kyun itni achi lagti hain antara tujhe?...sirf aaj naii jab se tunee ussey paheeli baar deekha tha uss tute huye khirki ke andar...teeri to sanse ruk gayi thi uski ek jhalak dekh ke, aur aaj bhi wohich ho raha hain... Jab se ye larki tere life mein ghusa hain teri toh duniya ulat gayi hain re... paheele jo kuch bura lagta tha aaj wo sabkucch acha lagne laga hain...' his inner voice continued to speak and his smile widened looking at her childish play. In between her play antara's took a huge turn and she landed directly on raghu's chest. raghu's hand caught her waist to prevent her from falling and antara as usual caught his shirt. Her feature got slightly bend on his hand. Antara giggled like a child in his hand and raghu just continued to stare at her smiling face. his eyes were so intent. He wanted to say so many things but not a single word came out of his mouth. The rate of snowfall increased and fell on them making the moment more blissful. Raghu didn't want to end the moment. He wished badly to stay atthat moment forever. Antara stopped giggling and looked at raghu. The glow in her eyes and her innocent huge smile caused him to smile back at her. "ho gaya?! Man bhar gaya tera?!" he asked with such a concerned voice. "haan!!..." she answered back widening her smile. He pulled her up and made her stood on her own feet. Both smiled towards each other like children. The snow fall rate was increasing antara looked worriedly towards that sky. "lagta hain tufan anew ala hain... chalo andar chalet hain..." she asked. "hmmm...!!!" raghu answered in unconscious voice he was still froze at that posture, keeping his intense eyes on her. "raghu?!!" antara asked confusedly. "kya?!!" he asked still in unconscious voice. "andar nahi jana... kuch der pahele to tum andar jane ke liye kahe rahe the..." antara said. The words caused him to come back at reality. "haan chal..." he said in a bit sad voice. He was really enjoying the moment. "raghu tum mujhe choro to pahele!" she said in confusion. He forgot that he was still holding her tightly in his arms and that's also so close to him. if there was any other girl rather than antara she would surely doubt that something was wrong with him. antara's heart was not twisted like others. So she could trust him completely. Slowly raghu took back his hand. She didn't even noticed that how reluctant he was to take back his hand from her. his hand brushed on her waist lightly. Antara could feel a slight shiver by that touch but it didn't waited for long. Antara rushed to the home but after some moment she felt odd and stopped midway. She looked back and saw that raghu was standing at that same point. He didn't moved a single inch from that place. Antara was hell confused. She rushed back to him. "tum abhi bhi yahan khare ho?! Kya soch rahe ho yahan khare khare?!" she asked. "hnnn!!... naii kuch naii.." he said in a startled voice. Antara nodded her head in disappointment and suddenly she caught his hand and dragged him along with her. she started to run and raghu followed her like possessed, keeping his eyes glued on her. antara went inside the room dragging raghu along with her and closed the door quickly. The weather had become chilly and before closing the door a gust of wind went inside shaking them all over. Antara left raghu's hand and turned to him. "uff!! What a day. I am so tired!!" antara said normally. She was so startled when she didn't get any response from raghu. she looked at him with questioning eyes. He was looking at heer with silent unreadable gaze. "raghu?!!" antara asked in more confusion. "haan bol.." he said like he just got out of trance. "ho kya gaya hain tumhe?! Kab se dekh raha hoon ajib sa behave kar rahe ho... thik se baat bhi nahi kar rahe ho.. ho kya gaya hain tumhe?!" she asked in so much confused. "arey naii wooo..." he scratched his head as usual trying to find some suitable answer. "kahin tumne..." antara came a bit close to him, "fir se drink to nahi ki hain?!" she asked narrowing her eyes. "arey naii yaar... tere ko kya lagta hain apun har time bubbly aunty mar ke lurkta raheta hain.. dekh mere se baas aa rahi hain kya?!" he asked in an irritating voice. "areyy nahi aisi baa"t nahi hain... mera wo matlab nahi tha.. par generally main tumhe itna chup chap rehete nahi dekha.. kya baat hain?!.. koi problem hain kya?" she asked in concerned voice. "naiii kuch naiii..." he said in a slight dazed voice. He was feeling confused about what to tell her or not. He wanted to tell how much intense feeling he had started to have for her. He almost knew what that was actually. Only just a little confusion! Just like the door is covered by a transparent veil and if he could remove the veil everything would be clear. But would he tell her about those things to her. well something was prohibiting him. for the first time he was feeling hesitation to tell something. "achha choro ab..." antara said, "suno mujhe bahut tired feel ho rahi hain... tum bhi thak gaye hongey... main apni kamre mein jaa rahi hoon... good night!!" she said in a really tired voice. Raghu just nodded his head. Antara looked at him with a frown. He was behaving so odd since evening. God knows what happened to him. However, as she was hell tired she went upwards. Raghu's intense gaze followed her till she got vanished at the turn.
As soon as antara came inside her mobile vibrated. She picked the phone. "hello uncle, what's the news?" she asked. Uncle told something from other side and antara became shocked, "what?! You got nothing?" she was shocked. "yup to our information, the military of Kashmir defense, did an operation on the secret room behind that handloom shop today but to our misfortune, they had already cleared everything. But they also left some clues behind. They got some part of ammunitions and gadgets which are really coastly and rare in our country. And also we got a box full of gum powder. But all real things were vanished." He informed. "ohh god!!" antara said. "don't be. It's just the first chance and they escaped. Antara you have to be more careful from now on. Any other news?!" he asked. antara informed about the triangle of i.g, c.s and n.s.b. "strange!! I don't know about such kind of place where that kind of triangle exists!!" he said. "neither me uncle. It means something else. It's becoming so complicated time by time." She said. "hmm... okk antara, I have to go now. Bye.." uncle said. Antara cutr the phone and crushed on the bed due to tiredness. She didn't even think to change the dress. The code, triangle, aman's mysterious disappearance from the room, everything jumbled up in her mind. She didn't find any way to open the jumbled strings.
It seemed like the night was full of restlessness and anticipation. The weather was mad and heavy snowfall was taking place. Antara was restless thinking about the unsolved complicated puzzle and raghu, it seemed like a huge storm was going inside him which was furious than the storm outside. When antara left the living room raghu was standing there for a long time. His eyes were still fixed on the stair. After some moment, he slowly moved his feet towards the stairs. He moved like he was not in himself. Like some power was causing him to move. The sound of antara's giggle was still sounding in his ear. It was the sweetest sound on the earth to him at that moment. Raghu entered in his room when suddenly something tipped on his feet. He bend down and saw the thing. It was none other than a small diary. Antara's diary!! That diary which she always carried with her, in which she always used to write something whenever she got some time, her precious diary. Raghu put up the diary in her hand. How did it come here?! He sat on the bed taking that with him. At first he was hesitating but curiosity killed him and he couldn't afford to flip the first page. At a very first page, her name was written in a very elegant and beautiful handwriting, which was no doubt antara's own writing. He continued to look at her name. Even the diary also held her scent. Each and everything belonged to her seemed so precious to him. He flipped the next page. The diary was full with beautiful poems and sayaris. It actually amused him. he saw a huge collection of sayaris in her book self but she herself could had the quality, he never thought. Some of them were written in engllish and some of them were in hindi. Each and every poem was dedicated to the special person of her life. Her pappa, momma, ishan, her friends, he even saw a poem dedicated to the couple ayan and rachna. He smiled heavily. He couldn't read that as it was in English. At the end of each and every poem and sayari there were some line written. Each and every word described about her beautiful mind, her innocent and pure heart, her ability to make beautiful even a ugly thing with her words and beautiful thoughts, everything about that girl was mesmerizing. Each ad everyday her new qualities were evolving to him and he couldn't stop himself to get attracted towards her more and more. The last sayari got into his view and when he saw the name of the person to whom she dedicated that sayari, his eyes became stunned. Fortunately it was written in hindi. He slowly read the lines.
"Suraj Se Thori Si Roshni Mangi
To Usne Jahan Ko roshan kar diya
Chand Pal Ki Khusiya Mangi Thi
Par Aap Ne To Zindagi Ka Tohfa De Diya"
"maine kabhi socha bhi nahi tha ki kabhi iss diary mein uska bhi naam hoga. Nahi kabhi maine ye socha ki kabhi main usey bhi ek kavita dedicate karoongi. Papa sach kahete the, life kis taraf more leta hain ye koi nahi kahe sakta. Nahi to jis insaan se main itni lararti thi aaj woo mere zindiagi ka sabse special friend hain. Raghu!! sachmein pagal larka hain. pata nahi kab kya karta hain koi nahi kahe sakta. par wo hi ek aisa insaan hain jiske samne I can always be on myself. Mujhe hasi ayein to main bina kisi pareshani ke uske saam ne has deti hoon... rona ata hain to wo bas ek hi insaan hain jiske saamne main bina kisi jhijak ke, bina kisi sharam ke asoon baha sakti hoon... mujhe pata bhi nahi chala kab usne mujhe wapas wohi photo frame wali antara bana diya, jis se zindagi se bahut pyar tha. Main sachmein bahut lucky hoon ki mujhe uske jaisa ek dost mila hain. aaj raghu baar baar mujhse puch raha tha ki maine shivji se kya manga! Maine actually shivji se kuch manga hi nahi! Balki maine to unhe thank you kaha kyunki unhone mujhe raghu jaisa ek dost diya. Sachmein, bhagwan ka bheja huya farsihta jaisa hi hain wo. Main to jaise andhere gufa ke taraf bar rahi thi, jahan na roashni hain, na zindagi, sirf maut! lekin usne mujhe zabardasti wapas khichke roashni ke taraf le aya. Itni roashni ki kabhi kabhi dar lagta hain ki wapas andhera na ho jayein. Kabhi kabhi main sochti hoon ki wo kyun karta hain ye sab mere liye?! Kaun hoon main uska?! Sirf ek dost, aur to koi nahi! Par fir dil se ek awaz ati hain, kisi ka care karne ke liye, bhala karne ke liye reason nahi chahiye, bas ek dil chahiye jo dusre ke dard ko samajhta hain. main kabhi nahi soch sakti thi ki main kabhi ye baat kahungi but at last, thank you raghu, ki tum mere life mein ayein! Mujhe pata nahi humara sath kitne door tak hain.. par main apni akhri saans tak iss safar ko nahi bhool paungi..."
His eyes get almost moist while reading those lines. When did she write those things yesterday? Might be when she was with ayan or after that. Damn it! why did he get drunk yesterday. No doubt that she was that much hurt. Raghu caressed on the words on the place. It was not just some mere words but so precious for him. He could feel her at each and every word, each and every letter. His eyes were full of joy and a glint of moisture also there. a bright smile was playing at his face. he lifted the diary and suddenly kissed on the page. The veil was removed at last. He could clearly see the light. "kya kar diya tune miscall?! Mere ko gunda keheti hain.. par tu to chorni hain.. mera sab kuch loot kar le gayi...!!" he laughed gently and closed his eyes. From the very first day, everything flashed on his mind. when he first time saw her through that broken glass window and how his breath got hitched at her first glance, when he returned her bat through the same window and how he couldn't look away from her eyes, while she was crying on the pavement on that night and when her dupatta fell on his face and he felt like a chill air touched him and soothed his all pain, while after driving her away from basti, he had gone to search for him on that rainy night and suddenly out of the blue she bumped into him, standing so close to each other in that inadvertent shower and her fearful hazels making his heart bit frantically and that night on garage when situation forced them to come so close, while he lifted her in his arm and couldn't afford to adore her innocent sleeping face, everything hit him like the wave. Everything was so clear indication but he was so dumb to understand that. "misscal!!" he uttered slowly, "tu yahin soch ti hain na ki apun kyun teri itni parwa karta hain? kyun tere piche bhagta hain. apun ke pass koi jawab nahi tha.. kyun ki s**a aaj tak apun ke khopri mein kuch nahi ghusre la tha... par aaj ja ke dimag ki batti jal gayi..." he paused for a while and took out the mouthorgan. He smiled looking at that MO and said, "KYUN KI RAGHUNATH NAIK KO PYAR HO GAYA HAIN... TERE SE PYAR HO GAYA HAIN!!...Bole To I Love You ANTARA KAUL!!" he felt her name melting in the beat of his frantic heart and he closed his eyes feeling the excitement spreading all over his nerves.
precap: "ajji problem ye hain ki antara mujhe pasand to karti hain.. par wo sirf ek dost ki mafik. Uske dil mein apun ke liye aisa koi feeling hain hi naii!! arey ajji uss ko to yee bhi naii lagta ki apun kabhi uss se pyar kar sakta haain! To ab apun usey bataye bhi to kaise?! Aap jaan ti ho yeri hain... agar gusse mein kuch ulta sidha kar diya too?!" raghu asked in a worried voice. "arey mere gobar ki factory chintu!!.." ajji said loudly from other side, "ek baat bata mere ko.. uske dil mein tere liye pyar mohabbat wala aheshas ayega bhi kaise?! Tune kabhi bhi ussey jata ne ki koushis ki? Wo to chor hi de... ek din bata jisdin tune uske sath jhagra nahi kiya?!" ajji asked. "ajji sochne de yaar... last month ko... nahi ussey pahele..." raghu scratched his head. "tu apna sar khuchata rahein.. budha ho jayega fir bhi tujhe yaad nahi ayega.. kyun ki aisa koi din tha hi nahi..." ajji said.
ps: lol guyzz... ek aur emotional atyachar of long chapter... sorry again.. mujhe pata bhi nahi maine kya likha hain.. chapter ka halwa bana diyaš... now sab chappal maro.. i am here
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