Chapter 23
"hey antara what was that guys name... ummm... yeah raghu right?" shivani asked looking at antara antaara didn't know why but she felt goose bumps allover when shivani took raghu's name. even her heart skipped a bit in his name. she quickly shook her head to remove the feeling away. "tell me one thing yaar, why he was looking towards you like a romeo?!" shivani said all of a sudden. Blood rushed on antara's chicks. "shut up shivani, it's nothing like that." Antara said in quite loud voice. "no way miss antara kaul. I am not that dumb you all think of me. The way you both were looking towards each other, it was clear that something was cooking between you two. Hey do you know each other?!" she asked in an excited voice. antara sighed and told her everything in brief. "what?! You live in his basti!! Also he is your neighbor. How romantic yaar!" shivani's eyes became dreamy. "shivani stop it yaar. Didn't you listen what I had told just a moment ago? We hate each other shivani. There is nothing in between us rather than that!!" antara said more loudly. "uhhhonnn..." shivani shook her head in denial. "it was not hatred antara. it was not that. May be you were afraid of him for what he is. But you didn't saw what I saw back there. He was just lost looking at you!! It seemed like, he forgot the world. Antara I was wondering, if that guy raghu... don't you think he is interested on you?!" shivani said. antara rolled her eyes. "hey don't look at me like that. I just told what I felt. But the thing I saw and listened from you, I am having strong feeling that he has something for you in his heart and that's also something so strong!" shivani wondered. Antara didn't said a single word. Shivani's word was really making her uncomfortable. It seemed like she could clearly detect her own confusion regarding to raghu. "but one thing is sure yaar... that raghu... he is really damn hot yaar!!..." shivani said with a smirk. "huh!!!.." antara almost made an O face. "what else yaar?! He is irresistible no doubt and sexy on his own way! come on yaar it's a fact. He is thousand times appealing than that monkey Adi!! God if he looked at me rather than you with that look, I am sure I would faint at that spot. I don't know antara how u managed to stand there and get out of the place avoiding him." shivani said with a huge grin. "God shivani!!" antara giggled, "it seemed like you have gone head over heels for him. if you want I can introduce you both to each other." Antara said with a mischievous grin. "Leave it yaar. I already understood that I have no chance here. Someone else had captured his heart already." Shivani gave an indicating smirk to antara. "shivani... u people na..." antara sighed. "I don't know how can you all easily fall for anyone within a second. Did you forget that who actually he is? Shivai he is a gangster, a criminal! Didn't you see how mercilessly he killed that guy?! Still you are saying that..." Antara couldn't say further. The scene was still roaming in her vision and making her shiver. God knows why her path collided with her?! what was destiny planning for her. She let out a big sigh. "And that's the problem right?! You can't accept a gangster and criminal in your life. I know you very well." Shivani said with a small smile. antara sighed. She knew shivani was super observant in those facts. "please shivani I don't want to talk about that matter. You don't know how much complications are there." antara said in sad voice. "okk okk yaar! But give me answer of a last question. After that I won't say anything about that matter. Just tell me one thing antara. if raghu was not a criminal then would you accept him?!" shivani asked all of a sudden. Antara's feature stiffened suddenly. She looked towards shivani with unreadable gaze. "hey what happened?!" shivani became confused. "I don't know shivani! I really don't know..." antara sighed and looked away. She didn't know why she was feeling like crying out her heart. she knew that she could never accept a guy like raghu in her life. But why did the thought pinched her heart like hell always? She almost bit her lips to hide her tears. "shivani, your bus is about to leave. You will be late.." antara said slowly. "ohh yeah... bye cuty pie!!! Take care and keep smiling." Shivani gave her an warm side hug with her cheerful grin and rushed towards the bus stop. Antara smiled to her. she always brought smile to her face in every situation. She felt quite light. With a big sigh she started to walk towards auto stand. She was walking on her own pace when suddenly a jeep came and stood in front of her. antara became startled and looked at front. Blood dropped from her face as she saw the face of jeep's driver. She stood there numb fixing her fearful gaze to her most bizarre nightmare of those days.
Raghu fixed his still gaze on antara's face standing at the middle of road. He observed how her face's color changed when she saw him. The fear flashed in her eyes hurt him again. He hated that whenever she looked at him with that fear in his eyes. he wandered when he would be able to see that warm smile of her. she badly wanted that old antara back who seemed lost somewhere. Keeping his gaze fixed towards her frozen face, raghu jumped down from the driving seat of jeep. He came near her with slow pace keeping his gaze intact with her. When he stood in front of her, her expression hardened again. shifting her gaze from his black orbs antara moved at side to step forward in her way, but raghu again come in front of her blocking her way. Antara glared at raghu's unreadable expression. His hard eyes were silently observing her. she again moved to other side to avoid her but again same thing happened and she found him in front. She couldn't control herself anymore. "kya hain?! mera rasta kyun rok rahe ho?! Rasta choro aur jane do mujhe" antara said in a firm voice shooting an angry gaze towards raghu. "kyunki ti jidhar ja rahi hain woo sahi rasta naii hain..." raghu answered her back coolly. "huh!! Mujhe pata hain ki mere ghar ka rasta kis traf hain.. tumhe yaad dilane ki koi zarurat nahi..." she bypassed him and moved at his back. "puri baat to sunti jaaa..."raghu moved backward and said looking at her. antara's feet resisted. "udhar ke raste mein bahut bara locha chal raha hain... tires jal rahe hain... zor ka hungama laga huya hain..." raghu said. antara turned back and looked to him with a frown. Raghu continued to say, "sirf udhar hi nahi... basti tak jane wale har raste mein garbar hain... koi gari nahi milega aaj udhar jane ke liye... road block ho chukka hain... iss liye kahe raha hoon.. jeep mein ajja.. apun tere ko ghar sahi se chor dega!" he explained at last. "sahi se ghar chor doge mujhe aur woo bhi tum?!" her voice became mockery. "do you think I am dumb?! Mujhe achi tarah se pata hain ki ye sab tumne aur tumhare loho ne kiya hain... aur tum kahe raho ho ki main uss insaan ke sath mahefoos rahongi jo in sare fasad ki jar hain..." her voice raised again. "bilkul sahi pakra tune..." he answered back without messing a bit, "sahi kahe rahi hain tu... kyunki udhar jo kuch chal raha hain na.. ussey koi bhi naaii rok sakta... Woo s**e kutte police ke pure fauj utar jayein to bhi naii... ye baat dimag mein baitha le..." a smirk spread on his lips, "par agar apun ke sath jayegi to pure sau taka gurantee ke sath ek piece mein basti pauch jayegi... sahi salamat!!" he said the last two words emphasizing. Antara gauged raghu's expression for a while. Raghu opened the front seat of the jeep gesturing her, "chal ajaa.." he said with so much authority that it amused her a bit. Her gaze moved from his head to toe trying to detect what he was up to then. at last she looked straight in his eyes with same hard gaze. "tumhe abhitak samajh nahi ayya?!! Itni baat kahe chukka hoon... jata rahi hoon... Itne bewalkoof to nahin lagte jo samajh nahi pate.." she said in firm voice. raghu just contuned to listen to her words with a small smirk intact to his lips. "maine baar baar kaha hain tumse ki mujhe tumse door rahena hain... tumhaari koi bhi madad, koi ahesaan nahi chahiye mujhe... fir bhi baar baar mere saam ne aa ke kharee ho jate ho... kyun?!... akhir tum kab maanoge ki ab humare beach kucch nahi raaha... jot ha sab khatam ho chukka hain... ab mere dil mein tumhare liye bas naafrat hain... aur kuch naahi.." she said in firm voice looking at him. she became startled that he was still standing there with that smirk in his face. it seemed like her words didn't affected him anyhow. "nafrat hnn?!!" he frowned a bit. "agar itna hi nafrat hain to kaal raat ko mujhe aise ghoor ghoor ke apne balcony se kyun dekh rahi thi hnnn?!! Tu kya aise nafrat jata ti hain logo ko?!" he asked increasing his smirk. antara's eyes widened in shock and she quickly lowered her gaze to hide the awkwardness in her eyes. god! Why she was gazing him last night while he was taking shower?! She wanted to slap herself for her stupid act. "nahi tum galat ho... main tumhe nahi dekh rahi thi... main to balcony mei hawa kha rahi thi.." she knew it sounded stupid but she couldn't found any other excuse. She heard his quite chuckle which he surely did to hide his laughter. "misscall... tu job hi kahe... apun jaanta hain ki abhi bhi kuch hain... woo antara abhi bhi zinda hain jisne bina kisi hichak k apun ke jaise ek anjaan, ajnabi ko apna dost maan liya tha... mere ko abhi bhi uss antara ki jhalak dikhayi deta hain teri akhon mein... Aur teri zuban jitna bhi jhoot bol le... teri akhein kabhi jhoot nahi bol pati..." his words shivered down her spine. What was he talking about?! No way. she couldn't let him know that she still had a soft corner for him in his heart. if he would come to know, he would again use her just like before. No!! he couldn't let him know that. She gathered all her courage to look back at him. "waham hain ye tumhara. Aisa kuch bhi nahi hain... main ye bhool gayi hoon ki kabhi maine tumhe apna dost mana tha... kyun ki wo sab ekk jhoot ke buniyad mein khara tha... main usi din sab bhool gayi jab mujhe tumhari asliyat pata chali." She retorted back with so much force. "acha?!!" his frown increased. Still there was no sign of anger in his face. he came a bit closer to her. she had started to feel tensed by his odd behavior. "sab bhool gayi tu?! To ek saak baad jab fir se apun log mile to tu jhatak se mere ko pahechan kaise gayi hnn?!!" he asked leaning abit closer to her. she almost gulped looking away from his deep black eyes. his eyes always used to make her weak. She couldn't hold her courage while she looked inside those black orbs. "tujhe kya lagta hain?! mere ko kuch samajh mein nahi ataa?!" he said leaning more closely. Antara steped back and looked away with hard face, "tera jo ye akar, ye gussa, sab banawati hain... jooth hain... tera juban kuch keheti hain aur teri ankhein kuch aur..." He uttered slowly making her shiver badly. Would she ever be able to hide anything from him? How easily he could read her! She looked back to his face with so much effort. His closeness and breathe again making her heartbeat uneven. It took a great effort for her to retort back looking at his deep intense eyes. "iss liye na.. teri ye nautanki bandh kar aur sidhe sidhe mere sath chal... aise chupake kya fayda hoga tere ko?! Kaun si award milegi.. teri akhein saaf saaf kahe deti hain kit u kuch bhi naii bhooli.." he again said with same confident voice. She sighed and moved back hiding her face. she couldn't be able to say those words facing him. "to mat dekho meri akhon mein... akhein humesha galat ishara dete hain.. acha hain ki mat dekho.." she said with slow voice. he chuckled again. "yahich to nahin hota... s**a uss pahele din se... jab se tujhe dekha tha... teri akhein bilkul chumbak ke magik khichta hain apun ko... jab bhi dekhta hoon... pata naii kya ho jata hain... jhatka lag jata hain jaise..." he ran down his fingers through his hairs with a huge grin. He could feel his heartbeat increasing while saying those words to her. like he was confessing something to her. antara suddenly shot back to him with steal hard gaze startling raghu. "acha!!?? agar meri akhon se tumhe itni problem hain to ek kaam karo... uss din jaise uss servant ke tara meri bhi akein for dalo!!! Tab to tumhe koi problem nahi hogi naaa??" she asked in mockery. In a fraction of second antara saw raghu's feature froze and then suddenly a huge fury appeared in his eyes and face. his whole feature almost shook in some huge anger. Antara suddenly sensed the air was not good. She shouldn't tell those words. But ut was all ready too late. "ANTARA!!!!" his dangerous loud tone escaped from his mouth shaking her all over. Her eyes widened in fear as she never experienced his rage like that before. In a flash he pinned her wrists with so much force with the body of jeep that antara almost winced in pain. It really had become too late. She could feel the anger, rage, fury emanating from his body which was pressing harder on her. She almost started to shake under him. she closed her eyes as she was unable to look to his hard face. his angry hurt eyes moved closer to her. "bas ab bahut bol liya tune..." his dangerous voice made the cold wave to run down her spine and she felt numb. He moved closer closing the distance between them and antara felt that his hard frame was almost about to crush her delicate feature. She winced in pain as his hand pressed her wrists roughly on the metallic body of jeep. "janwar kaheti hain na mere ko?!!" he asked in that same dangerous tone. She didn't dared to ans him or look at him opening her eyes. "to iss janwar ko mat jagah... kyun ki agar ye jag gaya naa... To tu achi tarah se jaan ti hain ki kya ho sakta hain..." his warning full voice made her dizzy. She was feeling so much powerless and weak on her knees. If that continued for another sec she would surely collapse on ground. seeing her pale face raghu loosened her grip a bit. He started to feel bad for threatening her like that. He saw her condition that how badly she was shaking under his hold. He distanced himself a bit from her feature letting her take some breaths. Still her wrist was kept on his firm hold. "ab tu sidhe sidhe jeep ke andar jayegi ya fir iss bhare bazaar mein apun tere ko utha ke le jayein?!... bolt u kya chahti hain?!!" still that warning was intact in his voice. antara opened her eyes and looked to the ground. She still didn't gain courage to look at his face. raghu left her wrists and antara made herself stand properly on the ground supporting the jeep. She was taking heavy breaths. Her heartbeat didn't come to normal yet. Giving her a hard gaze raghu moved towards the driving seat waiting for her. antara closed her eyes and composed herself with a deep breath. She slowly moved inside the jeep without looking at him for a single moment. She slowly put her seatbelt on. Raghu gave her a silent concerned look. She was looking at the road with blank face. He was feeling guilty and as well as worried. Did he hurt her much? Raghu slowly started the engine and the jeep moved towards the road.
ps: well i actually don't know what i have pened down.😕... i never tried something like that...
hope it makes sense to you...
Shiv Shakti
