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Hey Folks,
was wondering about this and wanted to make a post reg that , hope i dont make any one go to sleep though :))
accidents , what Sandhya - Suraj, lost and gained from that ...
How with the first bomb blast Sandhya had not only her parents, but came face to face with issues as she was stepping out of her comfortzone , loosing her confidence, trying desperately to hold on to her dream , yet couldnt stop herself from getting married ...
Married into a house which is so contrasting from the world she grown up , shocked to see how every one can be so back ward with thinking and how things are being so manipulated... She held her ground in some issues protested over them and had taken punishment for that too, yet she did what she believed in ...she always had respect and showed that when she was putting herside with out being rude .
Married to a guy whom she thinks she could tell about her just thinking about that and not seeing the other sides of issues, when hard reality hit her that he is not educated much she closed all doors of her dreams, locked herself in a closed box and threw the keys in a ocean . so hated the fact that she had been deceived it effected her thinking reg suraj too ... she never told him truth reg anything about her life as she felt its worthless she never opened up to him , but had no idea it would change her world upside down .
Compromised to this life , never letting anyone know about her education and dreams, when it came out she tried talking but was humiliated badly for a crime she didnot commit, ...she could have walked out of it , yet she choose not to due to traditions and all ... that doesnt make her weak ...
Since all her life she had taken challenges and won them be it with studies and being strong, she took the challenge of bhaboo to prove herself a good bindani, in doing so she tried educating ppl about things while making progress and winning hearts and respect from outsiders. she never stood for herself which is not a weak thing, weak is one who would never do anything in life, atleast she tries to make things better for others a happiness ... there is a saying , not quoting exactly words but it goes like , in some ppl their good nature and good intentions arent noticed and respected by house hold members but they get immense respect and love from outsides as they bring a change in their lifes , and for family they are just a means of taunting and useless ones ...
Her relation with her husband was more of friendship with secretes , support and nothing else , she took him for granted nothing wrong but atleast should have told him some secrets of her mostly as he was not a challenge to her... when asked by him if she want a outing from this relation she denied , yet poured her heart out to him saying she had enough of adjusting yet is blamed for things which she havent done
When her support system decides to let her go free by hurting in a manner even he wouldnt dream only to make it look its him and not her who is wrong , she never really understand that and their relation ...
when finally after a long ordeal , when the feeling sinked into her that he indeed is freeing her , she realized she was sacred of loosing him and expressed herself .. right after second accident
Whats the difference in past and present ?
she is trying to unlock her self from the box, she realized though she had compromised to this marriage and was unhappy she never wanted a outing from it , she lost her mother in accident and if not fully found a mother in MIL , started loving her relation l as she herself said its a new beginning , ... she is respected at home too ..
WIll she let go of her dream ?
Not really, more or less she is still holding on to it , though she never express that, she better express it ...
Will Do Suraj later
Hope i made sense đ
Love
J
Cricket
Anupamaa
