Why is it so hard to let go - almost impossible!!

Sandhya ji,

Why is it so hard to let go - almost impossible!!

"Distance never separates two hearts that really care, for our memories span the miles and in seconds we are there. But whenever I start feeling sad coz I miss you I remind myself how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss"

I can now sense that it won't be long till your patience and perseverance finally will give way. The day will soon come when you will stand tall and rise like a true blue valiant knight questioning me of the painful experiences and the hurtful words I have been showering on you - for which I will no answers to.

You shall turn you back on me and walk out through that door to all the happiness awaiting you outside my world ... my world that only gave you suffering and miseries ... and I will be left all alone in my world ... barely breathing ... choking on tears watching like a spectator at my life walk away from me. No matter how hard I try to prepare myself for this moment, it just seems to get harder as days pass by.

I can never be strong enough to say goodbye not in a lifetime ... it kills me like someone has stuck a knife through my heart ... my heart bleeds for you ... my heart breaks for you ... my heart beats for you ... my heart hurts for you.

I can already feel my world crumble beneath my feet, my lips quivering, my body trembling, and tears well up just by the mention of not having to see your beautiful face anymore, not having to see your pearly whites anymore and having my empty room to myself without your presence ... I am going to be hollow and unfinished for the rest of my life!!

But I shall finish of this day by saying ... that I shall always pray that the sun (Suraj) never sets on your horizon ... the sun always shining and melting away all the coldness around you. And I shall take all of that and more coldness the sunset (Sanjh / Sandhya) brings with it as the sun may never rise on my horizon ever again after you leave.

Suraj

PS: guess this is my last piece of writing on Suraj