Originally posted by: chown001
i dont knw how to say what i want to but here go's
When ridz and sid first met, they were both in pain. The people they had loved most in the world had betrayed them and when they looked at each other they saw themselves, they saw a like soul and hated each other for it because they hated themselves at the time. This is bacause they could not hate the people they loved and hence blamed themselves for the heart break. Constantly questioning them selves about why they fell and love and whether or not they even deserved love. What if they were not good enough and thats why ammy/tam left them. At the airport all wounds were fresh and both of them lashed out at the people they saw as a subconcious reflection of themselves, consequently each time they saw each other their wounds became fresh and so they thought of more cruel and sadistic ways to hurt each other and in turn hurt themselves. Even then they had a connection not one of love but one of pain.
Later each came to regret all they had done because they realised the other person is not them, especially sid who realised sooner that ridz is not him and hence he has no right to hurt her. (it is strange that even then they asserted the right to hurt each other even though they were strangers). He helped her later in her search for armaan because he believed that if ridz gets her love than it is the same as him getting his love because they are one and the same despite their obvious differences.
Sid saved ridz so many times in panchangini, not as a friend or enemy but as a shadow, a part of her. her healing was equal to him healing. He saved her so many times because by saving her he was saving himself.
When ridz almost died of hypothermia sid was angry at ammy because he had seen him walking away. Up till that point he was willing to do anything to get them together after that though he changed. After that he was willing to sacrifice himself to ensure she not only survived but lived as well, because like for me dats when AR died. If my ex did that even if i didn't get married i would never get back with him either. Ammy drove sid and ridz together therefore he gave up his rights on her at that point. He can't come back to exert his rights now. He forfeighted them a long time back
When he proposed to her, he did not only to save her izzat (after everything that happened she know longer had the strength to fight the world, she was far to vulnerable after all she had seen the love of her life walkign away and leaving her to die) but becasue he recognised her vulnerability, saw it in himself. This is why he wanted to marry her because he saw what most of us couldn't, he saw that they can heal each other with peices of each others hearts, no matter how long it takes or how much work is required ho was willing to do it.
By accepting she was saying she was to, but she wasn't.
When she tried to commit suicide he saved her again, he made her his then because after that her life was never totally hers. He'd given her new life by giving her peices of his own heart. his heart was broken and his beliefs confirmed. He did not deserve love. his anger at himself meant he tortured her becasue she was part of himself. By hurting her he was hurting himself.
During the start of their marriage it was ridz turn to help him by giving him peices of her heart bit by bit. By the time ammy came back ridz and sid were already a part of each other. They had each supported the other in their darkest times and their bond was such that it could not be broken. They were new people not those they were before marriage. they now belonged to each other and the connection they shared was above love and above every other bond.
They had met when both their soles were dying and together, through all the apin and torture they had bestowed upon each other they had survived and their soles had been reborn.
So how can you throw a connection like that away, that too for an ex who had left you to die without turing back once. This is not the first time either, how many times hav AR seperated and gotten back togther? what happens the next time ammy decides to leave 'for her good'. she will not be able to survive, she has gone to the extremes of her love now it is time for her, like us to move on.
MARRIAGE IS NOT EASY, THERE ARE HARD TIMES AND EASY TIME, GOOD TIMES, AND BAD. THE IMPORTANT THING IS TO SEE THROUGH THEM TOGETHER AND WORK AT IT, NO MARRIAGE IS PERFECT AND WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES, WE SHOULD LEARN FROM THEM AND MOVE ON LIKE BOTH SID AND RIDZ HAVE DONE BECAUSE BOTH WERE TO BLAME FOR THE ROCKY START TO THEIR MARRIAGE, SO NOW WHEN THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT WORK Y ARE WE CONDEMMING THEM.
I am glad ridz is staying with sid becasue it is what i would have done, despite all the pain and torture, bacause through there marriage they have both matured and grown together. Sid has never left her hand even when the going got tough. I bless them both
I love AR but mrs modi is not barket and now can never be
Life is baout moving forward which she has done now it's armaans turn.
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