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kuch pata nahi chalta mera. 1 pal thora sa normal or dosre he pal itna sad ke rone ko man karta hai..

4 months se kisi tarhan khud ko rok raha hoon bohot zeyada sad hone se.. dekhta hoon kab tak ye koshish kamyaab hoti hai meri..

jen or feb to eyes bheegi he rehti thin. march ke baad thori koshish ki, par kab tak...

2 din se sahi tarhan leta bhe na ja raha. bed pe jata hoon rest karne or pain start ho jata hai chest me. or ye signal hai is cheez ka meri band bajne wali hai phir inactive hona parega .

logon ka dil toot jaye to dard hota hai, mujhe andar wala dard or bahir wala dono he jeene nahi dete,

age kya hai meri abhe or main heart patient bana hova hoon 5 years se..

smoking start karni paregi abhe 2 months ke baad. mujhe tab tak mehnat karni hai jab tak mar na jaon,

jab zindagi khubsurat ho to os ko enjoy karo,

lekin jab kuch matlabi log Ap ki life ke ye halat kar dain to jeene ka koi matlab he nahi rehta.

eysi zindagi saza ban jati hai. jab har sans ke sath Ap ko feel ho pain to phir marna he theek hota hai becoz or koi option he nahi hoti,

kuch sar phire log a kar kehte hain ke try karo, lol ho kon ? jab kuch nahi pata to mu band rakho na :P

mera kya kasoor hai is main, jab try ki to mujhe kaha geya noo tum nahi jaoge. tumhain kabhe aj ke baad sad ho ke sona bhe nahi parega, or kisi ne eysa kiya bhe, kiyon ke sad ho kar sona kya mujhe nend he nahi ati,

kisi se os ki khushi cheen lo, os ko use karo, ullu banao, os ko khud ka bhe na rehne do, ye haal kar ke phenk do or phir kaho ke tum ab bhool jao. eysa to nahi hota na ,!

yaad atey ho to kuch bhe nahi karne dete,

Ap ki yehi baat bhot buri lagti hai mujhe

kya hoga os din jab yehi pain os insaan ko feel hova to.. jab eysa karoge to free me to Khuda nahi jane dega. kuch bhe kar lo. agar kisi ki ankhon me ansu doge to bhaag kar jao ge kahan. pakre to jaoge 1 din. socho os din kya hoga..

lekin hum phir bhe dua karte hain ke eysa din na dekhna pare kisi ko, main hoon na ye sab sehne keyliye :P

bahir jana chahiye.shayed dheyan idhar udhar ho jaye,

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yadon ki keemat wo kya jane jo kisi ko eyse he bhula dete hain,

yadon ka matlab to on se pucho jo yadon ke sahare jiya karte,

Gainesville FL.

is city se meri koi yaad nahi thi. na meri na kisi or ki. phir bhe aj sad ho geya main..

mujhe yakeen nahi tha ke yahan bhe kuch eysa mile ga jo mujhe sad kar dega.

ye mera city nahi to is waja se map use karna parta hai, kahin se wapis a raha tha or main ne map me dekha mere sath he *university of florida* hai.

main ne dekha or ignore kar diya, phir within 5 sec mujhe yaad aya ke OMG is ka naam suna tha kisi se..

phir yaad aya ke dec 2015 me jab kisi ne mujhe use kar ke phenka tha to os ne apna plan share kiya tha ke os ko is university me jana hai or kisi ke sath wahan 1 sath ....

mujhe laga shayed mujhe galti lag rahi hai.. phir wahan he side pe ruk geya main , or jaldi se dec 2015 ki yadon me ja kar check kiya to yesss. wohi bola geya tha or uni bhe yehi thi.

i dont know kisi ka ye plan pura hova ya nahi, wo kahan hai mujhe kuch nahi maloom. lekin mujhe sad kar diya is university ne. wo baat yaad karwa di jo mujhe bohot sad karti hai...

main pehle bhe to yahan a chuka hoon. i dont know kese lekin main ne kabhe dheyan he nahi diya tha is baat pe. aj bus eyse he map open tha or main os uni ke 1 dam paas se guzar raha tha to dekha eysa..

kiyon karte ho mere dil par itna sitam,

yaad karte nahi to yaad atey kiyon ho,